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You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.98Please respect copyright.PENANAIemcpczkpS
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.98Please respect copyright.PENANA0DWaeZNLzk
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.98Please respect copyright.PENANAAuACFHVh7U
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAnnWdmi2pMv
"I just want to go home," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAImQxsTluQ4
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANA8UvAzIIYpn
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAb5tpuNXnOv
Father sighs.98Please respect copyright.PENANA91EumkX8do
I say "I don't want to stay here!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA6RJwJV50jU
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.98Please respect copyright.PENANA1zDCzCNF0t
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfH1f8RcKZf
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAd2psupReB4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.98Please respect copyright.PENANAasu0OMNyUB
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.98Please respect copyright.PENANAySj4dFGoOT
"Pet, come down from the tree."98Please respect copyright.PENANAmIs2QxLUO5
I stay silent.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOlpBYFJv8u
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.98Please respect copyright.PENANAD1TsGZoFCV
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.98Please respect copyright.PENANAn2cnu8Laqp
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.98Please respect copyright.PENANAvPqkWYJXJN
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAzwFPTj4HxQ
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuz5IbvQvOl
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2joa97hGMh
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAEzWtuMO8jy
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..98Please respect copyright.PENANAUD9ukZ8CQ9
I say, "Please don't hurt me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAfBZtgbc1BO
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."98Please respect copyright.PENANAi2lYa9iHtu
I say, "Please don't!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAIOuBfGX7S6
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."98Please respect copyright.PENANA15dnCYvypa
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.98Please respect copyright.PENANA1VIbWqrydC
"You'll find out soon enough, child."98Please respect copyright.PENANAG8e01q3bQM
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.98Please respect copyright.PENANAwRMApTQJAh
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..98Please respect copyright.PENANAXfsw5UIDl3
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAP2aRpo7vPk
"Are you ready, child?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA1JV3dFvEHK
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANA5LOeiwd6jG
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."98Please respect copyright.PENANAR8DYoDzlEJ
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I say, "Okay.."98Please respect copyright.PENANABVOJGgqOuf
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.98Please respect copyright.PENANAzQGXCwX624
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7FgpqhuCQj
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."98Please respect copyright.PENANAls04ofPPAK
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbMNTFBOWYr
Father says "Good. Stay there."98Please respect copyright.PENANAbcO3Rf9Tn4
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQMnOFkrt7c
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.98Please respect copyright.PENANAoruwKYqPex
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.98Please respect copyright.PENANAds4ecq0dvr
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA3yYaQcyKiO
"Please!" I whisper.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7taPfyyuHU
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAVXm9J9dAYh
I scream loudly.98Please respect copyright.PENANAnwihZskhKk
My scream echoes throughout the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANA8uTo2s4Mdx
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.98Please respect copyright.PENANARSsRzaDsUm
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAB1ZH6XVcwh
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.98Please respect copyright.PENANAFOo0Gs69tj
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAVTCXRczvWb
I say "P-please s-stop.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAMI75E7PM3g
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtXksFpUCNP
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAR0ulNih9i4
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAhFTWPNAcIk
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAaUKmnQQRuD
"Look at her," another says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAb4fgXSDUOw
I say "Please leave me alone."98Please respect copyright.PENANAt0M2TbeIUF
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.98Please respect copyright.PENANANaavAp0oxM
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.98Please respect copyright.PENANAPs58YreqQg
"We'll see. Let's see."98Please respect copyright.PENANAjaFbddcKPr
I say "No no no.." They laugh.98Please respect copyright.PENANAa2bhccyMvH
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAK2i7VtcgIn
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.98Please respect copyright.PENANAEQ9910sGU9
They untie me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZV0DYORP10
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.98Please respect copyright.PENANAB9lOsi9FWU
"Ah... you're up," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAF9jGBDoJT3
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.98Please respect copyright.PENANA40px1ThqDt
"Where were you?" he asks,98Please respect copyright.PENANAviNpdaTrYn
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdFU4Xq7AwW
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQTBcvLKbG2
Father smiles.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbqGCThBSkX
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAitzfOt1nTn
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPjiet3oPZp
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdmmdq3bxH5
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAHtcDEcmTwU
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."98Please respect copyright.PENANAH2tBJ1Yn0w
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."98Please respect copyright.PENANAHQKScGOadB
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.98Please respect copyright.PENANAb5wUl7soRd
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.98Please respect copyright.PENANApGYGFQ3us3
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."98Please respect copyright.PENANA1ELNWZsRtD
I say, "Please let me go!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAQwBrnaz9n8
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."98Please respect copyright.PENANAvFhFojRdnB
"You will," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiH1BfcSEld
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOwG7OPWy1G
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjGvCVvUrw1
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAE8sq6ej0uU
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgrH8U9RCgB
"Stop crying," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgERgdsa187
"I can't!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAofkeiXFyPJ
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZdbL31Qti2
"Stop it!" I cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANAdRbYU48Zal
"I said stop it!" he yells,98Please respect copyright.PENANAAwRW0BkGqp
"I can't," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAH2Cz4jsrfP
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"98Please respect copyright.PENANASGT4BtSMMn
"NO!" Father screams.98Please respect copyright.PENANAcM5TB7wwq1
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."98Please respect copyright.PENANAhWHZCw7gJb
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPwDH7oafqQ
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAsaaYBtzLSa
"I would. I really would."98Please respect copyright.PENANAcIOg1ySVEZ
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.98Please respect copyright.PENANAmZ0Xw7juzL
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2vSKeBJ9hg
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPQUOQtfGCh
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."98Please respect copyright.PENANAzGVXF79aRw
I say, "No I'm not!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA3A2C1S8cry
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgsdgFMmPYt
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.98Please respect copyright.PENANATjtgoGQtr9
I say "No I won't!!!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAGcH01r87En
"You will!"98Please respect copyright.PENANASyFUPnd24u
"I said NO!!!"98Please respect copyright.PENANABzAqyAI9LQ
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA3rsPJs7fyV
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"98Please respect copyright.PENANADTyO8zec29
"I know you will," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAc2EEiQYbZd
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANAqspJ3E4bHd
He says "One."98Please respect copyright.PENANAxN0X7pL146
I say, "I'll do anything.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJIRxEvBWie
"Two."98Please respect copyright.PENANADbx9QIPGoi
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANANuohRW1y2o
"Three."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPknCyD5DLN
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.98Please respect copyright.PENANAsK9bAm7EB4
"No, don't do it," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAN3SFGTnF1a
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2ciz0PbSmH
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMfWJSRVXmW
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAFUV6vATko0
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAi5Iy5aVfDn
I say "Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANAZsOiC9pDlT
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."98Please respect copyright.PENANAH72YyYztT1
"Yes," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAHfTYmd1306
"Good girl," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtFFKfSzdx0
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."98Please respect copyright.PENANA1fh50gjpFl
"I won't," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZlUnbwJ4Ko
I stay tied up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAy4waUTFyOi
"Now," he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAJ74E8f2KQy
"Kneel."98Please respect copyright.PENANAReioi4TFqG
"Please," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAXzhADUShOE
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuw3xVnMaFV
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.98Please respect copyright.PENANAkZ8SMwHWHq
I just know it.98Please respect copyright.PENANAElfAKXcufm
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.98Please respect copyright.PENANAyWw9xsam8L
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAxh7treVVIT
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.98Please respect copyright.PENANAt6xWw48TRc
I'm all alone in the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANA4CkBOxfoOJ
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I hear the door open. I look up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAA98ujOaRL8
"Hello," a man says.98Please respect copyright.PENANApWhKNEJgUq
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.98Please respect copyright.PENANANh3eFNXEzA
"Hands behind your back," he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAv7c2WY7YYH
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfHrscFgbLN
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.98Please respect copyright.PENANAF7HA7HQtFm
"Stay there," he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANALWRUlShBLK
I stay on my knees.98Please respect copyright.PENANAxNE0HkOI06
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.98Please respect copyright.PENANAL8L7V1Gse2
I say "No no no."98Please respect copyright.PENANAWFYef0Wnay
"Do it," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAAeX93KXkn1
I say no. He pushes harder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMgEidBJ5P8
"Do it!" he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAplHgpQzkw9
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOjFGFC47NM
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.98Please respect copyright.PENANAORNlS9Ay3T
"Stay there," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAEaLdy3tORZ
I stay on my knees.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7ohrbBX215
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlllG2dhALA
"Stop moving."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQIk8SpiWJR
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.98Please respect copyright.PENANA4XVGmdPhzo
He pulls it out of my throat.98Please respect copyright.PENANAxQvkdagAeY
"What's wrong?" he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAvcGZVzr6UF
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.98Please respect copyright.PENANAINCrUaUMVU
"What?" he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAQlpgZn3pYS
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgEqYn3cGNg
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZtvO94YLst
"Is this too big for you?" he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAdrqfjDO7PW
I nod.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlaBNoJllHG
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."98Please respect copyright.PENANAZWe5Aueudn
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.98Please respect copyright.PENANAs6hHVvlHFD
He shoves it back in.98Please respect copyright.PENANAT6R9iP3NpW
I decide that vomiting once is enough.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6uyTGRwvs
He shoves it in deeper.98Please respect copyright.PENANADPwwj4pgMo
I struggle and fight.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWzxsYmMpTN
"Stop fighting me," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANALog7Kjbk4T
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZVufs4gPmV
"Get dressed," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANARrkDgqWZjT
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.98Please respect copyright.PENANAXobVZ74uEa
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAG9ZWiiiXJL
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.98Please respect copyright.PENANAO21qdtkC3s
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.98Please respect copyright.PENANA8HfitFcodb
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7bT0hFfw2x
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.98Please respect copyright.PENANAwVqOFf2rRb
I say, "Where's dad?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAKWYPSjUHTQ
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.98Please respect copyright.PENANAPTjFaz0sm1
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMjO2rYzZza
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlgCvD5hBXj
My father says, "Where have you been?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAFSVIwfIuNj
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."98Please respect copyright.PENANAj74CIrvPS9
"Did they hurt you?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAiueIGanBL7
"Yeah," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAun3D6VnOYv
"I'm sorry."98Please respect copyright.PENANAqo3aVhIypz
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.98Please respect copyright.PENANAF2otOCiYZy
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiQI0EOwDRd
"Is Allie in here?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAkAEiEIZRO9
My dad says, "Yes, why?"98Please respect copyright.PENANARKgXt2Tjbm
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA8mxhbH2PBW
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.98Please respect copyright.PENANAKmJd0XDGP9
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWx9yReppJK
"No." I respond,98Please respect copyright.PENANA9pThJiui1d
"Can we come in?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAtv19GI4fxB
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.98Please respect copyright.PENANATfXSWxmmJR
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAXjm9ARWUJK
I say, "I don't know."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFaRjpPj6Mo
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"98Please respect copyright.PENANATdQVgvNwdb
"No." I say,98Please respect copyright.PENANAI52baa8onv
"Are you sure?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAnisLkSXgUn
"Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANA10BSeS4rFl
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''98Please respect copyright.PENANA8D8Tym7iq9
"Did he give you any food or water?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAs8hCs26Afb
"No." I respond.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiFAy68ummb
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAwrJKbZXq3A
"No."98Please respect copyright.PENANAEzwXrbgNz1
"What did he do to you?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAcAaYO63Kyl
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFykaZUoCnr
"Did you fight him?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAWmHae6oM8m
"I tried."98Please respect copyright.PENANAh8fju1JjlH
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.98Please respect copyright.PENANAnwmbxApfja
"I think I blacked out."98Please respect copyright.PENANAyyQQrTVKIO
"I see."98Please respect copyright.PENANA5Hig0nQvUv
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAldR4shZ5G3
"And how long were you with him?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAwSVhXu7C5l
"I think about ten hours."98Please respect copyright.PENANAMU0ijhdL5A
"And you only just managed to escape?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAoHSDZr6iS3
"Yeah."98Please respect copyright.PENANAx7w6294aoM
"Do you know where you were?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0KMyP2w4H
I say "No."98Please respect copyright.PENANAK6heaDhcLL
"What is the last thing you remember?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA91iXzSSdBa
"I remember walking down the road."98Please respect copyright.PENANAw0Lnzg0yu0
"And then?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfCob8f1mCl
"I don't remember."98Please respect copyright.PENANAn6rg3r6nch
"Do you know how you got away?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA6M1KgAaDiI
I say, "I just ran,"98Please respect copyright.PENANAkN6zeQxykS
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."98Please respect copyright.PENANAExtIKWNCQw
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.98Please respect copyright.PENANAGh9vaGPei1
I say, "So that's how it all happened."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdSIDPl4Tih
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAARHNlLpmcl
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.98Please respect copyright.PENANAj9LUdX3vw9
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,98Please respect copyright.PENANADF4FLQSTfJ
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.98Please respect copyright.PENANAAu1UpIyVJI
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.98Please respect copyright.PENANA0ttYs5IW0j
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbD9WF901BQ
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWa3QFgppnw
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.98Please respect copyright.PENANACeuaaqzoZf
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMA7KRwvQ0G
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQrgSv8mwsY
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAs21h2Dj2G9
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAVZa9a9PN8I
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAfDyB8p28VU
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.98Please respect copyright.PENANAhlXxRXe3MT
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfgqW9w8bqY
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.98Please respect copyright.PENANA2XFSWou3Oh
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.98Please respect copyright.PENANAInNZCl369H
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAFrBiFf2hJS
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."98Please respect copyright.PENANAC71zSzsHRa
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.98Please respect copyright.PENANA5pm113xGej
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."98Please respect copyright.PENANAXJODOSn0G5
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.98Please respect copyright.PENANAL0qfGLEBxn
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.98Please respect copyright.PENANArhRKaYGLr3
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7329WMbQBT
"Get up." he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAa8NNIm7A1s
"Why am I here?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfjYFWsrqfj
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."98Please respect copyright.PENANAXgPNmUMkxf
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAptpFMPah5b
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."98Please respect copyright.PENANAD3csYP8h9r
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfTk9ZuHbru
I sit down.98Please respect copyright.PENANAGlyICGeioh
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAIHiNBnTZjR
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."98Please respect copyright.PENANAU70CPcZZAB
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAhS9EX1FWte
I say, "No."98Please respect copyright.PENANAD6NZGJQYvm
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAeQ5oLpG7vc
I respond, "Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANATWJ8UBmlxx
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.98Please respect copyright.PENANA71u1a1GHl6
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOwWaaqwxdO
"Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQw3sDzKbSY
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."98Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZU879iH8y
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,98Please respect copyright.PENANAD4Gqa6lJ03
I say, "Hi."98Please respect copyright.PENANAe89BRz4rMf
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3S9g64enWg
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAUQNECGi9BR
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAIJ03t8mFdB
"Right away," says the woman.98Please respect copyright.PENANArtsfQIOB8U
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."98Please respect copyright.PENANAsjlGgic0VV
I say, "Okay."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdkzIwfEEGr
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAW1qHbCd97N
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.98Please respect copyright.PENANAxQEDqNFZAl
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3LQJWTor6s
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"98Please respect copyright.PENANApBJEGlQu3H
"He kidnapped me."98Please respect copyright.PENANANA3QKqB202
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA6gveMXNHYf
I say, "He tried to stab me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAOQheNitpiM
"Who was he?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAADQ8QxPHNL
"I don't know."98Please respect copyright.PENANAmKaMpM0R81
"Where did you get the knife?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAuMjayN63fL
"He had it in his pocket."98Please respect copyright.PENANAjkQsC7LDOs
"Did he threaten you in any way?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAJADRELrqIl
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAKbARpUBgdW
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAz17TyzGZuO
"No."98Please respect copyright.PENANARiEDNmCxxM
"You sure? Think hard."98Please respect copyright.PENANARB728i7C33
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuxNPIcNlsR
I say, "He killed my father."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJmlXKNDaOC
"What?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAgFxXF9jnNG
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."98Please respect copyright.PENANAteMH8bHAm8
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAjDNyZd9aU4
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7qnJuEUlAa
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAaw7H2Y3Rt2
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQ5Kyx7yIiy
I say, "Okay.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAcNiXJAeeKR
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.98Please respect copyright.PENANAV8511hNHXB
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAiQNAPGHBOq
I follow him.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQHPxcNGpEZ
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAq8NlpO5IjF
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"98Please respect copyright.PENANABiPM5fTmgm
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAgwIG3e6UTI
"Alright. Take a seat."98Please respect copyright.PENANAwmxNubHzox
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiKyKfKw3AA
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAEKfS0VNuCZ
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAeXtogBhzxl
"Yes.."98Please respect copyright.PENANA91muEOslTY
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAOSfJHQcdHo
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."98Please respect copyright.PENANAXBgUgfP4Hz
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAsQ7I1yIjcL
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.98Please respect copyright.PENANAslkNsNtamX
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlDjSjfa2GD
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAbSBevhxWIz
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAYhp7FX4vpN
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."98Please respect copyright.PENANAtl2rQ3m689
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAlUzBx6B5ta
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAQl3EGsCLQ7
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAxhMSdOWWOG
"What is it?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAu8U3XSt0ku
Doctor Kessel says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAPGmtsPRSFq
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.98Please respect copyright.PENANAb9C7hsr1QT
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.98Please respect copyright.PENANAox4TiKH0df
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAyt8FLWQdYR
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAWd9xMfqPNN
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"98Please respect copyright.PENANAq2EkbBn2dy
The nurse shakes her head, and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANARRe69xkdHn
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANATs48eDyzsQ
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWYeUZvNDFK
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAHWNvYZoh8c
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.98Please respect copyright.PENANAVauA1d0uYM
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANA8GRIdRzG85
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAh3Y17nB4fZ
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAmNoJ8SHjDn
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjoDeobf2Gz
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbqqTj2AZWb
I say "Where am I?"98Please respect copyright.PENANANTTEWkHpi7
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJLqzeH0m83
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAFklogmjefk
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."98Please respect copyright.PENANAgBHJ7u6Vwj
I say, "I want to see my mom..."98Please respect copyright.PENANASRJDMkuYZy
The nurse interrupts me and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAUPpUN9wNYq
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."98Please respect copyright.PENANANUn0JeVV3h
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3u5lfydMUR
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.98Please respect copyright.PENANAkUlUV1jxtM
"M-mom.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAlQq4IEWGlv
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtqbwsNPkjb
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."98Please respect copyright.PENANAYgcsTvXIMN
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAvhPiyzKqoS
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFDTa1GnQvt
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.98Please respect copyright.PENANAv15ATyHHxH
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfpYDk1rohA
"Yes.." I say quietly.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjHVwmHoHEd
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.98Please respect copyright.PENANAkOKBMOQS6N
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.98Please respect copyright.PENANAeJxATmL2qu
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAh3lGAvcg0y
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."98Please respect copyright.PENANASi4cnlKymJ
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAwR4BVcTKmg
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."98Please respect copyright.PENANAK8Jmf5US9E
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAKEVCCxMGK4
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."98Please respect copyright.PENANAD4gZuWZezv
I say, "Okay.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAEQ0CkaTYpS
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtrrQWFxn7t
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFNlZ11oQiM
I wipe the tears off my face.98Please respect copyright.PENANAdnh4kevo6C
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAbWJcqNknXM
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6zlSRrNHL
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAvNOAi3sJoE
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAytZaB5qaKg
I say, "Tell me!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAgI3ncUpXEK
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."98Please respect copyright.PENANAcalKuwxpGe
My heart drops.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQxAe5jx0rb
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.98Please respect copyright.PENANAHGK5KtOQjW
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In the morning, I get my visitors.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbflpq9xV7H
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtdynaK8gVX
I say, "Wait!" She stops.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3nMM6xJxzK
"What is it?"98Please respect copyright.PENANABZ6U9LAws7
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANAP3OES7gKn0
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.98Please respect copyright.PENANA0AMQ89Cd9i
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAoVp54VObpe
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."98Please respect copyright.PENANAonBn7fMtW5
I cry myself to sleep.98Please respect copyright.PENANA81zhOps4Bq
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.98Please respect copyright.PENANAcJOFq5ySYh
"How are you doing, honey?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAxScW8gJm8n
I say, "Horrible.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAwVS0NQTCtI
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.98Please respect copyright.PENANAnz6whe5adE
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."98Please respect copyright.PENANALsRtLa0BXz
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPAMxIODZiV
"It's not your fault, honey."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2JS60wsNqX
I start crying again.98Please respect copyright.PENANADMEtLSkAPg
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."98Please respect copyright.PENANAmeblPK3q1d
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.98Please respect copyright.PENANAGVat91dyHf
Maybe I'm dead after all.98Please respect copyright.PENANATkcdDYA83Q
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjHNR1JDPPQ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."98Please respect copyright.PENANAwf0VtfRti2
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuMcC3MjW03
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."98Please respect copyright.PENANAIzbGomKecp
I say, "I still want to win this."98Please respect copyright.PENANAHlcNaHc5K6
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."98Please respect copyright.PENANA3BLbXqTFgv
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."98Please respect copyright.PENANAkZMRitkgKv
"Really?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAVfVCEo7hdW
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."98Please respect copyright.PENANADUUN4RQR63
I start crying, and I can't stop.98Please respect copyright.PENANAcx3uzqLOm5
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.98Please respect copyright.PENANA1IrxyN6SEC
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7kPBTJD4oU
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.98Please respect copyright.PENANAryog4MM4nz
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.98Please respect copyright.PENANAEd4mY6uVtf
"I wanted to see the flowers."98Please respect copyright.PENANArkbHJB66Qf
"Why are you out of your room?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA9qIffdhZKS
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."98Please respect copyright.PENANAGg7kE8ntZm
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."98Please respect copyright.PENANAHO10Aq84eD
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.98Please respect copyright.PENANAoJAfHFyaxK
"Thank you for being you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAKjC8HZHXxR
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.98Please respect copyright.PENANAE3XmvL1DIk
I make a decision.98Please respect copyright.PENANAJHT3CIz6cx
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"98Please respect copyright.PENANABV7cp1F8Du
"What's your name?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAIsWXPN6DdK
"Allisa," I say, smiling.98Please respect copyright.PENANApXtcMOhs9S
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfzxusq39MS
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."98Please respect copyright.PENANA9JFXPgQDbB
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.98Please respect copyright.PENANAmje9ll5OP7
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuifdP8rV4l
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.98Please respect copyright.PENANA0DWaeZNLzk
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.98Please respect copyright.PENANAAuACFHVh7U
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAnnWdmi2pMv
"I just want to go home," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAImQxsTluQ4
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANA8UvAzIIYpn
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAb5tpuNXnOv
Father sighs.98Please respect copyright.PENANA91EumkX8do
I say "I don't want to stay here!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA6RJwJV50jU
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.98Please respect copyright.PENANA1zDCzCNF0t
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfH1f8RcKZf
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAd2psupReB4
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.98Please respect copyright.PENANAasu0OMNyUB
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.98Please respect copyright.PENANAySj4dFGoOT
"Pet, come down from the tree."98Please respect copyright.PENANAmIs2QxLUO5
I stay silent.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOlpBYFJv8u
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.98Please respect copyright.PENANAD1TsGZoFCV
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.98Please respect copyright.PENANAn2cnu8Laqp
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.98Please respect copyright.PENANAvPqkWYJXJN
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAzwFPTj4HxQ
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuz5IbvQvOl
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2joa97hGMh
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAEzWtuMO8jy
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..98Please respect copyright.PENANAUD9ukZ8CQ9
I say, "Please don't hurt me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAfBZtgbc1BO
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."98Please respect copyright.PENANAi2lYa9iHtu
I say, "Please don't!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAIOuBfGX7S6
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."98Please respect copyright.PENANA15dnCYvypa
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.98Please respect copyright.PENANA1VIbWqrydC
"You'll find out soon enough, child."98Please respect copyright.PENANAG8e01q3bQM
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.98Please respect copyright.PENANAwRMApTQJAh
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..98Please respect copyright.PENANAXfsw5UIDl3
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98Please respect copyright.PENANAArMZz7HVNJI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAP2aRpo7vPk
"Are you ready, child?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA1JV3dFvEHK
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANA5LOeiwd6jG
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."98Please respect copyright.PENANAR8DYoDzlEJ
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I say, "Okay.."98Please respect copyright.PENANABVOJGgqOuf
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.98Please respect copyright.PENANAzQGXCwX624
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7FgpqhuCQj
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."98Please respect copyright.PENANAls04ofPPAK
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbMNTFBOWYr
Father says "Good. Stay there."98Please respect copyright.PENANAbcO3Rf9Tn4
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQMnOFkrt7c
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.98Please respect copyright.PENANAoruwKYqPex
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.98Please respect copyright.PENANAds4ecq0dvr
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA3yYaQcyKiO
"Please!" I whisper.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7taPfyyuHU
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAVXm9J9dAYh
I scream loudly.98Please respect copyright.PENANAnwihZskhKk
My scream echoes throughout the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANA8uTo2s4Mdx
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.98Please respect copyright.PENANARSsRzaDsUm
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAB1ZH6XVcwh
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.98Please respect copyright.PENANAFOo0Gs69tj
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAVTCXRczvWb
I say "P-please s-stop.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAMI75E7PM3g
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtXksFpUCNP
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAR0ulNih9i4
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAhFTWPNAcIk
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAaUKmnQQRuD
"Look at her," another says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAb4fgXSDUOw
I say "Please leave me alone."98Please respect copyright.PENANAt0M2TbeIUF
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.98Please respect copyright.PENANANaavAp0oxM
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.98Please respect copyright.PENANAPs58YreqQg
"We'll see. Let's see."98Please respect copyright.PENANAjaFbddcKPr
I say "No no no.." They laugh.98Please respect copyright.PENANAa2bhccyMvH
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAK2i7VtcgIn
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.98Please respect copyright.PENANAEQ9910sGU9
They untie me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZV0DYORP10
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.98Please respect copyright.PENANAB9lOsi9FWU
"Ah... you're up," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAF9jGBDoJT3
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98Please respect copyright.PENANAORsIyD2qjs"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.98Please respect copyright.PENANA40px1ThqDt
"Where were you?" he asks,98Please respect copyright.PENANAviNpdaTrYn
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdFU4Xq7AwW
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQTBcvLKbG2
Father smiles.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbqGCThBSkX
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAitzfOt1nTn
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPjiet3oPZp
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdmmdq3bxH5
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAHtcDEcmTwU
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."98Please respect copyright.PENANAH2tBJ1Yn0w
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."98Please respect copyright.PENANAHQKScGOadB
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.98Please respect copyright.PENANAb5wUl7soRd
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.98Please respect copyright.PENANApGYGFQ3us3
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."98Please respect copyright.PENANA1ELNWZsRtD
I say, "Please let me go!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAQwBrnaz9n8
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."98Please respect copyright.PENANAvFhFojRdnB
"You will," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiH1BfcSEld
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOwG7OPWy1G
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjGvCVvUrw1
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAE8sq6ej0uU
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgrH8U9RCgB
"Stop crying," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgERgdsa187
"I can't!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAofkeiXFyPJ
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZdbL31Qti2
"Stop it!" I cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANAdRbYU48Zal
"I said stop it!" he yells,98Please respect copyright.PENANAAwRW0BkGqp
"I can't," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAH2Cz4jsrfP
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"98Please respect copyright.PENANASGT4BtSMMn
"NO!" Father screams.98Please respect copyright.PENANAcM5TB7wwq1
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."98Please respect copyright.PENANAhWHZCw7gJb
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPwDH7oafqQ
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAsaaYBtzLSa
"I would. I really would."98Please respect copyright.PENANAcIOg1ySVEZ
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.98Please respect copyright.PENANAmZ0Xw7juzL
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2vSKeBJ9hg
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPQUOQtfGCh
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."98Please respect copyright.PENANAzGVXF79aRw
I say, "No I'm not!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA3A2C1S8cry
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgsdgFMmPYt
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.98Please respect copyright.PENANATjtgoGQtr9
I say "No I won't!!!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAGcH01r87En
"You will!"98Please respect copyright.PENANASyFUPnd24u
"I said NO!!!"98Please respect copyright.PENANABzAqyAI9LQ
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"98Please respect copyright.PENANA3rsPJs7fyV
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"98Please respect copyright.PENANADTyO8zec29
"I know you will," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAc2EEiQYbZd
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANAqspJ3E4bHd
He says "One."98Please respect copyright.PENANAxN0X7pL146
I say, "I'll do anything.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJIRxEvBWie
"Two."98Please respect copyright.PENANADbx9QIPGoi
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANANuohRW1y2o
"Three."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPknCyD5DLN
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.98Please respect copyright.PENANAsK9bAm7EB4
"No, don't do it," Father says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAN3SFGTnF1a
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2ciz0PbSmH
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMfWJSRVXmW
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAFUV6vATko0
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAi5Iy5aVfDn
I say "Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANAZsOiC9pDlT
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."98Please respect copyright.PENANAH72YyYztT1
"Yes," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAHfTYmd1306
"Good girl," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtFFKfSzdx0
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."98Please respect copyright.PENANA1fh50gjpFl
"I won't," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZlUnbwJ4Ko
I stay tied up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAy4waUTFyOi
"Now," he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAJ74E8f2KQy
"Kneel."98Please respect copyright.PENANAReioi4TFqG
"Please," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAXzhADUShOE
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuw3xVnMaFV
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.98Please respect copyright.PENANAkZ8SMwHWHq
I just know it.98Please respect copyright.PENANAElfAKXcufm
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.98Please respect copyright.PENANAyWw9xsam8L
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAxh7treVVIT
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.98Please respect copyright.PENANAt6xWw48TRc
I'm all alone in the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANA4CkBOxfoOJ
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98Please respect copyright.PENANACS6qr6cY1cI hear the door open. I look up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAA98ujOaRL8
"Hello," a man says.98Please respect copyright.PENANApWhKNEJgUq
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.98Please respect copyright.PENANANh3eFNXEzA
"Hands behind your back," he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAv7c2WY7YYH
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfHrscFgbLN
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.98Please respect copyright.PENANAF7HA7HQtFm
"Stay there," he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANALWRUlShBLK
I stay on my knees.98Please respect copyright.PENANAxNE0HkOI06
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.98Please respect copyright.PENANAL8L7V1Gse2
I say "No no no."98Please respect copyright.PENANAWFYef0Wnay
"Do it," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAAeX93KXkn1
I say no. He pushes harder.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMgEidBJ5P8
"Do it!" he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAplHgpQzkw9
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOjFGFC47NM
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.98Please respect copyright.PENANAORNlS9Ay3T
"Stay there," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAEaLdy3tORZ
I stay on my knees.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7ohrbBX215
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlllG2dhALA
"Stop moving."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQIk8SpiWJR
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.98Please respect copyright.PENANA4XVGmdPhzo
He pulls it out of my throat.98Please respect copyright.PENANAxQvkdagAeY
"What's wrong?" he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAvcGZVzr6UF
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.98Please respect copyright.PENANAINCrUaUMVU
"What?" he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAQlpgZn3pYS
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.98Please respect copyright.PENANAgEqYn3cGNg
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZtvO94YLst
"Is this too big for you?" he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAdrqfjDO7PW
I nod.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlaBNoJllHG
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."98Please respect copyright.PENANAZWe5Aueudn
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.98Please respect copyright.PENANAs6hHVvlHFD
He shoves it back in.98Please respect copyright.PENANAT6R9iP3NpW
I decide that vomiting once is enough.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6uyTGRwvs
He shoves it in deeper.98Please respect copyright.PENANADPwwj4pgMo
I struggle and fight.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWzxsYmMpTN
"Stop fighting me," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANALog7Kjbk4T
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.98Please respect copyright.PENANAZVufs4gPmV
"Get dressed," he says.98Please respect copyright.PENANARrkDgqWZjT
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.98Please respect copyright.PENANAXobVZ74uEa
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAG9ZWiiiXJL
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.98Please respect copyright.PENANAO21qdtkC3s
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.98Please respect copyright.PENANA8HfitFcodb
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7bT0hFfw2x
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.98Please respect copyright.PENANAwVqOFf2rRb
I say, "Where's dad?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAKWYPSjUHTQ
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.98Please respect copyright.PENANAPTjFaz0sm1
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMjO2rYzZza
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlgCvD5hBXj
My father says, "Where have you been?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAFSVIwfIuNj
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."98Please respect copyright.PENANAj74CIrvPS9
"Did they hurt you?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAiueIGanBL7
"Yeah," I say.98Please respect copyright.PENANAun3D6VnOYv
"I'm sorry."98Please respect copyright.PENANAqo3aVhIypz
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.98Please respect copyright.PENANAF2otOCiYZy
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiQI0EOwDRd
"Is Allie in here?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAkAEiEIZRO9
My dad says, "Yes, why?"98Please respect copyright.PENANARKgXt2Tjbm
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA8mxhbH2PBW
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.98Please respect copyright.PENANAKmJd0XDGP9
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWx9yReppJK
"No." I respond,98Please respect copyright.PENANA9pThJiui1d
"Can we come in?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAtv19GI4fxB
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.98Please respect copyright.PENANATfXSWxmmJR
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAXjm9ARWUJK
I say, "I don't know."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFaRjpPj6Mo
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"98Please respect copyright.PENANATdQVgvNwdb
"No." I say,98Please respect copyright.PENANAI52baa8onv
"Are you sure?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAnisLkSXgUn
"Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANA10BSeS4rFl
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''98Please respect copyright.PENANA8D8Tym7iq9
"Did he give you any food or water?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAs8hCs26Afb
"No." I respond.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiFAy68ummb
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAwrJKbZXq3A
"No."98Please respect copyright.PENANAEzwXrbgNz1
"What did he do to you?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAcAaYO63Kyl
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFykaZUoCnr
"Did you fight him?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAWmHae6oM8m
"I tried."98Please respect copyright.PENANAh8fju1JjlH
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.98Please respect copyright.PENANAnwmbxApfja
"I think I blacked out."98Please respect copyright.PENANAyyQQrTVKIO
"I see."98Please respect copyright.PENANA5Hig0nQvUv
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAldR4shZ5G3
"And how long were you with him?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAwSVhXu7C5l
"I think about ten hours."98Please respect copyright.PENANAMU0ijhdL5A
"And you only just managed to escape?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAoHSDZr6iS3
"Yeah."98Please respect copyright.PENANAx7w6294aoM
"Do you know where you were?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0KMyP2w4H
I say "No."98Please respect copyright.PENANAK6heaDhcLL
"What is the last thing you remember?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA91iXzSSdBa
"I remember walking down the road."98Please respect copyright.PENANAw0Lnzg0yu0
"And then?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfCob8f1mCl
"I don't remember."98Please respect copyright.PENANAn6rg3r6nch
"Do you know how you got away?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA6M1KgAaDiI
I say, "I just ran,"98Please respect copyright.PENANAkN6zeQxykS
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."98Please respect copyright.PENANAExtIKWNCQw
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.98Please respect copyright.PENANAGh9vaGPei1
I say, "So that's how it all happened."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdSIDPl4Tih
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAARHNlLpmcl
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.98Please respect copyright.PENANAj9LUdX3vw9
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,98Please respect copyright.PENANADF4FLQSTfJ
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.98Please respect copyright.PENANAAu1UpIyVJI
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.98Please respect copyright.PENANA0ttYs5IW0j
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbD9WF901BQ
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWa3QFgppnw
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.98Please respect copyright.PENANACeuaaqzoZf
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.98Please respect copyright.PENANAMA7KRwvQ0G
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQrgSv8mwsY
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAs21h2Dj2G9
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAVZa9a9PN8I
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAfDyB8p28VU
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.98Please respect copyright.PENANAhlXxRXe3MT
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfgqW9w8bqY
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.98Please respect copyright.PENANA2XFSWou3Oh
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98Please respect copyright.PENANAjwKwmao3dxAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.98Please respect copyright.PENANAInNZCl369H
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAFrBiFf2hJS
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."98Please respect copyright.PENANAC71zSzsHRa
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.98Please respect copyright.PENANA5pm113xGej
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."98Please respect copyright.PENANAXJODOSn0G5
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.98Please respect copyright.PENANAL0qfGLEBxn
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.98Please respect copyright.PENANArhRKaYGLr3
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7329WMbQBT
"Get up." he says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAa8NNIm7A1s
"Why am I here?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfjYFWsrqfj
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."98Please respect copyright.PENANAXgPNmUMkxf
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAptpFMPah5b
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."98Please respect copyright.PENANAD3csYP8h9r
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.98Please respect copyright.PENANAfTk9ZuHbru
I sit down.98Please respect copyright.PENANAGlyICGeioh
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAIHiNBnTZjR
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."98Please respect copyright.PENANAU70CPcZZAB
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAhS9EX1FWte
I say, "No."98Please respect copyright.PENANAD6NZGJQYvm
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAeQ5oLpG7vc
I respond, "Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANATWJ8UBmlxx
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.98Please respect copyright.PENANA71u1a1GHl6
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAOwWaaqwxdO
"Yes."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQw3sDzKbSY
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."98Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZU879iH8y
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,98Please respect copyright.PENANAD4Gqa6lJ03
I say, "Hi."98Please respect copyright.PENANAe89BRz4rMf
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3S9g64enWg
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.98Please respect copyright.PENANAUQNECGi9BR
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.98Please respect copyright.PENANAIJ03t8mFdB
"Right away," says the woman.98Please respect copyright.PENANArtsfQIOB8U
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."98Please respect copyright.PENANAsjlGgic0VV
I say, "Okay."98Please respect copyright.PENANAdkzIwfEEGr
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAW1qHbCd97N
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.98Please respect copyright.PENANAxQEDqNFZAl
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3LQJWTor6s
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"98Please respect copyright.PENANApBJEGlQu3H
"He kidnapped me."98Please respect copyright.PENANANA3QKqB202
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA6gveMXNHYf
I say, "He tried to stab me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAOQheNitpiM
"Who was he?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAADQ8QxPHNL
"I don't know."98Please respect copyright.PENANAmKaMpM0R81
"Where did you get the knife?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAuMjayN63fL
"He had it in his pocket."98Please respect copyright.PENANAjkQsC7LDOs
"Did he threaten you in any way?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAJADRELrqIl
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."98Please respect copyright.PENANAKbARpUBgdW
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAz17TyzGZuO
"No."98Please respect copyright.PENANARiEDNmCxxM
"You sure? Think hard."98Please respect copyright.PENANARB728i7C33
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuxNPIcNlsR
I say, "He killed my father."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJmlXKNDaOC
"What?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAgFxXF9jnNG
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."98Please respect copyright.PENANAteMH8bHAm8
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAjDNyZd9aU4
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7qnJuEUlAa
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAaw7H2Y3Rt2
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAQ5Kyx7yIiy
I say, "Okay.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAcNiXJAeeKR
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.98Please respect copyright.PENANAV8511hNHXB
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAiQNAPGHBOq
I follow him.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQHPxcNGpEZ
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAq8NlpO5IjF
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"98Please respect copyright.PENANABiPM5fTmgm
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAgwIG3e6UTI
"Alright. Take a seat."98Please respect copyright.PENANAwmxNubHzox
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.98Please respect copyright.PENANAiKyKfKw3AA
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAEKfS0VNuCZ
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAeXtogBhzxl
"Yes.."98Please respect copyright.PENANA91muEOslTY
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAOSfJHQcdHo
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."98Please respect copyright.PENANAXBgUgfP4Hz
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAsQ7I1yIjcL
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.98Please respect copyright.PENANAslkNsNtamX
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.98Please respect copyright.PENANAlDjSjfa2GD
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAbSBevhxWIz
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAYhp7FX4vpN
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."98Please respect copyright.PENANAtl2rQ3m689
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAlUzBx6B5ta
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAQl3EGsCLQ7
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAxhMSdOWWOG
"What is it?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAu8U3XSt0ku
Doctor Kessel says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAPGmtsPRSFq
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.98Please respect copyright.PENANAb9C7hsr1QT
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.98Please respect copyright.PENANAox4TiKH0df
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAyt8FLWQdYR
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAWd9xMfqPNN
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"98Please respect copyright.PENANAq2EkbBn2dy
The nurse shakes her head, and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANARRe69xkdHn
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANATs48eDyzsQ
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.98Please respect copyright.PENANAWYeUZvNDFK
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAHWNvYZoh8c
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.98Please respect copyright.PENANAVauA1d0uYM
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANA8GRIdRzG85
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.98Please respect copyright.PENANAh3Y17nB4fZ
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAmNoJ8SHjDn
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjoDeobf2Gz
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbqqTj2AZWb
I say "Where am I?"98Please respect copyright.PENANANTTEWkHpi7
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJLqzeH0m83
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAFklogmjefk
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."98Please respect copyright.PENANAgBHJ7u6Vwj
I say, "I want to see my mom..."98Please respect copyright.PENANASRJDMkuYZy
The nurse interrupts me and says,98Please respect copyright.PENANAUPpUN9wNYq
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."98Please respect copyright.PENANANUn0JeVV3h
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3u5lfydMUR
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98Please respect copyright.PENANARt09rBSvDtA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.98Please respect copyright.PENANAkUlUV1jxtM
"M-mom.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAlQq4IEWGlv
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtqbwsNPkjb
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."98Please respect copyright.PENANAYgcsTvXIMN
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAvhPiyzKqoS
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFDTa1GnQvt
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.98Please respect copyright.PENANAv15ATyHHxH
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfpYDk1rohA
"Yes.." I say quietly.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjHVwmHoHEd
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.98Please respect copyright.PENANAkOKBMOQS6N
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.98Please respect copyright.PENANAeJxATmL2qu
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAh3lGAvcg0y
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."98Please respect copyright.PENANASi4cnlKymJ
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAwR4BVcTKmg
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."98Please respect copyright.PENANAK8Jmf5US9E
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAKEVCCxMGK4
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."98Please respect copyright.PENANAD4gZuWZezv
I say, "Okay.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAEQ0CkaTYpS
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtrrQWFxn7t
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."98Please respect copyright.PENANAFNlZ11oQiM
I wipe the tears off my face.98Please respect copyright.PENANAdnh4kevo6C
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAbWJcqNknXM
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6zlSRrNHL
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAvNOAi3sJoE
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAytZaB5qaKg
I say, "Tell me!"98Please respect copyright.PENANAgI3ncUpXEK
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."98Please respect copyright.PENANAcalKuwxpGe
My heart drops.98Please respect copyright.PENANAQxAe5jx0rb
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.98Please respect copyright.PENANAHGK5KtOQjW
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98Please respect copyright.PENANAfKQyvAFZlSIn the morning, I get my visitors.98Please respect copyright.PENANAbflpq9xV7H
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.98Please respect copyright.PENANAtdynaK8gVX
I say, "Wait!" She stops.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3nMM6xJxzK
"What is it?"98Please respect copyright.PENANABZ6U9LAws7
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.98Please respect copyright.PENANAP3OES7gKn0
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.98Please respect copyright.PENANA0AMQ89Cd9i
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAoVp54VObpe
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."98Please respect copyright.PENANAonBn7fMtW5
I cry myself to sleep.98Please respect copyright.PENANA81zhOps4Bq
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.98Please respect copyright.PENANAcJOFq5ySYh
"How are you doing, honey?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAxScW8gJm8n
I say, "Horrible.."98Please respect copyright.PENANAwVS0NQTCtI
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.98Please respect copyright.PENANAnz6whe5adE
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."98Please respect copyright.PENANALsRtLa0BXz
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."98Please respect copyright.PENANAPAMxIODZiV
"It's not your fault, honey."98Please respect copyright.PENANA2JS60wsNqX
I start crying again.98Please respect copyright.PENANADMEtLSkAPg
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."98Please respect copyright.PENANAmeblPK3q1d
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.98Please respect copyright.PENANAGVat91dyHf
Maybe I'm dead after all.98Please respect copyright.PENANATkcdDYA83Q
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.98Please respect copyright.PENANAjHNR1JDPPQ
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."98Please respect copyright.PENANAwf0VtfRti2
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuMcC3MjW03
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."98Please respect copyright.PENANAIzbGomKecp
I say, "I still want to win this."98Please respect copyright.PENANAHlcNaHc5K6
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."98Please respect copyright.PENANA3BLbXqTFgv
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."98Please respect copyright.PENANAkZMRitkgKv
"Really?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAVfVCEo7hdW
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."98Please respect copyright.PENANADUUN4RQR63
I start crying, and I can't stop.98Please respect copyright.PENANAcx3uzqLOm5
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.98Please respect copyright.PENANA1IrxyN6SEC
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.98Please respect copyright.PENANA7kPBTJD4oU
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.98Please respect copyright.PENANAryog4MM4nz
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.98Please respect copyright.PENANAEd4mY6uVtf
"I wanted to see the flowers."98Please respect copyright.PENANArkbHJB66Qf
"Why are you out of your room?"98Please respect copyright.PENANA9qIffdhZKS
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."98Please respect copyright.PENANAGg7kE8ntZm
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."98Please respect copyright.PENANAHO10Aq84eD
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.98Please respect copyright.PENANAoJAfHFyaxK
"Thank you for being you."98Please respect copyright.PENANAKjC8HZHXxR
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.98Please respect copyright.PENANAE3XmvL1DIk
I make a decision.98Please respect copyright.PENANAJHT3CIz6cx
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"98Please respect copyright.PENANABV7cp1F8Du
"What's your name?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAIsWXPN6DdK
"Allisa," I say, smiling.98Please respect copyright.PENANApXtcMOhs9S
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"98Please respect copyright.PENANAfzxusq39MS
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."98Please respect copyright.PENANA9JFXPgQDbB
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.98Please respect copyright.PENANAmje9ll5OP7
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.98Please respect copyright.PENANAuifdP8rV4l
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