You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYY4EQUK2RB
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFc2AoqDUR
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYqQ5Oj7e8
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zG5tnMvuE
"I just want to go home," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YbQElgciR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VQvIllBpR
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eqnlc0BMP
Father sighs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxqa2OBsts
I say "I don't want to stay here!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE8I0TtahR
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMYbyljwFo
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcpTGt0NP8
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IqGzds58f
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7S0rJY52IQ
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBOpkt59Rm
"Pet, come down from the tree."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvn40chcWM
I stay silent.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AmFDPcG0R
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIb4tvHlnE
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZeAJ55ynQ
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dwDQX0rAd
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xBFKsyOdc
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1y3cASGnI
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrQOFdkf2B
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJ8ZtKOj8c
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkltuYerNZ
I say, "Please don't hurt me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkKRUspdj5
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyWTDnbAEj
I say, "Please don't!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCimosjWpbR
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzr0Az9Phk
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNgKZen58Q
"You'll find out soon enough, child."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLrwdbVEgp
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEC5PeinjuZ
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5DeBR8jm5
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAteYEtsLhO
"Are you ready, child?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLKbRQq7nt
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡei2ZYYf8fW
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BXczTQzW0
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I say, "Okay.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDezqileWU8
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcVjzoJGUT
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9OfoMTAEf
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbnBkliNin
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstCUYuJIUk
Father says "Good. Stay there."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgnCZXh0lB
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYySgqHN6S0
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWFPA2fXBh
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7mLnw6Ocl
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgBKpjS0Hr
"Please!" I whisper.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuL0mvHuryN
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydYNZReMMF
I scream loudly.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuT2kdiLE2m
My scream echoes throughout the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHeOzEgYOX
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFVbrXWR7d
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZjiNTiyGE
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRLxEStbB5
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6ik5usJvh
I say "P-please s-stop.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wbBTcfSou
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzCp7PeCS8
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuuu07H74J
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRZgy0n0ez
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCgNaJs3Y4
"Look at her," another says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6ifjMyAS5
I say "Please leave me alone."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd463JTed0b
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9oxq36xNN
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1V1utj48U
"We'll see. Let's see."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1XogEsgpc
I say "No no no.." They laugh.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt3rUlNe8h
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g1HoIja6k
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKqCg1mxXK
They untie me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzG8witKM92
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXTquVInOi
"Ah... you're up," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvya77K1lD
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O634zKtPn
"Where were you?" he asks,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0emmSuUXX
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ813c7FGn4V
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAxTETSza4
Father smiles.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsehfuUoYP
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVB1vcVwhf
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcipNxHWvAh
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WWZtgY1po
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MXoMEcH8r
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhGQ2crFxE
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOFJCt1eVP
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVR7KC5Ye5
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFDIq5QLqf
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaTthdTJet
I say, "Please let me go!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQTpr52HhU
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1Z9CtOUVD
"You will," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxR1PpBhNF
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBPg0hXAX2
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpI5YjebOR
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPl7IY7Hw5
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWnWJvxqjK
"Stop crying," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91aFNZUxra
"I can't!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttfNyu72wi
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirrGEl2npu
"Stop it!" I cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdwLorIzPD
"I said stop it!" he yells,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCA6K0ad9v
"I can't," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zXllgqffN
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnFICSuNy0
"NO!" Father screams.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWnRyM0mcb
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2F3crhs8p
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW04wFqP0KB
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7HxnPyd3W
"I would. I really would."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGbVzCGXcn
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZT0Kq2N9HN
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8l19U9mcK5
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyTP1Dq1c1
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmgk7ysg5p
I say, "No I'm not!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5HdO4f7Bn
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxribhLzsC2
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklIUs9wUEI
I say "No I won't!!!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemMmHDPdzl
"You will!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvx6ynR8uk
"I said NO!!!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1tcikZeUU
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ47RBpsUU6
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRApc7gnvO
"I know you will," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjC7zbA0SV8
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNNsbVTs5f
He says "One."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSY7JsoJTGX
I say, "I'll do anything.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxQnVx9s99
"Two."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL2Fo4zm9g
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dD1RRfcE6
"Three."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCphdqqjsmA
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYPOpoBLCq
"No, don't do it," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxusMpT50H
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEn4O0HIXYD
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVUjqjhV0s
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RF0Li01ky
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLb1BWAGP4w
I say "Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotMWN6NRqB
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoO9gxCScFW
"Yes," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV3HS3uCvZ
"Good girl," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV0K0EhIfS
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe97Y2j46S
"I won't," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskcIY2xkge
I stay tied up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYfxk4YJWx
"Now," he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B2pXo3wd9
"Kneel."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWn6iKcnWN
"Please," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3Jzu9Ehnt
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwyDIsWU61
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbAGl9eIBE
I just know it.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkKzSji71m
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C8zjuM0KC
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ6d1EQNL4
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WSgj0nfUw
I'm all alone in the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZakeAQKxH
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I hear the door open. I look up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0AefAdEz2
"Hello," a man says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZ7vLjPYxx
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CuU8DaUXl
"Hands behind your back," he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVU97phdEcT
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UxMX1IQRe
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4JeXqv2CC
"Stay there," he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFlSRgD8Rz
I stay on my knees.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGaPqcd6i9
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNMaO7Zvcu
I say "No no no."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ7fhcn2Hf
"Do it," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdmhsY7UZE
I say no. He pushes harder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rOAu2tNcZ
"Do it!" he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzrWaVXyCM
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mcvBfcwok
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4C5i07paMD
"Stay there," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9L4JWCvff
I stay on my knees.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTUsR9q0fs
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMyQODsA3q
"Stop moving."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDlu5ccK2A
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GXqHPyVUt
He pulls it out of my throat.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQ9XVGeZYA
"What's wrong?" he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx9kLmoQVY
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9XbEkceKW
"What?" he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9MRqyzCLw
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpjBJMvyDx
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnFYIL7iWo
"Is this too big for you?" he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZLCFSscLd
I nod.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaEOvNmQjq
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKMCXXNKir
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApOgNc6MF8
He shoves it back in.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX1e3XmQn8
I decide that vomiting once is enough.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFBXjU5Hmo
He shoves it in deeper.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFi2N6T3BVk
I struggle and fight.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMOmHShwB0
"Stop fighting me," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUl4R6eFolO
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqrgsdOWiy
"Get dressed," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAebD7jiO8N
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dHoBWkXlt
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQFBpVneGI
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0GICbrgs3
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNceNmsqI7U
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNbhm4KxLi
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1njdYg83I
I say, "Where's dad?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzrYaTXE3K
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdGQk6icV6
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLalLStwTgV
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgVb1CRqTh
My father says, "Where have you been?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhRox7d03g
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsat5J17Kk
"Did they hurt you?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXTDWHm8QJ
"Yeah," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFY15cYQxA
"I'm sorry."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJZ5gnBLDD
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0ZvdW4ldY
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyMWCHCbat
"Is Allie in here?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyiN6N86Sl
My dad says, "Yes, why?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MCA3tjDv6
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBSp2noLxD
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPGxdv4XSn
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDiDkYjYHC
"No." I respond,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzwmSMnPfC
"Can we come in?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6WvIkXecZ
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafuCBGUgxr
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUHWMxPGUx
I say, "I don't know."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp21ytjdDAI
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisCivY0P1R
"No." I say,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzGyJcLQ0j
"Are you sure?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0IT71uNOg
"Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMcziJX6cc
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxQxSbMnn8
"Did he give you any food or water?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkORECqFSC
"No." I respond.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yq4glmANv
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgelGtWf60
"No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIMMlWHnzy
"What did he do to you?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUL7ucVlgF7
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc3RNhwEMA
"Did you fight him?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHcKu4cjRW
"I tried."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ933DJJ8Lsl
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXFh620fqb
"I think I blacked out."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1bqsRSCUn
"I see."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nJHwqoS1q
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrrVB8Jl9L
"And how long were you with him?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtj5t5ukN2
"I think about ten hours."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUz7ewApgq
"And you only just managed to escape?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsywJTRgHqL
"Yeah."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqIcgvj3iB
"Do you know where you were?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOj4QRP6ut
I say "No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1N5Z2guw6
"What is the last thing you remember?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBPuMuJ6nj
"I remember walking down the road."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvMlnxxkA5
"And then?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPitiTtqWg
"I don't remember."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuMMVCI34E
"Do you know how you got away?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEhfU3JFqE
I say, "I just ran,"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDJuYBkQ6t
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiImi0lXhl
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzmfYbcp9r
I say, "So that's how it all happened."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG0TCnHk2T
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Hvmh8L3LE
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK81TEri0Iw
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmiegUgVLS
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUJ75YqLs0
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4si5a7z5oO
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2YoVLH3hu
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLzmlLkncG
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlP4a1jhU41
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScGDJnQWUL
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2T7rri8hU3
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WTCzgoXn4
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzZV0YkLht
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsNQfcfo1K
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiYP2u6UOr
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTwmQNu6k0
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6Nw9g4LEu
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTJzq9XZlW
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHygv2UFEcu
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡII8LpesyKx
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBse55iYetY
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5ln5B7xHT
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreoVWTfT0k
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbY6taMmxF
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFrGoyNFzT
"Get up." he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhIfqGPC8i
"Why am I here?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzgjwNavMn
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx6gqqJq0Y
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDNselvL00
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfb33FHSg9o
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOqKub35Sm
I sit down.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQQ0y5qrjN
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqksobAtE6O
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoje1p5iFh7
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvR9wBOqv6C
I say, "No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckX9cvaWQh
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vAFAEWPtO
I respond, "Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1thJpk0fAa
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlpYZBn184
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoCTTXdytD
"Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDN0JR6LWuM
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdtzu1hMi8
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyhvmrBBcj
I say, "Hi."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNYF7AksB1
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH8KLLLKUa
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwA8ezI8wQ
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvMoV2Wd4k
"Right away," says the woman.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlwiWq9f10
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4eRiIrLBT
I say, "Okay."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTNlWAeFVx
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmbProlBOj
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OrsLNFrMC
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIPsWqYNZv
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcH4adPRw4U
"He kidnapped me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIpGfuY1zd
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3sJrfgLRk
I say, "He tried to stab me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlfrnXH9ef
"Who was he?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR6MvY34i2
"I don't know."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgiZI64Fpi
"Where did you get the knife?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFm9RFeXjm
"He had it in his pocket."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Mu5NCvh3e
"Did he threaten you in any way?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZz6bgcXTx
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFbGEF5FbB
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7ScNq7ClJ
"No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHBO0bN1vG
"You sure? Think hard."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnOn0xcTVc
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX96FrMzMI2
I say, "He killed my father."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaI5fgFk6UD
"What?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo0PawohE7
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPzFwEhOGD
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S9DIjGZ9I
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjEA3zobzP
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mKfKUECdi
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjjZCaHk0b
I say, "Okay.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtjwCvZveH
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzDm8QAZXj
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mkxoMGPGY
I follow him.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RgamGJkPU
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfVawUmFBc
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPnmnTg4Ma
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK1XSNCp21
"Alright. Take a seat."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKrkYReLrd
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbNKH4eYwB
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfqo9SOZJ6
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUQPbvwyW1
"Yes.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNumiDOzMs
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxciDJAXywh
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82famK5fnx
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtSn4AUmCt
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRfthzKvo1
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKt0pOdkS8
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNr8viyJeL
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBgNrC70Ru
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmL5naM5cV
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyDHbVMf3z
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiEm2BFAUN
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAA5TIOjWwa
"What is it?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0I6AnEjY4i
Doctor Kessel says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuL7vH4R7Jy
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYcUUL79oR
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrD8MHtKkXt
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDjmu3FB9s
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8Kp0fQwPF
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSRWmkPJmM
The nurse shakes her head, and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVbAGFwIhO
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7k1Cg1rkO
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi6iQcOrJ3
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1p70i0VMdL
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5jqR1OKmX
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyrU87LoEV
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi0TeAjQtX
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CvrJK8Bkw
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF4zhUFqqU
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zAgODPfae
I say "Where am I?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LOI2dtHoF
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTPvB8CEfa
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CQBwklBjT
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI02EtesliX
I say, "I want to see my mom..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76Sum1Ngvh
The nurse interrupts me and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFl776LKA9
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnVzsfFpuF
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnZFRKQObM
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVRxGa5ycd
"M-mom.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO90fjiOnu
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgpLS2lutB
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY05XKiuI8M
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9guRSrtgR
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ532qgm4uKD
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ513pt6HUxJ
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCM4rFHE9W
"Yes.." I say quietly.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeVAOlEBTB
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTABZrWdz6
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8wajVPzgl
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGYwPK3Mod
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4mzqBptwK
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFgBwBOpBr
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaB6HeLdf4
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoadtWm5H1
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOGJLNHDJt
I say, "Okay.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GDWofieH4
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshBjtHs3vu
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfBK5Fhfqm
I wipe the tears off my face.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz0HZsfvA7
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQvSjCMWkz
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEGi5T20PK
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTNTm4S8Ka
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4FkPf2Ezw
I say, "Tell me!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSiRTHieQs
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O68wL6shL
My heart drops.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzjxXy28IZ
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1URFJDrB9
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In the morning, I get my visitors.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrI0EjnbIVz
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAOoKZUtdS
I say, "Wait!" She stops.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK59DDhsQ2
"What is it?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrc6GkGiNcv
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglIY1D2mSW
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVBaHKOjvi
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelOT7D4wZy
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HRuCWyQQy
I cry myself to sleep.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9AbgiSC9G
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxI1uthDNYY
"How are you doing, honey?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsoliwYLHy
I say, "Horrible.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyUqPL2zVO
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4vvv1VP7l
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomdHzvsajO
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoVHZyIY58
"It's not your fault, honey."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AI4aOltY4
I start crying again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqic6CWtB4
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByZBzEwrOu
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdGXNUb79o
Maybe I'm dead after all.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KlNUccBSI
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkwwCHjPgl
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNCdB7IZdT
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZlQjgw7XA
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yUSkWzf6m
I say, "I still want to win this."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMTiaxIb84
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8ILdzfFxu
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLXVzzB5mc
"Really?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarIaaD6aW0
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7WIB8pQTv
I start crying, and I can't stop.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwaV34XMJw
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3eVJfHZy2
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RKzqwny1P
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZmQwSl3vb
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvQ6PuKZOV
"I wanted to see the flowers."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOtEgTNzPJ
"Why are you out of your room?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDyIJ6CAXe
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ8NxX9Sfi
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xVmU9kwxh
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkrhdvA7SK
"Thank you for being you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8btQo9cuO
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuVBakjLqB
I make a decision.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpP52wLUYYw
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLFrvGbGde
"What's your name?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQa18i3rWtA
"Allisa," I say, smiling.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsaiaSblTC
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPhrkrI5n9
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUVEg3xVPq
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD31SWCuj0Z
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkkBULdzUf
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFc2AoqDUR
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYqQ5Oj7e8
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zG5tnMvuE
"I just want to go home," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YbQElgciR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VQvIllBpR
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eqnlc0BMP
Father sighs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxqa2OBsts
I say "I don't want to stay here!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE8I0TtahR
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMYbyljwFo
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcpTGt0NP8
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IqGzds58f
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7S0rJY52IQ
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBOpkt59Rm
"Pet, come down from the tree."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvn40chcWM
I stay silent.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AmFDPcG0R
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIb4tvHlnE
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZeAJ55ynQ
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dwDQX0rAd
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xBFKsyOdc
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1y3cASGnI
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrQOFdkf2B
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJ8ZtKOj8c
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkltuYerNZ
I say, "Please don't hurt me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkKRUspdj5
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyWTDnbAEj
I say, "Please don't!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCimosjWpbR
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzr0Az9Phk
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNgKZen58Q
"You'll find out soon enough, child."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLrwdbVEgp
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEC5PeinjuZ
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5DeBR8jm5
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208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxjgZjvjMfI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAteYEtsLhO
"Are you ready, child?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLKbRQq7nt
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡei2ZYYf8fW
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BXczTQzW0
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I say, "Okay.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDezqileWU8
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcVjzoJGUT
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9OfoMTAEf
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbnBkliNin
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstCUYuJIUk
Father says "Good. Stay there."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgnCZXh0lB
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYySgqHN6S0
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWFPA2fXBh
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7mLnw6Ocl
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgBKpjS0Hr
"Please!" I whisper.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuL0mvHuryN
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydYNZReMMF
I scream loudly.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuT2kdiLE2m
My scream echoes throughout the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHeOzEgYOX
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFVbrXWR7d
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZjiNTiyGE
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRLxEStbB5
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6ik5usJvh
I say "P-please s-stop.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wbBTcfSou
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzCp7PeCS8
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuuu07H74J
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRZgy0n0ez
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCgNaJs3Y4
"Look at her," another says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6ifjMyAS5
I say "Please leave me alone."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd463JTed0b
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9oxq36xNN
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1V1utj48U
"We'll see. Let's see."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1XogEsgpc
I say "No no no.." They laugh.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLt3rUlNe8h
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g1HoIja6k
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKqCg1mxXK
They untie me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzG8witKM92
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXTquVInOi
"Ah... you're up," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvya77K1lD
208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45CVD8Jxm9
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208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLL7IeEynG"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O634zKtPn
"Where were you?" he asks,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0emmSuUXX
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ813c7FGn4V
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAxTETSza4
Father smiles.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsehfuUoYP
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVB1vcVwhf
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcipNxHWvAh
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WWZtgY1po
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MXoMEcH8r
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhGQ2crFxE
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOFJCt1eVP
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVR7KC5Ye5
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFDIq5QLqf
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaTthdTJet
I say, "Please let me go!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQTpr52HhU
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1Z9CtOUVD
"You will," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxR1PpBhNF
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBPg0hXAX2
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpI5YjebOR
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPl7IY7Hw5
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWnWJvxqjK
"Stop crying," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91aFNZUxra
"I can't!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttfNyu72wi
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirrGEl2npu
"Stop it!" I cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdwLorIzPD
"I said stop it!" he yells,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCA6K0ad9v
"I can't," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zXllgqffN
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnFICSuNy0
"NO!" Father screams.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWnRyM0mcb
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2F3crhs8p
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW04wFqP0KB
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7HxnPyd3W
"I would. I really would."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGbVzCGXcn
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZT0Kq2N9HN
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8l19U9mcK5
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyTP1Dq1c1
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmgk7ysg5p
I say, "No I'm not!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5HdO4f7Bn
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxribhLzsC2
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklIUs9wUEI
I say "No I won't!!!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemMmHDPdzl
"You will!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvx6ynR8uk
"I said NO!!!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1tcikZeUU
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ47RBpsUU6
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRApc7gnvO
"I know you will," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjC7zbA0SV8
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNNsbVTs5f
He says "One."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSY7JsoJTGX
I say, "I'll do anything.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxQnVx9s99
"Two."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL2Fo4zm9g
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dD1RRfcE6
"Three."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCphdqqjsmA
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYPOpoBLCq
"No, don't do it," Father says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxusMpT50H
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEn4O0HIXYD
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVUjqjhV0s
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RF0Li01ky
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLb1BWAGP4w
I say "Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotMWN6NRqB
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoO9gxCScFW
"Yes," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV3HS3uCvZ
"Good girl," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV0K0EhIfS
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe97Y2j46S
"I won't," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskcIY2xkge
I stay tied up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYfxk4YJWx
"Now," he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B2pXo3wd9
"Kneel."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWn6iKcnWN
"Please," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3Jzu9Ehnt
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwyDIsWU61
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbAGl9eIBE
I just know it.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkKzSji71m
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8C8zjuM0KC
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ6d1EQNL4
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WSgj0nfUw
I'm all alone in the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZakeAQKxH
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208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9sJ6qhYwBI hear the door open. I look up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0AefAdEz2
"Hello," a man says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZ7vLjPYxx
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CuU8DaUXl
"Hands behind your back," he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVU97phdEcT
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UxMX1IQRe
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4JeXqv2CC
"Stay there," he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFlSRgD8Rz
I stay on my knees.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGaPqcd6i9
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNMaO7Zvcu
I say "No no no."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQ7fhcn2Hf
"Do it," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdmhsY7UZE
I say no. He pushes harder.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rOAu2tNcZ
"Do it!" he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzrWaVXyCM
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mcvBfcwok
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4C5i07paMD
"Stay there," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9L4JWCvff
I stay on my knees.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTUsR9q0fs
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMyQODsA3q
"Stop moving."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDlu5ccK2A
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GXqHPyVUt
He pulls it out of my throat.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQ9XVGeZYA
"What's wrong?" he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx9kLmoQVY
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9XbEkceKW
"What?" he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9MRqyzCLw
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpjBJMvyDx
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnFYIL7iWo
"Is this too big for you?" he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZLCFSscLd
I nod.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaEOvNmQjq
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKMCXXNKir
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApOgNc6MF8
He shoves it back in.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX1e3XmQn8
I decide that vomiting once is enough.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFBXjU5Hmo
He shoves it in deeper.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFi2N6T3BVk
I struggle and fight.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMOmHShwB0
"Stop fighting me," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUl4R6eFolO
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqrgsdOWiy
"Get dressed," he says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAebD7jiO8N
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dHoBWkXlt
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQFBpVneGI
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208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInPyLVkSPk208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYu0R0nwXCL
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0GICbrgs3
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNceNmsqI7U
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNbhm4KxLi
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1njdYg83I
I say, "Where's dad?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzrYaTXE3K
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdGQk6icV6
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLalLStwTgV
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgVb1CRqTh
My father says, "Where have you been?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhRox7d03g
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsat5J17Kk
"Did they hurt you?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXTDWHm8QJ
"Yeah," I say.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFY15cYQxA
"I'm sorry."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJZ5gnBLDD
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0ZvdW4ldY
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyMWCHCbat
"Is Allie in here?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyiN6N86Sl
My dad says, "Yes, why?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MCA3tjDv6
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBSp2noLxD
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPGxdv4XSn
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDiDkYjYHC
"No." I respond,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzwmSMnPfC
"Can we come in?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6WvIkXecZ
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafuCBGUgxr
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUHWMxPGUx
I say, "I don't know."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp21ytjdDAI
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisCivY0P1R
"No." I say,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzGyJcLQ0j
"Are you sure?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0IT71uNOg
"Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMcziJX6cc
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxQxSbMnn8
"Did he give you any food or water?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkORECqFSC
"No." I respond.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yq4glmANv
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgelGtWf60
"No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIMMlWHnzy
"What did he do to you?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUL7ucVlgF7
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc3RNhwEMA
"Did you fight him?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHcKu4cjRW
"I tried."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ933DJJ8Lsl
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXFh620fqb
"I think I blacked out."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1bqsRSCUn
"I see."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nJHwqoS1q
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrrVB8Jl9L
"And how long were you with him?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtj5t5ukN2
"I think about ten hours."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUz7ewApgq
"And you only just managed to escape?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsywJTRgHqL
"Yeah."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqIcgvj3iB
"Do you know where you were?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOj4QRP6ut
I say "No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1N5Z2guw6
"What is the last thing you remember?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBPuMuJ6nj
"I remember walking down the road."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvMlnxxkA5
"And then?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPitiTtqWg
"I don't remember."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuMMVCI34E
"Do you know how you got away?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEhfU3JFqE
I say, "I just ran,"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDJuYBkQ6t
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiImi0lXhl
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzmfYbcp9r
I say, "So that's how it all happened."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG0TCnHk2T
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Hvmh8L3LE
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK81TEri0Iw
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmiegUgVLS
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUJ75YqLs0
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4si5a7z5oO
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2YoVLH3hu
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLzmlLkncG
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlP4a1jhU41
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScGDJnQWUL
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2T7rri8hU3
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WTCzgoXn4
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzZV0YkLht
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsNQfcfo1K
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiYP2u6UOr
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTwmQNu6k0
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6Nw9g4LEu
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208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJBlM93Xz0At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTJzq9XZlW
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHygv2UFEcu
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡII8LpesyKx
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBse55iYetY
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5ln5B7xHT
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreoVWTfT0k
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbY6taMmxF
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFrGoyNFzT
"Get up." he says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhIfqGPC8i
"Why am I here?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzgjwNavMn
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx6gqqJq0Y
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDNselvL00
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfb33FHSg9o
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOqKub35Sm
I sit down.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQQ0y5qrjN
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqksobAtE6O
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoje1p5iFh7
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvR9wBOqv6C
I say, "No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckX9cvaWQh
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vAFAEWPtO
I respond, "Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1thJpk0fAa
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlpYZBn184
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoCTTXdytD
"Yes."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDN0JR6LWuM
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdtzu1hMi8
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyhvmrBBcj
I say, "Hi."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNYF7AksB1
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH8KLLLKUa
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwA8ezI8wQ
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvMoV2Wd4k
"Right away," says the woman.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlwiWq9f10
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4eRiIrLBT
I say, "Okay."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTNlWAeFVx
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmbProlBOj
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OrsLNFrMC
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIPsWqYNZv
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcH4adPRw4U
"He kidnapped me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIpGfuY1zd
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3sJrfgLRk
I say, "He tried to stab me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlfrnXH9ef
"Who was he?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR6MvY34i2
"I don't know."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgiZI64Fpi
"Where did you get the knife?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFm9RFeXjm
"He had it in his pocket."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Mu5NCvh3e
"Did he threaten you in any way?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZz6bgcXTx
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFbGEF5FbB
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7ScNq7ClJ
"No."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHBO0bN1vG
"You sure? Think hard."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnOn0xcTVc
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX96FrMzMI2
I say, "He killed my father."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaI5fgFk6UD
"What?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGo0PawohE7
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPzFwEhOGD
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S9DIjGZ9I
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjEA3zobzP
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mKfKUECdi
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjjZCaHk0b
I say, "Okay.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtjwCvZveH
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzDm8QAZXj
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mkxoMGPGY
I follow him.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RgamGJkPU
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfVawUmFBc
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPnmnTg4Ma
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK1XSNCp21
"Alright. Take a seat."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKrkYReLrd
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbNKH4eYwB
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfqo9SOZJ6
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUQPbvwyW1
"Yes.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNumiDOzMs
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxciDJAXywh
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82famK5fnx
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtSn4AUmCt
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRfthzKvo1
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKt0pOdkS8
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNr8viyJeL
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBgNrC70Ru
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmL5naM5cV
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyDHbVMf3z
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiEm2BFAUN
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAA5TIOjWwa
"What is it?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0I6AnEjY4i
Doctor Kessel says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuL7vH4R7Jy
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYcUUL79oR
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrD8MHtKkXt
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDjmu3FB9s
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8Kp0fQwPF
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSRWmkPJmM
The nurse shakes her head, and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVbAGFwIhO
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7k1Cg1rkO
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi6iQcOrJ3
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1p70i0VMdL
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5jqR1OKmX
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyrU87LoEV
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi0TeAjQtX
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CvrJK8Bkw
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF4zhUFqqU
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zAgODPfae
I say "Where am I?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LOI2dtHoF
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTPvB8CEfa
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CQBwklBjT
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI02EtesliX
I say, "I want to see my mom..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76Sum1Ngvh
The nurse interrupts me and says,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFl776LKA9
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnVzsfFpuF
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnZFRKQObM
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208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzHHMaoVTgA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVRxGa5ycd
"M-mom.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO90fjiOnu
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgpLS2lutB
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY05XKiuI8M
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9guRSrtgR
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ532qgm4uKD
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ513pt6HUxJ
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCM4rFHE9W
"Yes.." I say quietly.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeVAOlEBTB
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTABZrWdz6
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8wajVPzgl
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGYwPK3Mod
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4mzqBptwK
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFgBwBOpBr
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaB6HeLdf4
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoadtWm5H1
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOGJLNHDJt
I say, "Okay.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GDWofieH4
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshBjtHs3vu
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfBK5Fhfqm
I wipe the tears off my face.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz0HZsfvA7
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQvSjCMWkz
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEGi5T20PK
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTNTm4S8Ka
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4FkPf2Ezw
I say, "Tell me!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSiRTHieQs
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O68wL6shL
My heart drops.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzjxXy28IZ
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1URFJDrB9
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208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvF5EjJaPyIn the morning, I get my visitors.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrI0EjnbIVz
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAOoKZUtdS
I say, "Wait!" She stops.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK59DDhsQ2
"What is it?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrc6GkGiNcv
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglIY1D2mSW
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVBaHKOjvi
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelOT7D4wZy
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HRuCWyQQy
I cry myself to sleep.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9AbgiSC9G
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxI1uthDNYY
"How are you doing, honey?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsoliwYLHy
I say, "Horrible.."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyUqPL2zVO
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4vvv1VP7l
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomdHzvsajO
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoVHZyIY58
"It's not your fault, honey."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AI4aOltY4
I start crying again.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqic6CWtB4
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByZBzEwrOu
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdGXNUb79o
Maybe I'm dead after all.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KlNUccBSI
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkwwCHjPgl
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNCdB7IZdT
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZlQjgw7XA
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yUSkWzf6m
I say, "I still want to win this."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMTiaxIb84
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8ILdzfFxu
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLXVzzB5mc
"Really?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarIaaD6aW0
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7WIB8pQTv
I start crying, and I can't stop.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwaV34XMJw
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3eVJfHZy2
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RKzqwny1P
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZmQwSl3vb
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvQ6PuKZOV
"I wanted to see the flowers."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOtEgTNzPJ
"Why are you out of your room?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDyIJ6CAXe
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ8NxX9Sfi
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xVmU9kwxh
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkrhdvA7SK
"Thank you for being you."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8btQo9cuO
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuVBakjLqB
I make a decision.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpP52wLUYYw
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLFrvGbGde
"What's your name?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQa18i3rWtA
"Allisa," I say, smiling.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsaiaSblTC
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPhrkrI5n9
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUVEg3xVPq
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD31SWCuj0Z
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkkBULdzUf
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