As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyELj7UnSsY
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyMIYlL47f
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkS9rd2WjQ
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqgUAzZxPW
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NBXk4hM6Q
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOoKZ2n7Fbz
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMm8W2Gp07
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdMcO72fSK
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQv0Jyrf5cO
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJFFQmXz8e
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZ7KCgw0uX
'Uselessness'931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsOMrOprku
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNSeJXce0M
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvVeWND9Fr
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKsklNmowa
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgec6PqgLvI
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8E9yo151qp
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFDoexYKYT
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rzi8DGEfq
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJ7Dg7i8ie
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4waTbKX6x
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG0YJLlQRf
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlR3HkhQmM
And with that, I ran. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpToCmb0QOt
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PE3hpiV3F
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3SYFaU77x
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSK63ZvHzj
See you next time!931Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UlTfmUfvH
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