As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYC4ralFnpX
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KTwDnV2nJ
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllBw1qwmSE
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqp7t6AhZe
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtyxzs1pDQ
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAvEEQk5ta
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCBKj29WEb
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NT2NffSPq
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNkqgHGsHA
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxjQrHF29S
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnf5BfhH5H
'Uselessness'1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLB50iG5CyL
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf12Iu2RjzL
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcqEUAGRoh
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3WtLQsPh7
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb308y6Gjdr
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWTgHC3WD6
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiMwAssLUt
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cxdwRMmUU
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIT2ayEsPg
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cCSKKe4Wf
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoK92jdgjYR
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITJe2d9Xj3
And with that, I ran. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSsyURauoh
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhmf0vPdaD
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8utwMSnFB5
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWjxbokcuK
See you next time!1036Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIku58rJYz
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