As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnVt7GnV2y
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvqizhXR4o
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqHnG4lJrN
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuSSIK5qt0
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMThrsk3o2
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YD1zgmA6r
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR17zuig1kx
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSTzCLHWdV
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBU2iK2DBXV
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lCbTJr9Ml
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6AVuVk748
'Uselessness'961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGs7GgA27o8
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdq51lIs26D
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuM8Gl9bjc
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNwCkEvVsH
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2usv8hpzJ
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxVJjwPkOX
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECmySpxjXT
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHcrEui0DM
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxyHnA5n7B
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdCvwWktAM
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0ZwUF6t12
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT921yy6YVE
And with that, I ran. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIuC0h0QqM
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCPu35vQTd
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZyXcTWdaL
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bqSFdswJH
See you next time!961Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljGdnXiDdT
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