As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdAaEoM5cY
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaemJnFCddt
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzMY3QEL3B
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWmHb42QHS
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeEViLzbQY
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOFGLzr0yE
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfcBCGHJCl
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡij4r8wNXcR
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGms54Bgpev
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqXzKZfF4K
Knives1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuH8OWZIqN
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncEj6s0IwD
'Uselessness'1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40kmOQ0rfK
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavUWSgkvZ9
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRqTMBNjOE
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboHeX0Rwpe
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LsLLlyjSq
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAHEYJWdVN
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWLews6SVu
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2WaS3B7XS
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmH1Zok7B7
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xz1DXwA8G
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02ALCflekC
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vnr8Ei8Gx
And with that, I ran. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEv23PIIaQ
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0BhB0o55V
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Widxaeals
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX0jnzKDg5
See you next time!1033Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsks96KTCga
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