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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75Yu2ld1bB
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37btBDD6ME
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdoGlyb7kC
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaokihrl2Ky
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Oa67SmHpU
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAe5WhMuu8
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One day, I will be killed by myself
255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xmq48r5VRThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37btBDD6ME
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdoGlyb7kC
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaokihrl2Ky
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Oa67SmHpU
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAe5WhMuu8
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerk5R1Izys
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0yayzkXbJ
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnsHjsFc05
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOPT4BtW0O
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeO6NQ6JQ0
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLUQ1HJVPA
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapLOJiluaY
However, if I really wanted to255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOcvwUDmAU
I can answer those ramblings255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZLpQOefOb
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Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQD1H025Qkz
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYOKUi4Hcq
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYTSWmYieTForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnsHjsFc05
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOPT4BtW0O
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeO6NQ6JQ0
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLUQ1HJVPA
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapLOJiluaY
However, if I really wanted to255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOcvwUDmAU
I can answer those ramblings255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZLpQOefOb
As easy as conducting an experiment255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33UJGhI3VC
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQD1H025Qkz
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYOKUi4Hcq
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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"This is all my fault"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS3W7SwT1b
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3NAsEhm2k
I have already gone crazy and mad255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tT5ybnw9a
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"It is alright"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwEIZNlPAV
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My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFQ66RFS7e
Though, does it matter anymore ?255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDgtPjji92
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6GlmEXdek
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWoMJoY2TT
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I have already lost it all
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The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3NAsEhm2k
I have already gone crazy and mad255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tT5ybnw9a
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"It is alright"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwEIZNlPAV
And it became alright for me255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dtdfPdt0M
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQg79NtcYU
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFQ66RFS7e
Though, does it matter anymore ?255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDgtPjji92
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6GlmEXdek
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWoMJoY2TT
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Am I the weird one here? 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44nJS2x04O
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Am I the wrong one here?255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zfIMyqww5
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKaX2HwQvU
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOTQZXUGG7
Days without worry and doubts255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLFz7Fg2t7
Times that are as pure as crystal clear255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpKFii3IoX
I was happy before255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pBbxvIVwm
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLFz7Fg2t7
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Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjtDkthgtX
There was someone who love me255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcD2PwAIapf
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rCaF5Myz8
