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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2m9AOe2xh
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zl6XyqvUG
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvwmBj4pdP
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvtlKfyIxF
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XZ8YDkz6e
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucJldFtYpb
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqMYYjMaon
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnOVVIAzAi
One day, I will be killed by myself
213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm9rOSSqdYThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvwmBj4pdP
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvtlKfyIxF
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XZ8YDkz6e
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucJldFtYpb
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqMYYjMaon
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnOVVIAzAi
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4quTRNzIXv
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv9ApIiCTk
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbQbVHf6Z7
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwMv33Nuya
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I51Ej35ct
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKA6SWgkIE
However, if I really wanted to213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyRrtO73YL
I can answer those ramblings213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWMWBa76Cz
As easy as conducting an experiment213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1brocQTpV
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF47DO1r0dx
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FyuoftKHK
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8uKRhI716Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv9ApIiCTk
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbQbVHf6Z7
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwMv33Nuya
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I51Ej35ct
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKA6SWgkIE
However, if I really wanted to213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyRrtO73YL
I can answer those ramblings213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWMWBa76Cz
As easy as conducting an experiment213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1brocQTpV
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF47DO1r0dx
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FyuoftKHK
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT9Z8WkYMr
"This is all my fault"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2c8y4chkf
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk5KCqMsqT
I have already gone crazy and mad213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XASLX6HVN
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeiGYka2ol
"It is alright"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QFreZ81In
And it became alright for me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYmT8sm1QI
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW3c2Wr4gN
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsF8O5f1dU
Though, does it matter anymore ?213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDR4VRMR7NW
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms0qh1pXmH
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvcUB1eHvn
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Am I the weird one here? 213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eHxw5SSIP
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bgcUqEkyn
Am I the wrong one here?213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcYCrgCObi
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPUHynp5TK
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjjqal0ljz
I have already lost it all
213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT8KxxIl4N"This is all my fault"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2c8y4chkf
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk5KCqMsqT
I have already gone crazy and mad213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XASLX6HVN
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeiGYka2ol
"It is alright"213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QFreZ81In
And it became alright for me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYmT8sm1QI
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW3c2Wr4gN
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsF8O5f1dU
Though, does it matter anymore ?213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDR4VRMR7NW
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms0qh1pXmH
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvcUB1eHvn
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Am I the weird one here? 213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eHxw5SSIP
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bgcUqEkyn
Am I the wrong one here?213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcYCrgCObi
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPUHynp5TK
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjjqal0ljz
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEyY3iRg7K
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn84IIgGmi7
Days without worry and doubts213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMvLuyKGxK
Times that are as pure as crystal clear213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxkXwusupP
I was happy before213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFjihOctWa
And on that day, when the light went off213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHoL0X2DWE
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCWGqJOrqn
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjh4eS30vCJ
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHCME75WZp
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvC6l3EvxU
There was someone who love me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7u66ohsdIV
Taught me unconditional love213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡly2Z033cvF
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn84IIgGmi7
Days without worry and doubts213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMvLuyKGxK
Times that are as pure as crystal clear213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxkXwusupP
I was happy before213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFjihOctWa
And on that day, when the light went off213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHoL0X2DWE
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCWGqJOrqn
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjh4eS30vCJ
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHCME75WZp
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvC6l3EvxU
There was someone who love me213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7u66ohsdIV
Taught me unconditional love213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡly2Z033cvF
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRPYfzwUc5
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning213Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6WzCWaSMl
