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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88Jc72YpGr
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OvTMJSECQ
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnlBzDmNAD
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rCcfQok0P
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL1yy4PCqA
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp5vl6XiYs
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEQmO4nSxh
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaUYsEowfr
One day, I will be killed by myself
240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7DuM71f0CThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnlBzDmNAD
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rCcfQok0P
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL1yy4PCqA
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp5vl6XiYs
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEQmO4nSxh
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaUYsEowfr
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZ7qE0CpVA
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSG5bM7pLlG
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEkFtpXl7B
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUP2X6IDXe
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxX3jZmCey
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpwsRHrU0O
However, if I really wanted to240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8JiyKLAgq
I can answer those ramblings240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ133r4iLc
As easy as conducting an experiment240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoHRG3BAvl
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwu5mjdEqM
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEa6OTKpJp
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEm2iwtTs3Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSG5bM7pLlG
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEkFtpXl7B
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUP2X6IDXe
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxX3jZmCey
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpwsRHrU0O
However, if I really wanted to240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8JiyKLAgq
I can answer those ramblings240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ133r4iLc
As easy as conducting an experiment240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoHRG3BAvl
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwu5mjdEqM
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEa6OTKpJp
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5CNGE6r71
"This is all my fault"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfZzgnWsw0
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb9DwkWO5S
I have already gone crazy and mad240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgO7TYxVRqu
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTwJOVzW9J
"It is alright"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB4MCXlVNc
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With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiIsQXO4pL
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6O8YrzP5Kg
Though, does it matter anymore ?240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmniT9nIGKf
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As my author said, I could not live happily ever after240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNy9x0TBR68
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Am I the weird one here? 240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwsMqjGwze
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Am I the wrong one here?240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oiW0eyaYK
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUTveY2Wqf
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2gH0vUGkD
I have already lost it all
240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ369cKdsWoD"This is all my fault"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfZzgnWsw0
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb9DwkWO5S
I have already gone crazy and mad240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgO7TYxVRqu
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTwJOVzW9J
"It is alright"240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB4MCXlVNc
And it became alright for me240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLezuGpnPvb
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiIsQXO4pL
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6O8YrzP5Kg
Though, does it matter anymore ?240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmniT9nIGKf
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6i9IA46m6
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNy9x0TBR68
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Am I the weird one here? 240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwsMqjGwze
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Am I the wrong one here?240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oiW0eyaYK
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUTveY2Wqf
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2gH0vUGkD
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcpmcqObGQ
Days without worry and doubts240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzM9cyFZT6y
Times that are as pure as crystal clear240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvf2NevsQp
I was happy before240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrh8qAkPuF7
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In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EZHfH0AGL
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbZGDtIkfn
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There was someone who love me240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHtzlxyZAA
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzM9cyFZT6y
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I was happy before240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrh8qAkPuF7
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbZGDtIkfn
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGJiLsJHvk
There was someone who love me240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHtzlxyZAA
Taught me unconditional love240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaroVIMQTIY
She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning240Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxblAsWfP3Z
