This is a set of two poems :3 51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Ft8WEaNLe
(First on love, second on heartbreak.)
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her tears taste like honeydew with a51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPv9mQ0Zk8s
hint of extraterrestrial redshifting.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvdSa4C4M4
she walks with the grace of moonlight51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlg2V2vE5Rg
and has eyes like protostars.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0YY4z0OVo
she’s not quite up to societal standards,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBhJESK43t
and she lives in the future, not the past.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSi4PHnrB0f
i still chase after her anyways,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5Ae7ql5aN
tail wagging, tongue lolling like the dog i am.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8LKDT0eaG
CW: SH, body dysmorphia/body image51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GqvnZKAEV
who taught you to hate?
“who taught you to hate your hair?”51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdtXAhzdSQ
she did, with her idle remarks51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYqCrKdMgU
about how it would look better curled.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtlXwcJI9b
(i curled it into long ringlets.)51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCwzM6ywyF
then she said it would be better short51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWthwxhf8wj
(i chopped it all off with a swiss army knife.)51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXyLkJoW5fa
it’s been bleached, stained, and cut51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHsi8Q4giT
in all manners of ways.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYmTetfCOU
(still it was never enough.)
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“who taught you to hate your freckles?”51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWfkLUE0sT
she did, tracing constellations on my cheeks51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4OpKwD3Tz
with a permanent red sharpie until it looked like51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZ3M8Zi2zz
i had wept thousands of scarlet tears.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VNpxqG2HR
(i spent all night scrubbing it to no avail.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuAOUV9qKN
she offered no help, only a faint smile at my struggles.)
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“who taught you to hate your skin?”51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09YCXD8Vp8
she did, with her languid tongue and51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPOI7vOQJR
knife-sharp jabs. too pale, not tan enough,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvps7q0wgy
she said, running fingers down my arm,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3I02QUyKat
like a vampire, coming to suck blood.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiHThsVIus
(i dug my nails into what made up my outsides51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKrUkFNop4
and tried to pry it off my very bones.)51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEFof1uEZ9
i’m was left with only scars.
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“who taught you to hate your bones?”51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1NBLKR9ZN
she did in late nights spent curled together51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFw8KoYbvu
in the back of my pick up truck, poking51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrlEd0MlXR
and prodding at my body, saying that51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2uVzHRdyQ
i must be pretty big-boned to weigh so heavy.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQwYwOb02E
(i dug my fingernails into my thigh, peeling back flesh51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru9yXPdHKX
until i could claw away at the bone hidden beneath.)51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokihk8zkTC
the hospital tutted and bandaged me up,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQiTY224Dc
and stuck me into a small box with a self-proclaimed51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2HlxPbi2C
therapist whose only job was to make me feel worse.
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“who taught you to hate yourself?”51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAT31Kn117
she did with her loaded gun questions51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlmjyiOTpU
and sketchy answers. late night calls51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIP7zgbfy3
of ‘i love you’s’ and tired apologies51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8noKlpUYEf
when it was never truly my fault.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKy9p0NKsmM
she taught me to hate myself.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovR75cKfCm
(what is love if not another form of hate?)
