This is a set of two poems :3 91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LNGroDuJY
(First on love, second on heartbreak.)
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her tears taste like honeydew with a91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkH7QPIYQ4
hint of extraterrestrial redshifting.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3D4uz0EdJ
she walks with the grace of moonlight91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc6KQwhDRp
and has eyes like protostars.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1e6p4l2XZ
she’s not quite up to societal standards,91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTf9VotnN1
and she lives in the future, not the past.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2P3dnkOvMU
i still chase after her anyways,91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwfsFMVICE
tail wagging, tongue lolling like the dog i am.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViT5GpNneR
CW: SH, body dysmorphia/body image91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Dl4KyO4FZ
who taught you to hate?
“who taught you to hate your hair?”91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7c7Lumi4L
she did, with her idle remarks91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTxh4f9HkP
about how it would look better curled.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcBR4qv9Kl
(i curled it into long ringlets.)91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxTUQEs7IR
then she said it would be better short91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9K74G6dhT
(i chopped it all off with a swiss army knife.)91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcMvMpiyp9
it’s been bleached, stained, and cut91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qRlqnUMwz
in all manners of ways.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Cow79kcAO
(still it was never enough.)
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“who taught you to hate your freckles?”91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMo8EzrGiX
she did, tracing constellations on my cheeks91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z5MaaBJhT
with a permanent red sharpie until it looked like91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaeXUPa8SS
i had wept thousands of scarlet tears.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU2Orj6AHD
(i spent all night scrubbing it to no avail.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA2pM1PolK
she offered no help, only a faint smile at my struggles.)
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“who taught you to hate your skin?”91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYPBO2V7I5
she did, with her languid tongue and91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGGeiGeRsL
knife-sharp jabs. too pale, not tan enough,91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUrhMsufbh
she said, running fingers down my arm,91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TyVCC5bdP
like a vampire, coming to suck blood.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAZvW3zH6I
(i dug my nails into what made up my outsides91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8P7uROtqFy
and tried to pry it off my very bones.)91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofz9AyHIOK
i’m was left with only scars.
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“who taught you to hate your bones?”91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka7oaoX8IB
she did in late nights spent curled together91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqSZdGWDYD
in the back of my pick up truck, poking91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJzJJO0czF
and prodding at my body, saying that91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡua1YanNd7x
i must be pretty big-boned to weigh so heavy.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0u9SzBKl6T
(i dug my fingernails into my thigh, peeling back flesh91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ120PbXl15t
until i could claw away at the bone hidden beneath.)91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQEuwNLDQW
the hospital tutted and bandaged me up,91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFITcEVWaqY
and stuck me into a small box with a self-proclaimed91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmycF97dIi
therapist whose only job was to make me feel worse.
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“who taught you to hate yourself?”91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcq0sb6MxQ
she did with her loaded gun questions91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtJpowEpUM
and sketchy answers. late night calls91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPULoYjSzmL
of ‘i love you’s’ and tired apologies91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Z18NNXVZ0
when it was never truly my fault.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhF6av9NxA9
she taught me to hate myself.91Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERYHOqjzpW
(what is love if not another form of hate?)
