Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmvsIMg7O3
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUT0CQI3u8
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2sO282qCG
I saw what I saw.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2k4rUAeD0
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp9GnopmTi
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlrPZILNiL
But by speaking in tongues.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5jXlJCuTD
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDggrDeNeG
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6wNLL70LG
Not out of fear—but purpose.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBlG52ekJb
I didn’t want safety.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1LOIR5dcU
I wanted power.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppJexTWITg
The kind that stops nightmares.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeVhhqWh7U
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mrnqbWmnk
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzLJCoq6Tv
El.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWJpmpKcF8
The Eternal Light.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PjacqIjIR
The Presence behind all things.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2uOEiZJPK
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrO1SPpeYKH
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9QXdP9xQ2
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSWuas3z9G
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7w0hr8DVv
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpj0lakDe4M
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHxN2jGH5t
And suddenly, without warning—58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMBmXEbYiK
I was lifted. Thrown.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1D9vSrqoVx
Not by violence. By presence.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfm4HYH1YL
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTyFJj9agA
I flew across the room.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUBmtOmXTh
Light.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSMYFMLtBT
White.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdP73bEIMV
Blinding.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCG53AdYwx
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YlQPsGh4v
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAO0vSGnK5
It was activation.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31kObGGwHK
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcVsFQF9zZ
I left different.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHogN46111
More open.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoChuK1YHJ
More haunted.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvNgyWp7Co
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57LUK0PB6M
Not as fire. Not as light.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLrqnvPH0T
But as spectrum.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoodKfevpL
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVsJzUeyBD
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlxSl7y2VL
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt9XNwBlSw
Not with thunder.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviSEClWS51
But with Prism.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8m5uKlOKK
Color so rich it sang.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmq591XcoGo
Light broken only so it could become everything.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkAdXMA1j9
It wasn’t God the Judge.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrPIZW5wYP
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLElzsrHnpF
The Harmonic Source.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetiZE0daCn
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7M5ehUxjx
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAlVcB68eg
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQvLc212X1
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFoJCh6QPY
Before I had safety.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJWXnNG4u1
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6iVfijnqq
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YGw6cLExe
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxhXaYPxNe
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD49qW81kUs
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6vM63NAU4
We were Witnesses.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXwo7lgybV
Builders.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAFtT3f0iX
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7Dt82x5xD
some of us volunteered to descend.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2khohelda
To fall through the light and the blood.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiolWjnxi78
To wake up inside the chaos,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HMtp1CgOp
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhQ6zapxXF
Not to dominate. Not to convert.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl29BA0hele
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4olGeu7pKI
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWqNeKMSFB
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfchtUOqtJD
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32axVV2U7W
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MNUQ6W6O3
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCG7Q7INlw4
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg24nnWYTX
that turns temples into weapons,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdNiZQSTIl
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7v0z0RLRq
It honors difference without division,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uI0zoodMv
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6573pvRhZ
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmPYXC8iNZ
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzi1dseraVH
When crosses were wielded like blades…58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLq4sW6CVIT
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsC6eeyjIbI
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXl3IBhKBa3
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyZVLWot6I
It’s a movement,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5L8Pz2hIEH
a remembrance,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5c8lKxckhM
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwn8MYY3qkl
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57fFvUiyYJ
“No system owns the Spirit.”58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfkcLVC2CL
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Vx6fcAW9G
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6C9OpwKXaO
Not to a temple or tradition,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLPrm0Iexu
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78Lmx0sHdL
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCB6aU5RRC
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1V3D89OVb7
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73CfQQx67P
You rise within.
You remember your name.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbTQgj4tlH
Your soul.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lUlsITkHH
Your origin.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFGC5620rd
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4FIXRQkFI
A beacon for the scattered.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIJA75Lvqw
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8W9w7NmGh
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0k12HnSeOl
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzKaoCHIc2
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tiVJaQGiV
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZPEWZTOHN
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLQLOJ1OwO
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlGIJoy5Q0
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP33x7b7Vkt
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0zKGMoCQf
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E3TU9dFYy
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHcC16vOQK
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2i06uyYbF
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsGvrDGVEq
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzUSaQCVeI
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeI9d2T7IgJ
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaGfEqGEyM
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtkggaPsZE
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.58Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiKG8lgnYS
