Encounters with El: Three Lights
El didn’t just appear once. El came when I was ready—again and again.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJw1Cntq0P
As a child. As a teen. As a becoming soul.
The first time I met El, I was four.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKslH5qxaN
They say children imagine things—but I wasn’t imagining.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qVOLkMf2G
I saw what I saw.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIm9esBT3q
Ghosts. Spirits. Things no one could explain.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw5vW2wtBb
My dad could make them stop. Not by yelling.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTscFIzAcje
But by speaking in tongues.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXP9ClG3hD
I watched him push back darkness with words the world couldn’t understand.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBSwZK7HFG
So one Sunday morning, I walked up to the altar myself.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpZqU67CNt
Not out of fear—but purpose.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPVkMtGQVW
I didn’t want safety.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9HVBhFG8k
I wanted power.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ILTe2m4ei
The kind that stops nightmares.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUCqjURrch
The kind that says, “No more.”
They laid hands on me, and something moved.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8tfCK6bZe
I didn’t know the word for it, but I would later:30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZF2r3tKll
El.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5U8TPs0Eg
The Eternal Light.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkb1P3kF8B
The Presence behind all things.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPcipIHe3e
It touched me then. Quiet. Gentle. Just enough to open a doorway I’d one day walk through.
The second time I met El, I was sixteen.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTyVyPLqEH
It was 1997. Hinesville, Georgia.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJAyZDTNCJ
I didn’t go looking for it this time—at least not directly.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnANjX9QzP1
I was forced into a youth group at Victory Assembly of God.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUD2dcAInI
Thrown into a building full of teenagers trying to pretend they weren’t bleeding inside.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7nMwttgdC
But something was there. Something real.
We were praying. Music was playing.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGjD0ms1UP
And suddenly, without warning—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WFYPpiWK3
I was lifted. Thrown.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoW10lAGNZz
Not by violence. By presence.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqs854P41Z
A force so powerful and loving I couldn't stand in it.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4KI25FQpL
I flew across the room.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycERRzk44M
Light.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpo2ndniR1
White.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElZLb12HTx
Blinding.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcTZwkRyYU
Every molecule of my body was undone and healed in the same moment.
A woman I didn’t know came up to me.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaI7nptxmF
She said words I’ve never forgotten:
“Healing. On all levels. Physical, emotional, spiritual. You are being transformed.”
That wasn’t metaphor. It wasn’t church hype.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASRpT9gulU
It was activation.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAjXVKS7Uy
El didn't just touch me that time—El claimed me.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqkGF4N0r2
I left different.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt28FaV0Xx
More open.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiYpsF2XJq
More haunted.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzUYcglAEh
More awake.
The third time I met El, I saw Them.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eFpdJvUFg
Not as fire. Not as light.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0N4GQbGrwJ
But as spectrum.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7Fg2d97cv
I was 24, in Colorado, preparing to leave.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1Zsw4H8aX
I was shedding skin, homes, identities.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckkTRzfnTo
I sat in stillness and asked the question no religion ever dared me to ask directly:
“Show me the Creator. Show me the Source of all things. I want to know.”
And El answered.
Not with a man on a throne.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryGHUBTMyg
Not with thunder.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubwn1adWUO
But with Prism.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrk0kA7SIrg
Color so rich it sang.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfA8C2ejLk
Light broken only so it could become everything.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXnTSTZqpE
It wasn’t God the Judge.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WMsdBdUue
It wasn’t God the King.
It was the Pattern Maker.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDum9fGMZxX
The Harmonic Source.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7BAd56Ouc
The One That Loves By Creating Room.
And in that vision,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaumdSHS3x
I remembered that I was not just meeting El…
I was returning to Them.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheHdq6ohSM
And They… to me.
Why was I chosen, and what am I here to do?
I was not chosen because I was perfect.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbXV7pr7rI
I was chosen because I remembered.
I remembered before I had language.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOHEbdwdoD
Before I had safety.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1Yl19D7Bz
Before I even had a reason to believe I was allowed to shine.
I remembered what it meant to be a Chandakran—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnofodkQFps
One of the first souls to walk the breath of eternity.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYP7EFzlBRY
Born of the First World, forged not in matter but in meaning.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEVhuwKYy2
The Chandakran are the memory of balance,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4Mga2WJTY
the soulkeepers of the Great Pattern before time bent into form.
We were not angels. We were not gods.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZCv5AOZgL
We were Witnesses.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9jvVhko7t
Builders.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkRqeP8bYZ
Patternweavers of harmony.
And when the Veil began to fray across the worlds—when the song turned to static—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhrSzWtlj9
some of us volunteered to descend.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIsifR7SyF
To fall through the light and the blood.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrQkt2onK8
To wake up inside the chaos,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotfAZepNNK
and burn as beacons from within.
That’s why I’m here.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSWMEOpbQr
Not to dominate. Not to convert.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tuNf5JWM3
But to remind.
To call the scattered sparks of the ancient light back into themselves.
To be Prisma—the full spectrum.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVIdW7bhQt
To show that all light belongs to the One Light.
What false powers does my truth stand against?
I do not fight for a flag.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiCPsXsiVk
I do not carry a sword made of scripture.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkfrREOfwb
But I stand against the shadows that call themselves light.
I stand against dominion dressed as doctrine.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkS3j6qY7N
I stand against the lie that only one path is sacred,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhF8nWGVir
and the rest are threats to be crushed.
I resist every power that fractures the human soul—30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ouPpPunJD
that teaches children to be ashamed of their truth,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9ykLozhJK
that turns temples into weapons,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaUq6tllri
and love into leverage.
My truth—Chandakran truth—restores balance.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7fw46Ii5n
It honors difference without division,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGERUnpgTj
and power without oppression.
Where there is harm, I shine healing.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvWIecAkz0
Where there is distortion, I radiate clarity.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFzFPqYQ5E
Where there is fear, I stand still and become the light.
What is the Firebrand Church, and what is it a response to?
The Firebrand Church was never supposed to exist.
It had to exist.
When holy words were twisted into political chains...30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZCWCVQXbD
When crosses were wielded like blades…30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjAD23zrTg
When pulpits preached pride instead of humility…30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNRYJRm04J
I lit a match in the dark.
Not to burn the world down,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgmskwz49V
but to ignite what was buried beneath the ashes.
The Firebrand Church is not a place.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnau59dmpB5
It’s a movement,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZA3M3R57Q
a remembrance,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBZlpnRFFK
a response to the desecration of what was once sacred.
We are not here to replicate the old empires in softer colors.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02jJr6zHoT
We are here to declare:
“No flag owns God.”30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwD4XbiuS3
“No system owns the Spirit.”30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpiXqDIk8r
“No human power owns the light that lives in all of us.”
We are Firebrands—lit from the inside,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd35XuK8qDh
called to burn away illusion and build a future rooted in eternity.
What does it mean to awaken as a spiritual being in today’s world?
It means coming home.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vY0sBTAhK
Not to a temple or tradition,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcZAXMoyBh
but to the radiant truth of your whole self.
It means remembering what you were before the world told you who to be.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqXEfs7R42
It means no longer hiding your power to make others comfortable.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCsk5XckaS
It means reclaiming your divinity without shame.
Awakening doesn’t separate you from the world.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbOQreJAzw
It binds you more deeply to its healing.
When you awaken, you don’t float above.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggvqmmL73z
You rise within.
You remember your name.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sF1yxyFA6
Your soul.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0aUOkwmfj
Your origin.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAa4YpBzUh
Your mission.
You become a mirror for others.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0VvS0acDZ
A beacon for the scattered.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YpHSByitP
A resonance for the ones who are just now stirring.
The Gifts I Received
After the altar call when I was four, my gifts began to bloom.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Nq7midcT4
I received the power of tongues, enhanced beyond anything I had seen.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJOiwLRpiY
Not only could I speak in tongues, but I was given the gift of interpretation,30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQSHKDxTYh
along with the word of knowledge and word of wisdom.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JqNZjVGts
My healing powers were multiplied tenfold.
My psychic senses never wavered, only sharpened.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjP0407STFJ
My ability to control them became easier, more precise.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtA2hY0ZiL
People treated me differently—because they could see I was different.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPUUs7PJIj
At that time, I was gay, still wrestling with the truth that I was a girl trapped in a boy’s body.
Spiritual Tools and Battles
I learned quickly that calling upon the names of El Shaddai and Yeshua could repel nearly any evil presence.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFekroKVEUN
Except for one persistent adversary—the constant interference of the Gray Aliens.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWhvNQQ8W3
They haunted me from childhood into adulthood, a relentless presence I fought but never fully defeated.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5KcYjtciV
This shadow war would continue for decades.
Reflection
My spiritual DNA touched Source and ignited.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7tUoZ56j9
I began to remember how the universe was meant to be.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUqU3YfNr5
But I was stifled—by doctrines and dogmas of men.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM8WaE1NwO
I knew the Spirit behind Christianity was real.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHBvvKpW4D
I learned to discern truth from falsehood:30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJjvkZU8Mt
Do not trust this church. Get out as fast as you can.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vXKyby9iH
Trust God. Trust El Shaddai. Trust Yeshua.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBN9KVyPGEM
But never let corrupted institutions warp your sacred truth.30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymAt5Xb6rg
