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I’ve seen countless shorts, videos, and comments about suicide.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkcOMPU8sm
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People say: “Think about your mom, dad, grandparents, your dog or any pet, your friends, anyone you know. They love you. So don’t do it.”
But let me respond — from the perspective of someone standing on the edge:
Dad — why don’t you talk to me?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKB6BiSezjf
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Why can’t I remember a single time you played with me?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMcgzmLl7Y
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Why do you mock me, laugh at me, make others bully me?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lQcqKf67D
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Why are you never proud of me?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYizHOjRmZ
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I know you work hard, but is it really impossible to spare just five minutes a day?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSHWHpmCHs
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Or even just two minutes in a month to ask how your child is?
Mom — why do you fight with me over everything?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IdNT1qaQe
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Why do you taunt me, make me feel like I’m always wrong?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk288OFEkxf
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Why did you steal my childhood and force me into the role of a second mother?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1zQeaymrl
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Why didn’t you let me play, paint, dance, or sing like other kids?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNp0cCqGU3X
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Why do you compare me with my siblings until they hate me too?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HqR3VX0gH
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I can’t remember the last time you treated me like your daughter — not your burden.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiC6cpbrMYq
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A smile, a hug, a pat on the head — is that too much to ask?
Brother — I raised you. I took care of you.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcC78uABsz
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You saw me breaking, yet you sped up the process.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX12ivQapcx
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Do you remember how you blamed me for everything, how you made Mom hate me?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvk0vyki6l
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Do you know how deeply that broke me?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIR4rCsV0I
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I tried to protect you — so why did you give me reasons to die?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRh4okmUKz
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Was your hatred really that deep?
Sister, little kid — even you joined in.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKZJkoMMaY
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You’ve changed a bit now, but I still remember.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8t7L8RdoB
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I took you to school, protected you, gave you my chocolates and my love.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCwGdZ0ALI
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So why did you help tear me apart?
Grandpa — you were my friend once. Then I found out your truth.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqts13Gxz4T
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Why do you drink, scream, abuse, and destroy everything?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WmOhfHp5s
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Why did you have to be another man who hurt me?
Grandma — why did you humiliate me in front of the whole family because of my skin, because I’m a girl?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpncUgkZ18C
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Why do you play your games behind everyone’s back?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScpqS1fPQ8
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Why did you become a puppeteer of cruelty?
My two friend-dogs — why did you die so early?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSKCkCgzr0
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I couldn’t even say goodbye.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ01MYl3cNC
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I tried to save you.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulgfSaC0Fz
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I told everyone what really happened.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEoLEfp66l
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They didn’t hit you that day… so did they kill you later?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZh4Nj5hbj4
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Was it painful?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcP0JEC9ap
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I should never have left you.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF6r3DGsKD
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They told me about your death 15 days later.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5jtWQsFpL
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I asked everyone — they stayed silent.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnKk61yOdJ
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Was poison really that brutal?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6tX963W9l
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I went back to that place. A snake bit me.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTcNI2CgIU
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I thought I’d see you again.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFEiHq8X7X
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I’m sorry I wasn’t there.
Principal Sir — you saw my grades for 10 years, my achievements.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJmsbCWtbC
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But not my pain?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLND9pQbqf
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Why didn’t you ask any questions?
Classmates — I don’t even care anymore.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SAaV2Kxbe
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But I remember how none of you talked to me, played with me — for two whole years.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyvgXTmIBg
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You chose silence. What could I do?
My 5th class classmate — you died.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2yCyPzJ3e
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The only memory I have is scolding you.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumPGAhPk5d
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But I also remember your last smile.
Coaching Teacher — I asked you for help.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBiyh9eEWn
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You laughed. You mocked me in front of everyone.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUooJSf2w7
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One month later, I attempted suicide.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TG32Llw2i
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You still don’t know.
To everyone who saw my pain and looked away —40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCo4ZeSEmH
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Why?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgDTk6ustS
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Why did you turn your backs when I begged for help?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ntPNgas9K
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Why did you make me feel like suicide was my only answer?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqRMQ97Skz
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Why am I falling apart like this?40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsQteIWty2
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Why are there blood clots on my body, bruises on my spirit?
So don’t talk online about mental health if you won’t even listen to our side.
Don’t tell us to care about family and friends — some of us never got that kind of love.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBrIeAxGD3
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At least tell us: “You matter — for yourself.”
And remember:
Not everyone is remembered forever.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8f7RsWGfI
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People move on.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5RWblSjrh
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Family is not the same for everyone.40Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ueWS2MZIS
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And love isn’t always where it’s supposed to be.
