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I’ve seen countless shorts, videos, and comments about suicide.35Please respect copyright.PENANADbVBJlvEK1
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People say: “Think about your mom, dad, grandparents, your dog or any pet, your friends, anyone you know. They love you. So don’t do it.”
But let me respond — from the perspective of someone standing on the edge:
Dad — why don’t you talk to me?35Please respect copyright.PENANAzeiGoqOQET
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Why can’t I remember a single time you played with me?35Please respect copyright.PENANACTPKbNBKgQ
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Why do you mock me, laugh at me, make others bully me?35Please respect copyright.PENANAEaKDy1isci
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Why are you never proud of me?35Please respect copyright.PENANAqJkGpHOIFV
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I know you work hard, but is it really impossible to spare just five minutes a day?35Please respect copyright.PENANA4MLjehn8ET
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Or even just two minutes in a month to ask how your child is?
Mom — why do you fight with me over everything?35Please respect copyright.PENANAJQ9qqAMwH2
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Why do you taunt me, make me feel like I’m always wrong?35Please respect copyright.PENANAUjsxA0yS3p
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Why did you steal my childhood and force me into the role of a second mother?35Please respect copyright.PENANAyOOHsnFKjI
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Why didn’t you let me play, paint, dance, or sing like other kids?35Please respect copyright.PENANAHTaswmJvuQ
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Why do you compare me with my siblings until they hate me too?35Please respect copyright.PENANAwQwuDd1l4z
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I can’t remember the last time you treated me like your daughter — not your burden.35Please respect copyright.PENANArOPfgDlBju
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A smile, a hug, a pat on the head — is that too much to ask?
Brother — I raised you. I took care of you.35Please respect copyright.PENANAcaU136rRwG
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You saw me breaking, yet you sped up the process.35Please respect copyright.PENANAqdAbYGo0Y6
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Do you remember how you blamed me for everything, how you made Mom hate me?35Please respect copyright.PENANA2gIJlK0al0
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Do you know how deeply that broke me?35Please respect copyright.PENANAkMKWVR9pi4
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I tried to protect you — so why did you give me reasons to die?35Please respect copyright.PENANAQSJIkdIOw2
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Was your hatred really that deep?
Sister, little kid — even you joined in.35Please respect copyright.PENANA2qELwQEvdB
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You’ve changed a bit now, but I still remember.35Please respect copyright.PENANAeU2ekXBR9Q
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I took you to school, protected you, gave you my chocolates and my love.35Please respect copyright.PENANAQ46bdt0EgT
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So why did you help tear me apart?
Grandpa — you were my friend once. Then I found out your truth.35Please respect copyright.PENANAeaBPy5ZzL4
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Why do you drink, scream, abuse, and destroy everything?35Please respect copyright.PENANAf0DmVt3Zwl
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Why did you have to be another man who hurt me?
Grandma — why did you humiliate me in front of the whole family because of my skin, because I’m a girl?35Please respect copyright.PENANA9uk0eutLp5
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Why do you play your games behind everyone’s back?35Please respect copyright.PENANARw8N601xlV
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Why did you become a puppeteer of cruelty?
My two friend-dogs — why did you die so early?35Please respect copyright.PENANANwxTvjc5CL
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I couldn’t even say goodbye.35Please respect copyright.PENANA2zn6VCdNfd
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I tried to save you.35Please respect copyright.PENANAJP3j6jL7C7
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I told everyone what really happened.35Please respect copyright.PENANAm3YOI3YG7N
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They didn’t hit you that day… so did they kill you later?35Please respect copyright.PENANABi1mrWrLdC
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Was it painful?35Please respect copyright.PENANAl9tCJLbUTc
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I should never have left you.35Please respect copyright.PENANAShC6G6Yr98
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They told me about your death 15 days later.35Please respect copyright.PENANAW3qEDIpDdu
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I asked everyone — they stayed silent.35Please respect copyright.PENANAtL8ufFijxf
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Was poison really that brutal?35Please respect copyright.PENANAoCHFnslf8b
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I went back to that place. A snake bit me.35Please respect copyright.PENANAgqS2POJzjg
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I thought I’d see you again.35Please respect copyright.PENANASSp3Bezs6l
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I’m sorry I wasn’t there.
Principal Sir — you saw my grades for 10 years, my achievements.35Please respect copyright.PENANAJdpTCOpf2f
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But not my pain?35Please respect copyright.PENANAjSbGKfyUa2
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Why didn’t you ask any questions?
Classmates — I don’t even care anymore.35Please respect copyright.PENANAnJHB2H4pzi
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But I remember how none of you talked to me, played with me — for two whole years.35Please respect copyright.PENANA5oibJvE3pC
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You chose silence. What could I do?
My 5th class classmate — you died.35Please respect copyright.PENANA75fvXZ218I
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The only memory I have is scolding you.35Please respect copyright.PENANA2ZmSsqpmBi
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But I also remember your last smile.
Coaching Teacher — I asked you for help.35Please respect copyright.PENANAARsODUlBD0
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You laughed. You mocked me in front of everyone.35Please respect copyright.PENANAb8Ozon3MjG
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One month later, I attempted suicide.35Please respect copyright.PENANA564rx17huf
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You still don’t know.
To everyone who saw my pain and looked away —35Please respect copyright.PENANAY7YmIhZ35L
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Why?35Please respect copyright.PENANADMF1JZwQjo
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Why did you turn your backs when I begged for help?35Please respect copyright.PENANAE9LKfiOWLt
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Why did you make me feel like suicide was my only answer?35Please respect copyright.PENANADbtIrQn0Gh
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Why am I falling apart like this?35Please respect copyright.PENANAMtglQayxNJ
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Why are there blood clots on my body, bruises on my spirit?
So don’t talk online about mental health if you won’t even listen to our side.
Don’t tell us to care about family and friends — some of us never got that kind of love.35Please respect copyright.PENANAfn8NEQo77b
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At least tell us: “You matter — for yourself.”
And remember:
Not everyone is remembered forever.35Please respect copyright.PENANA8qPUCcDQd3
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People move on.35Please respect copyright.PENANA7iu4TKokfH
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Family is not the same for everyone.35Please respect copyright.PENANAoq8MIIbaah
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And love isn’t always where it’s supposed to be.