308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JVvisUTwb
I drop to my knees, my vision blurs through the tears, I hold my side scrunching up my face in pain, I roll forward with my head hitting the floor, I drop onto my side which starts the tears. I feel weak, I’ve hardly been eating. Jason has told me time and time again how fat I’ve gotten, I want to lose weight, I want him to tell me how pretty I am again.
The bedroom door swings open, I lift my head and Jason rushes to my side and kneels, he looks concerned, he cups my cheek.
“Baby what is it?” He leans closer to me. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnOsuwifnT
“I don’t feel too good” My voice breaks.
He wipes my tears and looks to my side. “Pains?”
I shakily nod, he sighs and sits me up wrapping his arms around me, my heart feels like it’s sunk into my stomach, I hear the pounding of my heart through my ears, my breathing grows shallow.
“Baby calm down, you’re starting to panic” Jason kisses my temple. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVT02NFZpF
“I..” I struggle to speak. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFw58GpJHVn
“Sophie what’s going on, you’re worrying me” He holds me tighter.
I hide in him. “I haven’t been eating much, you keep saying how fat I’ve gone, I’ve been wanting to lose weight, I want you to tell me how pretty I look” I break down in his arms.
The air in the room is enough to suffocate me, I feel like I’m losing my mind.
“Oh baby, you are pretty” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTevgiIWJB9
“Not what you said to me” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5z4K2pZcQ
“But it is” He leans back.
I sniffle and he cups my cheeks. “You are beautiful, I don’t know what you’re on about, I’ve never said you were fat” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegApmt64VI
“Y-You did” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYCKuRWN2e
“No baby girl...I haven’t, don’t starve yourself, you’re perfect to me, you must’ve dreamt it”
I crawl away from him. “You did, t-the other day, you said..” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKaXQvAJzp
“Are you feeling okay Soph? Do we need to get you to the doctors? We have two daughters that wouldn’t like to see you like this” He takes my hands.
He pulls me to my feet. “Get yourself together okay..I’ll cook some dinner, watch the movie with the girls”
I nod my head, he puts his finger under my chin lifting my head pecking my lips then spins me. I spin back to him, I open my arms, he chuckles. “My nugget, come here” He lifts me up.
I hold him close and close my eyes.
“You’re my angel” He quietly sings. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoGwg9BJxd
“Don’t sing that” I sniffle with a small smile comes to my lips. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcNTEUUsei
“Please, you love it” He chuckles.
We get to the living room and I stand, I walk in and see my two girls. Maya looks up with her warm brown eyes, she smiles at me as does Ellie, I sit in the middle of them, they both cling to me, I kiss their heads.
“What movie girls?” I say quietly.308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprc20BcCeJ
“Ellie choice, this stupid singing pony movie” Maya cracks a smile.
Ellie laughs. “Is not stupid, mommy it’s amazing”
Maya laugh. “Oh, mom come on look at it! Why the hell is there a singing rainbow and this unicorn, poops gems! This movie is like drugs without the drugs”
I laugh and hold her closer.
“What’s drugs?” Ellie leans forward tilting her head. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aTwZ9eMPM
“Ignore your sister” I push Ellie away which makes her laugh and crawls on my lap.
Maya grins and I softly chuckle. I turn my head to the door seeing Jason watching us three but I don’t know what he’s thinking. I smile at him, he gives me a half smile then walks out. I pull Ellie closer to me and gently brush my fingers against her cheek.
Jason hasn’t been in the living room in a while. I kiss the girls heads and stand up. I walk into the kitchen and his lips are pursed, gripping the counter, he slowly turns his head to me. I slowly walk to him, the tension grows with every step I take, he can be so unpredictable. I never know what will happen. I stop by him, I go to speak and he slides his phone in front of me and snorts.
“Someone tried calling you, about that job, the job I said you didn’t need, the very one you said you’d tell them, you were no longer interested” His voice darkens which each point he makes.
My heart clenches feeling guilty, he slams his fist on the counter. “Do you take me for a fucking idiot” His jaw clenches. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJhisqAvZ6
“No-”308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnV2j52lO8
“So why huh?” He throws his arm to the side making me flinch. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTHD46f5sh
“Why wha-”
He scoffs and rubs his mouth. “Why did the man say that he was able to rearrange the interview for next week when it suited you better why because I’d be at work?” He chuckles but there is no amusement in his eyes.
Maya coughs, we spin and I smile.
“Everything alright?” She asks. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhqaekZmKH
“Don’t ask stupid questions, go back to watching the movie” Jason pulls me closer to him.
Maya snorts. “Don’t take me for an idiot, I heard you and mom arguing again, Ellie is crying”
I push Jason away and quickly rush into the living room seeing a tearful Ellie, she sniffles pulling her knees up. My heart breaks seeing her cry because of me and Jason, I walk to her.
“Sweetie” I pout to her.308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbp9KpoxZR
“I don’t like it when daddy yells at you mommy, daddy yelling is scary” Her voice breaks.
I lift her up, she holds me tight, I wrap my arms around her closing my eyes, I hear steps, I flick my eyes open, Maya pushes past Jason who is stood there.
“Can we go back to watching the movie?” Maya chuckles.
I nod. “Be nice” I sit back down and keep Ellie close, Jason walks out, you can hear the thuds of his heavy footsteps going up the stairs, showing that he’s pissed right off.
Night has fallen, the girls are sleeping in bed, the house is quiet which is unsettling. I go into the kitchen for water, as I get it, I spin and squeal dropping to the floor seeing Jason right behind me. The glass breaks, water goes everywhere.
“Do you like turning my girls against me or something?” He kneels glaring. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjauHpRlFY
“No..”308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ751elN8Qa0
“Don’t fucking lie to me. I saw how you all were together” He grabs a fish of my hair pulling my head back.
I bite my lip to refrain myself from making any noise.
“Let me go” I whimper. 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXUamdo3yQ
“Why? Does it hurt” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPQknd9z1D
“Jason please” I break down.
He pushes me back. “All you do is fucking cry” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvh34F1hWSi
“Jason stop it, you’re scaring me, I hate it when you get like this please, don’t you love me” I cower from him.
He pulls my hair again, I burst into tears.
“Yes I love you Sophie but you make me do this, I’ve given you the world, don’t you love me?” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPDpjQaoJq
“Of course I love you, I like it when you’re happy, smiling”
He pulls my hair harder. “Jason!” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQ6HTGWQ01
“Then why do you have to fucking lie all the time, like you want me to hurt you, if you just behaved, do as I say when I say, we’d be okay but it’s you”
I see a bit of the broken glass.
“Baby let my hair please-”
He pushes me down and I cry out in pain and I sit up grabbing my hand, the glass has pierced my skin and is stuck in my hand, I pull my knees up. Jason snorts. “What you get”308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLMLavipRg
“Jason h-help..” I cry.
He grabs my wrist and pulls it out, I squeal and blood runs out from my hand over the floor.
“Fuck sake, Sophie! If you didn’t drop that fucking glass!” He snaps slamming his hand on the cupboard door behind me.
He jumps to his feet, he searches for something. I lean my head back with tears falling freely down my cheeks, the more I’m crying the more irritated he’s getting.
“Will you stop your fucking crying!” He snaps and kicks my side.
I yelp and he kneels with a bandage and ties it tight wrapping it around the wound. I try to pull my hand from him but he keeps my hand there.
“Jason that’s too tight!” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYH21TzJWw
“Did you yell…” 308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QqxfflAnp
“Yes, I did that hurts baby please!” I plead with him.
But that does nothing. If anything it makes him madder. I don’t know how long this goes on for until there’s a knock on the front door, we both turn our heads.
“Who the hell” Jason mutters standing up.
I force myself up, I limp to the door, I brush my tears away. I turn the light on and stand near the door. Jason opens it and my eyes widen when I see an officer.308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5oWuiqzff
308Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnk3bkEYlg
