九月二十八日，子晴靈魂消失的第五天。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSk1I3fpbYv
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「快起床！要遲到了，咳！咳！」老媽的聲音從客廳傳來，略帶沙啞的聲線伴隨著幾聲乾咳。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxolWsjapDn
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那深具威嚇的聲音把我從睡夢中喚醒，茫然若失的感覺使我一下子徹底醒了過來。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgfpxlbICW
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為了避免老媽的嘮叨，即便完全沒胃口，我還是拿上一塊麵包，出了門。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeu6VAbUYo
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上學的路上，昨晚的夢在放空的思緒中趁機而入，至於夢中情節，在昏沉的腦袋中只剩下模糊的片段。或許是回憶中我們相處的某個節點，微小或盛大的時刻。甚至這夢境遺留的痕跡，或許只是我由思念編織出來的幻想也未可知。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zfvc9vT7f
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不過這些已經不重要了，因為我深刻地意識到了一點：夢境在有些時候是讓人愉快的，特別是當沉浸其中。但如果它不適時地出現在現實，原來夢中的美好只會把現實中的痛苦無限放大。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnyt2BxHLs
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我能感覺到從痛苦源頭散發的能量正源源不斷地匯聚成焦慮的情緒。那是和小白死去時一樣的感受。循著這近似的情感軌跡，我發現自己似乎在慢慢接受她消失了的事實，即使我內心是無比抗拒的。但縈繞著的不真實感在慢慢消退，宛如黏附在鏡子上的水蒸氣受熱風吹拂而蒸發。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpvLwdJhOl
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我試著把昨天的見面當作是我夢境中消逝的某部分，直到她那張空了四天的課桌再次出現在我眼前。那畫面像是在清晰地告訴著我，這發生的一切、昨天的見面、她的消失，都是真實的！49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPSkPEQ0G5
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秋涼，教室內沒開冷氣，開著窗。我坐的位置靠窗，樓下操場正上著體育課，發出的嘈雜聲起伏不斷。坐在前面的程志楓轉頭找我聊天的聲音，沒有引起講台上生物老師的注意。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfrSgExrUj
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「又是無聊的生物課啊。」他裝作看窗外的風景。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa869MgM1x6
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「怎麼又遲到了？」上課前他的位置還空著。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8iH8tniat
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「還不是因為輕鐵塞車，我一向準時。」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil2qH2kynM
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「是嗎？」我不以為意地說。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjYgMgV9pb
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「哇，年輕真好。」他的注意力被樓下的女生吸引住。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXxTpYRnRh
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我看向遠處郊外的小山丘，視野邊緣飄進來一朵雲。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0khmg1VMGn
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「子晴的病還沒好嗎？」他悠悠地問。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW879Qbmmnj
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「嗯。」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXnP4fCnEw
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我沒有把子晴靈魂從她身體上消失了的事情告訴他。太荒謬了。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw1BovQr2O
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至於為什麼他問病好了沒，大概是我意志消沉時胡亂說的，以致沒有半點印象。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuTmJpeFAs
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「認識這麼久了，也沒見過她怎麼生病過嘛。」他說。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzEjXnrQxN
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「對啊，我也搞不懂怎麼突然就......」未完的話語哽在喉頭。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4pDkALMqI
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「已經兩天沒上學了，不會得了什麼大病吧？」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXxNmgv9wI
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事實上，子晴沒來上學這件事還沒引起同學們的注意，原因是她雖在星期五就缺席了。但是由於緊接著禮拜六日，初中生的記憶往往會被週末的間隙重置。所以子晴的缺席，在同學腦海中的印象中也不過是第二天而已。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93vNfkSVbM
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「應該沒事吧。」我應付道。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jm71LYVFb
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「應該？」他語調上揚，說著瞥了我一眼：49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoHuQSbBqF
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「你可是她的男朋友，應該要清楚吧。」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GvVTLv4it
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「......」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Zpg5uahhJ
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「聽過「男友力」嗎？最近很流行呢。」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEMUR0vyQ5
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我默不作聲，他便接著說：49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBJW2bB5UR
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「上次曉琳感冒的時候，我的那杯熱薑茶簡直是殺傷力十足，你真的該好好學學。」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHD50IzIqu
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對於吹噓，他毫不吝嗇地把聲量提高。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAc1pUmRbV
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「......」49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPdOfJEeua
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「雖然很難做得像我這麼面面俱到，但你也該做點什麼吧。」他忘我地把頭扭了過來。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9flxfvndCo
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「......」我迴避了他的眼神。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yTGQ87uko
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「你該不會是忘記我們當初的約定了吧？」他見我眼神閃爍，更加肆意地說道。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pMdSy1fpH
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這時生物老師已經走到了他身後，生物課剩下的時間，他被罰在教室門口聽課。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcIm2Yb7Xj
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我當然記得，那天的約定，可是還有辦法延續嗎？我看著藍天下那朵憂愁的白雲，想著。49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JSe3mjyoS
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