Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPWTqkSXaJ
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEUa4my9KI
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR56yZykD3
It's been four months since that day.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnO9DaFbAc
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqMRJnpvQx
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYcLcea8yq
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHRW2lc9TB
Only loneliness.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PiCWLzysD
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfbtkFc5PI
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WQr4MopOZ
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NLJvjkl0n
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5bchFgYpM
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDyWL4Nff7
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJ4zigMPqA
They remind me of home. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBFz3hpaxc
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAqpq9WZ8q
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKyiL40IpA
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteE4hLKPjM
I don't want to be here. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAS1bkV3Cy
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMshOBLtLT
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02BVnknt7a
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcBpy5sSa6
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibyo8gdD4H
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVyjhyfwAB
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULQGFywumu
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WyotZE3JC
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7P1lIZE1f
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMQLVHIGez
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDJB5mx3bH
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoUBaVnPRX
I want it to make sense.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO9NvS8x6S
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaWwbwvvsN
The PaperGarden.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV9qp4Txk6
To be Continued...752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikRgaiB8YO
