Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRC9lUdEuv
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXsBg7gOHy
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5HeKK2uae
It's been four months since that day.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVeCbWUnan
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8ZZgQRkNt
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5Op0esFJT
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAL3jnDMI47
Only loneliness.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uAWvgT2B3
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60nPD3jFyh
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpZ2BBF680
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGLQxpMeRa
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VVIKXwqJp
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjOJCQ6b0R
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HBr0KDT6H
They remind me of home. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfgKryhYrK
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBnkOqzNy5
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUt7C7Q2V4s
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgvnIZBw0c
I don't want to be here. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4T8CfKE5Q
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7bZ3dAsBs
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwtsib0Fi3
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrTZcDL4kg
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YNWW1D0HV
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcQwNpOS0C
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5dLLX44YV
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9gPDPesIy
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSkZeb0DV3
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOFgIkyEcp
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjegLYf5MYL
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApIDWRJl6C
I want it to make sense.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdE0vQ2gqb
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbr9O4mJAZm
The PaperGarden.729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFto8othlk
To be Continued...729Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1LnL7L7N5
