「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvAhcVHZdV
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXYZWWiTdJ
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTXN3OcAhJ
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幼小我的父母就離異，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvHUSpfTcP
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOIoxBk3Xy
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對母親的記憶還是有，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJdkIl4oqL
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記得她很常酗酒，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJpPHy9Aof
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後來的日子，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG72EenCPXF
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvxsYRCyxE
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忙於工作的他，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3UPqbXRii
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oxUUsisgW
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到了上課時間再直接上課，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pHB04g5Uo
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksgwLzGaQU
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRjRnVihNk
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRJzg5bhZa
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAGTWJA8Yy
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgqAWHrZ7I
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父親工作的地方不一定，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqEeqJ40vx
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輾轉的換了三所小學，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS6a85NDhz
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx4PyQmA9L
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他開始會喜怒無常，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLGaoyMGSM
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zWarVZBc0
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXlhm89qhI
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很小我就與異性交往，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Y5lKDf87b
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed5WuvkE9o
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1jvs0QyZg
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTkFWPixgn
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我會睡在工地，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfQuRYOXLl
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkKKo43fUJ
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJbl4jCOTB
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VDGlwRyTA
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他開始會講貶低的話語，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIv3kBWspK
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那些原本用來工作的用具，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNzcJ0GNE8
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6d0ybwmBl0
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuuVJqStnH
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSfuWndmPN
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo2uLiMtKL
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要我轉告給老師，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjE23xMSpjz
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3Pb2K63NW
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xW2aBFp0A
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkn5MhIjmtT
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yRz1tKXq0
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細細去回想每個片段，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQBXDqI2HW
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCafIzLjfxa
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTROozo5uE
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡun3PyiORJQ
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3QIocRaU9
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJhH02l3c6
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbYxlHV7Mo
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1Wptj4ucn
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyjwpuFAF0
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhUvYH7ZPD
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbY7GugIpv
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ662PxPu6As
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正準備吃下第一口時，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYFaaMTGPs
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatPidRa6cv
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHrzkOB2jh
