「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,320Please respect copyright.PENANA5HEavcGVmX
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,320Please respect copyright.PENANA8vODG5wpZz
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,320Please respect copyright.PENANAvN1Wgi2QaE
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幼小我的父母就離異,320Please respect copyright.PENANABtDw2nXON5
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,320Please respect copyright.PENANAqjuDen6yDv
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對母親的記憶還是有,320Please respect copyright.PENANAVjcSFyWlmW
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記得她很常酗酒,320Please respect copyright.PENANAkDCLxkHnPM
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後來的日子,320Please respect copyright.PENANAeH1CwrubMx
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,320Please respect copyright.PENANABckjxfOU2z
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忙於工作的他,320Please respect copyright.PENANAcRaHPlKXal
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,320Please respect copyright.PENANA8R1ZhXqaW3
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到了上課時間再直接上課,320Please respect copyright.PENANA5A0cpbDwv4
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,320Please respect copyright.PENANADxx4GJzGAb
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,320Please respect copyright.PENANAmvbax2bKgN
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,320Please respect copyright.PENANAvinbFQMxTL
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,320Please respect copyright.PENANANPQDGTvyYn
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,320Please respect copyright.PENANAxnFdAPnuDQ
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父親工作的地方不一定,320Please respect copyright.PENANA4rKK34arfS
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輾轉的換了三所小學,320Please respect copyright.PENANA1MRNJav0rR
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,320Please respect copyright.PENANAz09jxX7iqp
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他開始會喜怒無常,320Please respect copyright.PENANAk8S1mjTyOY
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,320Please respect copyright.PENANA9i8SKbBULb
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,320Please respect copyright.PENANApm2L1ZuJey
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很小我就與異性交往,320Please respect copyright.PENANA1zp1rdPjL1
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,320Please respect copyright.PENANAvMoXXfAXow
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,320Please respect copyright.PENANAza4gaA7H8d
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,320Please respect copyright.PENANAQInDQ4AZG8
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我會睡在工地,320Please respect copyright.PENANAnwFRTQhsDA
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,320Please respect copyright.PENANAilytiTgjgi
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,320Please respect copyright.PENANAMLOwQkAAHd
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,320Please respect copyright.PENANA1HInAQ0q7N
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他開始會講貶低的話語,320Please respect copyright.PENANAX2JPwssATM
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那些原本用來工作的用具,320Please respect copyright.PENANA5Mfm0LjRJW
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,320Please respect copyright.PENANAtmvDPazSEN
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」320Please respect copyright.PENANAree8CAv4kp
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,320Please respect copyright.PENANAgFZPX4fJb6
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,320Please respect copyright.PENANAXGmEEN7cko
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要我轉告給老師,320Please respect copyright.PENANAw0qdMd6jZZ
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」320Please respect copyright.PENANAqs9uV0Nl5h
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,320Please respect copyright.PENANAyicORRlvm4
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,320Please respect copyright.PENANAKWi9iqUeAM
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,320Please respect copyright.PENANATzgWVNOi6A
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細細去回想每個片段,320Please respect copyright.PENANApNSvIffALv
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,320Please respect copyright.PENANAfxwRndyfBc
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,320Please respect copyright.PENANAuKr9hmFkkl
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,320Please respect copyright.PENANAL3o6KWTWFn
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」320Please respect copyright.PENANApjnkTw6HdT
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,320Please respect copyright.PENANAosmz3AJEh2
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,320Please respect copyright.PENANApnkHtagwCi
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,320Please respect copyright.PENANABgk6EGOaih
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,320Please respect copyright.PENANAXfo9VbpnC1
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,320Please respect copyright.PENANAhQIlfWvp3p
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,320Please respect copyright.PENANAoWribIZ2LY
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」320Please respect copyright.PENANAWxG8SQWJNl
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正準備吃下第一口時,320Please respect copyright.PENANAOLYPyQrBeU
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,320Please respect copyright.PENANAraTRWpkuCB
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。320Please respect copyright.PENANAwqGI8vvk9z