「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,318Please respect copyright.PENANAVWqrYEiIgT
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,318Please respect copyright.PENANA2JwaXOJuAk
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,318Please respect copyright.PENANAdXrJnJ0hG2
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幼小我的父母就離異,318Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2r2aCMNmd
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,318Please respect copyright.PENANAo7wLwQRdRM
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對母親的記憶還是有,318Please respect copyright.PENANASJRdgDH23t
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記得她很常酗酒,318Please respect copyright.PENANACzSADPn0j7
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後來的日子,318Please respect copyright.PENANAWZ7WYczdnG
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,318Please respect copyright.PENANAohdFI0FnNV
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忙於工作的他,318Please respect copyright.PENANAXurpH75Iz8
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,318Please respect copyright.PENANA7114qWFBLl
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到了上課時間再直接上課,318Please respect copyright.PENANACgjP36UACd
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,318Please respect copyright.PENANAEetzTI6zQb
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,318Please respect copyright.PENANArMbUSjA9pS
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,318Please respect copyright.PENANAn1u2oSrQI0
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,318Please respect copyright.PENANAF9zV8sgwhO
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,318Please respect copyright.PENANAixFcDzRKVG
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父親工作的地方不一定,318Please respect copyright.PENANA8mZjrzXXa8
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輾轉的換了三所小學,318Please respect copyright.PENANAegihiWdWCm
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,318Please respect copyright.PENANAsewYuIYm3h
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他開始會喜怒無常,318Please respect copyright.PENANAlWqbyRnHaP
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,318Please respect copyright.PENANAh6AoUG3wJP
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,318Please respect copyright.PENANAbygwicEZvE
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很小我就與異性交往,318Please respect copyright.PENANAlBfzdY1QuM
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,318Please respect copyright.PENANAGl9L9Wyr3K
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,318Please respect copyright.PENANAkRsNFNc4w7
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,318Please respect copyright.PENANAtVbESy6F0b
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我會睡在工地,318Please respect copyright.PENANAfoK1twYRIq
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,318Please respect copyright.PENANALBkeZPGJML
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,318Please respect copyright.PENANAm4rxQcThXo
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,318Please respect copyright.PENANAktUQyfDj0B
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他開始會講貶低的話語,318Please respect copyright.PENANAtk4Bj5DOdl
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那些原本用來工作的用具,318Please respect copyright.PENANArA6cX2G2vU
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,318Please respect copyright.PENANAE1lHnJIevV
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」318Please respect copyright.PENANATVCWJgoWYW
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,318Please respect copyright.PENANAKfPJjAQzeP
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,318Please respect copyright.PENANAFKHPumggd6
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要我轉告給老師,318Please respect copyright.PENANAWfZpzIOvKj
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」318Please respect copyright.PENANAmaXRjeFuRu
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,318Please respect copyright.PENANAqANgxpAKR1
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,318Please respect copyright.PENANANBA1cEQ8yP
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,318Please respect copyright.PENANASorfNI0hGn
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細細去回想每個片段,318Please respect copyright.PENANAmEvCTXe03f
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,318Please respect copyright.PENANAxYWKI8pGl6
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,318Please respect copyright.PENANAbQjMw7yU1Y
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,318Please respect copyright.PENANAThjoM5IE9h
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」318Please respect copyright.PENANA5jggQYEKfX
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,318Please respect copyright.PENANA4j5GEBEodn
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,318Please respect copyright.PENANAGfwLQSKf6g
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,318Please respect copyright.PENANAPLUEg21L9c
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,318Please respect copyright.PENANAUEeNwiar8H
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,318Please respect copyright.PENANAeGDJT2ZyTY
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,318Please respect copyright.PENANABkEicX1NDU
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」318Please respect copyright.PENANAwqei269pAR
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正準備吃下第一口時,318Please respect copyright.PENANAhG3BGcbX2C
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,318Please respect copyright.PENANAH6PBC3HGaQ
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。318Please respect copyright.PENANAuW2OzN9sHA