「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WggOh1Lm2
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXw2aaHteR
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bbLvnv0G8
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幼小我的父母就離異，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ95oVsX0uQ
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkz65LgAgsE
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對母親的記憶還是有，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOg59eavcZ
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記得她很常酗酒，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6GeL2mMsn
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後來的日子，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLRzMdJ0iO
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zRYOfgRNX
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忙於工作的他，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmmaUs7eSF
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuV8DbogeK
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到了上課時間再直接上課，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTcpDLLPTT
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkJ9AK51Xb
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinOA0cqfuu
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaNOuLA6hG
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdf0IbJMftm
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3KzDFiGOn
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父親工作的地方不一定，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg80TjZvLKu
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輾轉的換了三所小學，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHstEEGslg
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfGlRrZ9VG
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他開始會喜怒無常，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ocaWIVy9h
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6N9gEWi8J
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqvIbtJak9
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很小我就與異性交往，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDNmAoWdkO
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GfL0zDtMv
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWKSekUFvn
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFx6lFV3Lj
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我會睡在工地，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJllKn3F08n
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sJxj2lZ3M
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdE95HXZdze
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5l7lUbCwr
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他開始會講貶低的話語，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBO2Kc4PCD
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那些原本用來工作的用具，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhwW8MESSN
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj94zaOwikV
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8fc2x5Y09
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMPgwzoUlH
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYEFJUnsXG
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要我轉告給老師，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkjdazDeEn
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kfhw273ox
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcSS7SJBwE
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsSm3r166B
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufhhlrcAdK
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細細去回想每個片段，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMT8ALrMwV
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp1XeakRaz
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MSAcDUTfd
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDrHiPUqsc
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlc0optJkwF
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKunQEQda5
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZjcdN8Orl
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHpiIQCrJB
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwKwsDIVz4
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaCwJbgkFk
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKaBUrSvXm
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHScyX8yVC
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正準備吃下第一口時，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWK45aS55M
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvq3zkdGtd
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkD0JPI82KX
