「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPubVWG8ROQ
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlRUTIMEix
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8tMBqvdXF
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幼小我的父母就離異，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPq9m3EXQ2
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZmUrmtIMJ
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對母親的記憶還是有，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfBgZslhci
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記得她很常酗酒，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡca0vBdLkfQ
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後來的日子，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEck1MxV3T
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZKUCjtWaJ
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忙於工作的他，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgLm2syBog
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwn3Y3PwFBF
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到了上課時間再直接上課，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjfvNcG2w5
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6Bh7GSdQh
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwqBozZwwj
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXnhIEFfwi
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhK1tyEUh1
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeM6jw2uAJI
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父親工作的地方不一定，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMItREDyjJ0
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輾轉的換了三所小學，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Dd0AM0pQ1
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsyM4NbLon
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他開始會喜怒無常，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqISmxLVOQ
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3uaIudyXo
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUF2D7uklYG
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很小我就與異性交往，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVwfaNJGIk
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQP9hZFViey
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEKNrKHlg0
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HRzcpqODa
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我會睡在工地，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1Kd5TUXCh
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyacqFRyDyE
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyz2JGMlBRX
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXI9N23HEjR
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他開始會講貶低的話語，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaigB1kk6Mq
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那些原本用來工作的用具，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL47bT1KFpt
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsAAN08elD
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrV3Y3PMFu
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOttKle2il
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9RFLFLDQQ
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要我轉告給老師，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEYrlVRHrU
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdp2LmMHHFw
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdefoVDz1nI
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0ZbHxq63P
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzFZsr1PH2
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細細去回想每個片段，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLpMdzVuLF
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19YyAqfakn
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnitWw69voS
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ggj9VdB4K
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdU1vL91CYx
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4Cn6RExE2
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrAvXeZg3g
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCirEA5aXW
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3jEKiW5sI
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsNWmIaTu7
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSOw7yJwsm
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46t0WEZI19
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正準備吃下第一口時，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckUnn1G3ph
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtFtLnLJS3
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAk0SR5jc7m
