「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,331Please respect copyright.PENANABUX3qCIPjk
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,331Please respect copyright.PENANA64Sp1genCl
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,331Please respect copyright.PENANARBmehwXiXV
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幼小我的父母就離異,331Please respect copyright.PENANAaxlrT1jqE3
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,331Please respect copyright.PENANA5sJ0bOEAAZ
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對母親的記憶還是有,331Please respect copyright.PENANAynYfgff0d5
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記得她很常酗酒,331Please respect copyright.PENANAQWO2VJvGHa
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後來的日子,331Please respect copyright.PENANAyX6HCz30FN
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,331Please respect copyright.PENANADFPq0RCbsb
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忙於工作的他,331Please respect copyright.PENANAjSr4eMaILq
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,331Please respect copyright.PENANAteHXwlNJSO
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到了上課時間再直接上課,331Please respect copyright.PENANAyX6HH708SZ
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,331Please respect copyright.PENANA8NTybmh8uA
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,331Please respect copyright.PENANA1k8hoyccYe
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,331Please respect copyright.PENANA0IFKElTc6T
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,331Please respect copyright.PENANA8FxZWuX4cd
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,331Please respect copyright.PENANATfpIKwBDd4
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父親工作的地方不一定,331Please respect copyright.PENANACELjNuTZs1
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輾轉的換了三所小學,331Please respect copyright.PENANAM8fWSAZ1i8
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,331Please respect copyright.PENANAXACcVt8qCc
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他開始會喜怒無常,331Please respect copyright.PENANAg46VYQg9rQ
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,331Please respect copyright.PENANABmCQngG3U5
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,331Please respect copyright.PENANAGeGVBJdSRh
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很小我就與異性交往,331Please respect copyright.PENANAKYs1AYcp1h
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,331Please respect copyright.PENANAcjW0cPdXIP
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,331Please respect copyright.PENANAiTOGric5Wc
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,331Please respect copyright.PENANAwEIqdnLEoD
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我會睡在工地,331Please respect copyright.PENANAfn7erZ8w2n
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,331Please respect copyright.PENANAQeC4Z5TEE2
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,331Please respect copyright.PENANAMfoAp4UtqR
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,331Please respect copyright.PENANACgPIry8PpV
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他開始會講貶低的話語,331Please respect copyright.PENANAlHQxqqZkf6
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那些原本用來工作的用具,331Please respect copyright.PENANAFXaGZ9Dk40
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,331Please respect copyright.PENANAam5ACfnxTN
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」331Please respect copyright.PENANALLiPj5cf63
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,331Please respect copyright.PENANAqs7t00RY0P
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,331Please respect copyright.PENANAbHrCcyfMdE
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要我轉告給老師,331Please respect copyright.PENANA7BU4NVjkO1
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」331Please respect copyright.PENANAzgUJYtCYZF
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,331Please respect copyright.PENANAgTm7UaGTyv
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,331Please respect copyright.PENANAC1KFQdiQW6
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,331Please respect copyright.PENANAapwwC0lRYX
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細細去回想每個片段,331Please respect copyright.PENANAF8omo4mp33
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,331Please respect copyright.PENANAzDUVYpZpht
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,331Please respect copyright.PENANAiSTOx2uIm5
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,331Please respect copyright.PENANARctzTwYLnB
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」331Please respect copyright.PENANAtVhLgEGnDh
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,331Please respect copyright.PENANA15lt2Tqirn
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,331Please respect copyright.PENANAnMsVHLjYzM
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,331Please respect copyright.PENANA9bRhX3Eejg
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,331Please respect copyright.PENANAF7n3FaNNvw
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,331Please respect copyright.PENANAme52qaB3v1
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,331Please respect copyright.PENANAr0Fo8wpZHT
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」331Please respect copyright.PENANA1uP8qOcZAP
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正準備吃下第一口時,331Please respect copyright.PENANAaa57B4SeYZ
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,331Please respect copyright.PENANAl6ksNBYGKG
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。331Please respect copyright.PENANA6g8CfLumQC