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早上起床的時候肚子發出飢餓的聲音。我打開冰箱看著眼前的食物,盤算著想吃點什麼,大腦卻下意識地開始計算起熱量。這種感覺有些難受──當你已經夠足夠飢餓,卻因為擔心攝入的營養過多,導致你什麼也不敢吃,失去進食的慾望。198Please respect copyright.PENANACBWMPxHNCA
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不知道到底是吃不下還是沒敢吃太多。沒時間讓我猶豫太久,我把分量不多的食物一分為二,囫圇吞進肚子裡後簡單收拾一下自己便趕著出門上課。198Please respect copyright.PENANAdXSo3qqoeG
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「咔」一聲,跟我同時間開門的是隔壁房的硝子。她似乎是昨天熬夜熬得太晚,走出房間時整個人還是懵的。我們並肩走在通往教室的路上,炎熱的夏天變得遙遠,時值秋分,放眼望去,蔥綠的草木變得枯黃,我竟也難得在這匆匆過去的日子裡感到一絲愜意。198Please respect copyright.PENANAd3fVwR2PMu
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說起來,自入秋後,咒靈也有減少的傾向。到了冬天,肯定會更少的吧。198Please respect copyright.PENANAaOihwwLINp
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我把這件事情告訴硝子,她也忍不住贊同地笑了起來。「真好,冬天很快就要來了哦。」198Please respect copyright.PENANAIJwIxxcuLA
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「真期待呢。」198Please respect copyright.PENANA3I86jms5Tn
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過了寒冷的冬季之後,我們就要升上二年級了,很快就會有新的後輩加入高專……這樣一想,過去煩悶的生活似乎也變得可愛了。猛然冒出的念頭使我心驚──原來我也會對未來有所期待嗎?198Please respect copyright.PENANADjxQnSMMnA
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我想了想,意外地發現加入高專到現在,隨著跟同期的關係步入佳境之後,我似乎也變得開心了些。198Please respect copyright.PENANA5iQqyQK3k0
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「你怎麼突然慢下來?快遲到啦。」198Please respect copyright.PENANAfmMiz8Tgql
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在沉思的期間,不知不覺已經慢了硝子好幾步,我抬眼看見她咬著棒棒糖,聲音裡有幾分催促意味,眼神卻沒有絲毫不耐。198Please respect copyright.PENANAquLB5qaBV4
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來啦。我笑起來,跟上她的步伐。198Please respect copyright.PENANAv8RPoAv1dG
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──真好呢。198Please respect copyright.PENANAfkjVtEMzj0
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……如果這樣的時光可以再慢一點、慢一點就好。198Please respect copyright.PENANAQyrXs6bkEs
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下課之後因為大家各自有事要做,午餐沒辦法聚在一起吃,只剩下我跟傑。我婉拒了他的午餐邀約,用別的理由塘塞過去了。198Please respect copyright.PENANAEgykfP3bYo
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傑上下打量我一番,最後猶豫著說出自己的猜測:「……你有在吃飯嗎?」198Please respect copyright.PENANAZvuAcGd1Hi
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欸?「怎麼這樣說?」198Please respect copyright.PENANADN3gC6MNGw
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「瘦太多了。」他說,指了指我的臉頰:「感覺臉上的肉都凹陷了。你之前腿大概是這個細度,現在變成──」又比劃了一下,「這樣吧。」198Please respect copyright.PENANAxFHcacr6uc
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「……怎麼感覺你現在說的是悟會說的話。」我跳過話題,誠實地告訴他此時此刻我複雜的內心變化。原來夏油傑偶爾也會這麼失禮嗎?198Please respect copyright.PENANAINTwJGeFvY
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「抱歉,這是為了你的健康著想。」他被我的言語逗笑,問我,所以你要吃飯了嗎?198Please respect copyright.PENANAXjJQ96U5qU
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他想了想,補上一句「我請客」。198Please respect copyright.PENANAQbkyVh9AGP
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我們最後叫上硝子一起去吃燒肉。作為在場唯一男士的傑自動自發地拿起夾子開始幫我們烤肉片。198Please respect copyright.PENANAYSxzMLjgdd
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好香。我吸吸鼻子,但又覺得有點不敢吃。熱量太高了。198Please respect copyright.PENANAvRabKGcBhj
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「所以你是遇到什麼事情沒有胃口吃飯?」198Please respect copyright.PENANAWPGTt5ZALB
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硝子放下從自助吧那裡拿來的食材,語氣不鹹不淡。198Please respect copyright.PENANA3lr2cthh3E
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我「呃」了一聲,如坐針氈,感覺肉都不香了。198Please respect copyright.PENANA5XzGxcom2t
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「沒事,我等你說。」傑也像個好心人一樣笑咪咪地將肉片放進我碗裡。198Please respect copyright.PENANA3OrB8VcVrl
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……我咽了咽口水,老實招來:「就是……我暗戀悟。」198Please respect copyright.PENANAt1fNorgOAh
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「你喜歡悟!?」硝子的飲料差點噴出來:「你喜歡他什麼?」198Please respect copyright.PENANAkPWeu6w72X
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已經是第二次被問到這個問題了,上一次傑也問我圖他什麼。198Please respect copyright.PENANAHYRWqOnAP3
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我困惑地反問:「我喜歡他這件事很不明顯嗎?我還為了他學著做甜點跟打扮自己。」198Please respect copyright.PENANAl1ZFO5wPEf
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傑手裡的肉「啪」的一下掉在桌上:「你是說……你學化妝是為了悟?」198Please respect copyright.PENANAgOIPb07BGl
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「我以為你喜歡的是傑。」硝子面無表情陳述,我看見傑的臉上閃過一點尷尬。198Please respect copyright.PENANAg57s0svuTt
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那你們誤會還挺大的。我嚼了嚼肉。硝子由衷佩服我的毅力:「我以為你做這些只是因為自己喜歡……」198Please respect copyright.PENANAxGUCwsIlDo
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傑也有些愣:「做甜點還可以理解,但我一直以為學化妝打扮只是因為你剛好想學。」198Please respect copyright.PENANA51sbNIKfkz
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不是的。我說:「我做這些都是為了他。我想要配得上他。」198Please respect copyright.PENANA41JD9lTRjI
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我喜歡他視咒靈如螻蟻般不可一世的模樣,喜歡他張揚的笑容,喜歡他拿下墨鏡用外表優勢撒嬌的小心機,喜歡他吃甜點時露出幸福的表情,那是他發自真心的愉悅……應該是說,從他第一眼用倨傲目光打量我的那時候開始,我就喜歡他。連他上次捏我的臉把我粉底抹掉的樣子,我都覺得很可愛。我說。198Please respect copyright.PENANAnLsVgyyD20
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「你是被虐狂嗎。」硝子開始懷疑是悟下蠱給我,所以我才這麼瘋狂地……癡迷他?198Please respect copyright.PENANAyXj5xGa41q
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不。「只是剛好因為是五條悟,所以什麼都喜歡……跟家世無關,跟外在的、優秀的條件無關。就算沒有這些,我也會很愛他……我甚至寧願他平庸至極,這樣他就不必承擔人世苦厄。」198Please respect copyright.PENANAPnzVqLtCBu
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五條悟是我出生至今唯一一個喜歡的人。我只想把日月星辰都捧給他,跟他說,看,多襯你呀。198Please respect copyright.PENANAa8i4DbC2Vq
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我跟兩人說我曾經聽過的一個故事。有一個非常懶惰的人,儀容不整、蓬頭垢面,住的地方凌亂不堪。很多人嘲笑他,他也絲毫不在意。直到有一天,一個朋友送給他一束白色的鮮花。為了配上這束花朵,他把長滿灰塵的家裡整理得一乾二淨,將自己的外表梳洗修飾一番──就這麼一束潔白的鮮花,使他整個人和環境都重生。198Please respect copyright.PENANAoXbt8eoZ0K
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「悟對於我而言,就是那束花。」198Please respect copyright.PENANAq3Y2MuXUYE
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硝子原本想說點什麼,但最後只是拍了拍我的肩膀,說,吃飯吧。198Please respect copyright.PENANAFV9vi4N7me
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這場聚會最後以悟姍姍來遲作為結尾,他沒趕上我們的聚餐,正走在我們前頭抱怨著一定要陪他去吃點別的。198Please respect copyright.PENANATQpFCseNWy
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我跟硝子落了幾步走在他跟傑的身後。棕髮少女側過頭看向我,嘴唇微微動了動。198Please respect copyright.PENANAlmLngrt9Xr
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我聽見她的聲音。198Please respect copyright.PENANAtBcZR80Iyn
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「──你喜歡吃糖嗎?」198Please respect copyright.PENANAgrsexZVbFt
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喜歡。我說。198Please respect copyright.PENANAdkZqTomEoC