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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的,但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。45Please respect copyright.PENANAmVcnooX9tM
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著,聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。45Please respect copyright.PENANAA50gx6DQMB
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後,她像是想到什麼似的,問:你……打算怎麼辦?45Please respect copyright.PENANA7ApZYfpV2w
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。45Please respect copyright.PENANAKVzxGjM4TA
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她看著我的眼睛,說,不想當咒術師了嗎?45Please respect copyright.PENANAwdIARK4A5O
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口,「我不知道該不該放棄。」45Please respect copyright.PENANApvDYXJ7NuA
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「為什麼不?」理所當然地反問的同時,她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我,就像是想探究什麼似的。45Please respect copyright.PENANATu6hr4bwAU
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情;於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖,最後又重新咽回腹中。45Please respect copyright.PENANAuTOnwYjyoA
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。45Please respect copyright.PENANANM3VAsPrbT
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。45Please respect copyright.PENANAfGrsGsAoJY
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體,雙手插進白大褂中。45Please respect copyright.PENANAlW3Ps7UwWJ
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAbN9P64pzVq
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句;態度平和,一切尋常,就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。45Please respect copyright.PENANAMIwxI43wTU
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「硝子。」我叫住她。45Please respect copyright.PENANA185oo4lvL9
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我,視線於空氣中交會,表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。45Please respect copyright.PENANAY5oOAdALVY
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎?」45Please respect copyright.PENANAfdSG8l6UG8
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌,然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。45Please respect copyright.PENANAa4eEuff6sm
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下一秒,熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的,柔軟的身軀,緊緊地擁住我。45Please respect copyright.PENANAx8w35O1kDq
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下巴擱在我肩上,她什麼也沒說,只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。45Please respect copyright.PENANAO9TD8EWpen
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。45Please respect copyright.PENANAnf9JQBWhsu
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。45Please respect copyright.PENANAFGfoaohka9
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「對,我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭,我好脾氣地應和。45Please respect copyright.PENANANwGDJwWa74
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「你們都是。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAu9BAmDfKQL
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「……他們是,我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來,只能勉強開口否認。45Please respect copyright.PENANAR2eeLhJz1L
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAXp6ys5Q8AN
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「……好吧,我是。」45Please respect copyright.PENANA2hR7YOceLe
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和;我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手,試著學習硝子的動作,輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。45Please respect copyright.PENANA0IzGpXL8kq
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。45Please respect copyright.PENANAzg6KNFi32z
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偌大的醫療室裡,只餘她小小的啜泣聲,和衣肩上暈染的濕意。45Please respect copyright.PENANAQLD5rOgusP
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯,很快就止住眼淚。45Please respect copyright.PENANAwup2wvxCP8
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因,反倒是我自己先按捺不住。45Please respect copyright.PENANAK9e3lgJS8f
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「你不問嗎?」45Please respect copyright.PENANAGU2dFSDkBb
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角,反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味,一副「你看,這不就自己說了嗎?」的樣子。45Please respect copyright.PENANAjq99iiVUih
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。45Please respect copyright.PENANAFKIwla6KRH
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「好吧,我只是覺得……」45Please respect copyright.PENANAMQ3wfwTmM5
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望,我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話,大概就要變成陌生人了。45Please respect copyright.PENANAc2DgCiVjL2
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合,而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。45Please respect copyright.PENANA2gFmI3m6gh
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「──我不接受。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAZCAtTgifuN
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硝子沉默幾秒,無奈地笑了笑。45Please respect copyright.PENANAnogWIoCuej
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」45Please respect copyright.PENANARhWbUULZez
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「欸……欸?」什麼意思?為什麼突然扯到他?45Please respect copyright.PENANA3vHa3FlCz2
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象,這你清楚吧?硝子問。45Please respect copyright.PENANAs11KREApJj
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我點頭,疑惑地反問,「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼?」45Please respect copyright.PENANAxWCv18UXMn
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「是也沒什麼,都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過,「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事,把五條嚇壞了。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAJtZkJrP02v
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……我突然有種不好的預感。45Please respect copyright.PENANAn9jeZtGCFg
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「硝子,等──」45Please respect copyright.PENANA871WOKj8oY
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAKpFHDRu8fh
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。45Please respect copyright.PENANAJHzcYtm6rm
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「你幹麼?」硝子問。45Please respect copyright.PENANATS7PtlCcLw
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「退學。」我要退學,就現在,立刻,馬上。45Please respect copyright.PENANASz8XtI8isy
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。45Please respect copyright.PENANAJoDx5iI3ga
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「你別──」45Please respect copyright.PENANAt4tFWcmmxs
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她把我按在床上坐好,強迫我繼續聽。45Please respect copyright.PENANAk6l6CryRCl
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我好想逃。45Please respect copyright.PENANACMQSBZGnYi
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手,說『好可愛的貓!』,然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦,他頭一歪閃掉了,變成親頭髮;還有一次是抱住他,用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」45Please respect copyright.PENANABNlrdfN3JW
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事,最後如此總結:「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAA7bUUId9mG
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道,感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來,聽見這話直接反射性問:那他幹麼不跑?45Please respect copyright.PENANAq8fGSarsnm
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……問完的時候才意識到,這種事情好像也不是他要跑,是我要離他遠點才對吧?哪有檢討受害者的道理。45Please respect copyright.PENANANmb2CidWnG
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想到這裡,我站起身。45Please respect copyright.PENANA1u9gte2dDS
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「你要退學了嗎?」硝子饒有興致地問。45Please respect copyright.PENANAaZNFci3yXU
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「對──不對、不對。」45Please respect copyright.PENANAirvl3hGqdb
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面對她疑惑的表情,我語氣平靜地說──45Please respect copyright.PENANAFYztInbcGZ
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」45Please respect copyright.PENANA4B3S9L1Pb9
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。45Please respect copyright.PENANACDUBcBA3dP
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很想大修,但是這篇已經兩萬多字了,不太好改,大概要等之後比較有空吧(還在忙考試ing)……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。45Please respect copyright.PENANAFHCM59P44B
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結(好難),可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。45Please respect copyright.PENANAgm3qTN3yOZ
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祝閱讀愉快。45Please respect copyright.PENANACN3EzxDQlH
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240306 梔涼|匿名交流單
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(一個後續)45Please respect copyright.PENANAPPN9hMe63C
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問題:請問兩位現在的感想是?(高舉麥克風)45Please respect copyright.PENANAd7BEtKDxsp
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主角(臉上打馬賽克+變聲處理):不想活了。45Please respect copyright.PENANA0Llmg9JTeL
五條悟(離線中):(還在躲貓貓)45Please respect copyright.PENANA4DazqvzMZE
路過的家入硝子:沒差吧反正是夢遊啊(無情嘲笑)45Please respect copyright.PENANAyNcuDO81Fa
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。