「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfywcnJs03t
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0UDPNjC5a
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgwvL36cnJ
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幼小我的父母就離異，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTmycuSjvG
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9waVT2Xkz
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對母親的記憶還是有，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kVCYcgymc
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記得她很常酗酒，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUDZor3uWZ
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後來的日子，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNPw7woOuc
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3X775b9XQ
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忙於工作的他，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzeYpj472e
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLfEEeFTvA
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到了上課時間再直接上課，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweOCujJlwt
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeozc0gpRo7
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHsAThXkop
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qakteF2e8
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KhKXXm09r
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeVLSvDKuo
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父親工作的地方不一定，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvM9CYUBDM
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輾轉的換了三所小學，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Vd4xlJSux
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFUMzwZ4VO
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他開始會喜怒無常，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZTPTTXgyT
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nE2a9vYx8
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfUcC4czhU
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很小我就與異性交往，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7OhGFGdZ6
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKkpvMafn5
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmF1V9dv1N
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCg5rFazwpg
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我會睡在工地，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxD7540BB6Y
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEow87kJIC
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcD9ekhsvNY
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7tUDm5nU7
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他開始會講貶低的話語，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLARa5OGnx
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那些原本用來工作的用具，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9On5Gx5sQ
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mlWkJPykN
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC98SziQlS
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSg0LlEQ9VH
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4zbzhuJ9Z
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要我轉告給老師，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Aye9xQBx7
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0Z7UG0uwH
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9R942gxyuR
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxJNe7leaP
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrA0okA691x
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細細去回想每個片段，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijnzQSUX99
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc4eBxLJyK
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtczJPTPrQI
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXTf5Rpfhw
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwXImzMcEN
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdINgzdSj7
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMcDobZDqB
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2SqwsCLp2
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyP3dc3jqdU
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIKyfQIHG8
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3qMQjm0yt
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP60cfdmmR
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正準備吃下第一口時，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWX5qVQFpP
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDq8SkrXu5W
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。672Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhdfsO6Bn6
