「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,314Please respect copyright.PENANAu2xf1ewvcb
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,314Please respect copyright.PENANAGjMnDCaxc8
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,314Please respect copyright.PENANAAzaTsQ5kpL
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幼小我的父母就離異,314Please respect copyright.PENANAXBsePv6ZGr
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,314Please respect copyright.PENANAhzgKrAhLMo
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對母親的記憶還是有,314Please respect copyright.PENANA1amNfrXDJi
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記得她很常酗酒,314Please respect copyright.PENANAAOstzDMxIm
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後來的日子,314Please respect copyright.PENANA9qsV2UYmfD
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,314Please respect copyright.PENANAjEDGYhj6wO
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忙於工作的他,314Please respect copyright.PENANAuXHgSqmxo7
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,314Please respect copyright.PENANA7bWnVJGlTK
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到了上課時間再直接上課,314Please respect copyright.PENANAvHcv1rKO0S
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,314Please respect copyright.PENANA6fXDxOmuez
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,314Please respect copyright.PENANAbzgMbYAWnM
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,314Please respect copyright.PENANA6FSKlxn7XE
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,314Please respect copyright.PENANArsAUI3Wl98
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,314Please respect copyright.PENANApFKiMiVyTS
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父親工作的地方不一定,314Please respect copyright.PENANA65FnhRVQpV
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輾轉的換了三所小學,314Please respect copyright.PENANAZAMmmw7amb
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,314Please respect copyright.PENANAHCd2Vlsp6p
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他開始會喜怒無常,314Please respect copyright.PENANA0X5VcKSdyS
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,314Please respect copyright.PENANAgSu56v1wdj
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,314Please respect copyright.PENANAPoP3F0rCED
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很小我就與異性交往,314Please respect copyright.PENANAKAHWeANDnZ
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,314Please respect copyright.PENANAjq0RgZnpZZ
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,314Please respect copyright.PENANAho8lrl72KE
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,314Please respect copyright.PENANAfSANQzCRyA
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我會睡在工地,314Please respect copyright.PENANAZFFSaP9ILz
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,314Please respect copyright.PENANA6TjPifbgsm
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,314Please respect copyright.PENANAeiEL3axslu
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,314Please respect copyright.PENANAE6iLraK6Nl
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他開始會講貶低的話語,314Please respect copyright.PENANAFJJ5diWHkG
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那些原本用來工作的用具,314Please respect copyright.PENANAyl3B9XkELZ
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,314Please respect copyright.PENANAjlJTGGApPp
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」314Please respect copyright.PENANA0eFY1iEF9A
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,314Please respect copyright.PENANAsgF8eqExaP
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,314Please respect copyright.PENANApeu8taOQeg
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要我轉告給老師,314Please respect copyright.PENANAoQ2php5rPr
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」314Please respect copyright.PENANAOYkvPWCl9C
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,314Please respect copyright.PENANAW11UP6wVKB
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,314Please respect copyright.PENANAg9qVKLkzOt
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,314Please respect copyright.PENANAatcPmlVL3S
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細細去回想每個片段,314Please respect copyright.PENANA6imUNAgqQG
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,314Please respect copyright.PENANAHM4Wm9TbpR
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,314Please respect copyright.PENANAYMXhjrC1rm
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,314Please respect copyright.PENANAw2dotlSUvk
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」314Please respect copyright.PENANACyBMhtuHkk
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,314Please respect copyright.PENANAj8Hz9l4FDg
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,314Please respect copyright.PENANAYR3PmrlWwu
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,314Please respect copyright.PENANAHKac1FeZbx
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,314Please respect copyright.PENANAZxFn5UEdRh
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,314Please respect copyright.PENANA0HvnfGjNiY
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,314Please respect copyright.PENANA1T83ammTXR
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」314Please respect copyright.PENANA6KlCtRhGaC
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正準備吃下第一口時,314Please respect copyright.PENANAIsJopN7FFC
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,314Please respect copyright.PENANAAgHVItDMJm
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。314Please respect copyright.PENANAVFENpCX4Ok