「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CsXLOaggG
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDdCcJ9jYY
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHr3xZlMjY
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幼小我的父母就離異，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEamjw8o9vE
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PwKG79JvJ
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對母親的記憶還是有，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpH3guA3kV
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記得她很常酗酒，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8D7di2ANk
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後來的日子，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xEtqpnzgV
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVWsg5FYg6
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忙於工作的他，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1NgWCqkzs
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzfYzjuyQ8
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到了上課時間再直接上課，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaw700E79JH
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKalMJnKHhz
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKMtKUzWvB
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCv7DXdFDO
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcS7HDHfzDu
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDx09LM9jx
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父親工作的地方不一定，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6hOFGhP3g
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輾轉的換了三所小學，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsj44wu1zi
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdInpjtRyIo
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他開始會喜怒無常，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUK3IytcFR
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9W9MNRUeTY
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMqAesGILU
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很小我就與異性交往，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyXBEGL8mH
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bkodGd2ly
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNr1upnb7lG
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ieUMW0dIW
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我會睡在工地，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo22ckNxE04
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDYrkZZDxQ
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp2k1G6zWl
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXiVmfLHOc
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他開始會講貶低的話語，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrpgd4kCfm
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那些原本用來工作的用具，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET3eIV2Mow
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgPyON5ZXv
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KAiPeD10o
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74NdZWDCYX
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrSkI1aEfp
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要我轉告給老師，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3y3KzdzM4
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g5GyK3CYv
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzu4KqNQtu
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxX4ylLqCS
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1zmX8qkuT
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細細去回想每個片段，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZXxhyJj4c
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1RW2imvvL
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmzmaKeNoa
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmiXHsBfHg
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquySgLBdzs
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD4xh3pK5R
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXok86GbcX
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIefjdZ4Ed
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtTFdx7umU
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ng5ZooWCs
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3qBdVbAby
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHHftJvCR9
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正準備吃下第一口時，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7BIIzRmMo
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DFXQgNe1r
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。751Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNXbkCR9vo
