You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgpKRnReJV
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHy05rApud
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqLLFiwTqq
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfFeYBqLaM
"I just want to go home," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa15uVqxIHR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6QH8AagC2
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y9Ao4Gs1p
Father sighs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5eLzCzM65
I say "I don't want to stay here!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlRdTQqrTi
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o4ThHltxg
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZiAxQAHy5
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yKkUEdw9X
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjRdVciiWl
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWVxdy1ktj
"Pet, come down from the tree."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pK3FtByq0
I stay silent.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcI0LoNV1x
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmbJesoVqD
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YcQulj14s
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFoFn27iwr
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwlGj99eSg
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0RGtznfIF
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIOQmpeVy1
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRGm3OrydG
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4ziKV0hSY
I say, "Please don't hurt me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjR4Vt0w0Sm
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr5nyQ60qb
I say, "Please don't!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZp8McVu9jv
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1i5xDoaOf
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWbIa6YCYn
"You'll find out soon enough, child."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2jz89rviE
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyFKnwKYPA
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2YGpLrq3f
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmS7p3oSWQn
"Are you ready, child?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhA1GZdjEK
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3OignNtsL
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpcr1DmSzs
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I say, "Okay.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgmzhsWJcV
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitXoqfSGDt
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3wcyt6tUX
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgGj3DSINi
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmluz2UysZ
Father says "Good. Stay there."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mt7md6V1j
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdgZRzaoLQ
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbs5yYmgcH
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQuSG1ur6x
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbF7CDYYfJ
"Please!" I whisper.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszTj04agPR
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zNLbIEaFC
I scream loudly.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxFAHTt1Ct
My scream echoes throughout the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZ8Y79UDgA
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ga3ymnWg0
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhPUZFVUmV
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvd5EaamSr
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqLPIpKpkG
I say "P-please s-stop.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoaH8k2skd
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57jC3sXhRD
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHA39xxpRv
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0L3S6GC5n
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUwR0TCfSm
"Look at her," another says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7XY7ux129
I say "Please leave me alone."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhp8rw3liv8
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrbIUo9skz
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UXFxO3YP5
"We'll see. Let's see."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZavL6BwU2
I say "No no no.." They laugh.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxm13I4MrQe
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlR6RbDoZnL
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZT9FGeCRn
They untie me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7rWxq0E0Q
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06Pdqn2osC
"Ah... you're up," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjg6cR95eYH
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1so1bOIF4
"Where were you?" he asks,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEtBTXmbal
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8MZ67o95D
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcdFneV2KG
Father smiles.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9dsiC0uMz
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeACCV44y1k
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aGwqoYuBc
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fzVM2iSTS
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvTyioEu6C
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFKlQFfFSo
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExEpr7hIQS
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNUSBqwdd1
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpvyEC769V
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ghNheCPqG
I say, "Please let me go!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDM2OTQ5A6g
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmrVDFLBi7
"You will," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsy1QZ9cFJ6
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7248ZhHGlU
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80VCI6TRwQ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPOc9UeEOp
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jTOhD3Any
"Stop crying," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XRPdfWbL2
"I can't!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzCVM9bBhw
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPymTxCbDb
"Stop it!" I cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH4C1QTAyN
"I said stop it!" he yells,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKcuaNPnpg
"I can't," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJcfi8T2MW
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsp3dl3sVl
"NO!" Father screams.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTQ8oO5AXl
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJe1c173zD
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMju1I7NI2f
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3tj62wPDB
"I would. I really would."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyvSWwBmyA
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO9zPW9Ti7
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYM5SiZ9gZQ
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHVs9ecmnq
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYm39ZvlTF
I say, "No I'm not!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlorh8iLRgb
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAw7E2t1A3I
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWAYQ9vB0j
I say "No I won't!!!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmRPpVDw0U
"You will!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaxoJEnLWZ
"I said NO!!!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7m5x59fhM
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipvMOehvfu
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡow2fszXsu8
"I know you will," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XmTh6MVv3
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHgmR1tRjC
He says "One."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXjTZ8QMyQ
I say, "I'll do anything.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwupZYwrJd
"Two."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcHCIeGzuM
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzz3W1MnLC
"Three."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHsYc940bR
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTng9VwpHQ
"No, don't do it," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQTTIxi6D1
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXexugmOl9P
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34Oi0YmYJ4
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hAcXXn57p
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5Rx5WGMog
I say "Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b7aHTeHX9
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8Ub9coGLT
"Yes," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnX9sP0rpD
"Good girl," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU05659S7Cs
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1nUOKYm4h
"I won't," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSZzG8p7gy
I stay tied up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8r03pbWGZ
"Now," he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTIhG0KpXc
"Kneel."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehX1V1DZXA
"Please," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA9aVzuArX
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJAOjOrjxH
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxbozmHZPv
I just know it.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH3vqByYFV
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MINZdYt0Y
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWgKJdQzcY
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlST2wvdask
I'm all alone in the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMcFxfeGDH
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I hear the door open. I look up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBdXbWQpZg
"Hello," a man says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCmQQbcHId
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIQDJETIan
"Hands behind your back," he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzrQK8PYVf
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu6PSPujLg
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc33bdNELfg
"Stay there," he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcKXfE6tlF
I stay on my knees.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaPXqycJ65
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiKmnezCx4
I say "No no no."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnMk6vEePz
"Do it," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5ZZYNn3Ws
I say no. He pushes harder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvXyY3b6Lk
"Do it!" he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH02xXJKylt
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7V3fMGjJvr
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkIeLlev2P
"Stay there," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86YPdi3kf4
I stay on my knees.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQAICEB9S0
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zfgtf1ycQ
"Stop moving."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm06vJfaxFl
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm9MUu9BU4
He pulls it out of my throat.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4w3lhpage
"What's wrong?" he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN6rfe0SnW
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiDxMFWbGs
"What?" he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmP1lNqFac
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWHLiayzpy
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ672w2CDTXt
"Is this too big for you?" he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDWL07HJVv
I nod.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAqtg501gm
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4Jscbx9Zy
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IaW20ngLK
He shoves it back in.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1zJAsYqu1
I decide that vomiting once is enough.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡununj6wNnC
He shoves it in deeper.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqdHcWpvP9
I struggle and fight.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6XBL52N86
"Stop fighting me," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEMvvNUqsP
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUkx6ExkZo
"Get dressed," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ne8p3EyH5
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjsWN2q139
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEnL6lu4Mm
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XFx4KahHZ
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9m2HBipU0
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku2Tazj8nC
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5PjVGV6bd
I say, "Where's dad?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6l5Jrmzv8T
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QpjXRMxA2
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLVzKnHVIF
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsakAyuJi9T
My father says, "Where have you been?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsCHgQxfES
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUkMGyk6eB
"Did they hurt you?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAMon1Q11j
"Yeah," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jJrMBGMhj
"I'm sorry."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrS8kCTuL4
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMCSX85CgH
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinyWbhyLkk
"Is Allie in here?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pMZ2BDctv
My dad says, "Yes, why?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavQ4H3kmEj
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVXy9ug8ou
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcOS7p9ZzZ
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEVuz133I0
"No." I respond,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNRJxJM5sI
"Can we come in?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV36VpKfZna
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9BsDIpLwu
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJH7uECpdZ
I say, "I don't know."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfQ9J3atTp
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5alQByuFZK
"No." I say,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6xH6oGgQ3
"Are you sure?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YGDmh6FRu
"Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLdEpl0cFf
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkK3kPzybu
"Did he give you any food or water?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WbFxqQ4DG
"No." I respond.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMJOWtj8oX
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN82yTN9kSq
"No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHRJmue6eC
"What did he do to you?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzp8U1PeGG
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxIKTRn5Lr
"Did you fight him?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyImf5dfJf
"I tried."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0GoZNvrxT
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73Z76XdRAC
"I think I blacked out."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS0poSuI8m
"I see."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHOYxUHAg8
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyipFqQa88
"And how long were you with him?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb3FrCZvZR
"I think about ten hours."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHXhRXBY8c
"And you only just managed to escape?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmyTYfHmB8
"Yeah."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTqc554DXQ
"Do you know where you were?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqK152l5VDt
I say "No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAxzoeGIaE
"What is the last thing you remember?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe75LhcbIO
"I remember walking down the road."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvHB3Z0Azs
"And then?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde6nCjYz3I
"I don't remember."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzzJPVplF3
"Do you know how you got away?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1riiHOIifb
I say, "I just ran,"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx80z2iohgT
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyATVRpcLzg
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1KeShKrFA
I say, "So that's how it all happened."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BJvlBd4LP
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwCXGiGnGT
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tFKn9kOQx
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygB6QlBDh2
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYC1J93wx7z
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6mgOEfuaq
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2rEd8krV8
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53FBidwDCi
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ubbrkeU6K
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YIG32Uh5y
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRknZyJCS8J
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTP7iStozC
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz52u5wzqZo
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKyj8aNNUn
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzl5gYhx2r
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy6sNv40UL
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcPm1gDhzA
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjF6gDVC5mS
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n5FlqWez8
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DfJ5nVhcJ
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsOgWv4fGj
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEORADhPZ3
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYCZS4Mnct
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVrdTwK1kp
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFufPZWTzkf
"Get up." he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSweNKWu4OY
"Why am I here?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6pIcvaLhV
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxLuAA1PtB
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI58I4MahOC
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9xeXNfDFv
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbhxfQ59hn
I sit down.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sJ6uaXjfY
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjze4ewsBFi
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIdFs9GJJP
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiuax9McBI
I say, "No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TK1XY6W4o
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdsS2hwT0n
I respond, "Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Y5TtlByCK
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkpwUAFZcY
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxhtgkBDZL
"Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTf2eJEMmJ
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCHovV39w8
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeNNseTJIe
I say, "Hi."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQ4mKBihES
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtnDkQMcKX
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49lpATinI8
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWMSnOpWs3
"Right away," says the woman.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwGVtgXwXe
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuajc5QO9ug
I say, "Okay."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqWYYOOvCy
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EIcYDjkPk
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSOOPN6m2T
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSqSTvCHJ3
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9wue58Czu
"He kidnapped me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzgWHjBTQo
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1fZtegHSI
I say, "He tried to stab me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJ6jby6Ycn
"Who was he?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4u047K4Qb
"I don't know."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtIFfBi8mY
"Where did you get the knife?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0xxVNubtL
"He had it in his pocket."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrWYc7CbOc
"Did he threaten you in any way?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqk2Z7H0K7H
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9CSzBE9nU
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtknvUM4Ntr
"No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QVB15BhXS
"You sure? Think hard."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0XGHEhjf2
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriNDocNG7T
I say, "He killed my father."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6oTmWfFMp
"What?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡus5WLoV28h
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVoY2Rx57H
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlRX5Uypqg
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwpdjdN5Ni
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11WkqLcjqP
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYRc8TzdZl
I say, "Okay.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLHZPnwhGc
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9DbUsoxNy
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykhc6HAgVJ
I follow him.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSvBAjZtd9
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡem3iTgcrhp
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3URIh0sl6
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFynWNLbxJG
"Alright. Take a seat."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ypYF5rWoT
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZBKzgyVYO
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5M9JvlHI4
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡai0eDLJruz
"Yes.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGpgxErbXq
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9l2SmztVN
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vXpL828Ee
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5VPTTncYH
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYmKJRPqSI
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vIWPLo04U
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBxG0toqDw
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJK7UVXVJd
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisZIM9wTtL
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrq9ggZBZv
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XQS7Zaiyh
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHOwrWUyB0
"What is it?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZxaJFXuYV
Doctor Kessel says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmagG9qmJT
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdGoYY41Nd
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5GL7cQstD
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXog3ca3ty1
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zokPVFW0y
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFYUtp2Fff
The nurse shakes her head, and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHGtmG2Crg
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkyMzC9mBV
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTV30SiOF1
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HvqU4vUgU
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJjzKkjAFh
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4yPOcOhwX
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGygYklhFaa
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2wUpEGWr9
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eleYWpqi9
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0PoaA4wPo
I say "Where am I?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gbWBAOXHp
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGaook2YKl
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhean0YUC1v
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrouYAJjK7
I say, "I want to see my mom..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iuI0WOlFc
The nurse interrupts me and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ODYnG4Lgf
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nGloC7rw8
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsfIbZmfDX
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtZqJsHmQd
"M-mom.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcP7f096uO
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdT2PpZKTy
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlhx3jAqDC
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHwPmqnltq
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8auy8r7v3Y
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3spexevtxx
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGwOyS76If
"Yes.." I say quietly.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL71GsRtl4V
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbd0mvkODfC
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3CeE0G9oR
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLhOyFzWup
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DZEwMqLmN
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr44itzxFJE
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8UNfYJsuw
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9JkZBn4kY
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumgUOO2Tpj
I say, "Okay.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA67GEIRa6
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssJAL8RNRh
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AiO3VERqH
I wipe the tears off my face.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiuieEPr5Z
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDQx53WBv4
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg64L0TedhJ
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9IFSH6K6W
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0reKVOTPvf
I say, "Tell me!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IHYSBWpnT
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfGjh0nQN6
My heart drops.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxzyqjRhpn
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst6j9B7voz
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In the morning, I get my visitors.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8d83LkURPI
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD7VpYpQmk
I say, "Wait!" She stops.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfQgLBwoJz
"What is it?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvULac0qyqK
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TEp2DbtSF
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0DYrisWA8
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z9SefiyIh
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PlU1kUY63
I cry myself to sleep.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqDv6E4sfb
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Hp6mZ3tqz
"How are you doing, honey?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8Xto8nGIp
I say, "Horrible.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPXr1Pc2Jw
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY3xYYbQfv
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DHX71xFRl
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT147BiKiTl
"It's not your fault, honey."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaiQRi9Wo7
I start crying again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLaJw6rjzt
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Df90lNdTE
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPot90FEbbv
Maybe I'm dead after all.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkGoCnPOsf
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaQ7tcHl7Y
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZ6weuAgCY
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzJXbMpkZH
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRfQNbYPNO
I say, "I still want to win this."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VCPNim6i8
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIMQa4ErVM
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT3MqqFofg
"Really?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSm5fpwYKAQ
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONdEfARV7z
I start crying, and I can't stop.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5erlFJtqY
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1w4o8pFe0
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJduqqTUK9
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatDRP9fmCF
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJQtYF6NSM
"I wanted to see the flowers."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69p58zjT7S
"Why are you out of your room?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kczOT8LKP
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSp3IAIDoas
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtcg1VjNaG
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95CBjqG3B6
"Thank you for being you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD73XSfxwL
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymnYCcZoAt
I make a decision.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtBJHEQjq4
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHvCoExVKG
"What's your name?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08JEZ00L2z
"Allisa," I say, smiling.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrV5j7FdAH
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdpXBJwBnc
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iBBT83CQt
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmibftHMbiB
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKUaFzZQSq
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHy05rApud
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqLLFiwTqq
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfFeYBqLaM
"I just want to go home," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa15uVqxIHR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6QH8AagC2
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y9Ao4Gs1p
Father sighs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5eLzCzM65
I say "I don't want to stay here!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlRdTQqrTi
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3o4ThHltxg
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZiAxQAHy5
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yKkUEdw9X
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjRdVciiWl
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWVxdy1ktj
"Pet, come down from the tree."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pK3FtByq0
I stay silent.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcI0LoNV1x
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmbJesoVqD
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YcQulj14s
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFoFn27iwr
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwlGj99eSg
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0RGtznfIF
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIOQmpeVy1
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRGm3OrydG
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4ziKV0hSY
I say, "Please don't hurt me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjR4Vt0w0Sm
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr5nyQ60qb
I say, "Please don't!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZp8McVu9jv
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1i5xDoaOf
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWbIa6YCYn
"You'll find out soon enough, child."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2jz89rviE
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyFKnwKYPA
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2YGpLrq3f
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"Are you ready, child?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhA1GZdjEK
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3OignNtsL
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpcr1DmSzs
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I say, "Okay.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgmzhsWJcV
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitXoqfSGDt
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3wcyt6tUX
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgGj3DSINi
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmluz2UysZ
Father says "Good. Stay there."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mt7md6V1j
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdgZRzaoLQ
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbs5yYmgcH
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQuSG1ur6x
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbF7CDYYfJ
"Please!" I whisper.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszTj04agPR
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zNLbIEaFC
I scream loudly.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxFAHTt1Ct
My scream echoes throughout the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZ8Y79UDgA
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ga3ymnWg0
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhPUZFVUmV
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvd5EaamSr
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqLPIpKpkG
I say "P-please s-stop.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoaH8k2skd
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57jC3sXhRD
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHA39xxpRv
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0L3S6GC5n
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUwR0TCfSm
"Look at her," another says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7XY7ux129
I say "Please leave me alone."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhp8rw3liv8
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrbIUo9skz
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UXFxO3YP5
"We'll see. Let's see."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZavL6BwU2
I say "No no no.." They laugh.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxm13I4MrQe
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlR6RbDoZnL
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZT9FGeCRn
They untie me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7rWxq0E0Q
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06Pdqn2osC
"Ah... you're up," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjg6cR95eYH
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226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQQPBHpDEv"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1so1bOIF4
"Where were you?" he asks,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEtBTXmbal
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8MZ67o95D
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcdFneV2KG
Father smiles.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9dsiC0uMz
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeACCV44y1k
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aGwqoYuBc
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fzVM2iSTS
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvTyioEu6C
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFKlQFfFSo
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExEpr7hIQS
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNUSBqwdd1
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpvyEC769V
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ghNheCPqG
I say, "Please let me go!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDM2OTQ5A6g
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmrVDFLBi7
"You will," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsy1QZ9cFJ6
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7248ZhHGlU
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80VCI6TRwQ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPOc9UeEOp
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jTOhD3Any
"Stop crying," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XRPdfWbL2
"I can't!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzCVM9bBhw
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPymTxCbDb
"Stop it!" I cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH4C1QTAyN
"I said stop it!" he yells,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKcuaNPnpg
"I can't," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJcfi8T2MW
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsp3dl3sVl
"NO!" Father screams.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTQ8oO5AXl
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJe1c173zD
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMju1I7NI2f
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3tj62wPDB
"I would. I really would."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyvSWwBmyA
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO9zPW9Ti7
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYM5SiZ9gZQ
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHVs9ecmnq
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYm39ZvlTF
I say, "No I'm not!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlorh8iLRgb
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAw7E2t1A3I
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWAYQ9vB0j
I say "No I won't!!!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmRPpVDw0U
"You will!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaxoJEnLWZ
"I said NO!!!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7m5x59fhM
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipvMOehvfu
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡow2fszXsu8
"I know you will," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XmTh6MVv3
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHgmR1tRjC
He says "One."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXjTZ8QMyQ
I say, "I'll do anything.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwupZYwrJd
"Two."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcHCIeGzuM
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzz3W1MnLC
"Three."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHsYc940bR
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTng9VwpHQ
"No, don't do it," Father says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQTTIxi6D1
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXexugmOl9P
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34Oi0YmYJ4
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hAcXXn57p
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5Rx5WGMog
I say "Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8b7aHTeHX9
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8Ub9coGLT
"Yes," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnX9sP0rpD
"Good girl," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU05659S7Cs
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1nUOKYm4h
"I won't," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSZzG8p7gy
I stay tied up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8r03pbWGZ
"Now," he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTIhG0KpXc
"Kneel."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehX1V1DZXA
"Please," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA9aVzuArX
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJAOjOrjxH
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxbozmHZPv
I just know it.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH3vqByYFV
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MINZdYt0Y
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWgKJdQzcY
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlST2wvdask
I'm all alone in the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMcFxfeGDH
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226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZSbMGjGvzI hear the door open. I look up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBdXbWQpZg
"Hello," a man says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCmQQbcHId
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIQDJETIan
"Hands behind your back," he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzrQK8PYVf
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu6PSPujLg
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc33bdNELfg
"Stay there," he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcKXfE6tlF
I stay on my knees.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaPXqycJ65
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiKmnezCx4
I say "No no no."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnMk6vEePz
"Do it," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5ZZYNn3Ws
I say no. He pushes harder.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvXyY3b6Lk
"Do it!" he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH02xXJKylt
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7V3fMGjJvr
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkIeLlev2P
"Stay there," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86YPdi3kf4
I stay on my knees.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQAICEB9S0
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zfgtf1ycQ
"Stop moving."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm06vJfaxFl
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm9MUu9BU4
He pulls it out of my throat.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4w3lhpage
"What's wrong?" he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPN6rfe0SnW
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiDxMFWbGs
"What?" he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmP1lNqFac
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWHLiayzpy
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ672w2CDTXt
"Is this too big for you?" he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDWL07HJVv
I nod.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAqtg501gm
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4Jscbx9Zy
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IaW20ngLK
He shoves it back in.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1zJAsYqu1
I decide that vomiting once is enough.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡununj6wNnC
He shoves it in deeper.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqdHcWpvP9
I struggle and fight.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6XBL52N86
"Stop fighting me," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEMvvNUqsP
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUkx6ExkZo
"Get dressed," he says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ne8p3EyH5
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjsWN2q139
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEnL6lu4Mm
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226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaMRFNPuHI226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYT9g85kdza
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XFx4KahHZ
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9m2HBipU0
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku2Tazj8nC
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5PjVGV6bd
I say, "Where's dad?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6l5Jrmzv8T
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QpjXRMxA2
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLVzKnHVIF
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsakAyuJi9T
My father says, "Where have you been?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsCHgQxfES
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUkMGyk6eB
"Did they hurt you?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAMon1Q11j
"Yeah," I say.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jJrMBGMhj
"I'm sorry."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrS8kCTuL4
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMCSX85CgH
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinyWbhyLkk
"Is Allie in here?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pMZ2BDctv
My dad says, "Yes, why?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavQ4H3kmEj
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVXy9ug8ou
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcOS7p9ZzZ
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEVuz133I0
"No." I respond,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNRJxJM5sI
"Can we come in?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV36VpKfZna
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9BsDIpLwu
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJH7uECpdZ
I say, "I don't know."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfQ9J3atTp
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5alQByuFZK
"No." I say,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6xH6oGgQ3
"Are you sure?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YGDmh6FRu
"Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLdEpl0cFf
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkK3kPzybu
"Did he give you any food or water?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WbFxqQ4DG
"No." I respond.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMJOWtj8oX
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN82yTN9kSq
"No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHRJmue6eC
"What did he do to you?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzp8U1PeGG
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxIKTRn5Lr
"Did you fight him?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyImf5dfJf
"I tried."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0GoZNvrxT
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73Z76XdRAC
"I think I blacked out."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS0poSuI8m
"I see."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHOYxUHAg8
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyipFqQa88
"And how long were you with him?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb3FrCZvZR
"I think about ten hours."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHXhRXBY8c
"And you only just managed to escape?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmyTYfHmB8
"Yeah."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTqc554DXQ
"Do you know where you were?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqK152l5VDt
I say "No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAxzoeGIaE
"What is the last thing you remember?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe75LhcbIO
"I remember walking down the road."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvHB3Z0Azs
"And then?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde6nCjYz3I
"I don't remember."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzzJPVplF3
"Do you know how you got away?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1riiHOIifb
I say, "I just ran,"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx80z2iohgT
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyATVRpcLzg
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1KeShKrFA
I say, "So that's how it all happened."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BJvlBd4LP
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwCXGiGnGT
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tFKn9kOQx
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygB6QlBDh2
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYC1J93wx7z
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6mgOEfuaq
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2rEd8krV8
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53FBidwDCi
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ubbrkeU6K
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YIG32Uh5y
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRknZyJCS8J
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTP7iStozC
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz52u5wzqZo
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKyj8aNNUn
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzl5gYhx2r
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy6sNv40UL
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcPm1gDhzA
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226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1dRAcoHKSAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjF6gDVC5mS
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n5FlqWez8
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DfJ5nVhcJ
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsOgWv4fGj
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEORADhPZ3
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYCZS4Mnct
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVrdTwK1kp
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFufPZWTzkf
"Get up." he says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSweNKWu4OY
"Why am I here?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6pIcvaLhV
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxLuAA1PtB
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI58I4MahOC
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9xeXNfDFv
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbhxfQ59hn
I sit down.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sJ6uaXjfY
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjze4ewsBFi
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIdFs9GJJP
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiuax9McBI
I say, "No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TK1XY6W4o
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdsS2hwT0n
I respond, "Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Y5TtlByCK
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkpwUAFZcY
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxhtgkBDZL
"Yes."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTf2eJEMmJ
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCHovV39w8
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeNNseTJIe
I say, "Hi."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQ4mKBihES
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtnDkQMcKX
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49lpATinI8
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWMSnOpWs3
"Right away," says the woman.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwGVtgXwXe
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuajc5QO9ug
I say, "Okay."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqWYYOOvCy
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EIcYDjkPk
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSOOPN6m2T
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSqSTvCHJ3
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9wue58Czu
"He kidnapped me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzgWHjBTQo
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1fZtegHSI
I say, "He tried to stab me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJ6jby6Ycn
"Who was he?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4u047K4Qb
"I don't know."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtIFfBi8mY
"Where did you get the knife?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0xxVNubtL
"He had it in his pocket."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrWYc7CbOc
"Did he threaten you in any way?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqk2Z7H0K7H
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9CSzBE9nU
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtknvUM4Ntr
"No."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QVB15BhXS
"You sure? Think hard."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0XGHEhjf2
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriNDocNG7T
I say, "He killed my father."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6oTmWfFMp
"What?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡus5WLoV28h
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVoY2Rx57H
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlRX5Uypqg
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwpdjdN5Ni
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11WkqLcjqP
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYRc8TzdZl
I say, "Okay.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLHZPnwhGc
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9DbUsoxNy
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykhc6HAgVJ
I follow him.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSvBAjZtd9
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡem3iTgcrhp
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3URIh0sl6
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFynWNLbxJG
"Alright. Take a seat."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ypYF5rWoT
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZBKzgyVYO
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5M9JvlHI4
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡai0eDLJruz
"Yes.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGpgxErbXq
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9l2SmztVN
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vXpL828Ee
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5VPTTncYH
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYmKJRPqSI
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vIWPLo04U
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBxG0toqDw
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJK7UVXVJd
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisZIM9wTtL
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrq9ggZBZv
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XQS7Zaiyh
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHOwrWUyB0
"What is it?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZxaJFXuYV
Doctor Kessel says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmagG9qmJT
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdGoYY41Nd
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5GL7cQstD
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXog3ca3ty1
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zokPVFW0y
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFYUtp2Fff
The nurse shakes her head, and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHGtmG2Crg
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkyMzC9mBV
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTV30SiOF1
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HvqU4vUgU
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJjzKkjAFh
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4yPOcOhwX
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGygYklhFaa
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2wUpEGWr9
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eleYWpqi9
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0PoaA4wPo
I say "Where am I?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gbWBAOXHp
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGaook2YKl
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhean0YUC1v
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrouYAJjK7
I say, "I want to see my mom..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iuI0WOlFc
The nurse interrupts me and says,226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ODYnG4Lgf
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nGloC7rw8
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsfIbZmfDX
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226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgdglXyyPqA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtZqJsHmQd
"M-mom.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcP7f096uO
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdT2PpZKTy
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlhx3jAqDC
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHwPmqnltq
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8auy8r7v3Y
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3spexevtxx
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGwOyS76If
"Yes.." I say quietly.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL71GsRtl4V
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbd0mvkODfC
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3CeE0G9oR
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLhOyFzWup
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DZEwMqLmN
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr44itzxFJE
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8UNfYJsuw
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9JkZBn4kY
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumgUOO2Tpj
I say, "Okay.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA67GEIRa6
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssJAL8RNRh
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AiO3VERqH
I wipe the tears off my face.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiuieEPr5Z
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDQx53WBv4
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg64L0TedhJ
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9IFSH6K6W
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0reKVOTPvf
I say, "Tell me!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IHYSBWpnT
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfGjh0nQN6
My heart drops.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxzyqjRhpn
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst6j9B7voz
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226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKTnmz4vpNIn the morning, I get my visitors.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8d83LkURPI
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpD7VpYpQmk
I say, "Wait!" She stops.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfQgLBwoJz
"What is it?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvULac0qyqK
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TEp2DbtSF
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0DYrisWA8
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Z9SefiyIh
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PlU1kUY63
I cry myself to sleep.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqDv6E4sfb
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Hp6mZ3tqz
"How are you doing, honey?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8Xto8nGIp
I say, "Horrible.."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPXr1Pc2Jw
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY3xYYbQfv
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DHX71xFRl
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT147BiKiTl
"It's not your fault, honey."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaiQRi9Wo7
I start crying again.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLaJw6rjzt
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Df90lNdTE
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPot90FEbbv
Maybe I'm dead after all.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkGoCnPOsf
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaQ7tcHl7Y
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZ6weuAgCY
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzJXbMpkZH
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRfQNbYPNO
I say, "I still want to win this."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VCPNim6i8
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIMQa4ErVM
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT3MqqFofg
"Really?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSm5fpwYKAQ
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONdEfARV7z
I start crying, and I can't stop.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5erlFJtqY
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1w4o8pFe0
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJduqqTUK9
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatDRP9fmCF
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJQtYF6NSM
"I wanted to see the flowers."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69p58zjT7S
"Why are you out of your room?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kczOT8LKP
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSp3IAIDoas
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtcg1VjNaG
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95CBjqG3B6
"Thank you for being you."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD73XSfxwL
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymnYCcZoAt
I make a decision.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtBJHEQjq4
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHvCoExVKG
"What's your name?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08JEZ00L2z
"Allisa," I say, smiling.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrV5j7FdAH
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdpXBJwBnc
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iBBT83CQt
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmibftHMbiB
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.226Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKUaFzZQSq
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