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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuZAacOvPG
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「嗡隆……」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppzL7UjihS
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4unzsJSyg
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錯過尾班車了…呢。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbptxzGwidv
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjnUzRbIxG
左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65LYUE0HJ1
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CiGcDxHP7
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVXY0ChQGq
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxd6NjJ2OY
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心情壞透了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX95usaHOdQ
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzb5Lnfh1B
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBjGbOyrAC
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……抱歉，我也不知道。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wIiV3FYB0
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNiCQIPnAm
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYheHb5oJEG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4j1KYw3ol
「唉。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZbbrlQaK8
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYv1u9T04k
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYt9YGodJRG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SovtDaPRc
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh27maTbzm
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohl1kW4dnL
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77cFVeNEB8
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpg2f9giVir
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnPp6cHPnX
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIKHDDw7ex
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzX2fxwJ7o
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPd1cuFrwq
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtcPCrpisr
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBDojLOeAa
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTElwwSNmUh
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrmQAMTG9S
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHengfGnw3z
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lkr2b7KoR
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3vMVX81m9
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2iJBSgIeE
活成這個樣子，真抱歉。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUCEPoYD9y
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkMKxd2Tm0
本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4X0amUHdz
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63fLRq6IgC
「先生。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUitufrNOaR
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9o0CP5IkZT
一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpnqiAz4Dp
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeVHqBHgUT
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLNLKBV4M7
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRJah617GN
「閂…站？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoRwdA8HK5
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8H68mD6li
「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0zawnBjKG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2giO6NMzPI
要不是這條命是借來的話……873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NTnsiUXey
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt50mZqjyxo
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZJFV5dwsw
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPNMSdi8Qd
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iAwDWpdDI
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFTSCFPlMg
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdzBb7B98Y
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79gtp5oy8R
「咁……啊。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLo95nnZsT
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe80H1LDTzw
「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGOpgmrIoG
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulQC7zOZjD
「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7D5Kiyzyq
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EzHk663PE
「我帶你行。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSeLYkvGjI
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTCOhQ5R6N
領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDJXBycvrL
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Vj1rCzVWl
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWninkc0Sn
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFUI9WrIDQ
「呃……算係。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpa62Y8bBi
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不再是了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rLUaQFFbz
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNZdlY8WE2
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xjqknEcHK
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoEIRVkLPl
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bSYcERrlE
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0AjuKAYj2
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4erDT292I
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkxzjetMmH
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP48sjE7zOs
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeF5e9soWc
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzPHSp44Cj
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCpsqCGnYf
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzpJJof3YA
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxscFHTGV8U
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHP30NUC8p
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSlUT3DDDA
因為我沒有。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNGKs1QS8P
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8bp0t4Y13
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKhvkdqaE1
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGjrfXbmFF
活該。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihplhBRZoE
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNJUIREf4S
我活該。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUWb4J10OC
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9lkrlro24
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfB5wlAOArw
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKPoUTx9u4
不想。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiz5ukWDIF
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnbiP1gIiW
我……我不想找她。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfB5ffZ05m
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa8wE65aMU
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2GTuP5cm1
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiQW2FYHr9
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0URBDY8UGa
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvhUkNKng8
我不想。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXVKJytFJ4
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdW4QsaTviX
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LBmakD7aP
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZv2DmGSf92
不就有了嗎？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwVUfChDb8
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92jpy8Sy4B
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7JqjTkmof
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9HaZZXYo8
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboJns9UbEh
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQeRfJiQcx
而且，我連地圖都不用。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Q7n12r8pv
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeP9HLuVVJ
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuo35mkSlc
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48Cki8GUqk
光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBBPjvNg6b
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRR8fxzRUR
出發吧。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfQK2Ttgpi
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbn5uU3uCti
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUae91dYOnt
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFn3eiGAcb
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPskCmInnVu
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRxB60IJHI
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99ylFqGFc7
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZQ8dDAzfw
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSe00qhkMf
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNKVGtFpZB
「溫年柏。」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1YfjZRtuo
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidPng3aRQd
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYI26Qsk6L
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJFN1XpTaJ
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHgfVmgaeP
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3CAwNpGXP
沒有人。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ploRAYKJ5
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUACUGRbRQa
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xWPThOr0L
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOacT0UYz3
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFo9nx9HVJ0
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpNo3qi14B
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeR3dusZjaH
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeJdIXave8
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfdsHBg9YW
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseXJYpQ4b4
這到底是……873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEN8cGj8Zz
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA74eBpTcvY
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrCCizxXUK
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJthPNExHUq
是…霧之類嗎……？873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNc259iJNkd
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUaeol7UYW
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsOYyPPqZl
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NKvo94DQx
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHPX0w4Oeg
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PoBGcUPOa
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpn4jDHPGKl
873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83wkJLmd7t
「……」873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJAAcGe2NF
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10nGxVaUeb
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqwe7gGmAC
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMasTRGrmc
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbg2OQOCvv6
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3SPeHJWOd
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。873Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKErlCG1oAP
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