As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RxPXZUBPS
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Wd5Qm4Tk0
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAq1Ng2rZh
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjkhnYA3gD
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVK01zkNBX
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i0Os95gXv
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxYUMlDaXW
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVRfJJaMRj
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmho0nkiEu
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGcvSOBNda
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QtvqqT93W
'Uselessness'992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5HPQpsn1y
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46l2YtGonS
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8D4ZkBVqz
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9kH2O4qcV
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SthEs0GVx
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldYBcwOtV4
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3h17p1gTJh
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T0KxrnmMC
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbs4axf06I
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSoZHuPrnd
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEF2TDKX3s
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVYDdKwg5v
And with that, I ran. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHdgbn8rQd
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85FxAhuPTh
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTIB9dKsGh
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdno7qoQcIT
See you next time!992Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPycS0z6XjL
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