#1 Entry: Why I Started This.753Please respect copyright.PENANAG53ogUA5ce
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.753Please respect copyright.PENANA3MmpeKFNB1
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAkgG3e2zxWT
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.753Please respect copyright.PENANA0L1Ic8VP7P
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 753Please respect copyright.PENANAGlMj5P1wf4
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAI4EpwqrnID
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 753Please respect copyright.PENANASMjHEB3RfD
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAkxOg5HZfR5
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAYqMPFeZl6n
...753Please respect copyright.PENANAAkEKwWM1Pv
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?753Please respect copyright.PENANAyaiXwPJbOM
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.753Please respect copyright.PENANAj0iwGMAKQ1
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)753Please respect copyright.PENANABLVKmJ6gs2
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAvoxcYIUuys
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAPixwwgQNsS
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?753Please respect copyright.PENANAhwNdtL6S5S
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 753Please respect copyright.PENANA3eKoLJFUaL
So calling it off, was it that bad?753Please respect copyright.PENANAqZgtKkd4hh
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 753Please respect copyright.PENANARkAXIAyhUG
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)753Please respect copyright.PENANAy8V4jdBWWG
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAkPRdX7amdz
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAhFNN6BO9ef
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 753Please respect copyright.PENANApvpVUAn0yC
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAwUyIxTrGXy
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAsdd0znNt8S
Henceforth, we have this. 753Please respect copyright.PENANARxUDmSlw0T
Thanks for bearing with me. 753Please respect copyright.PENANAxqw4uxDoCC
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