#1 Entry: Why I Started This.982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9FAv63iGA
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5qGIVtTrd
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey6eeeHEAm
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFfDGTL3Vw
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwONgYqADGJ
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwUsjHrkg6
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaQQK8lzQN
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDL0u24qVhS
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed0ih0kFYj
...982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dl0lknIFk
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oSxKgiod5
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2roNyvbiSp
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxjbANixys
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTa0DmBhF1A
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkNNJGrUWj
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSuxcQXSRO
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lPqU99Y2Y
So calling it off, was it that bad?982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9nvUX9y3u
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Xln1v494G
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTdnvODlYA
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCtkLXuB9o
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuOYbaodUG
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWozKpTV05O
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATmQRFbSOl
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivuEFAuo2k
Henceforth, we have this. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8XAXoEq6B
Thanks for bearing with me. 982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ohu36HWWf
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