#1 Entry: Why I Started This.735Please respect copyright.PENANAQxo1dsWNgO
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.735Please respect copyright.PENANAKavuUfB2hb
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAlEIP8UZDDP
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.735Please respect copyright.PENANAgTXdvt0JS7
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 735Please respect copyright.PENANArLhBz8Vxqn
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 735Please respect copyright.PENANATFpOdrgUsd
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAhYSjDHQ9KT
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAvje4TaqHdD
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 735Please respect copyright.PENANA4COMQi2YhQ
...735Please respect copyright.PENANALWwYxc5x8V
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?735Please respect copyright.PENANAjY2X0yQUei
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.735Please respect copyright.PENANAoe6lW0odeb
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)735Please respect copyright.PENANA48FPcanrHj
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAUlCYxX5Jr4
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAxtpszVTSA9
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?735Please respect copyright.PENANAh2VARXIux5
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAMOkNITmuzZ
So calling it off, was it that bad?735Please respect copyright.PENANAlDv8tItVt2
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 735Please respect copyright.PENANALyLvN9x2cP
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)735Please respect copyright.PENANAsAmsIhNhOu
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAHQ8sJICSRe
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAxyRbyLxOXg
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAnctJVtwujB
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAlQTtc4APLw
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAX8pSbJ5eUt
Henceforth, we have this. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAu5QOTbdqFu
Thanks for bearing with me. 735Please respect copyright.PENANAzOtND7Grfc
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