Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyj9tsbW2d
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMivNcIPGWt
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLWXc4TOMl
It's been four months since that day.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkSQjEsLcs
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq47YQqsXB5
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytdiDo3DWN
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnriw5FALWJ
Only loneliness.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEobhttraDo
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiphHNAUohq
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknPGwMynEA
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2AcGlJqJi
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKO3TqCMeIE
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vPTKGdKxS
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaYe64cYZf
They remind me of home. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEcU2y8kdS
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0BlBx0Vcp
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0U53HSWhXv
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYxaFuCTf4
I don't want to be here. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQw4N0uosK
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91OfNDtCMc
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zm0qIS2Ek
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTbyuEfI5W
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4q62w25BNz
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fw15vdDTR
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTD0EIpAowT
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcw01saCwft
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUkNinnQuD
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7QCr9IyD8
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHE87KHFrq
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tuMg0pSu8
I want it to make sense.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsCPSX2dQe
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡov52AnyA3o
The PaperGarden.737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJ2oIIrNRe
To be Continued...737Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9uOkaxXJR
