I was sitting on a chair in front of a tall mirror, while mama stood at my back. She was combing my hair repeatedly as if wishing for it to grow long.289Please respect copyright.PENANAuJClLJq954
"You are so beautiful, my sweet Judy," she said, smiling. "When you grow up, you will make a good mistress of our home."289Please respect copyright.PENANAe6ZGURGIgg
I closed my eyes and nodded in response.289Please respect copyright.PENANAapnSdTx3w2
Whatever caused mama to be firm in raising me the way mothers bring up women confused me. She's been very vocal about her faith in God at home, in school, and most especially in the church, but she was also actively taking part in something that she knew was against His standards.289Please respect copyright.PENANAgkWOJgb5p2
Her children, including yours truly, happened to be all-male, but instead of being thankful for His wonderful gifts, she was still wishing for something impossible.289Please respect copyright.PENANAfYu5kz4GoY
When papa had not yet stepped on the ship, he once told us that Mama had always desired a daughter so that she could have someone to help her with the chores and bond with by combing and braiding hair, putting on make-up, dressing up, and other girly stuff.289Please respect copyright.PENANANHcp1MxNwM
He even said that when I was born, I looked—you know, like that girly type of angelic the media portrayed angelic to be: soft, white skin, pinkish lips, and round eyes covered in thick, curly lashes. So she raised me as a girl. Of course, papa was against it, but the last thing he wanted for himself was to endure Mama’s unbridled bombardment of snide remarks. So this angelic-looking twelfth grader suffered the consequences.289Please respect copyright.PENANAW5cAvty5rs
My eyes flew open when something cold and hard buried itself in the strands of my hair. I fought the urge to raise an eyebrow as her butterfly hairpin sparkled above my right ear.289Please respect copyright.PENANADlGebrVpwZ
"There, beautiful." She appreciated before lacing her fingers through my hair for the last time. "I hope your hair grows longer. Let your beauty shine."289Please respect copyright.PENANAby9s0ou7TG
She held out her arm.289Please respect copyright.PENANAx1VpjhIrIg
"Come, dear, we have to go to the market. We are running out of supplies."289Please respect copyright.PENANAAIpYoOJCV9
I took her hand and allowed her to help me up.289Please respect copyright.PENANA8w8ABwClo6
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We were about to leave for the market when one of my brothers arrived, carrying loads of supplies. It was our eldest. He placed the bags on the table when he reached the kitchen. Upon doing so, the band that kept his hair in a neat bun snapped, causing the black, wavy strands on his head to tumble about his broad shoulders.289Please respect copyright.PENANAAaBuMHI5cS
"Oh, thank you so much, Joe, we didn't have to go to the market," said mama. "I hope we haven't taken up your time."289Please respect copyright.PENANAIacc9NVG0v
"Nah," he answered in a deep voice.289Please respect copyright.PENANAgUGQ2i9CFW
I immediately arranged the supplies in our pantry, watching him sit by the head of the table and take off his damp, white shirt.289Please respect copyright.PENANAPVjXXb8rJM
My lips tightened at the sight of it. I wish I was more like him. I wish I had his lean yet perfectly sculpted muscles, his hard, square face, his thin mustache, and his low, husky voice. But mama’s dream of having a daughter has wound me into becoming the keeper of the house. Me looking more like a girl must have added to it.289Please respect copyright.PENANASHJq3fBfKZ
She sat on the right side and handed him a glass of water.289Please respect copyright.PENANA3NLIJ273Zx
"Won't you miss work?" she asked.289Please respect copyright.PENANAzSUlZfuGfD
He downed the water in one swallow. "No, I'm on a day off," Joe replied. "I could do the laundry."289Please respect copyright.PENANAAZwM0UULG7
"But you don't need to, my son. You are a man." She placed her hand on the ripped arm of my brother. "Besides, Judy is here. She can take care of everything."289Please respect copyright.PENANA3bX2rzfBdr
Joe's eyes darted on me as my hands mindlessly brushed my nearly skinny bicep. He smirked and chuckled.289Please respect copyright.PENANAlMeQzPMax8
"Dude, you look like a plant. Can you take it off?" he said.289Please respect copyright.PENANA1kIvVSTQXX
He was talking about that golden butterfly clip Mama planted in my hair. I sighed but in relief. Finally, somebody realized just how awkward that looked.289Please respect copyright.PENANAb8wyv10O0L
My brother stood and walked toward me, reaching out his fingers to remove that embarrassing piece from my head.289Please respect copyright.PENANAG9tEbu7p3u
"There," he said, grinning like a dog. "Better."289Please respect copyright.PENANAFcMapv19F4
He went back to his seat.289Please respect copyright.PENANAYWcGJOaAmO
Mama's eyes widened in horror. "Joseph! Why did you do that? Don't you see how pretty your sister looks?"289Please respect copyright.PENANA4JCqLzZBSe
Joe turned his attention on mama.289Please respect copyright.PENANAM5jSBtyDim
"Ma, Judah is my brother." He allowed the clip to twist between his thumb and forefinger.289Please respect copyright.PENANAil1V833qC2
Mama gently took the clip from him and enclosed his big hands in her brown fingers.289Please respect copyright.PENANA4kA6M6wmW5
She explained in a soft voice, "My dear boy, I understand where you are coming from, but you do remember my dream, right?"289Please respect copyright.PENANAOMm5NpEMG1
Joe did not answer, so she gave him a nudge.289Please respect copyright.PENANAHUCg20f6IQ
"Right, anak?” Mama insisted.289Please respect copyright.PENANArnvjy00cdr
His eyes rolled upward and he chuckled. "Judy."289Please respect copyright.PENANAkPBBq8BYZN
Then he rose from his seat and headed to his room.