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連綿的霪雨，不停不歇的下著。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbl8zyeC655
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IGUzsSMwF
『嘩啦——』840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQlBEowTiu
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iDPCsnj9S
「這都下多久了......」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPGN19sDeV
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBH7vzCaP8P
意識模糊的睜著眼，望著玻璃窗上那隨著風搖落的斜紋雨滴。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSH5GhZ1hl
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7fsJcvmtF
枕頭上一片濕溽，是淚水？還是雨水？伸手抹了一把臉上的濕潤，將手指送進嘴裡——鹹的、苦的，眼淚。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiimQnLgQK
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcQ2Xy2U4J
尚未收拾完畢的行李散了一床，只能驅著身體縮在僅剩的小小空間裡，無法伸展的四肢捲曲的互相依偎。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuJjPXZkXU
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE32Eh7Q65
能夠一直這樣就好，不要醒來就好。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfK6j9z9Sca
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6KVGdRQyg
『鈴——鈴——』840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaeSmDKbJw
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTmQAuEvEI
終究還是被鈴聲驚醒，是男人的來電。暫時搬去了他家，盡管家人反對，但最後仍然坳不過我，讓我住進了他家。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzThu6m3tTW
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oEepVL0BG
一路上，我們都沉默不語，他也沒有一字半句。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQseY1tX3ut
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmZpg7bLxE
車子緩緩駛進曾經非常介意的那條路，那間A曾經去過的餐廳，以及A曾經去過的鞋店，都在。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCYXUSKv0v
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eXBallfJj
「怎麼了？」他擔心的瞟了我一眼。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKoz3QY0Bs
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDCqafCXHp
「......不，沒什麼」我別過頭，敷衍的給了他一句話。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZDvI71BZ7
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA1ewZ8uq8
我幾乎忘了身邊還有個『他』存在，這個在我最難受時，毫不猶豫擁抱我的男人。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ46oZ3W54
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDHmK4Ktwm
我選擇了報答他的方式——我和他在一起了，我們交往，甚至做愛。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3bMMCdKUO
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb0uBsW1bK
離去時，我瞄了眼那七彩的招牌，燈光依舊炫麗，但我發現它的顏色似乎比以前更加地黯淡，是因為雨水沖刷，還是我的錯覺？840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJbdXhKR7L
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBLALx1h2S
到了他家，忍不住又陷入淺而混濁的昏睡，雖然，學校的報告一樣都沒寫。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrc0yoE0DE
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQZEfHnXEO
依舊是惡夢，那些還沒放下還沒看開的，一切。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyXE9DVz85
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUViySlcHT
某天，一邊刷牙洗臉，一邊看著鏡中的自己。瞬間被熟悉的感覺淹沒，彷佛在經過長久的割裂與漠視後，從前的自己回來了。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDrc3eFuYI
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ9QZepTe3
從前的我，站在現在的鏡前，這浴室，這房子，此處悲傷與歡喜的交界，明明是他家，但我卻看見了她的身影，然後開始做惡夢。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPikFr40QHn
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83myu4s47S
是妳帶著惡夢回來了嗎？開始恐懼，拍打著水面想讓她的倒影消失......840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvv3y9fFdKg
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYLobYcoN6
「你在做什麼？！」他抱住了我，從背後將我泛著鮮紅的手腕錮住。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiztA2xA6Z5
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2X8V4fUhwk
紅？我流血了？滿地的碎片，是被我破壞後留下的痕跡。幾片碎片上，還殘留著我的血液。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zAs81hLV7
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8pLy3yOuC
「還會痛嗎？」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pFOi1YAzg
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuTE4X2Q4H
「不會了，謝謝。」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYWgZAFST7
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPW2ZmEtEVy
他細心的替我包扎，也不管鮮血染上了他的手、他的衣服。然後，我們一起到了陽台，外面下著雨，小小的、細微的雨絲。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvg6pkhfAS
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGiuLCEDGk
這時候我想起了過去，也曾經與A在陽台，也是像今天一樣下著小雨。那時的妳，嬌嗔的說著，討厭雨天，希望能放晴。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcz5vtnzwM
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ196Aey3sPM
那次是我的生日，沒有蛋糕、沒有蠟燭。盡管如此，我們還是用了火柴來取代那些，點了火光，許了三個願望：840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojb9umW98e
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRnsXy9IlS
聽說，第三個願望要放在心裡才會實現，但那時的我依舊認為『只要妳在我身邊，不管說什麼都會實現。』840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGXuRPKjgG
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1MR1DKniU
『我的第一個願望是，希望每天都是晴天。』840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4sVBXIB9l
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyU2jWqcRr
我一直以為，妳會陪伴在我身邊，直到一切的願望都實現。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqom3FMdFQ
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoUPgkXuj1
『第二個願望是，希望每個晴天，我都能陪在妳身邊。』840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtMIB3mNb3
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqd0cdn7KL2
當時的我真的以為，我能夠給妳完整的幸福。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3UlggL0A0
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeBOElpSd3
『第三個願望是，能夠給妳幸福。』
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUgzwWWnLP
恍惚之間，我回到了現實。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IrmwtGKXD
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQSuI58NkN
「如果......一直是晴天就好了。」我垂著頭，脫口而出。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXN6TYicxQ
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiuE0ilZmU
「白癡嗎？一直是晴天，那地球得鬧乾旱了。」他抽著菸，望著遠方，語氣冷沉，卻帶了點譏諷。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfL1JNv9Yyh
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLfkPXmSwj
「也是。」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIYYHHDr9o
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeciDbFm1w
我只是在逃避。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgGS0sEiR5
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwgCdUwsuE
因為我想起了A...想起了我跟A的對話840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jRPumwW6D
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGnohaWbEA
我對她說：『我愛妳，一定會給你幸福的。』840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdo36MS4peS
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVBCKMfMF5
她對我說：『對不起，我要的幸福，你給不了。』840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgkPDmNeSX
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIBsGp7zTG
從那之後，我的世界彷彿只剩下了雨天。
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dLVqNSufb
夜晚，仍是下著雨，外頭黑壓壓的一片，烏鴉猖狂的鳴叫，似乎對我叫囂著。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEBYOJ7m4O
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSlry72iMp
我衝出了家門，正確來說，是他的家門。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqenIfHARI3
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVVdIuKWGo
發了瘋似地，彷佛聽不見任何聲音，看不見身旁呼嘯而過的景色......妳的一切始終跟著我，逃不開，離不去。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWskUwd5eeK
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFyPxKq5mF
不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑——直到，我發現自己跪在地上，眼裡的刺痛，分不清是淚水或是雨水。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCv9YGDPC4
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAe2mjjQmdb
A離開之後，我的世界開始下雨，傾盆大雨，那樣的雨聲像要撞擊在心臟上一樣。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmof0izsQ3
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wSvMXP7Eh
「別走！」
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MlOArZwJH
總會想著，妳會不會後悔沒有緊緊抓住我？
總會想著，沒有我的晴天，妳是否也會那樣開心的笑著？840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rxeft7Vop
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F37qRbfFG
「不要管我，你回去吧！」
總覺得，不需要再說出任何承諾。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYr4U3nr0Wq
總覺得，這個世界已經沒有晴天。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjQHi6eDdk
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnq6uTq3lbE
就像聖誕節期盼著聖誕老人的到來，但隔天卻什麼都沒有一樣。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVVn17Li1Y
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOIIQ9Ps6N
「反正，許過的願望，從不會實現。」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHtYA9mWbj
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa3xAoftdO
雨水模糊了視線，令我看不清前方的景色，只依稀看見，背著光的他，眼裡閃著灼亮，不知為何，緊緊的瞅著我。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWK8BABnFS
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf5CSa8wFn
「過來！」他對我喊著。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJFxMbY7Zk
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEPuOGiXTV
「不。」我退後了一步。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEBHfQr5tb
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOqjLFbJlk
他低吼著叫了我的名字，通常他只會在真正發怒時，口氣才會這麼重。他不斷地靠近我，我不斷地後退，直到他抓住我手臂的剎那，才忽然發現，眼前的男人令我感到一股壓迫，但卻又無比的溫暖。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1azzVIbQ7
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wZkE7LJup
就像一道光線，逐步地想吞噬我築起的黑色高牆。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8KcXd1LEb
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvBUs3Fb3c
我又退了幾步，抗拒地想拉開與他的距離。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiRJ1gC2rh
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0AYjwPRet
「我......」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jwjhRtuWR
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemZzZv7srf
「不要靠近我！」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7KnOlRYSg
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuot6R61QwR
我一直知道，他很溫柔，很有耐心的想將我從過去給拉出來......840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrf5XOigDh
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iaNuvyPPf
但是，我卻無法相信自己。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctfJQIxtm6
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGdLzhkSpK
「結束吧，我們結束吧！我許的願望終究沒有實現！我給不起任何人幸福！我沒有辦法——」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI9XwCjz3j
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOOiPPeaxf
「你是傻子嗎！」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoudGFW6MP
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprLkn1luYv
一陣狂風掃過我的面頰，在我眯起眼的同時，跌入了那寬實溫熱的懷抱。我被他緊緊的抱著，緊緊的錮著，無法呼吸，無法思考，然、後......840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUSj0dEyUH
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitdUcZXBl7
「你給不了，沒關係，我給的起就行了！」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFvPJThocD
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfW7mYwUJ9p
你打破了我築起的高牆，毫不猶豫的讓那強烈的光，刺透我的一切。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLjbnmQMij
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XXATRIrQE
像烈日的太陽一般。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zGHPBDrN0
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOpH9nIW21
一直都相信著，只要許下願望，就一定能實現。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT4ZCLtwBn
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nwbO596IM
就像期盼著十二月份的聖誕節、聖誕老人的禮物，明明知道一切都是假的，卻又想去相信。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvqhlG4QPW
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYG4RX1RBZ
「我們回家，好嗎。」840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IbHUV5niw
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3vlY6lgpU
即使如此，你仍然滿懷著耐心，待在我身邊。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvWde7hUWO
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Cu5rWLYRY
就算下著大雨，就算仍然待在黑暗之中，就算，依舊沒有放晴。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7srMMZvC7H
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYnM0PpkKB
我衝上前，雖然無法完全拋棄過去，但是……840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZmIjlxqrb
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbYIyGfUxD
我相信，未來的我一定會很感激妳，選擇給了自己一個沒有我的晴天。840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4wKD6w94B
840Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUphzKTnxz
到底在打什麼鬼......
其實很簡單，就是受被前女友甩了，遇到了攻，但卻一直被過去的陰影所糾纏著的黑暗故事......
不知道這種敘事方式能不能被人接受......我盡力了Orz
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