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.本章有強暴情節,R18有,無法接受者請慎入8Please respect copyright.PENANAtQENYfzOnb
.我真的糟了……8Please respect copyright.PENANA2uXKUyK08u
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在他眼裡,青峰並非善者也非惡者。8Please respect copyright.PENANAqvHHB2PaWQ
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儘管仍舊存著半分的劣根性,但受到打擊後的挫敗已讓他的銳氣削減不少,回歸單純的那個青峰大輝,說起來也是個熱愛籃球的熱血少年。期間不經意透露的不耐與些許跋扈更能讓人明白他的心思有多麼單一,反正就是追尋自己想做的、想要的、想得到的快樂。8Please respect copyright.PENANATVVZtSL1dy
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所以與他相處的感覺其實並不壞。8Please respect copyright.PENANAWkl57qWCIP
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起初幾次的做愛經驗讓彼此對性這回事可說是熟門熟路,哪裡能讓自己更舒服、怎麼樣才能更加配合,這些事實不必全盤托出也算得上是心知肚明。但一個月、數 個月下來之後便有了熟絡的尷尬,儘管是以取悅身體獲得慾望的最大滿足為基礎,對於身體上的探索掌握得當,實際上卻對眼前的這個人一知半解,莫名而無法抑止 的窘困油然而生。8Please respect copyright.PENANAOYkyzZQvEy
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時間與地點的緣由讓兩人的見面受限,由東京通車到秋田,好歹也得花上三、四個小時的車程,車費開銷是一個問題、閒暇 與否的空檔也是一個問題,恰巧學期結束之後的假期讓冰室暫且搬回了東京,少了費時費力的來往,兩人見面的次數也比往常多上許多。然而不知道是由誰開的口, 某一次固定索求的前夕,他們約了一次意料之外的飯局。8Please respect copyright.PENANAdQDklJUsH3
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往後的他們還真真正正地在「床伴」二字裡,找尋出那一個「伴」的意味出來。儘管比起對於大多事皆為漠不關心的青峰而言,冰室對於對方的了解可說是高上不少,但實際相處過後,卻又是另一個樣子。8Please respect copyright.PENANA13xCjrn2WY
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雖說語氣間大多透露著不耐與煩躁,但實際上的青峰大輝卻意外地單純且心思純正,在他的世界裡無非就是籃球與美女,籃球無非是得追求勝利,而美女的首要條 件便先是得擁有一對豐滿的大胸部,一如他最喜歡的堀北小麻衣。一分為二的世界是如此易懂,但在他的內心之中,也曾有著第三樣事物的存在,儘管現今已被列為 不可說出口的禁語。8Please respect copyright.PENANA35rxEWHhej
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撇除內心剖析的部分,兩人的個性卻意外地合得來。彼此待在一塊的時候,多是在籃球的話題上打轉,偶爾也會有青峰向 冰室抱怨的機會,他自認自己擁有無底的包容心,至少是能應對紫原那樣無得理解的反差存在,相較之下,青峰可說得上是容易許多,撇開先前對於籃球的迷惘,對 方其實就是個有點傻,又有點自傲的青春少年,擁有一般人擁有的煩惱、藏有一般人擁有的秘密。8Please respect copyright.PENANAo9iUgYJDAy
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當那個黑膚的大傢伙數度黏在冰室身旁,嚷 嚷抱怨著要冰室給他解說英文網站上的賽況時,他便完全明瞭了。他不過就只是這麼一個對任何事物都過度在意的少年,賽場之下的他哪是什麼呼風喚雨的桐皇 ACE,他只是一個不怎麼認真的、漫不經心的,連個簡單的習題都要他教導的青峰大輝,直來直往的青峰大輝。8Please respect copyright.PENANAx3WSh0Xaye
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他幾度投射出的也是這樣的影子,真摯而不拘小節的個性、同樣對於籃球的熱愛──但冰室卻甘願耽溺於這麼軟弱的片刻歡愉,他強迫自己假想且成就罪惡,因為真正得以分辨出來才是錯誤的開始,即便在他的心底,越趨明顯的差異已將無法掩飾。8Please respect copyright.PENANA9lzj5Jm63J
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在我眼前的,是青峰大輝啊。8Please respect copyright.PENANAxDd5mEQpii
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後來想想他還是太過天真。8Please respect copyright.PENANAWIuphTxi79
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至今他仍將那一日記得清清楚楚。8Please respect copyright.PENANAYZDTsytumX
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難得地推卻了陽泉那頭的邀約,只因在這之前,早已有人湊巧性的訂下他的行程。然而才剛掛上岡村的電話不久,手機又隨即響了起來,好久沒聽見的慵懶聲線叫 嚷著為何冰室不能赴約,他許久不見的大孩子大略是欠缺照顧,百般無奈下的冰室也只好安慰起電話那頭的那個傢伙,說好開學之後會帶新發售的零食給他,紫原嘟 嚷幾聲後只說小室好狡猾,如果沒帶來的話就不去練習了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAwmpNJe3pGF
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再三保證自己會兌現承諾之後,冰室看了看手錶也差不多時間,向對方叮囑一些事項後便匆匆道了別,他和青峰相約的地點雖然離自己的住所不遠,但也得花上一些時間才能抵達,著急地捉了圍巾和大衣,冰室熄滅家裡的一切電源。8Please respect copyright.PENANA2tz44t94pE
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今天真是特別的冷,他伸出手來呵了一口熱氣。8Please respect copyright.PENANAJJTgEPdI9h
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兩人之間的碰面事實上沒有什麼特殊的意義與目的,該做愛的時候做愛,不想做愛的時候也不會刻意索求,劃分清明,比起一般伴侶情感性的「想見面」,他們即是需求性的「必須見面」,需要彼此的身體、需要有人陪同行事、需要有人接納苦水與透露心聲,只是不需要心。8Please respect copyright.PENANADXns84oBi9
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因為索求而互相吸引的身體,最後若能撇開利益成為真正的朋友,也不是什麼壞事。8Please respect copyright.PENANA5EZBcGMKVD
如果他能做得到的話。8Please respect copyright.PENANAhBKu3qA8UG
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他們約在某一間運動用品店前碰面。不過是因為青峰想要挑選一雙新的球鞋,當對方在電話裡頭和他提到這些的時候,冰室還調侃著回覆「我以為大輝的首選人選 是五月小姐呢」,對方似乎沒有料到冰室會如此回答,只先是沉默了一陣,而後才又開口解釋桃井和家裡出了遠門,數日或一個星期之內都不會回來。8Please respect copyright.PENANAxpiS5FWVVe
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那一瞬間的尷尬不語也不知道是不是他的錯覺。8Please respect copyright.PENANAbVemH2jhm5
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他一向是個守時的規矩者,因此當冰室抵達約定地點的時候,距離赴約還有一段時間。鮮少來到這附近的他想著先四處逛逛似乎也不成問題,於是冰室便憑著這股突如其來的好奇心,穿過熙來攘往的人群,來到對街的窄小巷子裡。8Please respect copyright.PENANAE96UL7mXWV
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向下的坡道兩旁立著佈滿孔洞的鐵絲網,沒有牆面的阻擋,冰室總覺得越發寒冷起來,然而走著走著,繞過一個轉角,他來到一座小公園的後頭。8Please respect copyright.PENANApL5PTAGRHj
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停下腳步的緣由只因為他看見了熟悉的人。8Please respect copyright.PENANADUpwSYX4us
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背對著他的高大背影有著一頭暗紅色的頭髮,熟悉而陌生,而被他阻擋在後頭的,不用多想,也一定是他意料之內的人選。8Please respect copyright.PENANAhmoPRkp5i1
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冤家路窄。8Please respect copyright.PENANAgyQRzOuzo8
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冰室倚著鐵絲網,食指穿過鐵圈之間有一下沒一下的勾勒著,他冷靜而沉著地望著眼前的一舉一動。從此處的視角並不能看見全貌,但也能猜出個半解,冰室看不 見火神的表情,只能知曉他的後耳紅得透徹,而面對著他的黑子則難得地露出淺薄的笑容,他握住了他的手,期間說了什麼無法聽見,冰室也不想花心思去猜。8Please respect copyright.PENANA6RTSB0Kq14
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他的心情平靜卻也複雜。8Please respect copyright.PENANAOzjoeKtzfQ
唯一的選擇便是撇過視線不再去看。8Please respect copyright.PENANAUeZybPPc47
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待他回過神來時早已過了約定時間,冰室一面看著手錶,一面焦急地給青峰打電話,他穿過方才的那個下坡,繞過一個轉角,卻和同樣拿著手機的青峰大輝撞個正著。8Please respect copyright.PENANA0fAmCkKMAy
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正當他急忙著想道歉的時候,卻發覺死命握著他手腕的那個傢伙臉上,連一點表情也沒有。8Please respect copyright.PENANAWQOOgRsneX
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他不知道他也看見了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAA6ivt93i1H
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究竟是過度的憤怒還是無法收拾的悲傷,一句話也不說的青峰大輝就這麼捉著他,半拖半扯的穿過一片住宅,來到另一條更加寬闊的街道上頭。再度路過公園時, 公園內的身影已經消失不見,一片寂寥的空蕩,然而直到許久許久之後,他才知道這條街道是連結青峰家與對外商圈的最快捷徑。8Please respect copyright.PENANAjcY6jhPDbs
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他們在一處 公寓前頭停下,青峰悶不吭聲的掏著口袋裡頭的鑰匙,然而無論冰室在後頭怎麼開口詢問都遭到對方的視若無睹,而冰室也還來不及確認事情的始末,以及體會初次 光臨對方住所的感受,一關上門,他便被以粗暴的姿態反身壓在玄關地板,青峰就像是失去理智一般的撕扯著他的上衣與長褲,冰室反抗著、掙扎著,但力氣仍有所 差別的兩人始終無法抗衡,他回過臉龐,驚恐地望著對方拉下他最後的底褲。8Please respect copyright.PENANATuyWUCiLp7
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青峰按著冰室的腦袋,強迫性地要他轉過頭去,就與平時相同,嚴厲地遵守著做愛時刻立下的規矩──誰也不能面對著誰。8Please respect copyright.PENANAmHxwOYMs9O
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他拉下拉鍊,向前一挺。8Please respect copyright.PENANAkLLcTRtNPJ
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進來的那一瞬間冰室的眼前好似是落了黑幕,就像是將要暈過去那一般的疼,世界天旋地轉,胃部反射性的痙攣讓他忍不住作嘔,他還以為自己是失去了意識,那 樣也好,不用在無盡的痛苦之間反覆徘徊,只可惜那樣的想法只是短暫的慶幸,未經開拓的後穴實在過於緊致,無法一口氣插入,青峰將硬插進的性器抽出些許,隨 即又挺了進去,像是一把巨大利刃,一層一層地割開他韌性極佳的身體,數次的反覆抽插之後,頂到底的那一剎那冰室又被劇痛給疼得醒了過來。8Please respect copyright.PENANAbZLWxj5WAT
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連聲音也喊不出口的痛苦,尖叫與呻吟全都被排除在這樣強暴的性愛之外,所有哽在喉頭的全是燒灼的痠疼,冰室的淚水一點一點地滴到地板上頭,隨著身後的擺 動拖出數道水痕,他的指尖憑空抓呀抓的卻什麼也摸不著,儘管冰室的身材已算高大,但在與他差了十多公分的青峰面前,根本是個微不足道的弱者,他是這樣拼了 命想要逃離、逃離這樣恐怖的掌握。8Please respect copyright.PENANATm5S6Z4swU
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後方劇烈的抽插從未停歇過,青峰握住他的腰桿,然後像是著迷似的向下移動。他的手撫摸過對方漂亮的背脊與肩胛骨,燈光下的冰室全身泛著一股病態的蒼白,是那樣蒼白的膚色,讓他不禁想起了某個人,某個在他的眼前、接受其他男人親吻的傢伙──8Please respect copyright.PENANAG5zT0EZ1lC
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青峰伏下身,從後頭抱住了渾身顫抖的冰室,他的胸膛貼在對方的後背上頭,緊緊地、死命地攀住,就像是汪洋之中唯獨留有這塊浮木似的不肯放手,他閉上眼睛,苦痛與快樂兼併地在對方的耳邊低喃。8Please respect copyright.PENANAuxd9DQrntn
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「……你為什麼要跟他在一起呢,回答我啊!」8Please respect copyright.PENANAXDRHcjuCJ5
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他知道他也看見了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAUNFa2iI80j
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兩個人,四個人。他站在鐵絲網後的同時,青峰站在公園的最前頭。8Please respect copyright.PENANA6kKLS11BAg
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他明白青峰的憤怒、明白青峰的心情複雜,明白他就這麼眼睜睜地看著喜歡的傢伙接受他人的親吻,沉浸於他所不能碰觸的美好世界之中,他在另一頭何嘗不是這麼想。8Please respect copyright.PENANAKVt3VcpbcF
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但他參入偏質思想的複雜卻是有了罪。8Please respect copyright.PENANAko2eqNOFR1
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他一面望著火神與黑子的互動一面心底發疼,卻又無可抑止地想起和自己有所約定的青峰大輝。原先應該憤恨與絕望的思想卻亂了本質,他身上的男人因為受到傷 害而洩憤,而承受的他卻不知道該將情緒歸於何處,身體上的這份疼痛究竟是感受到火神的無可挽回,還是因為愧疚於自己早已背棄了當初的允諾。8Please respect copyright.PENANA74wY0JvmZM
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當一切不再如此純粹的時候,就真的糟了。8Please respect copyright.PENANApZWkfqEgFj
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……你為什麼不是…8Please respect copyright.PENANAATqKSUXjs1
不、你是啊…你是*哲……你是哲也。8Please respect copyright.PENANAStN2NaGclO
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身後的衝撞讓冰室一陣暈眩,他不知道這樣反覆的動作已經過了多久,濕黏一片的股間究竟是出了血還是他與對方廝磨之下的體液同樣沒有氣力分辨,他只覺得疼、太疼了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAtcU2kKTju4
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這我已經知道了。名字呢?8Please respect copyright.PENANA8Om0PeztbP
……我是辰也。8Please respect copyright.PENANAh5ZkBsYMQO
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他從不知曉自己的名字竟會給自己帶來這麼大的苦痛。8Please respect copyright.PENANAltZz8gpW1c
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註:テツヤ(哲也(Tetsuya)與辰也( Tatsuya)的讀音相近8Please respect copyright.PENANAO9G6aCGG1u
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另外下面是我對於這篇青冰裡冰室的想法以及感情走向8Please respect copyright.PENANAuFIk9HBvPO
如果想自行揣測的話就不要往下拉囉(´∀`)8Please respect copyright.PENANA8ULOdpOg2v
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冰室在這裡的情感有點矛盾8Please respect copyright.PENANAaqO8udVhZc
對於火神長久以來抱持著一定的喜愛,儘管是「戀愛」卻不是非常濃重8Please respect copyright.PENANAxqMEgIxLMU
這樣喜歡著火神的冰室尋求青峰成為替身8Please respect copyright.PENANAL53E1xubbq
但一次次的接觸之後了解到火神與青峰之間的差異8Please respect copyright.PENANAUkDdzApHYC
久而久之便也不覺得兩人相似8Please respect copyright.PENANAvJFmf0WSZk
對於青峰有些在意(或許是動了心)的冰室8Please respect copyright.PENANA6DrdpaeKlk
一面承受著火神方面無法割捨的愧疚,一面偏向青峰8Please respect copyright.PENANAkbvaL1lbHh
卻也在青峰那裡得到「他或許真正只是個替身」那樣的痛苦8Please respect copyright.PENANAgxEleruCJX
因此覺得自己是狡猾的、覺得自己是有罪的8Please respect copyright.PENANAlFLsjuG58O
就算受到殘忍的對待也覺得無所謂8Please respect copyright.PENANA8ovp0mFBcr
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先講到這裡,最後一篇再把後續的冰室心理說完8Please respect copyright.PENANAnnjILtVaKp
大略是不計手段之下的……8Please respect copyright.PENANAl6ACW4L5Tt
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\青氷増えろてください/ ←寫這樣的內容真沒資格講這句8Please respect copyright.PENANAjU5mKwC3Le
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.本章有強暴情節,R18有,無法接受者請慎入8Please respect copyright.PENANAtQENYfzOnb
.我真的糟了……8Please respect copyright.PENANA2uXKUyK08u
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在他眼裡,青峰並非善者也非惡者。8Please respect copyright.PENANAqvHHB2PaWQ
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儘管仍舊存著半分的劣根性,但受到打擊後的挫敗已讓他的銳氣削減不少,回歸單純的那個青峰大輝,說起來也是個熱愛籃球的熱血少年。期間不經意透露的不耐與些許跋扈更能讓人明白他的心思有多麼單一,反正就是追尋自己想做的、想要的、想得到的快樂。8Please respect copyright.PENANATVVZtSL1dy
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所以與他相處的感覺其實並不壞。8Please respect copyright.PENANAWkl57qWCIP
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起初幾次的做愛經驗讓彼此對性這回事可說是熟門熟路,哪裡能讓自己更舒服、怎麼樣才能更加配合,這些事實不必全盤托出也算得上是心知肚明。但一個月、數 個月下來之後便有了熟絡的尷尬,儘管是以取悅身體獲得慾望的最大滿足為基礎,對於身體上的探索掌握得當,實際上卻對眼前的這個人一知半解,莫名而無法抑止 的窘困油然而生。8Please respect copyright.PENANAOYkyzZQvEy
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時間與地點的緣由讓兩人的見面受限,由東京通車到秋田,好歹也得花上三、四個小時的車程,車費開銷是一個問題、閒暇 與否的空檔也是一個問題,恰巧學期結束之後的假期讓冰室暫且搬回了東京,少了費時費力的來往,兩人見面的次數也比往常多上許多。然而不知道是由誰開的口, 某一次固定索求的前夕,他們約了一次意料之外的飯局。8Please respect copyright.PENANAdQDklJUsH3
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往後的他們還真真正正地在「床伴」二字裡,找尋出那一個「伴」的意味出來。儘管比起對於大多事皆為漠不關心的青峰而言,冰室對於對方的了解可說是高上不少,但實際相處過後,卻又是另一個樣子。8Please respect copyright.PENANA13xCjrn2WY
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雖說語氣間大多透露著不耐與煩躁,但實際上的青峰大輝卻意外地單純且心思純正,在他的世界裡無非就是籃球與美女,籃球無非是得追求勝利,而美女的首要條 件便先是得擁有一對豐滿的大胸部,一如他最喜歡的堀北小麻衣。一分為二的世界是如此易懂,但在他的內心之中,也曾有著第三樣事物的存在,儘管現今已被列為 不可說出口的禁語。8Please respect copyright.PENANA35rxEWHhej
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撇除內心剖析的部分,兩人的個性卻意外地合得來。彼此待在一塊的時候,多是在籃球的話題上打轉,偶爾也會有青峰向 冰室抱怨的機會,他自認自己擁有無底的包容心,至少是能應對紫原那樣無得理解的反差存在,相較之下,青峰可說得上是容易許多,撇開先前對於籃球的迷惘,對 方其實就是個有點傻,又有點自傲的青春少年,擁有一般人擁有的煩惱、藏有一般人擁有的秘密。8Please respect copyright.PENANAo9iUgYJDAy
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當那個黑膚的大傢伙數度黏在冰室身旁,嚷 嚷抱怨著要冰室給他解說英文網站上的賽況時,他便完全明瞭了。他不過就只是這麼一個對任何事物都過度在意的少年,賽場之下的他哪是什麼呼風喚雨的桐皇 ACE,他只是一個不怎麼認真的、漫不經心的,連個簡單的習題都要他教導的青峰大輝,直來直往的青峰大輝。8Please respect copyright.PENANAx3WSh0Xaye
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他幾度投射出的也是這樣的影子,真摯而不拘小節的個性、同樣對於籃球的熱愛──但冰室卻甘願耽溺於這麼軟弱的片刻歡愉,他強迫自己假想且成就罪惡,因為真正得以分辨出來才是錯誤的開始,即便在他的心底,越趨明顯的差異已將無法掩飾。8Please respect copyright.PENANA9lzj5Jm63J
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在我眼前的,是青峰大輝啊。8Please respect copyright.PENANAxDd5mEQpii
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後來想想他還是太過天真。8Please respect copyright.PENANAWIuphTxi79
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至今他仍將那一日記得清清楚楚。8Please respect copyright.PENANAYZDTsytumX
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難得地推卻了陽泉那頭的邀約,只因在這之前,早已有人湊巧性的訂下他的行程。然而才剛掛上岡村的電話不久,手機又隨即響了起來,好久沒聽見的慵懶聲線叫 嚷著為何冰室不能赴約,他許久不見的大孩子大略是欠缺照顧,百般無奈下的冰室也只好安慰起電話那頭的那個傢伙,說好開學之後會帶新發售的零食給他,紫原嘟 嚷幾聲後只說小室好狡猾,如果沒帶來的話就不去練習了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAwmpNJe3pGF
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再三保證自己會兌現承諾之後,冰室看了看手錶也差不多時間,向對方叮囑一些事項後便匆匆道了別,他和青峰相約的地點雖然離自己的住所不遠,但也得花上一些時間才能抵達,著急地捉了圍巾和大衣,冰室熄滅家裡的一切電源。8Please respect copyright.PENANA2tz44t94pE
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今天真是特別的冷,他伸出手來呵了一口熱氣。8Please respect copyright.PENANAJJTgEPdI9h
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兩人之間的碰面事實上沒有什麼特殊的意義與目的,該做愛的時候做愛,不想做愛的時候也不會刻意索求,劃分清明,比起一般伴侶情感性的「想見面」,他們即是需求性的「必須見面」,需要彼此的身體、需要有人陪同行事、需要有人接納苦水與透露心聲,只是不需要心。8Please respect copyright.PENANADXns84oBi9
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因為索求而互相吸引的身體,最後若能撇開利益成為真正的朋友,也不是什麼壞事。8Please respect copyright.PENANA5EZBcGMKVD
如果他能做得到的話。8Please respect copyright.PENANAhBKu3qA8UG
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他們約在某一間運動用品店前碰面。不過是因為青峰想要挑選一雙新的球鞋,當對方在電話裡頭和他提到這些的時候,冰室還調侃著回覆「我以為大輝的首選人選 是五月小姐呢」,對方似乎沒有料到冰室會如此回答,只先是沉默了一陣,而後才又開口解釋桃井和家裡出了遠門,數日或一個星期之內都不會回來。8Please respect copyright.PENANAxpiS5FWVVe
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那一瞬間的尷尬不語也不知道是不是他的錯覺。8Please respect copyright.PENANAbVemH2jhm5
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他一向是個守時的規矩者,因此當冰室抵達約定地點的時候,距離赴約還有一段時間。鮮少來到這附近的他想著先四處逛逛似乎也不成問題,於是冰室便憑著這股突如其來的好奇心,穿過熙來攘往的人群,來到對街的窄小巷子裡。8Please respect copyright.PENANAE96UL7mXWV
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向下的坡道兩旁立著佈滿孔洞的鐵絲網,沒有牆面的阻擋,冰室總覺得越發寒冷起來,然而走著走著,繞過一個轉角,他來到一座小公園的後頭。8Please respect copyright.PENANApL5PTAGRHj
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停下腳步的緣由只因為他看見了熟悉的人。8Please respect copyright.PENANADUpwSYX4us
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背對著他的高大背影有著一頭暗紅色的頭髮,熟悉而陌生,而被他阻擋在後頭的,不用多想,也一定是他意料之內的人選。8Please respect copyright.PENANAhmoPRkp5i1
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冤家路窄。8Please respect copyright.PENANAgyQRzOuzo8
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冰室倚著鐵絲網,食指穿過鐵圈之間有一下沒一下的勾勒著,他冷靜而沉著地望著眼前的一舉一動。從此處的視角並不能看見全貌,但也能猜出個半解,冰室看不 見火神的表情,只能知曉他的後耳紅得透徹,而面對著他的黑子則難得地露出淺薄的笑容,他握住了他的手,期間說了什麼無法聽見,冰室也不想花心思去猜。8Please respect copyright.PENANA6RTSB0Kq14
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他的心情平靜卻也複雜。8Please respect copyright.PENANAOzjoeKtzfQ
唯一的選擇便是撇過視線不再去看。8Please respect copyright.PENANAUeZybPPc47
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待他回過神來時早已過了約定時間,冰室一面看著手錶,一面焦急地給青峰打電話,他穿過方才的那個下坡,繞過一個轉角,卻和同樣拿著手機的青峰大輝撞個正著。8Please respect copyright.PENANA0fAmCkKMAy
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正當他急忙著想道歉的時候,卻發覺死命握著他手腕的那個傢伙臉上,連一點表情也沒有。8Please respect copyright.PENANAWQOOgRsneX
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他不知道他也看見了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAA6ivt93i1H
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究竟是過度的憤怒還是無法收拾的悲傷,一句話也不說的青峰大輝就這麼捉著他,半拖半扯的穿過一片住宅,來到另一條更加寬闊的街道上頭。再度路過公園時, 公園內的身影已經消失不見,一片寂寥的空蕩,然而直到許久許久之後,他才知道這條街道是連結青峰家與對外商圈的最快捷徑。8Please respect copyright.PENANAjcY6jhPDbs
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他們在一處 公寓前頭停下,青峰悶不吭聲的掏著口袋裡頭的鑰匙,然而無論冰室在後頭怎麼開口詢問都遭到對方的視若無睹,而冰室也還來不及確認事情的始末,以及體會初次 光臨對方住所的感受,一關上門,他便被以粗暴的姿態反身壓在玄關地板,青峰就像是失去理智一般的撕扯著他的上衣與長褲,冰室反抗著、掙扎著,但力氣仍有所 差別的兩人始終無法抗衡,他回過臉龐,驚恐地望著對方拉下他最後的底褲。8Please respect copyright.PENANATuyWUCiLp7
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青峰按著冰室的腦袋,強迫性地要他轉過頭去,就與平時相同,嚴厲地遵守著做愛時刻立下的規矩──誰也不能面對著誰。8Please respect copyright.PENANAmHxwOYMs9O
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他拉下拉鍊,向前一挺。8Please respect copyright.PENANAkLLcTRtNPJ
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進來的那一瞬間冰室的眼前好似是落了黑幕,就像是將要暈過去那一般的疼,世界天旋地轉,胃部反射性的痙攣讓他忍不住作嘔,他還以為自己是失去了意識,那 樣也好,不用在無盡的痛苦之間反覆徘徊,只可惜那樣的想法只是短暫的慶幸,未經開拓的後穴實在過於緊致,無法一口氣插入,青峰將硬插進的性器抽出些許,隨 即又挺了進去,像是一把巨大利刃,一層一層地割開他韌性極佳的身體,數次的反覆抽插之後,頂到底的那一剎那冰室又被劇痛給疼得醒了過來。8Please respect copyright.PENANAbZLWxj5WAT
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連聲音也喊不出口的痛苦,尖叫與呻吟全都被排除在這樣強暴的性愛之外,所有哽在喉頭的全是燒灼的痠疼,冰室的淚水一點一點地滴到地板上頭,隨著身後的擺 動拖出數道水痕,他的指尖憑空抓呀抓的卻什麼也摸不著,儘管冰室的身材已算高大,但在與他差了十多公分的青峰面前,根本是個微不足道的弱者,他是這樣拼了 命想要逃離、逃離這樣恐怖的掌握。8Please respect copyright.PENANATm5S6Z4swU
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後方劇烈的抽插從未停歇過,青峰握住他的腰桿,然後像是著迷似的向下移動。他的手撫摸過對方漂亮的背脊與肩胛骨,燈光下的冰室全身泛著一股病態的蒼白,是那樣蒼白的膚色,讓他不禁想起了某個人,某個在他的眼前、接受其他男人親吻的傢伙──8Please respect copyright.PENANAG5zT0EZ1lC
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青峰伏下身,從後頭抱住了渾身顫抖的冰室,他的胸膛貼在對方的後背上頭,緊緊地、死命地攀住,就像是汪洋之中唯獨留有這塊浮木似的不肯放手,他閉上眼睛,苦痛與快樂兼併地在對方的耳邊低喃。8Please respect copyright.PENANAuxd9DQrntn
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「……你為什麼要跟他在一起呢,回答我啊!」8Please respect copyright.PENANAXDRHcjuCJ5
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他知道他也看見了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAUNFa2iI80j
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兩個人,四個人。他站在鐵絲網後的同時,青峰站在公園的最前頭。8Please respect copyright.PENANA6kKLS11BAg
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他明白青峰的憤怒、明白青峰的心情複雜,明白他就這麼眼睜睜地看著喜歡的傢伙接受他人的親吻,沉浸於他所不能碰觸的美好世界之中,他在另一頭何嘗不是這麼想。8Please respect copyright.PENANAKVt3VcpbcF
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但他參入偏質思想的複雜卻是有了罪。8Please respect copyright.PENANAko2eqNOFR1
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他一面望著火神與黑子的互動一面心底發疼,卻又無可抑止地想起和自己有所約定的青峰大輝。原先應該憤恨與絕望的思想卻亂了本質,他身上的男人因為受到傷 害而洩憤,而承受的他卻不知道該將情緒歸於何處,身體上的這份疼痛究竟是感受到火神的無可挽回,還是因為愧疚於自己早已背棄了當初的允諾。8Please respect copyright.PENANA74wY0JvmZM
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當一切不再如此純粹的時候,就真的糟了。8Please respect copyright.PENANApZWkfqEgFj
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……你為什麼不是…8Please respect copyright.PENANAATqKSUXjs1
不、你是啊…你是*哲……你是哲也。8Please respect copyright.PENANAStN2NaGclO
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身後的衝撞讓冰室一陣暈眩,他不知道這樣反覆的動作已經過了多久,濕黏一片的股間究竟是出了血還是他與對方廝磨之下的體液同樣沒有氣力分辨,他只覺得疼、太疼了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAtcU2kKTju4
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這我已經知道了。名字呢?8Please respect copyright.PENANA8Om0PeztbP
……我是辰也。8Please respect copyright.PENANAh5ZkBsYMQO
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他從不知曉自己的名字竟會給自己帶來這麼大的苦痛。8Please respect copyright.PENANAltZz8gpW1c
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註:テツヤ(哲也(Tetsuya)與辰也( Tatsuya)的讀音相近8Please respect copyright.PENANAO9G6aCGG1u
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另外下面是我對於這篇青冰裡冰室的想法以及感情走向8Please respect copyright.PENANAuFIk9HBvPO
如果想自行揣測的話就不要往下拉囉(´∀`)8Please respect copyright.PENANA8ULOdpOg2v
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冰室在這裡的情感有點矛盾8Please respect copyright.PENANAaqO8udVhZc
對於火神長久以來抱持著一定的喜愛,儘管是「戀愛」卻不是非常濃重8Please respect copyright.PENANAxqMEgIxLMU
這樣喜歡著火神的冰室尋求青峰成為替身8Please respect copyright.PENANAL53E1xubbq
但一次次的接觸之後了解到火神與青峰之間的差異8Please respect copyright.PENANAUkDdzApHYC
久而久之便也不覺得兩人相似8Please respect copyright.PENANAvJFmf0WSZk
對於青峰有些在意(或許是動了心)的冰室8Please respect copyright.PENANA6DrdpaeKlk
一面承受著火神方面無法割捨的愧疚,一面偏向青峰8Please respect copyright.PENANAkbvaL1lbHh
卻也在青峰那裡得到「他或許真正只是個替身」那樣的痛苦8Please respect copyright.PENANAgxEleruCJX
因此覺得自己是狡猾的、覺得自己是有罪的8Please respect copyright.PENANAlFLsjuG58O
就算受到殘忍的對待也覺得無所謂8Please respect copyright.PENANA8ovp0mFBcr
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先講到這裡,最後一篇再把後續的冰室心理說完8Please respect copyright.PENANAnnjILtVaKp
大略是不計手段之下的……8Please respect copyright.PENANAl6ACW4L5Tt
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\青氷増えろてください/ ←寫這樣的內容真沒資格講這句8Please respect copyright.PENANAjU5mKwC3Le