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起初發現症狀的時候,是在兩人認識的第十九個春天。7Please respect copyright.PENANAqEZs7m0LtC
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那一年春季的花開得稀稀落落,不特別盛,雨下得倒是非比尋常的多,算上一算,他們同居了十來年,合力買下的房子也不再是新居,彼此的工作早已穩定安妥,誰也不再是社會上膽怯的新生雛鳥,隨著年齡增長而思慮成熟,做起任何事來也是熟習的得心應手。7Please respect copyright.PENANAhMwYtFU5CZ
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一同生活的日子裡不算浪漫但偶有激情,平淡卻真實,脫離了那段青春歲月的他們仍是保有當年的熱忱,有的時候也會聯絡上昔日戰友,來場娛樂性質的計分賽,而有的時候也會到處在值得紀念的回憶之上走走停停,繞過改了新裝的速食店、轉過有了歷史的誠凜高校。7Please respect copyright.PENANApxJp4xXpK3
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每一日都是過得如此安穩,又或許是因為太過安穩,突發狀況更是難以想像。7Please respect copyright.PENANAjAP9HCNgWU
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近似於感冒的狀況讓兩人不以為意,總以為是天氣間的轉變而受了風寒,吃了藥看了醫生,情況略有好轉但仍斷斷續續帶著病徵,直到對方在工作結束後的返家路途上昏倒,被送往病院後才發現不僅僅是這麼簡單。7Please respect copyright.PENANApLIeTqL9Nz
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由醫生的口中說出病名的同時,火神愣了又愣,一直收攏在膝前的拳頭,此刻更是握得更緊。7Please respect copyright.PENANAbCCxrJYqHK
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檢查報告出來的結果並不樂觀,雖說只是病症中期,但惡化的程度比想像中還要來得糟糕。因患者可能會有較多的突發狀況,在醫生的建議之下決定暫且住院治療,施量用藥並控制病情,或考量其他更加適切的方法。7Please respect copyright.PENANA2uR52Q0vCO
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聽完醫師安排的火神在恍神許久後才匆匆道了謝,故作正經地繞回了病房,打開房門的那刻,黑子正坐在床上低頭看書,彷彿一如往常,如果不是房內如此濃重的消毒藥水氣味,火神或許還會將其誤認為他們的生活日常,因為一切仍是這樣的平靜,仍是這樣的毫無變化。7Please respect copyright.PENANAbzlU13iK8Y
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因此他才不能相信。7Please respect copyright.PENANAcWk78NunlQ
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「火神君,歡迎回來。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAgsBldVzVfd
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「哦、嗯,」火神向後靠上房門,「感覺怎麼樣了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANArXG2oLLt6V
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「什麼事都沒有,」病床上頭的黑子闔起書本,貌似有些疲倦的模樣,「火神君的工作今天不用去嗎?最近都沒有排班啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAhRqATyWvrz
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「我請了假。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAZlOOlnjdzx
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「是嗎,好想工作啊,害我有點想念那些調皮的孩子們了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAN1VxZhmukn
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「你是工作狂嗎你!偶爾休息個一陣子,不用見到那些吵鬧的小鬼也不錯吧!」他走到對方的病床旁,拉了張椅子後坐下。火神摸索進被褥裡頭,一下子便準確地握住了黑子的手,「怎麼回事,手好冰啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAbVjWUaSSLs
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「沒有辦法,就是非常想念,」黑子一動也不動地任由他握著,「要是以後見不到了該怎麼辦呢?」7Please respect copyright.PENANA4ABeooJIXE
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火神撇開眼神,不再去看對方的臉,而後便是一陣漫長的沉默。7Please respect copyright.PENANAXxzUmSqpDt
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「……檢查報告出來了吧。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAl0x6WZEEAB
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「嗯。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAePQUrt6qUq
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「火神君,我還能活多久呢?」7Please respect copyright.PENANAPpxREiJtGO
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「你這傢伙在說些什麼,絕對是能好起來的啊!」火神一陣怔愣,而後卻又很快地恢復過來,且使勁地搓揉起他的掌心,「很快…很快的,就能回家了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANALtzzZr2Sps
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沒有勉強那張不願抬起臉龐,他只是平淡地反握住了那雙溫柔的手、那雙一直以來在背後扶持著他的手,黑子低聲回應。7Please respect copyright.PENANAebeQNwRPBJ
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「……說的也是啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAazU8WJn4zo
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然而一住就是住了半個年頭。7Please respect copyright.PENANAEi3aNI1Wff
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毅然決然辭去工作的火神,在遞上辭呈的那一刻就像是收回了自己的心,原先分散於生活忙碌之中的自己,現今卻只朝著一個最為專一的目標前進,受到同仁挽留的他笑著說很快就會再回來,不會拖上太久,因為也許一切就將要好轉,他總想著,或許就是明天。7Please respect copyright.PENANApZUGL2M6SG
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便不知不覺數了無數個明天。7Please respect copyright.PENANAi88DdVhFyT
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一 心一意照顧起黑子的他開始有了空暇時間,卻也同時萬分忙碌,在醫院的時間大多時候都是兩人面對著面,說些以前的事,或削個幾顆蘋果來吃,有時候也得應付前 來探病的客人,諸如那些愛護後輩的誠凜前輩,還有過往那些可敬可畏的對手們,火神至今仍還記得第一個接到訊息的黃瀨匆匆忙忙地趕了過來,身上還穿著工作用 服,殘妝未卸,一臉誇張地奔進了病房,上前抱住了正在讀書的黑子。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsW4QWq1DQO
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後來是被笑稱這真是模特驚人的過度演出,無論過了多久仍是無法改掉他那 過分發達的淚腺與吵雜,往後再來,便給火神施下了「不可騷動令」,否則就不許再來。而期間最常來的便是即在醫院工作的綠間,儘管並非此科的主治醫師,但他 總以巡視病房的理由上門拜訪,而每每前來,他總會在黑子的床頭旁放上一樣東西,久而久之不便多談,火神也能知道,那是水瓶座今日所應擁有的幸運物品。7Please respect copyright.PENANARYqvWbcNk1
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這段期間,他們重新找回了許多原先失去聯絡的好友,見到了許多很久不見的同伴,收下了許多祈願與祝福,病房裡永遠是那樣熱鬧,而這也讓疲於看顧且得家中醫院兩頭跑的火神稍稍減輕了壓力,看見黑子保有精神的模樣,他便想著這世界總有可能出現奇蹟。7Please respect copyright.PENANACQ1Quxphmf
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挨過這半年,天氣漸趨轉涼,時節已然來到入了秋的十一月,卻也在這個時候,黑子的病情出現了不樂觀的惡化情況。7Please respect copyright.PENANAARmFs0V1sT
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先 是背部的無法直立,單憑倚著枕頭已難以讓黑子自主行動,僅能仰賴病床斜度的調整才得以坐起;爾後是使不上力的手臂,自發病之後一直相當虛弱且缺乏氣力的 他,現今連伸手都是困難之舉。精神變差、睡眠時間拉長,好多時候,火神僅能坐在他的病床旁,看著對方逐漸消瘦的身體與沉睡的面容發楞,一看便是許久許久。7Please respect copyright.PENANAKz9cMkJutt
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他 伸手撥開黑子的額髮,深覺對方的頭髮長了,睡得亂了,卻仍是一如初往的那個平靜模樣。但火神卻不想再多看,只想跳過那漫長得令人恐懼的睡眠,等待黑子那稀 少的清醒時間到來,告訴他,笨蛋,頭髮長了之後睡得更亂了,你睡著的樣子我看了多久啊,我都懶得再看了,我們快點回家,我再幫你剪頭髮……7Please respect copyright.PENANAbUNCFYjlDO
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自 他們初識的那時起,黑子便早已明白火神是那樣笨拙且直接的傢伙,並非是腦袋不夠聰明,而是他只知道用上一種方法,是最為直接、且最能表達的一種方法,諸如 他的善良與一心一意。總想著得對那個人好,於是便全心付出;總想著得贏,便拚盡全力,一但找到一種行進形式之後便埋頭苦幹,無論那是否符合實際效益,聽起 來也許很是愚昧,卻都是他的真心誠意。7Please respect copyright.PENANABwZyRncl2b
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黑子總想著,自己之所以那麼喜歡這個傢伙,便是因為這個原因。7Please respect copyright.PENANAccaT0tObcB
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近冬之時,已經完全無法將手抬起的黑子僅能倚靠火神的協助,儘管清醒的時間很少,但在無法進行任何消遣的情況之下他同也是無聊得發慌,除了與火神說話之外,其他什麼也做不到。7Please respect copyright.PENANAQwscPCnwgE
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好 久沒有看書了啊,黑子心想。入院之後增添不少空閒時光的他看了許多作品,諸如以往從未接觸過的作家,有的則是系列作,然而至現今自己雖已無法自主閱讀,心 裡卻仍惦記著前陣子所看的小說有沒有再出新作,起初不過是隨口向火神問了一句,沒想到對方卻立刻記了下來,隔日,火神便興沖沖地抱來了才剛發售不久的系列 新作。7Please respect copyright.PENANAuJmX3NwCSj
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「……火神君,」黑子是有些驚訝,昨日隨口一提的書名,沒想到火神真是跑去買來了,「你居然知道我在說些什麼啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAKDjLIaYvJy
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「喂,別小看我啊,我大概知道那是什麼啦!」7Please respect copyright.PENANApb810qjOpc
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黑子瞥了一眼對方微微飄開的視線,隱約地察覺火神是去問了店員。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGsZK2SUgdg
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「嗯,非常感謝,不過…」黑子垂下雙眼,「……我現在已經沒有辦法看書了呢,不可能像以前一樣翻書頁了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAIwPVZhKZWc
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火神在這時才突然啊了一聲,驚覺自己似乎做了些什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANA2aXuDQWAwB
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「黑子,對、對不起……」火神迅速地低下了臉龐,有些愧疚,並厭惡於自己地遲鈍。直至現今,他竟才察覺自己在無意之間,做出了這樣傷害黑子的事情。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGjV0ybazBz
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「為什麼要道歉呢,火神君是為了我才跑去買的吧。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAgNGHs2tedv
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「我……」7Please respect copyright.PENANA7n1XIk2u55
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「我很高興,」他眨了眨眼,「謝謝你。」7Please respect copyright.PENANARPBesMkHf3
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聽見對方的話語,火神低頭沉思了一陣子,而後便又再度抬起,「……黑子!那個,你很想看書對吧!那就由我來唸給你聽!」7Please respect copyright.PENANAzM7F23FxWR
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「……欸。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAc5wD4ODZry
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「就像是說故事一樣!」火神胡亂地將裝書的紙袋往自己的背包裡頭塞,「每天都唸一章,很簡單的,就交給我吧!」7Please respect copyright.PENANARbgUolPsFd
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黑子聽著聽著雖然不明所以,但仍未多想,僅當作是火神的玩笑話而已。7Please respect copyright.PENANAvDJZmiBCIh
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兩日之後,火神再度將那本小說帶了過來,他拉過一張椅子,便開始正正經經地唸起故事內容。7Please respect copyright.PENANASCjuMdfy4b
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黑子一愣一愣地聽著火神不大通順的語句,只覺有些詫異,而出乎他所意料之外的是,正如火神所言,他確確實實是將小說的第一章全數唸給自己聽,儘管花上了一段時間,卻仍是信守承諾的達成了目的。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsOmv9htWJ2
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往後數日,火神都帶著那本書來給黑子唸故事,但讓黑子感到疑惑的是,火神卻總是一副相當疲憊的模樣,起初原以為只是對方偶有失眠,猶如高中時比賽前的徹夜未能入睡,但幾日下來,他卻發現火神打呵欠的次數十分頻繁,就連眼睛下頭都出現了淡淡的黑眼圈。7Please respect copyright.PENANAWkCsZwY9lL
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「……火神君最近都很晚才睡嗎?」7Please respect copyright.PENANAWKFxYDPGHn
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「欸,」故事說到一半,突然被這麼一問的火神停了下來,「怎麼了嗎?」7Please respect copyright.PENANAYwRL2quuX2
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「眼睛下方有黑眼圈啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAJqCttUJmjt
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「嘛…應該算是吧,那個……」說起話來有些心虛的火神搔了搔頭,正當黑子要開口詢問對方都在做些什麼的時候,他便突然放下書本,站了起來,「…啊,我去上個廁所,你等我啊,馬上就回來!」7Please respect copyright.PENANAvySdTEJOzR
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說著說著,火神便狀若無事地溜了出去。7Please respect copyright.PENANAv3FA16ODS1
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他望著對方那明顯有著隱瞞的背影,滿是疑惑,暗自心想待會等他回來,肯定要問個明白。7Please respect copyright.PENANAH5tuQDQTMV
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即 在此時,他突然發現病房內的窗戶未關,帶著涼意的秋風從外頭吹了進來,將隔起的窗簾揚起一陣波浪狀,方才火神坐在靠窗的這一側時他還未能留意,現今少了火 神的阻擋,才覺得稍稍有些冷了起來,若是得一直坐在這前頭,對方絕對會感冒的,黑子思忖。待會等火神回來,就得叫他將窗戶關起。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHo6QTT5Zgg
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而或許是 因為一時間風大得過於強勁的緣故,將原先擱在一旁的厚重書本給吹了開來,間斷地翻了好幾個頁面,他原想著怎麼會如此輕易地便給掀起,黑子定睛一看,卻突然 發現書頁的一側滿是因使勁捏緊而形成的浪狀皺褶,靠近裝訂的位置同也有著一條反覆折起的深痕,而印刷的書頁上頭,密密麻麻地,滿是書寫的字跡。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHucAJntjvR
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黑子抿起了微微顫抖的雙唇。7Please respect copyright.PENANALaJzlvcrhD
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從以前到現在,火神的日語一向很差勁。7Please respect copyright.PENANAy1kHtd36tp
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高中時期有多少時候,都是倚賴著黑子的幫助才得以過關,過於艱澀的語詞他不懂、連敬語的用法都弄不明白,那樣的他。7Please respect copyright.PENANAFolMQ0na19
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那樣的他究竟得花上多少時間,才能找出一個又一個的漢字讀法,徹夜未眠地寫下這些筆記,就只為了唸上一章故事給自己聽。7Please respect copyright.PENANAnYiahNr6wm
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他無法去想。7Please respect copyright.PENANAK4BAEHrph6
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──說籃球並不是一個人打的人是你吧,那就交給我吧。7Please respect copyright.PENANAQt3G6Mb6xs
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那就交給我吧。7Please respect copyright.PENANA1xuwVLBjZb
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黑 子很少流淚,即使是在知曉自己患病的那一刻,明白自己離死亡是多麼接近時,他都不曾為此流淚,多有的是他安慰旁人的情況,卻從未見過他過於傷感的那一面。 唯有這一次,他深刻地感受到了面臨死亡的恐懼,但卻非是因失去生命,而是懼怕於無法再待在這個終始如一,無論如何都會為了自己而伸出手的人身旁。7Please respect copyright.PENANAzQv11hebyN
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他安靜無聲地流下淚水,唯有這一次。7Please respect copyright.PENANApFBnyBVZz4
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從以前到現在,火神一直是那樣笨那樣遲鈍,那樣衝動那樣暴躁的傢伙、除了籃球什麼也不會的傢伙。7Please respect copyright.PENANAqiSFMzedY5
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但我還想再待在他的身旁啊,我還想。7Please respect copyright.PENANApG2cNeaeIX
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起初發現症狀的時候,是在兩人認識的第十九個春天。7Please respect copyright.PENANAqEZs7m0LtC
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那一年春季的花開得稀稀落落,不特別盛,雨下得倒是非比尋常的多,算上一算,他們同居了十來年,合力買下的房子也不再是新居,彼此的工作早已穩定安妥,誰也不再是社會上膽怯的新生雛鳥,隨著年齡增長而思慮成熟,做起任何事來也是熟習的得心應手。7Please respect copyright.PENANAhMwYtFU5CZ
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一同生活的日子裡不算浪漫但偶有激情,平淡卻真實,脫離了那段青春歲月的他們仍是保有當年的熱忱,有的時候也會聯絡上昔日戰友,來場娛樂性質的計分賽,而有的時候也會到處在值得紀念的回憶之上走走停停,繞過改了新裝的速食店、轉過有了歷史的誠凜高校。7Please respect copyright.PENANApxJp4xXpK3
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每一日都是過得如此安穩,又或許是因為太過安穩,突發狀況更是難以想像。7Please respect copyright.PENANAjAP9HCNgWU
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近似於感冒的狀況讓兩人不以為意,總以為是天氣間的轉變而受了風寒,吃了藥看了醫生,情況略有好轉但仍斷斷續續帶著病徵,直到對方在工作結束後的返家路途上昏倒,被送往病院後才發現不僅僅是這麼簡單。7Please respect copyright.PENANApLIeTqL9Nz
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由醫生的口中說出病名的同時,火神愣了又愣,一直收攏在膝前的拳頭,此刻更是握得更緊。7Please respect copyright.PENANAbCCxrJYqHK
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檢查報告出來的結果並不樂觀,雖說只是病症中期,但惡化的程度比想像中還要來得糟糕。因患者可能會有較多的突發狀況,在醫生的建議之下決定暫且住院治療,施量用藥並控制病情,或考量其他更加適切的方法。7Please respect copyright.PENANA2uR52Q0vCO
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聽完醫師安排的火神在恍神許久後才匆匆道了謝,故作正經地繞回了病房,打開房門的那刻,黑子正坐在床上低頭看書,彷彿一如往常,如果不是房內如此濃重的消毒藥水氣味,火神或許還會將其誤認為他們的生活日常,因為一切仍是這樣的平靜,仍是這樣的毫無變化。7Please respect copyright.PENANAbzlU13iK8Y
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因此他才不能相信。7Please respect copyright.PENANAcWk78NunlQ
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「火神君,歡迎回來。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAgsBldVzVfd
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「哦、嗯,」火神向後靠上房門,「感覺怎麼樣了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANArXG2oLLt6V
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「什麼事都沒有,」病床上頭的黑子闔起書本,貌似有些疲倦的模樣,「火神君的工作今天不用去嗎?最近都沒有排班啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAhRqATyWvrz
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「我請了假。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAZlOOlnjdzx
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「是嗎,好想工作啊,害我有點想念那些調皮的孩子們了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAN1VxZhmukn
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「你是工作狂嗎你!偶爾休息個一陣子,不用見到那些吵鬧的小鬼也不錯吧!」他走到對方的病床旁,拉了張椅子後坐下。火神摸索進被褥裡頭,一下子便準確地握住了黑子的手,「怎麼回事,手好冰啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAbVjWUaSSLs
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「沒有辦法,就是非常想念,」黑子一動也不動地任由他握著,「要是以後見不到了該怎麼辦呢?」7Please respect copyright.PENANA4ABeooJIXE
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火神撇開眼神,不再去看對方的臉,而後便是一陣漫長的沉默。7Please respect copyright.PENANAXxzUmSqpDt
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「……檢查報告出來了吧。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAl0x6WZEEAB
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「嗯。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAePQUrt6qUq
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「火神君,我還能活多久呢?」7Please respect copyright.PENANAPpxREiJtGO
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「你這傢伙在說些什麼,絕對是能好起來的啊!」火神一陣怔愣,而後卻又很快地恢復過來,且使勁地搓揉起他的掌心,「很快…很快的,就能回家了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANALtzzZr2Sps
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沒有勉強那張不願抬起臉龐,他只是平淡地反握住了那雙溫柔的手、那雙一直以來在背後扶持著他的手,黑子低聲回應。7Please respect copyright.PENANAebeQNwRPBJ
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「……說的也是啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAazU8WJn4zo
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然而一住就是住了半個年頭。7Please respect copyright.PENANAEi3aNI1Wff
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毅然決然辭去工作的火神,在遞上辭呈的那一刻就像是收回了自己的心,原先分散於生活忙碌之中的自己,現今卻只朝著一個最為專一的目標前進,受到同仁挽留的他笑著說很快就會再回來,不會拖上太久,因為也許一切就將要好轉,他總想著,或許就是明天。7Please respect copyright.PENANApZUGL2M6SG
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便不知不覺數了無數個明天。7Please respect copyright.PENANAi88DdVhFyT
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一 心一意照顧起黑子的他開始有了空暇時間,卻也同時萬分忙碌,在醫院的時間大多時候都是兩人面對著面,說些以前的事,或削個幾顆蘋果來吃,有時候也得應付前 來探病的客人,諸如那些愛護後輩的誠凜前輩,還有過往那些可敬可畏的對手們,火神至今仍還記得第一個接到訊息的黃瀨匆匆忙忙地趕了過來,身上還穿著工作用 服,殘妝未卸,一臉誇張地奔進了病房,上前抱住了正在讀書的黑子。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsW4QWq1DQO
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後來是被笑稱這真是模特驚人的過度演出,無論過了多久仍是無法改掉他那 過分發達的淚腺與吵雜,往後再來,便給火神施下了「不可騷動令」,否則就不許再來。而期間最常來的便是即在醫院工作的綠間,儘管並非此科的主治醫師,但他 總以巡視病房的理由上門拜訪,而每每前來,他總會在黑子的床頭旁放上一樣東西,久而久之不便多談,火神也能知道,那是水瓶座今日所應擁有的幸運物品。7Please respect copyright.PENANARYqvWbcNk1
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這段期間,他們重新找回了許多原先失去聯絡的好友,見到了許多很久不見的同伴,收下了許多祈願與祝福,病房裡永遠是那樣熱鬧,而這也讓疲於看顧且得家中醫院兩頭跑的火神稍稍減輕了壓力,看見黑子保有精神的模樣,他便想著這世界總有可能出現奇蹟。7Please respect copyright.PENANACQ1Quxphmf
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挨過這半年,天氣漸趨轉涼,時節已然來到入了秋的十一月,卻也在這個時候,黑子的病情出現了不樂觀的惡化情況。7Please respect copyright.PENANAARmFs0V1sT
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先 是背部的無法直立,單憑倚著枕頭已難以讓黑子自主行動,僅能仰賴病床斜度的調整才得以坐起;爾後是使不上力的手臂,自發病之後一直相當虛弱且缺乏氣力的 他,現今連伸手都是困難之舉。精神變差、睡眠時間拉長,好多時候,火神僅能坐在他的病床旁,看著對方逐漸消瘦的身體與沉睡的面容發楞,一看便是許久許久。7Please respect copyright.PENANAKz9cMkJutt
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他 伸手撥開黑子的額髮,深覺對方的頭髮長了,睡得亂了,卻仍是一如初往的那個平靜模樣。但火神卻不想再多看,只想跳過那漫長得令人恐懼的睡眠,等待黑子那稀 少的清醒時間到來,告訴他,笨蛋,頭髮長了之後睡得更亂了,你睡著的樣子我看了多久啊,我都懶得再看了,我們快點回家,我再幫你剪頭髮……7Please respect copyright.PENANAbUNCFYjlDO
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自 他們初識的那時起,黑子便早已明白火神是那樣笨拙且直接的傢伙,並非是腦袋不夠聰明,而是他只知道用上一種方法,是最為直接、且最能表達的一種方法,諸如 他的善良與一心一意。總想著得對那個人好,於是便全心付出;總想著得贏,便拚盡全力,一但找到一種行進形式之後便埋頭苦幹,無論那是否符合實際效益,聽起 來也許很是愚昧,卻都是他的真心誠意。7Please respect copyright.PENANABwZyRncl2b
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黑子總想著,自己之所以那麼喜歡這個傢伙,便是因為這個原因。7Please respect copyright.PENANAccaT0tObcB
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近冬之時,已經完全無法將手抬起的黑子僅能倚靠火神的協助,儘管清醒的時間很少,但在無法進行任何消遣的情況之下他同也是無聊得發慌,除了與火神說話之外,其他什麼也做不到。7Please respect copyright.PENANAQwscPCnwgE
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好 久沒有看書了啊,黑子心想。入院之後增添不少空閒時光的他看了許多作品,諸如以往從未接觸過的作家,有的則是系列作,然而至現今自己雖已無法自主閱讀,心 裡卻仍惦記著前陣子所看的小說有沒有再出新作,起初不過是隨口向火神問了一句,沒想到對方卻立刻記了下來,隔日,火神便興沖沖地抱來了才剛發售不久的系列 新作。7Please respect copyright.PENANAuJmX3NwCSj
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「……火神君,」黑子是有些驚訝,昨日隨口一提的書名,沒想到火神真是跑去買來了,「你居然知道我在說些什麼啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAKDjLIaYvJy
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「喂,別小看我啊,我大概知道那是什麼啦!」7Please respect copyright.PENANApb810qjOpc
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黑子瞥了一眼對方微微飄開的視線,隱約地察覺火神是去問了店員。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGsZK2SUgdg
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「嗯,非常感謝,不過…」黑子垂下雙眼,「……我現在已經沒有辦法看書了呢,不可能像以前一樣翻書頁了。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAIwPVZhKZWc
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火神在這時才突然啊了一聲,驚覺自己似乎做了些什麼。7Please respect copyright.PENANA2aXuDQWAwB
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「黑子,對、對不起……」火神迅速地低下了臉龐,有些愧疚,並厭惡於自己地遲鈍。直至現今,他竟才察覺自己在無意之間,做出了這樣傷害黑子的事情。7Please respect copyright.PENANAGjV0ybazBz
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「為什麼要道歉呢,火神君是為了我才跑去買的吧。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAgNGHs2tedv
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「我……」7Please respect copyright.PENANA7n1XIk2u55
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「我很高興,」他眨了眨眼,「謝謝你。」7Please respect copyright.PENANARPBesMkHf3
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聽見對方的話語,火神低頭沉思了一陣子,而後便又再度抬起,「……黑子!那個,你很想看書對吧!那就由我來唸給你聽!」7Please respect copyright.PENANAzM7F23FxWR
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「……欸。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAc5wD4ODZry
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「就像是說故事一樣!」火神胡亂地將裝書的紙袋往自己的背包裡頭塞,「每天都唸一章,很簡單的,就交給我吧!」7Please respect copyright.PENANARbgUolPsFd
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黑子聽著聽著雖然不明所以,但仍未多想,僅當作是火神的玩笑話而已。7Please respect copyright.PENANAvDJZmiBCIh
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兩日之後,火神再度將那本小說帶了過來,他拉過一張椅子,便開始正正經經地唸起故事內容。7Please respect copyright.PENANASCjuMdfy4b
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黑子一愣一愣地聽著火神不大通順的語句,只覺有些詫異,而出乎他所意料之外的是,正如火神所言,他確確實實是將小說的第一章全數唸給自己聽,儘管花上了一段時間,卻仍是信守承諾的達成了目的。7Please respect copyright.PENANAsOmv9htWJ2
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往後數日,火神都帶著那本書來給黑子唸故事,但讓黑子感到疑惑的是,火神卻總是一副相當疲憊的模樣,起初原以為只是對方偶有失眠,猶如高中時比賽前的徹夜未能入睡,但幾日下來,他卻發現火神打呵欠的次數十分頻繁,就連眼睛下頭都出現了淡淡的黑眼圈。7Please respect copyright.PENANAWkCsZwY9lL
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「……火神君最近都很晚才睡嗎?」7Please respect copyright.PENANAWKFxYDPGHn
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「欸,」故事說到一半,突然被這麼一問的火神停了下來,「怎麼了嗎?」7Please respect copyright.PENANAYwRL2quuX2
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「眼睛下方有黑眼圈啊。」7Please respect copyright.PENANAJqCttUJmjt
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「嘛…應該算是吧,那個……」說起話來有些心虛的火神搔了搔頭,正當黑子要開口詢問對方都在做些什麼的時候,他便突然放下書本,站了起來,「…啊,我去上個廁所,你等我啊,馬上就回來!」7Please respect copyright.PENANAvySdTEJOzR
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說著說著,火神便狀若無事地溜了出去。7Please respect copyright.PENANAv3FA16ODS1
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他望著對方那明顯有著隱瞞的背影,滿是疑惑,暗自心想待會等他回來,肯定要問個明白。7Please respect copyright.PENANAH5tuQDQTMV
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即 在此時,他突然發現病房內的窗戶未關,帶著涼意的秋風從外頭吹了進來,將隔起的窗簾揚起一陣波浪狀,方才火神坐在靠窗的這一側時他還未能留意,現今少了火 神的阻擋,才覺得稍稍有些冷了起來,若是得一直坐在這前頭,對方絕對會感冒的,黑子思忖。待會等火神回來,就得叫他將窗戶關起。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHo6QTT5Zgg
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而或許是 因為一時間風大得過於強勁的緣故,將原先擱在一旁的厚重書本給吹了開來,間斷地翻了好幾個頁面,他原想著怎麼會如此輕易地便給掀起,黑子定睛一看,卻突然 發現書頁的一側滿是因使勁捏緊而形成的浪狀皺褶,靠近裝訂的位置同也有著一條反覆折起的深痕,而印刷的書頁上頭,密密麻麻地,滿是書寫的字跡。7Please respect copyright.PENANAHucAJntjvR
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黑子抿起了微微顫抖的雙唇。7Please respect copyright.PENANALaJzlvcrhD
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從以前到現在,火神的日語一向很差勁。7Please respect copyright.PENANAy1kHtd36tp
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高中時期有多少時候,都是倚賴著黑子的幫助才得以過關,過於艱澀的語詞他不懂、連敬語的用法都弄不明白,那樣的他。7Please respect copyright.PENANAFolMQ0na19
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那樣的他究竟得花上多少時間,才能找出一個又一個的漢字讀法,徹夜未眠地寫下這些筆記,就只為了唸上一章故事給自己聽。7Please respect copyright.PENANAnYiahNr6wm
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他無法去想。7Please respect copyright.PENANAK4BAEHrph6
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──說籃球並不是一個人打的人是你吧,那就交給我吧。7Please respect copyright.PENANAQt3G6Mb6xs
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那就交給我吧。7Please respect copyright.PENANA1xuwVLBjZb
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黑 子很少流淚,即使是在知曉自己患病的那一刻,明白自己離死亡是多麼接近時,他都不曾為此流淚,多有的是他安慰旁人的情況,卻從未見過他過於傷感的那一面。 唯有這一次,他深刻地感受到了面臨死亡的恐懼,但卻非是因失去生命,而是懼怕於無法再待在這個終始如一,無論如何都會為了自己而伸出手的人身旁。7Please respect copyright.PENANAzQv11hebyN
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他安靜無聲地流下淚水,唯有這一次。7Please respect copyright.PENANApFBnyBVZz4
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從以前到現在,火神一直是那樣笨那樣遲鈍,那樣衝動那樣暴躁的傢伙、除了籃球什麼也不會的傢伙。7Please respect copyright.PENANAqiSFMzedY5
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但我還想再待在他的身旁啊,我還想。7Please respect copyright.PENANApG2cNeaeIX
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