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天亮，上班。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gzWqi4k6J
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAnfI3ArY2
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpi2XPOyB4Y
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJ3JEn0sZK
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4Z5xBC7Kk
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看不見，罷。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXZtM3FSeZ
天黑，下班。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbodF9OPD0
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NJ4o11TSp
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFIWXdrY8n
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoLumsK45d
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5LhcWs3ch
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfBbTJwJOA
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamNpzx3aC5
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3O5RgvnUd
公司，午飯時間。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5wVHJlKwd
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnTILZZsaQ
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26fHVONqF3
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpGLSq1Czd
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJHoNRbGSu
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCiehZR6R7
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqfcezGx3l
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還是……262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75JEub0jbX
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RcBXGAk7l
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LUcNQzlx7
公司，工作。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbNdVAevHQ
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5HWD1pqhp
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aEsBNcWxG
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNReOIPdVf
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTo2Vhehhe
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd25RnacPfg
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRsh7CTbIt
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPZ3idooua
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGF7S3dGkv
快意，笑了。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ts1T8dqF0
酒吧，喝酒。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjElwEAm5P
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1nN4g0LZ9
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwA4P3SriZm
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDimY2VMpZI
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG47sLoJqgN
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrDxVD4N3y
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XytFcuXLo
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4m5RkgpCql
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpIkfuKoKu
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醉倒。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CyyhcGoob
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DbXGA3XcD
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyN98O5yjf
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWNTWeKp29
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i4DEiAiRy
假期，醫院。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i3C4clbIV
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYOp3KPcPX
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjt9SlsRVNP
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHN9SFQgvNK
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQM2QuGcZB
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIb7f7KJl8h
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuqagkMNEA
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYV8G663q9
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2RI0i0Zdv
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Xx5nfJ5xt
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1j39HI4lF
死寂。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOrqSnBZed
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfYg0yRnzC
回家，晚飯。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzxAnYYMM2
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADHnwArjOX
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Zi1bCXG2C
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D2TBtFJ1D
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugjEYrlexp
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaoP894FGN
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oL4u5Mo7F
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5KRCOY1Yy
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSCVdTrhA1
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgpCKC7l97
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZb0UqgG4b
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWP201L7tn
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCaZF4XmWZ
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJkjDWk7Gr
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVy6wgUD3pt
男友家，床上。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7msQX0TL4
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wIYQ7aAm5
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCdZlzhhZp
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Tj8TZKZcG
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuApGblDQ9c
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRGbbL9vTs
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWoKy3lz2U
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcQBS6wriH
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvguCJr2HL3
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSuUtM511N
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaO4GfGh6I
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYYW2OnvPG
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8QVAQ6JRc
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFdAV3kMEe
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IW7zEBCOu
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Qk0rAFq07
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4UgVQtXBH
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M6nI0iRbJ
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLNoy8gWEz
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTACt4TqOpc
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rKvh57wpT
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9sym4Kyhp
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DzYIvztSl
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTP7MpeDfq
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhv92L1ogTQ
「在你體內。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAkA5eUxV8
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1agB2l23P
「甚麼？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4U8zpJJ9QN
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「蟻。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLRjCeVm5K
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdmZe65mHz
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6Y3b8eQqO
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqB5UlIyPhq
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSopzmhGdVP
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4irxN7f9I
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcbCqtBDmY
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEVbTgJlNV
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzAeQQwrZs
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ772G4RPJkX
「誰？」另一聲音反問。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2MeYub8Ye
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhH4Ls7LW1k
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuY452ydlRu
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靜。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQA1tsQ7fY
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggcbHrfVOW
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYA0W5pKE6
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSNi6KS13Z
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBl27NxShMq
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2a64aRqlq6
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTB8kVX8fF
我：「我有精神病？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTpWX1MQzv
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsY2JFfXdtT
醫：「是情緒病。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kXp9yvSvH
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWT9hJ31Ty
我：「怎麼辦？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOszxQUv0pp
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrG608AcLy4
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWFycdH9xj
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQySm4INxBw
我：「謝謝醫生。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq69OV24Fkl
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXGpTxzAG6
醫：「不用謝。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8P7optwNJi
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGKi9TqJ7k
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6uMAHB6WH
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1woJ9iP8u6
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFFjQ64hkE
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9g6IbXqIR0
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5DSfvIXUl
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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