當我醒來時,已經坐在了列車的座椅上,睫毛和眼角有眼淚揮發後留下的痕跡。低下頭看了看手錶,已經八點半了。窗外已經徹底被黑暗籠罩,循環的列車不知開到了哪一站。15Please respect copyright.PENANAhejbzg5D5x
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不出所料,手機有幾個家裡打來的未接來電。把手機塞回口袋,我看著窗外夜景,睡意猶自未消,幾天來鬱結心中的痛苦暫且被掩蓋,迷糊之間不知哪裡來的勇氣,我撥通了她的電話。15Please respect copyright.PENANAzHh7mNfMdw
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「嘟──嘟──嘟──」此刻電話等候聲的間隙變得格外漫長。15Please respect copyright.PENANALErAoheyj2
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「喂?」電話那頭傳來熟悉的聲線。15Please respect copyright.PENANAzRmTes8QOU
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「......喂,是我,陳遠木。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAxnmtfh90Vc
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「你好,請問有什麼事嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANA6xbw7l6vVF
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「我現在可以去找你嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANArGBVaanJ0S
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「可以是可以,但是醫院十點就有門禁了。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAIRoQc3AjVb
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「沒關係,我儘快趕到。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAcfc5Gf6zWM
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「那我等你。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAyRP66iIV5v
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「嗯。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA4FnIMD6Uha
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打電話向家裡交代後,我的視線再次落在了窗外,看著斑斕的霓虹,等待列車到站。經過兩次轉車後,我來到了醫院,通往大門的過道上人流疏落,空氣久違的滲著一絲涼意。15Please respect copyright.PENANAqIW6njopVZ
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上次見面已經是四天前了,這幾天來我都極力逃避著那天她所說的一切,直到這一刻我還是很難相信,又或者是根本不願意去相信。15Please respect copyright.PENANARKfSp6y3CI
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站在病房前,心跳在不自覺地加速,深呼吸後,我推開了門。15Please respect copyright.PENANA2CXz03eesh
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她挨在床頭的靠背上,一頭濕潤的長髮披在肩上,耳朵裡塞著耳機,手裡握著手機和纏繞在手掌的耳機線,眼睛閉著,就這樣靜靜地,空氣彷彿隨她一同靜止。15Please respect copyright.PENANA2IxGja4JaZ
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眼前的她是這麼的熟悉,但她的一切卻彷如湖面泛起的波紋,無限向外延展擴散,直至消失殆盡,絲毫沒有留下存在過的痕跡。15Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ho1Rl5syu
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我呆呆佇立在病床旁。直至廁所馬桶的沖水聲把我倆一同喚醒。15Please respect copyright.PENANALfHLoivcQr
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她注意到了我。15Please respect copyright.PENANACsDutMbh0S
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「你來啦?怎麼不叫我。」她拿下一邊耳機,扭頭問。15Please respect copyright.PENANAVineTacdau
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「對不起,我看你睡得正酣。」我明知道她沒睡。15Please respect copyright.PENANAa3BuN9xtkg
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「沒有啦,我在聽音樂。」她側著抬起頭,展示淺埋在長髮下的耳機。15Please respect copyright.PENANACKjvuPbOeo
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「音樂嗎......她也很喜歡呢。」我口中喃喃念著,在床邊的椅子坐下。15Please respect copyright.PENANAuOQL1RdIep
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「這麼晚了,有什麼事嗎?」她邊問邊把另一邊的耳機摘下。15Please respect copyright.PENANAXIi5dTwh7j
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「沒有,就是想見一面。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA1h4GzEcinu
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「我叫嘉雯,你還記得嗎?」她問。15Please respect copyright.PENANAEBC8n2Ea74
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「嘉雯......」我默念著這個從這張熟悉臉龐說出的陌生名字。15Please respect copyright.PENANA1XOfEGKUiN
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「你叫陳遠木對吧?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAAAf9Iewte8
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「嗯,陳遠木。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAOVkBfzKMV8
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「你認識的她呢?是叫李子晴吧?如果我沒記錯的話。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAqAiyCcgh5M
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「是的,李子晴。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAAdve6Ggyg0
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「陳遠木,李子晴。」她微微抬頭像是搜索著腦海中有關這兩個名字的記憶。15Please respect copyright.PENANAQtcpNLVe6v
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「還是記不起來嗎?」我的失落溢於言表。15Please respect copyright.PENANALYuTEUE3PQ
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她見狀連忙岔開話題:15Please respect copyright.PENANAlqJlXMkM18
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「你說有沒有可能是人格分裂呢,雖然是發生在自己身上,但也是有可能的吧?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAP4xdh7auvZ
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人格分裂嗎?也就是說在這幅軀體中存在著兩個她,這幾天,我想過無數可能的原因,當然也包括人格分裂。但通通都被莫名的不真實感所覆蓋,我始終不敢相信她就這樣離開了,不管是什麼原因。我看著她的臉,尋找著任何關於「她」消失的線索。15Please respect copyright.PENANAs7borEPbgV
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「可是醫生不是說一切正常嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAr8gxvmdAAZ
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「如果按常理來說,這樣就解釋不了眼前所發生的一切了吧。如果說是靈魂附體的話,確實很難讓人相信吧,居然會發生這種事,太難以置信了。如果不是你那天生無可戀的表情,我一定毫不猶豫地把你當成騙子。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAljsNe7iiRG
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「可它確實是發生了,也只能這樣相信了。」我腦中想起與許老師關於靈魂的對話,便問:15Please respect copyright.PENANARqM4RfcKA9
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「這幾天你有想起什麼來嗎?哪怕是一點點的片段。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA9ITlAvBVWe
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「很遺憾,實在無法想起來,如果你所說的一切是真實發生過的,你能證明嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANACyAnt4ycKF
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她冷漠的神情如同對待初次見面的陌生人。15Please respect copyright.PENANAdiDOFWKzwD
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「她最喜歡紅色了,特別是粉紅色,絲木棉樹下她的眼睛都看得發直了。像是這輩子沒見過粉紅色一樣。」我獨自懷緬著。15Please respect copyright.PENANAWnImXmVajb
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「這也太籠統了,女孩子都喜歡紅色吧。有更確鑿的證據嗎?不然也太難以使人信服了。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAU3BAUvE1zm
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「你右胸有一顆痣,沒錯吧?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAen4eQMVwO4
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「......」她臉上頓時泛起一陣潮紅,耳根子都紅透了。15Please respect copyright.PENANA6tbhkvYPq5
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「對不起,只是在暑假旅行時無意間看到的。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAFL0V0kLMp9
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「怎麼會無意間看到!說!你到底做了什麼?」她瞪大眼睛看著我。15Please respect copyright.PENANAkhkitIV103
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「那天在海邊,她穿著泳衣,就看見了。」我支吾著說。15Please respect copyright.PENANAd3GjYxhQ83
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「你偷看!」她雙手摀在胸前。15Please respect copyright.PENANAc1rdIDwLcj
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「對不起!」趁形勢還沒有到不可逆轉前,我連忙道歉。15Please respect copyright.PENANAKFKDLuexHx
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「......」沉默了好一會,她說:15Please respect copyright.PENANAuY2Abu9ZZV
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「好吧,我相信你。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAGi0uHHumss
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「嗯。」我腦袋還在回憶著沒多久之前暑假那天的畫面。15Please respect copyright.PENANA24gy6sk7bJ
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她沒有馬上接話,讓我們之間的空氣沉了下來。這時我才發現,由於是多人病房,不少家屬都趕在門禁前探望親人,我們的對話被淹沒在聲浪中,並沒有引起其他人的注意。15Please respect copyright.PENANAw9tGb3rA2A
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「那我們的關係......我的意思是你和「她」的關係發展到什麼地步了?」15Please respect copyright.PENANATf0cqkHu2M
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她低著頭,雙頰的紅暈尚未褪去。15Please respect copyright.PENANA8BWToSlw7L
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「我愛上了她,從中三的那個夏天開始,不知不覺已經一年了。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA6wI2RJBwNf
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「我當然知道,不然那天你也不會哭得那麼撕心裂肺了。我的意思是──你們接吻了嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAr6P5yhfhlI
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她最後那句話細得幾乎聽不見。15Please respect copyright.PENANANHZiRrp6Ub
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「當然。」我神色黯然,欲言又止。15Please respect copyright.PENANAUVGa2r3RKp
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她看著頭頂的燈泡,像在思考又像在回憶。15Please respect copyright.PENANAaJahxiravy
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「對不起,如果那是你的初吻。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA6clOzPIl42
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「沒關係,就像是意外發生的吻不會被視為初吻吧,何況我還記憶全無。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA1T9D9sSb4I
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她思索片刻,然後樂觀地抿嘴一笑。15Please respect copyright.PENANA6yPuiqMxWq
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剎那間,子晴的笑臉如同一張張的幻燈片,在我腦中逐一掠過。只是沒有一張與眼前的這張笑臉吻合,很像,很像,卻又有哪裡不同。15Please respect copyright.PENANAbpsolwpJ5n
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「如果不記得了,發生過的一切再美好的確也無法想像吧。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAMgZ7KYHv21
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我默默想著,就像眼前的她,再熟悉的面孔也只是個陌生人。15Please respect copyright.PENANAyf3AKFClnn
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「我覺得她應該不想看到你這麼難過,如果世上真有靈魂,她應該就在某處看著吧。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA3RTT3YdlCQ
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她安慰的同時遞來一張面紙。15Please respect copyright.PENANAa9fpEqRJdV
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這時我才意識到眼角不知何時滲出的眼淚。15Please respect copyright.PENANAAIvWucpYcM
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「謝謝。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAtFmlSab5FP
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「不客氣。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAzNh1itfAN2
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我擦拭著眼淚,背後傳來醫院護士的聲音:15Please respect copyright.PENANA15oTTDFTFA
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「各位訪客,還有五分鐘就要離開了!」15Please respect copyright.PENANAHxMkdizSba
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「抱歉,今天這麼晚了還來打擾你。」我起身準備離開,發現雙腳已經麻了。15Please respect copyright.PENANArYg9wLCeIw
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「沒事的,你不要太難過了。」15Please respect copyright.PENANArdzYazOkbH
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「小伙子,你女友可真漂亮,記得要好好對人家。」正要走出房門,對面病床的阿姨說。15Please respect copyright.PENANAKsNvyd900Q
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話音傳入耳朵,竟讓胸口悶得快要窒息。15Please respect copyright.PENANA01tp90ViF4
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「阿姨別這麼說,我會害羞的。」15Please respect copyright.PENANA12dx3fFC7y
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從她熟絡地回答看來,她們已經是病友了。15Please respect copyright.PENANAf2AMDqFtOx
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我想她很清楚我的心情,所以沒有否定被冠以的身份。15Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9zsB729IP
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「阿姨,我會的。」我配合著她的演出,這算是逃避現實嗎?15Please respect copyright.PENANAdUhUkYuYI5
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走廊上,她追了出來。15Please respect copyright.PENANAhOmjNz4avr
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「如果可以......」她頓了頓,繼續說:15Please respect copyright.PENANAqgMgliBLj3
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「請告訴我,你們的故事,畢竟這曾經發生在我身上!」15Please respect copyright.PENANAcgD4hcxH5W
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「早點休息吧。」我無奈回頭,對她的請求不置可否。15Please respect copyright.PENANACqHOcrWY19