AMARA pov :
After dropping Mona off at her school, I headed toward my college.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzz0doopEnJ
It stood tall and wide—an old building with modern patches, alive with chatter and movement.
I entered through the main gate, the cold air brushing past my cheeks as I walked slowly across the ground.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvfotL2Oua
Students were scattered all around—laughing, walking in groups, some rushing in panic, some half-asleep.
I watched them quietly.
My steps felt heavy .14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT91MdXA6IX
I passed the garden, then the notice board, and finally reached my building.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBchn1v4wg
Inside, the hallway buzzed with voices and footsteps echoing off the walls.
I made my way to my classroom, and just as I reached the door, the bell rang.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGu23vIGEF
Sharp. Loud. Piercing the sleepy air.
I walked in with the others, our footsteps soft against the tiled floor.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmUzDZnRuw
I headed straight to the last bench—near the window, my usual spot.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7U7GuiYnR
Dropped my bag beside me and sat down, pulling out my notebook and pen.
A moment later, our physics teacher walked in, holding her register close to her chest like always.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHE4XccCtXD
She was strict, but not unfair.
"Roll call first," she said, flipping the pages.
She started calling out names one by one.
"Amara?" she said, her voice echoing slightly in the quiet room.
"Present," I replied, my voice low but clear.
She nodded and continued.
The moment the attendance ended, she turned to the board and began the lecture—some topic on waves and motion.
I opened my notebook and started taking notes.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP16e12aFTm
My handwriting moved across the page almost automatically.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFemgw19vag
It was mechanical—like my hands knew what to do even if my mind didn't.
Outside the window, the sun had fully risen, casting soft shadows on the ground.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQEebxEFlo
The trees swayed gently, and I found myself staring at the sky instead of the board.
My thoughts drifted, slowly and silently.
What am I doing? Where am I heading?14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eWRxOzcQT
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just passing time, or if time is passing me.
I snapped back for a moment when the teacher raised her voice, emphasizing a formula.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsGAev6iIG
I scribbled it down, then faded again into my own world.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeErWHyPwn
Thinking... feeling... remembering... and sometimes, just empty.
The lectures came and went like pages turning in a book I wasn't reading.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmyueSMVqi
Math. Chemistry. English. . Computer.
Each teacher entered, spoke, and left.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntQLdW7QGV
Students laughed, whispered, yawned, scribbled, stared at the clock.
I stayed there.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltHkZ0ImNF
On the last bench, near the window.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dsE43fP9W
Listening, learning... and sometimes, just breathing.
"Oh Amara, did you do your homework?"14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpWOP3LaUH
Jessica's voice reached me—my classmate, the girl who always sat one bench ahead.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZAmhCqGUi
I looked up and nodded, quietly handing her my notebook.
"Thanks," she smiled.
I just gave a small smile back.
I think... I barely speak in class.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvC62SQjISn
I barely exist in the noise.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB3YLWNUHZ
Sometimes I wonder—do I even have friends?14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCK0Ot6gEQN
Maybe I do. Maybe I don't.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5TmnAspar
Maybe having people around doesn't mean you're not alone.
And if we sit in a room full of laughter and still feel empty—14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeAWPJYqxb
Then what's the point of trying so hard to belong?
The lecture ended. The bell rang again. Another hour faded away.
I walked down to the ground, where life felt louder.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCIdG60Bnj
The boys were playing football, their shouts echoing, chasing the ball like it meant everything.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZDkUaRoVa
The girls stood near the fence, cheering and laughing, waving hands and hair in the cold wind.
I sat on the edge of the grass, arms wrapped around my knees, watching them.
But what was I really watching?
Soon, I wasn't even there anymore.
My thoughts had already taken me somewhere else.
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This world moves fast. Too fast sometimes.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIAvSRKDxp
People talk like they've figured it all out.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksxJfseHhY
How to be happy. How to be successful. How to be strong.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaALGrWuYDl
But no one tells you what to do when your heart is quiet, and your mind is loud.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nWvwnVo4w
No one teaches you how to sit with your own silence and not be scared of it.
Maybe that's why I like this bench. This space. This moment between everything.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqtYcR1oZD
Because here, I'm not pretending. I'm not performing. I'm just... living .. breathing.
The wind picked up slightly.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61fxEIMR72
I looked at the sky—my old habit—and let myself just exist in that second.
Nothing made sense.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOg6gvewaZJ
But for now, I didn't need it to.
god...14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35X2vqDsxh
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Sometimes I wonder... does the world even notice the quiet ones?14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmUzgEA1H8
The ones who sit at the edge, not trying to join in, not trying to stand out either.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCu1rN2i3e
We exist too, don't we? In the background, in the pauses between noise.
I see people laughing, shouting, running, living so loudly.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2bFajsqFR
And I sit here... thinking quietly, feeling loudly.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGtNxuZQPl
Is that still living?
Jessica walked past with her friends. She waved, and I gave a tiny nod.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5fVwK7pVI
She was kind.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWipRXesuGR
But kindness doesn't always reach where loneliness lives.
I stayed a little longer. Watching the wind play with the edges of scarves.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bOFA2hgSf
The way the football kept rolling.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlF516p9Ac
The way voices blurred into noise
Why does everything feel like it's moving without me?14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8xiSGuX9e
Like the world is spinning and I'm just... watching from the outside of a glass window.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40LUbuA2ip
I laugh sometimes, I speak when needed. I exist.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIO06cEEdxn
But do I live?
Maybe I'm not made for noise. Maybe I was always meant for silence.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroj5NMRFmK
Not sad. Not broken. Just... quiet
The bell rang, sharp and familiar.
Everyone moved quickly—some annoyed, some laughing, some still trying to finish snacks.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ31IfB9GDD
I stood up slowly, brushed my skirt gently ...
Back inside the building, it was crowded again.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRYpRBooz5
Voices echoed. Someone ran past. Someone cursed the timetable.
I walked quietly to my next class.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfzt1HPG7e
Same bench. Same corner. Same silence.
The teacher came in and began reading a poem.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfUN7jLn0b
Her voice was soft, flowing with words that meant more than what they said.
I opened my notebook.
Wrote the title.
And stared at the page for a moment.
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"It's strange how words written by someone else can sometimes feel like they belong to you.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbmK6zTyTB
Like they've seen your heart before you did"14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuDpw5RcBo
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soon i was walking to go back __home ...home.__home.
I opened the front door and stepped inside, closing it softly behind me.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfG8LpTaDK
The air was warm. Familiar.
Mona was already home, still in her school uniform, sitting cross-legged on the couch—watching Friends, again.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77VrtrwIdN
The sound of canned laughter filled the room.
"Change your clothes," I said, placing my bag on the table.
She looked back at me with a small smile. "In a minute."
I raised my brow slightly. "You said that yesterday."
"I'll go. Promise," she mumbled, eyes still glued to the screen.
I walked into the kitchen.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZITELTzR3
On the fridge, taped neatly, was a small piece of paper.
I leaned in and read it.
"I made rice. Eat it, girls. See ya soon. Bye. Love you. — Mom."
Her handwriting was rushed, like always.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ydvG0IpIc
I stared at it for a second, then sighed quietly.
"She's at work again?" I asked, turning my head.
Mona nodded from the couch. "Double shift again. I told you yesterday, remember?"
"Right..." I whispered, pulling open the rice pot.
I served myself a small plate and sat at the table, eating slowly.
"You ate already?" I asked, glancing toward Mona.
"Yeah. Right after school. I was starving."
I just nodded. The spoon clinked softly against the plate as I finished my food in silence.
Afterward, I got up, washed my plate and hers too. The water was warm, steam rising gently from the sink.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYONGHJ0Is9
The kitchen light flickered once, but stayed on.
I dried my hands and walked up to my room.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHuTt9J2l2
Changed out of my uniform.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORbxi99NfM
Pulled on black pants, a plain white top, and layered my long brown coat over it.
Standing in front of the mirror, I tied my hair again__my vision on the mirror is also tired my almond eyes hollow from inside my face pale..skinny like there is no soul.
Before leaving, I peeked into the living room. Mona had finally changed, now curled up in fresh pajamas with a notebook open beside her.
"I'm going now," I said softly.
She looked up. "Okay. Be careful."
"Lock the door after me, and do your homework. No skipping tonight."
"I know, I know," she said, waving her pencil lazily.
I slipped into my shoes, grabbed my bag, and stepped outside.14Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9feHyr1g9
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