AMARA pov :
After dropping Mona off at her school, I headed toward my college.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3cmJgMcYT
It stood tall and wide—an old building with modern patches, alive with chatter and movement.
I entered through the main gate, the cold air brushing past my cheeks as I walked slowly across the ground.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZxY1YGh0Y
Students were scattered all around—laughing, walking in groups, some rushing in panic, some half-asleep.
I watched them quietly.
My steps felt heavy .13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8bLXEDRN3
I passed the garden, then the notice board, and finally reached my building.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2uPZrMUqP
Inside, the hallway buzzed with voices and footsteps echoing off the walls.
I made my way to my classroom, and just as I reached the door, the bell rang.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vxnKoLohT
Sharp. Loud. Piercing the sleepy air.
I walked in with the others, our footsteps soft against the tiled floor.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MvxH7xFfY
I headed straight to the last bench—near the window, my usual spot.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SP8dxmf93
Dropped my bag beside me and sat down, pulling out my notebook and pen.
A moment later, our physics teacher walked in, holding her register close to her chest like always.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjZQlCe60E
She was strict, but not unfair.
"Roll call first," she said, flipping the pages.
She started calling out names one by one.
"Amara?" she said, her voice echoing slightly in the quiet room.
"Present," I replied, my voice low but clear.
She nodded and continued.
The moment the attendance ended, she turned to the board and began the lecture—some topic on waves and motion.
I opened my notebook and started taking notes.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsimcc6wE0h
My handwriting moved across the page almost automatically.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡib3AjPMews
It was mechanical—like my hands knew what to do even if my mind didn't.
Outside the window, the sun had fully risen, casting soft shadows on the ground.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpl3Jf6JtG
The trees swayed gently, and I found myself staring at the sky instead of the board.
My thoughts drifted, slowly and silently.
What am I doing? Where am I heading?13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDQ20SL2D7
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just passing time, or if time is passing me.
I snapped back for a moment when the teacher raised her voice, emphasizing a formula.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxHeA3cz16
I scribbled it down, then faded again into my own world.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyIhRyJJyA
Thinking... feeling... remembering... and sometimes, just empty.
The lectures came and went like pages turning in a book I wasn't reading.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGypzeKCffX
Math. Chemistry. English. . Computer.
Each teacher entered, spoke, and left.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR206X85y0
Students laughed, whispered, yawned, scribbled, stared at the clock.
I stayed there.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjeqUFMo6Q
On the last bench, near the window.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQUGW5B93t
Listening, learning... and sometimes, just breathing.
"Oh Amara, did you do your homework?"13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6c6wI7eZQk
Jessica's voice reached me—my classmate, the girl who always sat one bench ahead.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXtDrWJ3Se
I looked up and nodded, quietly handing her my notebook.
"Thanks," she smiled.
I just gave a small smile back.
I think... I barely speak in class.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2J50XCxRy
I barely exist in the noise.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviOv8gU0tH
Sometimes I wonder—do I even have friends?13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQq37gH9eD
Maybe I do. Maybe I don't.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQWN8dcGCr
Maybe having people around doesn't mean you're not alone.
And if we sit in a room full of laughter and still feel empty—13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwY0Uoz6Gqm
Then what's the point of trying so hard to belong?
The lecture ended. The bell rang again. Another hour faded away.
I walked down to the ground, where life felt louder.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4V8RHTi73
The boys were playing football, their shouts echoing, chasing the ball like it meant everything.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfo9kM8Q3Z
The girls stood near the fence, cheering and laughing, waving hands and hair in the cold wind.
I sat on the edge of the grass, arms wrapped around my knees, watching them.
But what was I really watching?
Soon, I wasn't even there anymore.
My thoughts had already taken me somewhere else.
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This world moves fast. Too fast sometimes.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWZDSoXLlW
People talk like they've figured it all out.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7A9YoyVpoa
How to be happy. How to be successful. How to be strong.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDkt0m2CeA
But no one tells you what to do when your heart is quiet, and your mind is loud.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQggvb5Lkpp
No one teaches you how to sit with your own silence and not be scared of it.
Maybe that's why I like this bench. This space. This moment between everything.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZdyBAVVha
Because here, I'm not pretending. I'm not performing. I'm just... living .. breathing.
The wind picked up slightly.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqGA957CJv
I looked at the sky—my old habit—and let myself just exist in that second.
Nothing made sense.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uMJcuJg3U
But for now, I didn't need it to.
god...13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBz3LMjk3n
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Sometimes I wonder... does the world even notice the quiet ones?13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6oeqlpl8g
The ones who sit at the edge, not trying to join in, not trying to stand out either.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM6a3Iltko
We exist too, don't we? In the background, in the pauses between noise.
I see people laughing, shouting, running, living so loudly.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiPlWLYO9F
And I sit here... thinking quietly, feeling loudly.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrSs6yF95s
Is that still living?
Jessica walked past with her friends. She waved, and I gave a tiny nod.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifJ8nMLCUF
She was kind.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9R8QU8J2N
But kindness doesn't always reach where loneliness lives.
I stayed a little longer. Watching the wind play with the edges of scarves.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljscTIR0B5
The way the football kept rolling.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKe8aFGlPdt
The way voices blurred into noise
Why does everything feel like it's moving without me?13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kl2TJbqqe
Like the world is spinning and I'm just... watching from the outside of a glass window.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOVeRtryNI
I laugh sometimes, I speak when needed. I exist.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOUGNYQ1h9
But do I live?
Maybe I'm not made for noise. Maybe I was always meant for silence.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJux2dqr47
Not sad. Not broken. Just... quiet
The bell rang, sharp and familiar.
Everyone moved quickly—some annoyed, some laughing, some still trying to finish snacks.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T22kgmDZx
I stood up slowly, brushed my skirt gently ...
Back inside the building, it was crowded again.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCq2tVIozk
Voices echoed. Someone ran past. Someone cursed the timetable.
I walked quietly to my next class.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnQRnfmJft
Same bench. Same corner. Same silence.
The teacher came in and began reading a poem.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUh0JqUSR0
Her voice was soft, flowing with words that meant more than what they said.
I opened my notebook.
Wrote the title.
And stared at the page for a moment.
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"It's strange how words written by someone else can sometimes feel like they belong to you.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpqz73t5FB
Like they've seen your heart before you did"13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8oKYN1FO8
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soon i was walking to go back __home ...home.__home.
I opened the front door and stepped inside, closing it softly behind me.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PJU2oyCjn
The air was warm. Familiar.
Mona was already home, still in her school uniform, sitting cross-legged on the couch—watching Friends, again.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1dASCQp2W
The sound of canned laughter filled the room.
"Change your clothes," I said, placing my bag on the table.
She looked back at me with a small smile. "In a minute."
I raised my brow slightly. "You said that yesterday."
"I'll go. Promise," she mumbled, eyes still glued to the screen.
I walked into the kitchen.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lGf0kUZJE
On the fridge, taped neatly, was a small piece of paper.
I leaned in and read it.
"I made rice. Eat it, girls. See ya soon. Bye. Love you. — Mom."
Her handwriting was rushed, like always.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLxuCoF7UV
I stared at it for a second, then sighed quietly.
"She's at work again?" I asked, turning my head.
Mona nodded from the couch. "Double shift again. I told you yesterday, remember?"
"Right..." I whispered, pulling open the rice pot.
I served myself a small plate and sat at the table, eating slowly.
"You ate already?" I asked, glancing toward Mona.
"Yeah. Right after school. I was starving."
I just nodded. The spoon clinked softly against the plate as I finished my food in silence.
Afterward, I got up, washed my plate and hers too. The water was warm, steam rising gently from the sink.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsJ4JWMqqs
The kitchen light flickered once, but stayed on.
I dried my hands and walked up to my room.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡol7tSCkP9y
Changed out of my uniform.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zfrJ3l3sm
Pulled on black pants, a plain white top, and layered my long brown coat over it.
Standing in front of the mirror, I tied my hair again__my vision on the mirror is also tired my almond eyes hollow from inside my face pale..skinny like there is no soul.
Before leaving, I peeked into the living room. Mona had finally changed, now curled up in fresh pajamas with a notebook open beside her.
"I'm going now," I said softly.
She looked up. "Okay. Be careful."
"Lock the door after me, and do your homework. No skipping tonight."
"I know, I know," she said, waving her pencil lazily.
I slipped into my shoes, grabbed my bag, and stepped outside.13Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IvpQstN2f
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