水蒸氣瀰漫,熱水沖刷著瓷磚,淅瀝聲像是一首單調又無法停止的催眠曲。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9yOpz651az
洛萱的指尖在茉音的肩胛骨上輕輕滑過,那裡有一塊幾近發紫的瘀痕,她動作不敢太重,生怕碰疼了人。41Please respect copyright.PENANADwupdwGdsN
可是這樣的輕柔,卻像是一道細細的鋒刃,一寸寸刮過茉音的神經。41Please respect copyright.PENANASIgJPIIxuf
「……妳在怕什麼?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAScf4yOVQOR
茉音忽然低聲開口,聲音被水聲削得有些輕,但又尖銳得像是扎進洛萱耳裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhPzXgHKsWQ
洛萱手一頓,連呼吸都屏住了,想開口否認,卻說不出一個字。41Please respect copyright.PENANACCyXFUDSrr
她怕什麼?怕茉音受傷、怕茉音崩潰、怕茉音再也回不到那個笑著安慰後輩的模樣……更怕有一天自己也會被這樣的黑暗吞噬。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyIabDjqwFv
「妳是怕我嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAEV1fNOq3ag
茉音笑了,卻笑得不像笑,水珠從她微垂的睫毛滴落,混在洗髮精的泡沫裡,看起來狼狽而又脆弱。41Please respect copyright.PENANAX68LIK6SPv
「不……不怕……我只是……」洛萱咬著牙,話沒說完就被茉音抓住了手腕。41Please respect copyright.PENANAIxn1sQ8yZN
「妳騙人。」茉音轉過身來,背對著水流,整個人貼近洛萱,那雙空洞的眼睛卻像兩口深井,把她拉進去再也逃不開。41Please respect copyright.PENANARH9Y2MQ8nm
她的聲音裡帶著一種病態的執拗與渴求:「妳怕我,對吧?妳怕我這副樣子,怕哪天也會變成我。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAvZhIhsRkIC
洛萱的指尖不自覺收緊,泡沫被擠得「咕滋」一聲,沿著手臂滑落,像是黏稠的血。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvDXfj9rzSE
「我……不是怕……我只是……只是……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAKKdvFSOb5j
她嗓子發乾,心裡有一個聲音在嘶吼——41Please respect copyright.PENANAkmzftUvPqn
不對勁。這樣不對勁。前輩需要的是幫助,不是縱容,不是可憐。41Please respect copyright.PENANAToEo0OUV70
可當她看見茉音低垂的睫毛、半張的嘴唇裡若隱若現的嘆息,那句「不對勁」又硬生生堵死在胸口。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOGbMCzMFCJ
「……好溫柔喔……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAwOJFe09k3h
茉音忽然輕笑,喉嚨裡像是滾過一根刺,笑聲幾乎要碎掉。41Please respect copyright.PENANAy3JrRWuk67
「洛萱,妳以為妳能洗掉我身上的髒東西嗎?不可能的……哈哈……妳知道這是什麼嗎?這就是代價……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAHMi8hEj7uw
她抓住洛萱還在顫抖的手,按到自己腰間那道最深的瘀痕上,像是惡意又像示弱,眼裡卻閃著一絲瘋狂的光。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcRrDjhAvRL
「來啊,把它洗掉……把我洗乾淨……然後呢?妳要負責嗎?妳以後……要怎麼看我……?」41Please respect copyright.PENANApUPyrK0LfJ
洛萱的呼吸卡在喉嚨裡,心裡那層名為「信任」和「崇拜」的薄膜,被茉音的話一刀一刀剝落,露出發紅的傷口。41Please respect copyright.PENANARMRWaJOugw
可她還是搖了搖頭,聲音像被水泡軟的紙一樣脆弱:「……妳不是髒……妳是……茉音前輩……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAVRTnQ59Dqe
「哈哈哈哈……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAMtD9yH5gOY
茉音仰起頭笑了,笑聲裡沒有半分愉快,只有苦澀和自嘲。41Please respect copyright.PENANASr82LluILO
「所以妳還是妳,妳還在做夢。真好啊……」41Please respect copyright.PENANArneFx6kxmY
說到最後,語調卻又低了下來,她湊近洛萱,鼻尖幾乎貼到她臉側,呼吸帶著潮濕的熱。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7s78JMYet4
「……所以妳要一直陪著我啊……哪怕有一天,妳也變得跟我一樣骯髒……妳都不能跑,知道嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANALCnOrYhhMz
洛萱渾身一顫。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHBVilCXSDJ
茉音沒再多說什麼,鬆開了她的手,轉過身把頭埋進水裡,任由熱水沖刷泡沫和眼淚。那背影看起來無比瘦弱,卻像一頭獨佔獵物的獸。41Please respect copyright.PENANA73zoYPPueB
洛萱呆站在原地,指尖還殘留著剛才那道青紫的冰冷,心裡有什麼東西,像是被深深地咬了一口。41Please respect copyright.PENANAxU87iqqDp1
當水聲終於停止時,整間浴室已被熱氣熏得白茫茫一片,鏡子上沾滿水珠,看不清人影。41Please respect copyright.PENANASDp1pfVRBg
洛萱的指尖泡得泛白,手心卻依舊殘留著一股冷意。她撐著牆,努力穩住發軟的腿,忍著腦海裡翻攪的各種聲音。41Please respect copyright.PENANAr6z3RKQwz5
茉音背對著她,一動不動地站在花灑下,滴水的頭髮貼著脖頸,線條纖細得幾乎讓人懷疑,只要稍微用力,她就會像玻璃一樣碎掉。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZm8yFDEky8
「前輩……我幫妳把睡衣拿來了……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAdcCHSkftCp
洛萱嗓子發啞,聲音聽起來像是小心翼翼的求和。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfERkOmo4xW
茉音沒有回頭,只是緩慢地「嗯」了一聲,聲音輕得快要融進水霧裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANA0bQR9OyfBI
洛萱走過去,把毛巾和睡衣小心放到浴室架子上,餘光瞥見那條還泛著青紫的腰線,指尖微微一抖。41Please respect copyright.PENANAniqldneS4I
她低著頭,正準備轉身離開,衣角卻被一隻濕冷的手攥住。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfOQcZWhuGf
「……不要走。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAVS4scpvtkv
茉音的聲音沒什麼起伏,卻透著一種幾乎恍惚的黏稠。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGiwEgZu4Od
洛萱僵在原地,沒敢掙開,喉嚨裡只擠出一個「嗯……我在這裡。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAckZg5udLcK
她聽見茉音在背後輕輕笑了,像是得到了某種微不足道卻足以撐住活下去的糖果。41Please respect copyright.PENANApkcJL1MPfD
等到茉音終於肯鬆手換衣服,洛萱退到門外,靠在牆邊,指尖用力攥著掌心,好讓自己不去想剛剛那些太過靠近、太過危險的觸感。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfKFFKwZQrw
幾分鐘後,浴室門被拉開,茉音換上了寬鬆的白色睡衣,頭髮還半乾著,水珠順著臉頰滑落,看起來一如往常的溫柔乖巧,卻又哪裡都不對勁。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2WZCOCVUXi
「……幫我吹頭髮。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAGn3hAYwQo9
茉音看著她,像是在提出一個理所當然的請求。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQG7zz4Cqxg
洛萱愣了愣,點點頭,轉身從抽屜裡拿出吹風機。41Please respect copyright.PENANALKYphRbb6p
嗡嗡的風聲響起,她手裡那台吹風機有些老舊,發出的暖風偶爾忽冷忽熱,她小心地撥開茉音的長髮,一撮一撮吹乾,生怕再拉痛她哪裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAH96obQooc
茉音閉著眼睛,乖順地任由她擺弄,沒有剛才那股陰狠,安靜得近乎虛假。41Please respect copyright.PENANAntnxzMsIH9
可洛萱知道,這份安靜背後藏著的,是剛才在水霧裡幾乎將她吞沒的黑暗。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwS1Z3lTVOJ
「前輩……」41Please respect copyright.PENANA9oIlmtRGdM
洛萱猶豫了一下,終於還是問出口:「……要不要跟經理說?不管是工作還是……那些人……都……」41Please respect copyright.PENANAkj46zIAowu
還沒說完,茉音睫毛顫了下,眼睛緩緩睜開,映著檯燈的光,笑意溫柔得近乎惡意。41Please respect copyright.PENANA8gIGCa9OuY
「笨孩子。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAkGZ8kviIBn
她伸手摀住了洛萱的嘴,聲音輕得像是在哄小孩入睡:「別告訴別人……只要妳知道就好……只要妳陪著我……就好了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAm1pR6R8oEW
洛萱瞳孔微微縮了一下,心裡那絲最後的安全感,被這句話生生壓碎。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5RoAgsXll4
吹風機裡的暖風還在呼呼作響,她的指尖卻冷得像是泡在雪裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANALUiZ7as8Ot
這一刻,她明白了——41Please respect copyright.PENANA2X9ogd07fS
從此以後,茉音將不再允許她逃離。41Please respect copyright.PENANAa9qNNZSzPw
而她,竟然連反駁的力氣都沒有。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6gJyXMgYC0
吹風機終於停下,房間裡只剩彼此的呼吸與遠處電視機殘留的微弱音量。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcpyfwDihXt
茉音靠著她的肩膀,語氣輕輕的,帶著一點似有若無的嬌氣:「……晚安,洛萱。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAmeqhwsxfF1
洛萱僵硬地彎起唇角,像是回答,又像是自我催眠。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcyCDNTpIlO
「……晚安,前輩。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAZTpqrUjXup
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