x
(This first song fits the mood of the chapter, and the song that Saki writes as I'll reveal later)
"Oh god.... No...." Is all I repeated when the Baltimore City police called me about Saki, they had found her dead in a subway station bathroom, then they told me about the baby she was carrying.. somebody beat her up, and they hit her stomach. The baby never stood a chance. Then I screamed. I begged them to tell me that the whole thing was a prank call, and that I was just dreaming. Then the officer told me to come down to Baltimore to have a look for myself.
A few days later I drove to exact precinct that the officer was calling from. I took a deep breath, and I walked into the building, and a Lab technician told me to follow her into the morgue, and I could see the body of my lifeless lover.
I followed her down into a basement, to a room labeled Morgue, and she told me to look for a body with the tag 177103. And I nodded. And I went to say my final respects. I hunted around the Morgue for around 15 minutes before another person offered to help me. A 23 year old guy named Eddie, who knew me from when Smilodon played at Fort Jackson. A Military Base in Georgia. He brought me to the area where the 17710s were.
"Her name was Saki Yoshida, wasn't it?" The guy asked. And I nodded. "Yessir."
The guy smiled. "If I ever have kids. To honor her, because she was an amazing fucking singer, I'll name my daughter after her."
I shook my head, trying to remember where me and the band stayed when we played Fort Jackson. Then I remembered the town's name. Savannah.
"No, sir... Name your daughter Savannah, that's where I found out about the abortion.."
The guy nodded. And he told me that after I said goodbye, to meet him outside the building.
I found the slab where Saki was, and when I saw her, lying lifeless... beaten, bloodied, and her belly covered in bruises. It broke my heart..
"I'm sorry, I am so sorry..." Is all I said before I started sobbing, I cried over the lifeless corpse of my lover. I hugged her. And I was determined to hold onto her until I died. But the female lab tech had to practically pry me away from Saki. Which I kicked, and bit, and screamed. Then I stopped, and I felt any innocence fade away. I was as dead as Saki's lifeless corpse. I walked out, and Eddie was there. He had a backpack, and he had a guitar case.
"She left you some stuff, I think you should check out her notebook, she had a lot of songs scrawled inside." Eddie said as he flipped to a page titled Tied my hands
I can remember when168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJIQKkUejW
When we used to live168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9GhV7Nokh
Never in distress168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFvlAGCo6b
Or can you picture then168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVAdX4PSm5
Only used to pride168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLt1Wjv6Bl
Ourselves on neatness?
you can't understand168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eJhl3V23h
What you meant to me168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEOSW49BU9
He made me wild168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdKA07m6qS
Then you tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbns2CTE8ac
You tied my hands
I remember when168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeNjEWEC6m
When we used to laugh168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxYeZk37jD
At those mistakes we made168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeTBvqyYkq
Can you picture then168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhJ3WAnE4D
How we used to drive168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuLuNXmdaP
And never reach the end?
'Cos you won't understand168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1P5lNvHcam
What you meant to me168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSJzh1A2DM
He made me wild168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFINkmcdDE
Then you tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8N4syTbgnk
You tied my hands
Since you went away168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs9uKphcuy
Made me find168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAPgwiCjR7
I have nothing to say168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuPlKX3f2e
Since I went away168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqRuZdFwC2
Made you find168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7j6s2670Z2
you had nothing to say
'Cos you won't understand168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVGjABFEFd
What you meant to me168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuZl9pILWx
He made me wild168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOTAT6whF0
Then you tied my hands
'Cos you won't understand168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKW7Ziic9WC
What you meant to me168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cjAIzLw6B
He made me wild168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRXYWZUCxO
Then you tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eG6LDwThj
You tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU3e44DVkv
You tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzr76WaoPz
You tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgSRpMwO8W
You tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dNuBoGKNU
You tied my hands168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxy4SN5NQT
You tied my hands
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NPRBC1QYB
I looked at Eddie, and I hugged him. And he handed me the guitar case. "We found this in the locker room, I assume that this is Saki's."
I opened the guitar case, and there was Saki's guitar: Dahlia, a Schecter PT Fastback.
I smiled at Eddie, and I told him to have a good day. And I drove back to Aberdeen.
*2 years later*
I was roaming the streets, looking for my old apartment, I knew that I had moved across the street from Kurt Cobain's childhood home, so I decided to leave the guitar at the doorstep at me and Saki's old Apartment, somehow, the place still had rent being paid, and I checked back to see if any fans had left any fan mail, which most of what I got after the funeral was the usual "my condolences" or "I'm Sorry for your loss" letter.
I put the note book at the doorstep and I did the same with the guitar, and I walked away. Then I heard a male voice call out from behind me.
"Sir... You left this here, is this stuff up for grabs?" The guy asked.
I looked at the guy. He was a 22 year old man, with really long hair. He was rather lanky, and he sounded like he was British. "Because my guitar broke during a recording session... I've been trying to write a new album, but, none of my songs are any good, Maybe 69 Tea. Because I wrote it from life experience."
I smiled. "The guitar was Saki's. And she was rather protective of that thing, carrying it where ever she went." I said as I looked at the guy.
"Wait, You're Athen Grace. I hear about your band, Smilodon wasn't it? I had your first two albums: Abort the liars and Skin the Tiger. You guys played with the likes of Nirvana. I always thought that your girlfriend was fucking aggressive."
I had to smile at that.
"Kid, she had many sides.. a best friend, a girlfriend, a shoulder to cry on. And we had a collab with Nirvana. We covered Something in the way. For our first music video, he also got us into Disney World, got Discovery Island just for the filming of the Tropical trip sequence."
The guy laughed. "Sir, I am honored to meet someone who has met Kurt Cobain, and has actually played his songs. I have the Nevermind album memorized, I've got Something In the way memorized, hell, I can sing it in African if you'd like.. sorry, where are my manners, I'm Shaun."
I smiled. "I'll let you have the guitar, but I want to hear how you play the song, please follow me." I said as I led Shaun into the Apartment, and I turned on the lights, and I found my old amp.
"Let's see what you can do." I said as I plugged in the guitar. But Shaun was looking at a guitar case propped up against a counter. Then I remembered Vine. Saki's Acoustic guitar was in that case.
"You can play that if you'd like." I said as I went to a tape deck, and I found the unreleased Smilodon albums. the final albums Metamorphosis and Emergence, and I put on a song that I made about a job I had when Saki was getting into drugs. It was called the secrets that we hide.
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NWcH4sKHQ
I handed Shaun the tapes, and I handed him a CD: 177103. My solo album.
"Thanks dude, why are you giving me these?"
I smiled. "Use those songs, make them your own. Modify them. Don't fall into the same trap Kurt and Saki fell into. Live your life."
Shaun grinned. "Okay, now, I shall play the song."
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Zzq9B9yMU
Underneath the bridge168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcghvVCmcy
Tarp has sprung a leak168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRvqzFSmrL
And the animals I've trapped168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0c02rfWCM
Have all become my pets168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5FwvyzHc6
And I'm living off of grass168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYu6DGM5PP
And the drippings from my ceiling168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCJKok9gFu
It's okay to eat fish168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIb5aanSMo5
Cause they don't have any feelings
Something in the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ305zS40kLL
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1J4EQFGovn
Something in the way, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YkJwRBgY8
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSntm5YoZy
Something in the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuW9mmdcgkd
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADLSokH03E
Something in the way, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROJdx7iMEi
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNlZKByZsd
Something in the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYP7tDsuRZ
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fPh0bNwHB
Something in the way, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRNsEXsud5
Mmm-mmm
Underneath the bridge168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOi75q0pDm
Tarp has sprung a leak168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA3HFCH7XV
And the animals I've trapped168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVoSFxjbzu
Have all become my pets168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0NKmToGVB
And I'm living off of grass168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqn1DBrWdHU
And the drippings from the ceiling168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9oil6Pd9f
It's okay to eat fish168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLA0cJFT8n
Cause they don't have any feelings
Something in the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfHRuI0wV6
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxkXUTmEv0
Something in the way, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs8fmkavB8
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHN7F9wH3b
Something in the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSDCNskAyB
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdXFUW7SZ2
Something in the way, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXb9oNci6R
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkywwdiKZ7n
Something in the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76skTzVWXk
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsnraR0O3t
Something in the way, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡse3Of5JfOV
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3kRdBe63P
Something in the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYb1RefrPw3
Mmm-mmm168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI39KkxGiVN
Something in the way, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTf12sAY9S
Mmm-mmm
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaK8he9z8s
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSHUCTsYDB
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ShphpxP58
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyBvKhb2Fl
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgY5vG7QSZ
After Shaun was done, I handed him the notebook, and he thanked me. "So, I have another song... it's called Fine Again. Do you wanna hear it?"
I nodded... "Take it away my good man"
It seems like every day's the same168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡop2yvmYzJN
And I'm left to discover on my own168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qPK0U1tMq
It seems like everything is gray168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYRV2rBqOk
And there's no color to behold
They say it's over168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcflJKQRMG
And I'm fine again, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9WeL22cl0
Try to stay sober168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEwYH2OxvQ
Feels like I'm dying here
And I am aware now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaiyy2nl9h
Of how everything's gonna be fine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaR1efmIEz
One day, too late, I'm in Hell168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItyTUVhVG6
I am prepared now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZHDq45Ll9
Seems everyone's gonna be fine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7IMBYgJtG
One day, too late, just as well
I feel a dream in me expire168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXof9wuJC5
And there's no one left to blame it on168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGIurXAzeY
I hear you label me a liar168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyS8AOimhp8
'Cause I can't seem to get this through
You say it's over168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXRYJfMVnP
I can sigh again, yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVujoyUDun
Why try to stay sober168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqG12y0ledd
When I'm dyin' here?
And I am aware now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YyR5GDxss
Of how everything's gonna be fine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QPKnEbLJ5
One day, too late, I'm in Hell168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOzOhhDmv0
I am prepared now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1cay6zC9G
Seems everyone's gonna be fine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLOoUvn89X
One day, too late, just as well
And I'm not scared now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPCHewMfmu
I must assure you168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUoQb1hAf5
You're never gonna get away168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZrPfaDvvE
And I'm not scared now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5XFfl8isE
And I'm not scared now, no
I am aware now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfzGmpmgb1
Of how everything's gonna be fine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcnaWMHvBC
One day, too late, I'm in hell168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzIBBrZBzS
I am prepared now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtUWh0Vrdp
Seems everyone's gonna be fine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVL8b0ykgc9
One day, too late, just as well
I am prepared now168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78zlZ2pPXX
Seems everything's gonna be fine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVT4M0Kvna
For me, for me, for myself168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWkJwBvPea
For me, for me, for myself168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQCdxSOyNM
For me, for me, for myself168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgAKAQCxi6
I am prepared now for myself168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9uz7lhwj8
I am prepared now and I am fine again
"Damn bro, that is some good playing there... Saki would've loved that song... But... Can you do me a favor?"
Shaun looked at me
"Yeah man? What can I do for you?'
"Tell my wife, Sayori that i love her..."168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthcz1WoJu1
"What do you mean Athen? You're not skipping town are you?" He asked, looking concerned.
"No" And I shut the door, locked it, bolted it shut, and I turned on a song I found identified with Saki. Drive by Incubus.
Sometimes168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEhCRH9Kxi
I feel the fear of168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtXbOAaUZd
Uncertainty stinging clear168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPLOsblzNv
And I, can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYwDmXNqVt
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before and seems to have a vague168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BdZ7ukxIH
Haunting mass appeal168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRidzOimD43
But lately I'm beginning to find that I168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNYvM2woBD
Should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0h7gjbKLd
With open arms and open eyes yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8F8yysN7ku
Whatever tomorrow brings168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliez6upOhI
I'll be there, I'll be there
So, if I168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvSKoPLs94
Decide to waiver my168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4CFxzIiro
Chance to be one of168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjWcvn0K3M
The hive168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkdq7AmQyo
Will I choose water over wine168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleMhte9MN6
And hold my own and drive?168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JldEv0AmL
It's driven me before and it seems to be the way168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ060LS6Tjq
That everyone else gets around168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZPfP1XMx5
But lately I'm beginning to find that when168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBjPQYChLG
I drive myself my light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsFp8JOF37
With open arms and open eyes yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaBvC2PTLR
Whatever tomorrow brings168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04iFhQyubg
I'll be there I'll be there
Would you choose water over wine?168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFDIDSBoRZ
Hold the wheel and drive
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Uo5br105Q
With open arms and open eyes yeah168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwUkeQBYXh
Whatever tomorrow brings168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlI1UTgkqR8
I'll be there I'll be there168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNgYUoNZlJ
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbX3fSukP4
I looked around my apartment, and I went into my room, and I injected myself with Heroin. And I pulled out the gun that I used to kill her parents, A Mateba Automatic Revolver. I sat down on the bed, and I put the barrel to my chest.
"Goodbye Saki, Goodbye Ashley, See you in Heaven Kurt..." I said as I sat the skeletal remains of the aborted fetus that Saki carried, down onto the bed.
"I'll see you guys on the other side."
Then I pulled the trigger..
(Thank you all for reading, this was fun to write, I hope ya'll enjoy this ride as much as I had writing this. Thank you for reading this)
168Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7OItu1m5J
