「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnkuCeeaoJ
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HoRcmnXbO
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzDnpZ55m5
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幼小我的父母就離異，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqsDPW8tlM
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1TD5TflVg
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對母親的記憶還是有，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX846sDY0Lf
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記得她很常酗酒，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyWapcsEbC
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後來的日子，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcYwMiKsKz
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4EjpoBWX7
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忙於工作的他，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaybTKWgb5
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCWxcLm72p
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到了上課時間再直接上課，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMZ76tL0YT
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwWOkaC4KD
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhsVFE1OfU
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89efkpkBOv
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrY5Mufovv
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL06JjDey2S
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父親工作的地方不一定，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mbKc1Lu9C
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輾轉的換了三所小學，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8k75ClWaH
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lW1FbnbzX
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他開始會喜怒無常，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEm1OQonDUy
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7EMrVddSx
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXRjbEbNw0
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很小我就與異性交往，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUqhtR1WTy
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjrs6UGN2c
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhSfyiNGNC
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzzcRmYQfB
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我會睡在工地，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PiqsLQhB8
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXiPiprtYB
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUXLiqvkUj
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyjadi8JoM
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他開始會講貶低的話語，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAhAntnvmB
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那些原本用來工作的用具，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTOIBqLhWy
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRjbLI8THz
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5RUQ5wLxa
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGB8QFduHG
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIIiQi9vip
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要我轉告給老師，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU67wjUcfuE
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBxkruOGV6
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcC51TM46lZ
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpqQ2esSRP
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SZgEAaEPo
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細細去回想每個片段，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JBw3p42jr
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWNHaI05Sl
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfIO4LUQXa
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu9Pj4xPC6
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDTJZUZ4uj
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gQmDgXiwD
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenJPLEd7Gw
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcp0MvNZlN
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdaa7ugH2d
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHq5xbWWc0O
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiguTgLN94O
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡge2ec1LRVf
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正準備吃下第一口時，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFygRbPTp8d
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVDVLqJuDL
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqDmD19f6V
