「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,327Please respect copyright.PENANA8WbS6GugFw
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,327Please respect copyright.PENANAeWU9ZqrKtN
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,327Please respect copyright.PENANAyTnK780S2U
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幼小我的父母就離異,327Please respect copyright.PENANAXw90Zkv1vs
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,327Please respect copyright.PENANAAJ8HHnvOgY
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對母親的記憶還是有,327Please respect copyright.PENANAOZfRzZLbOp
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記得她很常酗酒,327Please respect copyright.PENANAdzswTmkP9g
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後來的日子,327Please respect copyright.PENANArs7YvQ1DHv
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,327Please respect copyright.PENANAkwOlLKKj4d
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忙於工作的他,327Please respect copyright.PENANAs7IY4VexJT
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,327Please respect copyright.PENANAK7guhsR7Xv
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到了上課時間再直接上課,327Please respect copyright.PENANA3ksPPey8c5
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,327Please respect copyright.PENANAiVokEtUHOb
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,327Please respect copyright.PENANA0LA1mExJq8
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,327Please respect copyright.PENANAV7idltQ44x
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,327Please respect copyright.PENANAbyuhCUiN0W
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,327Please respect copyright.PENANAxguseTgMA6
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父親工作的地方不一定,327Please respect copyright.PENANADHCCH6JcT0
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輾轉的換了三所小學,327Please respect copyright.PENANA66V57koeUw
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,327Please respect copyright.PENANAKGfc8lqByW
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他開始會喜怒無常,327Please respect copyright.PENANAooZ7gAo8xe
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,327Please respect copyright.PENANA9dlWofqqaw
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,327Please respect copyright.PENANAeJ3M5Ia2im
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很小我就與異性交往,327Please respect copyright.PENANAP7URoHunWu
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,327Please respect copyright.PENANAEcpImxm7vr
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,327Please respect copyright.PENANA3R30LfGqTD
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,327Please respect copyright.PENANAbXfQafvIo9
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我會睡在工地,327Please respect copyright.PENANAahPZOSegIz
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,327Please respect copyright.PENANA30OFAW7cWi
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,327Please respect copyright.PENANAuLPZPlaL5N
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,327Please respect copyright.PENANAWkjLznYc3I
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他開始會講貶低的話語,327Please respect copyright.PENANATHT1BXWQII
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那些原本用來工作的用具,327Please respect copyright.PENANAHRK8MIvUNt
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,327Please respect copyright.PENANAch8WxVpZud
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」327Please respect copyright.PENANAxu5QUDlBEq
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,327Please respect copyright.PENANAI3jVzJklF8
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,327Please respect copyright.PENANAGeOoyYCoTB
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要我轉告給老師,327Please respect copyright.PENANAW7TlpJzLKK
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」327Please respect copyright.PENANAmSTieyRKm3
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,327Please respect copyright.PENANAvQJChkrdfz
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,327Please respect copyright.PENANALWae3iAPhW
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,327Please respect copyright.PENANA50YRMxeg2i
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細細去回想每個片段,327Please respect copyright.PENANAY81y53oN1X
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,327Please respect copyright.PENANABavWcfH9LH
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,327Please respect copyright.PENANAL599WkvycC
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,327Please respect copyright.PENANAJplZ4cG4sM
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」327Please respect copyright.PENANAT2A5GkhRFw
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,327Please respect copyright.PENANAdBfloRTmFd
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,327Please respect copyright.PENANAD85K5PK6wA
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,327Please respect copyright.PENANAHMwVTnH8d2
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,327Please respect copyright.PENANAOKJelN9hfL
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,327Please respect copyright.PENANAlgAuLEv3Do
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,327Please respect copyright.PENANAcO9GupVtSK
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」327Please respect copyright.PENANAGrGDAV9hvo
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正準備吃下第一口時,327Please respect copyright.PENANA9DaSCvgJYZ
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,327Please respect copyright.PENANAcIPYSPs2UP
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。327Please respect copyright.PENANAF6A4ZDrxHz