「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,317Please respect copyright.PENANACTWN7mtW28
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,317Please respect copyright.PENANA9EGRpfKaSc
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,317Please respect copyright.PENANAgdNjWLIyh1
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幼小我的父母就離異,317Please respect copyright.PENANAIoeCNilR52
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,317Please respect copyright.PENANAqfCG2CUSXE
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對母親的記憶還是有,317Please respect copyright.PENANAKKfJSBldrg
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記得她很常酗酒,317Please respect copyright.PENANA0FAVgVqMsF
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後來的日子,317Please respect copyright.PENANAceKNnWwQgo
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,317Please respect copyright.PENANAYJ1DkZ3bpE
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忙於工作的他,317Please respect copyright.PENANAppVOknu6mg
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,317Please respect copyright.PENANAsXuxrhhbbw
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到了上課時間再直接上課,317Please respect copyright.PENANA3wYDkYUTC4
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,317Please respect copyright.PENANAkNDdWyxS2e
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,317Please respect copyright.PENANA5s72zuT1Ad
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,317Please respect copyright.PENANABGHEdZkH5R
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,317Please respect copyright.PENANAApItUOg6bK
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,317Please respect copyright.PENANARZOPqglZYX
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父親工作的地方不一定,317Please respect copyright.PENANA5js4j3ndBM
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輾轉的換了三所小學,317Please respect copyright.PENANAm7VqfP0JQO
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,317Please respect copyright.PENANAjhVOyEogmo
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他開始會喜怒無常,317Please respect copyright.PENANA2XifBVZaYR
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,317Please respect copyright.PENANAiSpWqYAJQP
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,317Please respect copyright.PENANAlQdiNRgPzB
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很小我就與異性交往,317Please respect copyright.PENANAlcJB7yNrDa
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,317Please respect copyright.PENANAOrgp593dG9
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,317Please respect copyright.PENANAPTgGEUtwSf
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,317Please respect copyright.PENANAAL9pDTmxM8
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我會睡在工地,317Please respect copyright.PENANAfa3Vgp9vDK
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,317Please respect copyright.PENANAlhQYPeQBvs
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,317Please respect copyright.PENANAnaw0hHkTPg
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,317Please respect copyright.PENANAoo6Zv6atUi
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他開始會講貶低的話語,317Please respect copyright.PENANAx7hBEPOtzb
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那些原本用來工作的用具,317Please respect copyright.PENANATY8YONouoZ
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,317Please respect copyright.PENANAisP4OZDU0J
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」317Please respect copyright.PENANAvyDH05N3TZ
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,317Please respect copyright.PENANAe2PpvfYLgw
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,317Please respect copyright.PENANA8h1RdzmJKL
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要我轉告給老師,317Please respect copyright.PENANAIDtqXNIkZV
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」317Please respect copyright.PENANAdz3yDrOC3F
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,317Please respect copyright.PENANAmkwCaxKnTx
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,317Please respect copyright.PENANAF4lD5ZWqNj
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,317Please respect copyright.PENANAI75hLCBn9o
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細細去回想每個片段,317Please respect copyright.PENANAO6cz0Y9Qub
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,317Please respect copyright.PENANArZsYLu7N3D
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,317Please respect copyright.PENANAIUuXgXl3Ag
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,317Please respect copyright.PENANAqXGwRo3aOB
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」317Please respect copyright.PENANA6qFNfwm7Hp
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,317Please respect copyright.PENANACSzOMDKUmi
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,317Please respect copyright.PENANABR3Jv4bw6V
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,317Please respect copyright.PENANArX2ke3N409
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,317Please respect copyright.PENANAsLdT3Yxazj
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,317Please respect copyright.PENANA7H0ch69TG3
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,317Please respect copyright.PENANA3e3MUSCCXd
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」317Please respect copyright.PENANALrBESEMkYo
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正準備吃下第一口時,317Please respect copyright.PENANAJZigzW3Pff
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,317Please respect copyright.PENANArsk0Mpjvbm
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。317Please respect copyright.PENANAE8GTvcVfAN