「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvybcsLbqly
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcufGEyxPJU
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZynRmMz2VS
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幼小我的父母就離異，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ092rjcm6Jm
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd0Ubrv3r3
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對母親的記憶還是有，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVeEikiOSL
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記得她很常酗酒，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbKHqXNfOB
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後來的日子，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvACeeO0qeY
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNrIqXt0AE
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忙於工作的他，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDp77JULeF
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlGEPDsDsm
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到了上課時間再直接上課，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h6EiYBdvn
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYb63f5wEJ5
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQuQqvLu0f
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdIdIFov7Z
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxICtjX6cb
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiQqgb3Qhi
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父親工作的地方不一定，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWhV4C2q1F
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輾轉的換了三所小學，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OWOtBOkl2
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TeTkYGjDh
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他開始會喜怒無常，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYzKTjyuxc
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg6UMdHrDW
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtURygHESRy
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很小我就與異性交往，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHcyFP13Bz
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeddV0Tr3w
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4q5P8nclF
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH8KYm1Y7o
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我會睡在工地，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKX2xJULIK
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1E9pxTveN
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooGNOUO75p
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N3ouyIsux
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他開始會講貶低的話語，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYHdEjnlqU
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那些原本用來工作的用具，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHCwypwRk8
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkteiO11MlB
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhF1z4acyN
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuyR8jLIuJ
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdHRzszJBI
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要我轉告給老師，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88CEPOUdoX
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFdLWzvqJq
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs9XQbBRjT
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuyjP5K6JO
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMhLX6tHkB
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細細去回想每個片段，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYhMnF4Bbi
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLNTgU63wr
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIr0QidiAc
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eGYFcIbun
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Sl4BezxMS
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWykRSEQM5
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPDNKcQwd1
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmrHeSOAhM
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVtBDNKlcP
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSTYutoJ67
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2l1QodILW
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZUIvY7NlA
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正準備吃下第一口時，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1959NAQ2l4
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxj9SeBk4F
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。753Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmakxgmXnkD
