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上一秒程華緊盯的那道門打開,看見季慈的笑容跟往常有著明顯的不同,他還來不及分辨,下一秒就全沒了。151Please respect copyright.PENANAtOSJ55PtNI
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季慈銳利的目光掃到了一個男人身上。151Please respect copyright.PENANAVrqM1lw6ft
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男人寬闊微痀的身影似乎也相當訝異,他張大了嘴正看著季慈。季慈的失態沒有維持很久,刺耳響亮的鈴鼓聲催促他繼續完成任務,然後沉著臉色唱完歌尾隨同事退場。151Please respect copyright.PENANA4WR0j6Y3MV
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程華從沒見過季慈如此生氣,瞧他握著鈴鼓的手緊繃的幾乎要將白色手套化為第二層皮膚。151Please respect copyright.PENANAyEBndRhkok
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那個人是誰?151Please respect copyright.PENANAMwnxI6xi3h
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竟然可以讓敬業的季慈忘記笑,甚至失誤。151Please respect copyright.PENANAUW4c9LF6qr
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會是之前劈腿季慈的前任嗎?151Please respect copyright.PENANAov1HWhYvIF
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程華毫不猶豫的拔腿追上季慈。151Please respect copyright.PENANAorCPGaRm50
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如果那個老男人真的是他的前任,他一定要上前譏諷或者打他兩拳洩憤,就算是對方劈腿促使他認識季慈,但對感情不忠誠的人從來都不值得原諒,即使中間有隱情,也不能是劈腿的藉口。151Please respect copyright.PENANAgdcZorIEkc
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「季慈。」程華趕在他們進百貨公司內部區域的門前叫住季慈。他的同事們全都轉過頭來,只有季慈仍然背對著他。他的背影深沉,程華的直覺沒錯,他確實在生氣,而且是盛怒。151Please respect copyright.PENANAC59CziMngu
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「季慈。」他的視線裡只有季慈,但季慈不理他,兩人僵持了幾秒後季慈被同事輕推了一把。151Please respect copyright.PENANAHpUOxN8zXh
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「季慈,人家有話要跟你說,我們先上去,你讓他站進來跟你說話吧。」女同事奪過季慈的鈴鼓,不給他反駁的機會轉身領著其他同事上樓了。151Please respect copyright.PENANAJFfgR36vHG
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一樓的門邊只剩下他們兩人。151Please respect copyright.PENANAcTcnkDSydQ
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「季、」151Please respect copyright.PENANAaEiw3RYPX3
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「你進來,後面沒有人吧?」季慈側過身體,單手扶著門板,仍然沒有抬頭看向他。151Please respect copyright.PENANA4VItlLRuu4
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程華往回頭望,身後空蕩蕩,只有化妝品專櫃及架上的若干產品。「沒有。」他走進去季慈便關上門,然後邁開步伐越過他又往下走了一層樓。151Please respect copyright.PENANASh4IB0UJf6
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地下一樓光線昏暗,程華僅能藉著微弱透下的光線偷窺他的憤怒。他猶豫該說什麼,既不想戳中季慈的痛處,也不打算直接問那個人是誰這種問題。151Please respect copyright.PENANAWqLa13zlWm
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「那個人是我父親。」季慈嗓音低沉的發啞,雙臂環胸緊得像是耐不住寒冷一般的擁住自己。151Please respect copyright.PENANAdZmaaaqgO6
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程華腦裡轉過千萬條句子,有錯愕驚訝的(什麼?那是你父親,我以為是那劈腿的混帳)、無腦的(嗯)、愚蠢的(你們看起來很久沒見面了)、顧左右而言他的(先別說這個,你聽過安麗嗎)、顯而易見而直白的(你很討厭你父親)。最後他將所有匯成一聲嘆息,輕而緩慢地從身體深處吐出。151Please respect copyright.PENANAara0VCjWxO
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程華跨步上前張臂抱住了看起來陰暗、憤怒、無助又無措的季慈,他沒有掙扎的任他抱著,而後輕輕搖晃起來。季慈僵硬的像根木樁,沒有絲毫放鬆的意思。151Please respect copyright.PENANANZb1PCyBUL
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「……快下班了,對吧?我在外面等你,等會你想說的話,我聽你說?」程華的嘴唇貼在他的耳廓邊,隨著說話的唇動一下又一下的摩擦,行為像是溫暖了季慈,他垂下手臂轉而輕輕抱住程華。151Please respect copyright.PENANAaiKkDm187a
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他說:「我想現在說。」151Please respect copyright.PENANADWesJOhBYh
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「好,你說。」這不是一個適合談話的地方,可季慈願意傾訴,所有地點都沒有問題,擠在廁所隔間隔壁有人拉屎很臭他都聽。151Please respect copyright.PENANALgOunYxQi3
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季慈聲音忽然變得遙遠,他輕輕地說起他的過往。151Please respect copyright.PENANA5KHOa9JZc6
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他說那年他小學一年級,一個爸爸媽媽都在家的下午,他原本在睡午覺聽見他們不尋常的談話音量而清醒,媽媽蹲在他的面前,用至今他仍然記得的清晰堅強表情問他:小慈,你要跟爸爸還是媽媽?151Please respect copyright.PENANA7UhwVkzKBE
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他說他不懂為什麼媽媽要問他這個問題,他疑惑的問媽媽:要去哪裡玩嗎?媽媽只是憐愛的撫摸他的臉頰,站在遠方的爸爸用如刺的嚴厲的目光盯著他們不發一語。151Please respect copyright.PENANA5O9Bu5IDZ4
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他說,他後來沒有選,錯失選擇權後的某天爸爸離開了,之後媽媽也帶著他離開,回到已經沒有外公外婆的鄉下老房子裡,過著母子倆相依為命的日子。151Please respect copyright.PENANApaLoF0iQPF
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他說,一開始不懂為什麼爸爸媽媽要分開住,他只能看見媽媽,卻不見爸爸,他哭鬧、耍脾氣,媽媽耐心的一遍又一遍告訴他:小慈乖,爸爸只是暫時出差不回來了,再過陣子就會看見他了。151Please respect copyright.PENANA4TeIMZjbrZ
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他說,隔了好久好久,爸爸真的出現了,他開始一年能見到爸爸兩次。頭一次與爸爸分開這麼久,一看見人劈頭便了他這輩子最傻最痛的兩個問題:爸爸不要小慈跟媽媽了嗎?是不是不愛我們了?其實他隱約知道問題很嚴重,但不願面對的發問。151Please respect copyright.PENANAlQoQ5DIe6l
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他說,他還記得父親這麼告訴他:爸爸最愛小慈跟媽媽了,絕對沒有不要小慈喔。151Please respect copyright.PENANAhwgM7nIdDe
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結果一切都是謊言。151Please respect copyright.PENANAxpF0t8Sfes
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父親四年後不再出現,隔年媽媽病倒,他無助地打電話想找父親求助,電話早就成了空號,孤立無援的他只能自力自強。151Please respect copyright.PENANAmu5QFKgKe7
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他說,國三那年媽媽沒有撐過去,留下龐大醫藥費、老房子、和一句對不起,以及我愛你。151Please respect copyright.PENANAVCgsRfkfNO
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他說:「我以為我的世界在那時候崩解了,卻在保險理賠金裡翻轉過來,然後再一次跌跤。」151Please respect copyright.PENANAeziTsLrIEc
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程華緊緊、緊緊的抱著他,心疼地想用自己的體溫平息回憶中的季慈發抖的身軀。151Please respect copyright.PENANA0rLWyxcL5u
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「他說他愛我們,可是我找到他的時候他有了家庭,取代媽媽的女人替他生了一個跟我一樣年紀的女孩子。」季慈騰出隻手來,在他的身側輕輕比劃。「她那麼高,我也這麼高。」151Please respect copyright.PENANADRhjvI7XY0
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「為什麼我要原諒一個騙子呢?」他仰起頭眼眶通紅,裡頭晃蕩深幽的哀傷,像黑色汪洋吞噬掉程華的理智。151Please respect copyright.PENANAqrXdTSuoZq
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「我了解,真的了解。」程華輕喟,「你可以不原諒,但要學會放過自己。」程華低頭吻他,嘴唇雙貼的瞬間季慈眨眼,高漲的情緒劇烈晃動滿了出來。151Please respect copyright.PENANAhKl8HPDy0G
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程華心焦無措的目睹眼淚從季慈眼眶中跌出,他抿緊雙唇安靜的流淚。一次兩次破碎的、充滿謊言的愛情讓季慈失望放棄信任,讓他的心底破了個無底大洞,讓他壓抑到連哭都沒有聲音,脆弱的哽咽、生氣都只能往肚子裡的黑洞吞去。151Please respect copyright.PENANAw18facIBLl
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程華捧著他的臉,用拇指抹去淚水、用吻吮掉,他想分擔季慈的哀傷,裝了他滿腹的苦,幫他發出示弱的哽咽。151Please respect copyright.PENANAesn3f8XTzt
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季慈的淚水一直到他同事急忙尋來都不曾歇息,又紅又腫的眼睛讓他失職早退。程華緊牽著他的手離開時終於想到這麼一句話:「愛情捂緊了手痛,鬆了心疼,可是撥開了裡面是甜的。季慈,不要遺棄愛。」151Please respect copyright.PENANAvrR3VHwSq6
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