Letter #1 ~ I know a person can only apologize so many times and so I try to understand when you say you can't love me again. I still can't grasp how easy it was for you to just turn around and move on so fast. We were so good together. It felt so real. It was so real. We had a bond that was healthy and good for us both. You seemed to really love me and I loved you more than you could ever know. I remember your birthday. You really surprised me when the arcade was empty and you told me that you decided to celebrate your special day without all your friends. It was such a great day. We had the type of love that involved hand written love letters folded into cute little shapes. I still have them all by the way. I go back and read them sometimes. At some point I stopped crying when I looked at them. I kind of smiled. We had no contact and I had finally began to live my life without always thinking about you. So then you decide to come back into my life and we spent time with each other again. You treated me the way you did when we first got together. I danced on the table and you picked me up even though you are so small and short. You ran around with me and we spun and danced. I started walking you to classes again and it all felt ok again. I am a hopeless romantic. I asked you if we could clear the air and figure everything out between us, And that was when I told you I loved you and you immediately shut me down and spoke to me the same way you did when we broke up the first time. Now you never look at me and our texts are abandoned. I now have to go through moving on from you again. Just let it be known that you were my first real love. I was only happy with you. Truly as soon as you would leave the room I would feel my level of happiness drain. You saved me. But still all I can do now is wish you the best. I guess I hurt you more since all you ever did was care. So I am sorry. I can never stop loving you. Thank you for being there for me. DON'T COME BACK. Goodbye..
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