Hello there!
have you ever feeling so lonely and mentally broke down? yup I feel it right now.
so, I'm just going into college this year and it is located in Yogyakarta, Indonesia (Funfact : My grandma and my mom is an alumnus from this university, from a same faculty). Fyi, I came from Jakarta. Its been a month since I move in and I just realise that college is way more different than high school. okay you probably think that I'm over reacted but seriously, I left everything I had behind.
I came here after arguing with my father and promise him I wouldn't come back. he's cheating on my mom since I was a little and it hurts me everytime I see him. I don't have a good relation with my father because he is very busy as a lawyer, he build his own company from the bottom, everyone thinks he is a hard worker but the fact is, my mom paying his college tuition. I mean, how could you cheating on her? okay Im going to tell you guys about my family later, now back to the topic....
I used to be a popular girl in my junior school and well-known people in senior high school. I love being under the spotlight. I do love those attention. I love it when I can get almost everyone I liked. I love it when boys treat me better than they treat other girls. I know it sounds mean but I'm not the typical girl who's bitching around and bullying others. NO. I'm just a good girl with a good grades, goodlooking face and and has a physical attractive. (I sounds arrogant but I swear to God this is the truth). Everyone like me! I got the basketball, futsal and scout captain on my junior high school, don't forget to mention that bad guys I date on my first year. I also got that hottie in my senior high school he is also an A-list and Im sure you guys gonna like him the first time you talk to him cause he is so attractive, smart, and charming. That was great. Im not complaining about my broken home family. who cares? I already have everything.
And then, I broke up with my boyfie (the A-list guy) and everythings change. It seems like everyone judging me because they think who the fuck Im to let him go and make our relationship ends. they think that It must be my fault. yup, the rest 9months of my senior year are sucks. But thank God, I still got that luck above me. I still got a good grades for my final result and I can going into the university without having to take the test! I got that invitation right from the university offers me to take a part in their institutions, So I became a law student. Im moving out and ready to take a new journal in a new place.
yup, but I got a little bit shocked because it seems like everyone in this uuniversity can't see me. whats wrong with them? okay I know I get 22pounds after I broke up but... is that really matter? Am I ugly? I don't know I just realise maybe that some people just treating people based on their look. ugh Im so desperate rn. I still got a lot of friends (yeah not really much but its good) but i still need that spotlight on me!
yeah I have some best friends in Jakarta, and there is a guy who have been there since almost 7years ago just cal him "IM"and he told me to just go with it, live yor life and enjoy the ride. Oh I forget to mention that he is always the A-list guys since we're in junior high school (but he get into different senior high school from me). He always been there for me through everything. I know he's having the some condition with me right now and for him its probably just temporary because I believe next month, he'll become that famous guy again. 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrI1kM8pWp
I texted him that I miss my high school memories, he asked "what do you missed?" i don't know so I just respond "idk that spotlights maybe" and I swear I can see him smirk at me while reading my messages "what? you don't?" i asked him that and he told me just go with the flow and starts everything from the bottom, starts making a new different ways to socialize with people.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5H4m4q3hAH
What do you think guys? what should I do? and anyway if you guys having some tips or tricks to lose weight please tell me on the comment bellow.
Thanks for reading my stories and lets keeping up with me on my next post. ciao!
ps : im not really good at english so please forgive me on wrong grammars or structure, I'll always trying to improve my skills :)
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