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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的，但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgS4Sm1dvfe
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著，聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAf2cVuOlG
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後，她像是想到什麼似的，問：你……打算怎麼辦？283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTXcQc6kal
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcW8wL2xGQc
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她看著我的眼睛，說，不想當咒術師了嗎？283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDUKicFhqF
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口，「我不知道該不該放棄。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstpaRbiAzL
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「為什麼不？」理所當然地反問的同時，她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我，就像是想探究什麼似的。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu68KGzY5Z
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情；於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖，最後又重新咽回腹中。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqDqcJOMdR
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwNDsVcp3L
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdR9NBJxmtu
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體，雙手插進白大褂中。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBEoZ7I2Vi
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6n3YlFhCHe
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句；態度平和，一切尋常，就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMDpKOY4b5
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「硝子。」我叫住她。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndVwQegAgt
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我，視線於空氣中交會，表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ7eoG6e6Q
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎？」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGfDhG3t0J
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌，然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvvIe2Phjm
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下一秒，熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的，柔軟的身軀，緊緊地擁住我。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkxHmLzYrq
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下巴擱在我肩上，她什麼也沒說，只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHhaEGYN8j
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpKG8nJVFe
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvzw2m2Mgu
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「對，我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭，我好脾氣地應和。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcANExK9Onh
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「你們都是。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcJbUBiehV
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「……他們是，我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來，只能勉強開口否認。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiRca8gjwY
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm2eOEWuY2
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「……好吧，我是。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLrZyi15nX
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和；我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手，試著學習硝子的動作，輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHjcI9xZSm
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnkiSohxAh
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偌大的醫療室裡，只餘她小小的啜泣聲，和衣肩上暈染的濕意。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlILJwJrgL
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯，很快就止住眼淚。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhbE7RWtQg
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因，反倒是我自己先按捺不住。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ44Og0rDmK
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「你不問嗎？」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYNCBgtJhA
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角，反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味，一副「你看，這不就自己說了嗎？」的樣子。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Hr4GBBIjr
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDp1N6qf5a5
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「好吧，我只是覺得……」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhxc30PAiV
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望，我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話，大概就要變成陌生人了。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMniI8tjnt
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合，而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUptFqZIt2P
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「──我不接受。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvfjCHjTDQ
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硝子沉默幾秒，無奈地笑了笑。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWl9wXz5XMU
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6Ghf58zyV
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「欸……欸？」什麼意思？為什麼突然扯到他？283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpXqgA0AiR
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象，這你清楚吧？硝子問。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NJobiaBlE
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我點頭，疑惑地反問，「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼？」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTgNeX1w7N
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「是也沒什麼，都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過，「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事，把五條嚇壞了。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDXZe7U6CR
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……我突然有種不好的預感。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPXENHOffQ
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「硝子，等──」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGOtPvnJSJ
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wxXBRUd2Q
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3bEXKiBDr
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「你幹麼？」硝子問。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwALGNsopw1
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「退學。」我要退學，就現在，立刻，馬上。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGxfG2kp0I
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlST4TBRwVx
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「你別──」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfAWwDc9uM
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她把我按在床上坐好，強迫我繼續聽。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8Wzv2uOxR
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我好想逃。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLziqUVTBK
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手，說『好可愛的貓！』，然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦，他頭一歪閃掉了，變成親頭髮；還有一次是抱住他，用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jP3SS5r6f
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事，最後如此總結：「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT368IOn08
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道，感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來，聽見這話直接反射性問：那他幹麼不跑？283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYawyjfvkWj
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……問完的時候才意識到，這種事情好像也不是他要跑，是我要離他遠點才對吧？哪有檢討受害者的道理。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBEpUjLHJY
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想到這裡，我站起身。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNJg6Vd9rS
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「你要退學了嗎？」硝子饒有興致地問。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFb4VXgcqGH
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「對──不對、不對。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIe5FZi8aA
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面對她疑惑的表情，我語氣平靜地說──283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbistFCa87
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO5j8mLaGE
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIlxQ11KGT
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很想大修，但是這篇已經兩萬多字了，不太好改，大概要等之後比較有空吧（還在忙考試ing）……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1gTrfuMBH
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結（好難），可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BKenzrXIG
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祝閱讀愉快。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8M9dxvgjF
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240306 梔涼｜匿名交流單
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（一個後續）283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnxxTjHgmU
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問題：請問兩位現在的感想是？（高舉麥克風）283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdcm8qdqbB
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主角（臉上打馬賽克＋變聲處理）：不想活了。283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqLUiaqJtw
五條悟（離線中）：（還在躲貓貓）283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSyKtBjKO3
路過的家入硝子：沒差吧反正是夢遊啊（無情嘲笑）283Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEBLSLEPKs
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。
