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早上起床的時候肚子發出飢餓的聲音。我打開冰箱看著眼前的食物，盤算著想吃點什麼，大腦卻下意識地開始計算起熱量。這種感覺有些難受──當你已經夠足夠飢餓，卻因為擔心攝入的營養過多，導致你什麼也不敢吃，失去進食的慾望。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0fDIvHkT2
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不知道到底是吃不下還是沒敢吃太多。沒時間讓我猶豫太久，我把分量不多的食物一分為二，囫圇吞進肚子裡後簡單收拾一下自己便趕著出門上課。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyBWbgtdlZ
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「咔」一聲，跟我同時間開門的是隔壁房的硝子。她似乎是昨天熬夜熬得太晚，走出房間時整個人還是懵的。我們並肩走在通往教室的路上，炎熱的夏天變得遙遠，時值秋分，放眼望去，蔥綠的草木變得枯黃，我竟也難得在這匆匆過去的日子裡感到一絲愜意。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZMYRd8Czj
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說起來，自入秋後，咒靈也有減少的傾向。到了冬天，肯定會更少的吧。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUlunimxjj
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我把這件事情告訴硝子，她也忍不住贊同地笑了起來。「真好，冬天很快就要來了哦。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5LNS4ST3o
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「真期待呢。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLdVznGdhR
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過了寒冷的冬季之後，我們就要升上二年級了，很快就會有新的後輩加入高專……這樣一想，過去煩悶的生活似乎也變得可愛了。猛然冒出的念頭使我心驚──原來我也會對未來有所期待嗎？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWD7xiIMCl
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我想了想，意外地發現加入高專到現在，隨著跟同期的關係步入佳境之後，我似乎也變得開心了些。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh4BfN0JwG
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「你怎麼突然慢下來？快遲到啦。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoAm7pIb0n
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在沉思的期間，不知不覺已經慢了硝子好幾步，我抬眼看見她咬著棒棒糖，聲音裡有幾分催促意味，眼神卻沒有絲毫不耐。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmvrRp8BmL
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來啦。我笑起來，跟上她的步伐。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdOMtQUAIw
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──真好呢。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtRxw01sze
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……如果這樣的時光可以再慢一點、慢一點就好。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEjlFkcv9F
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下課之後因為大家各自有事要做，午餐沒辦法聚在一起吃，只剩下我跟傑。我婉拒了他的午餐邀約，用別的理由塘塞過去了。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8IuL8kXO0
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傑上下打量我一番，最後猶豫著說出自己的猜測：「……你有在吃飯嗎？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwebaAVO2st
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欸？「怎麼這樣說？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwv4YfJJVpS
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「瘦太多了。」他說，指了指我的臉頰：「感覺臉上的肉都凹陷了。你之前腿大概是這個細度，現在變成──」又比劃了一下，「這樣吧。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcTny3IqKd
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「……怎麼感覺你現在說的是悟會說的話。」我跳過話題，誠實地告訴他此時此刻我複雜的內心變化。原來夏油傑偶爾也會這麼失禮嗎？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdRjucy04S
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「抱歉，這是為了你的健康著想。」他被我的言語逗笑，問我，所以你要吃飯了嗎？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0V0sky6uXk
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他想了想，補上一句「我請客」。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2cvUAr9hd
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我們最後叫上硝子一起去吃燒肉。作為在場唯一男士的傑自動自發地拿起夾子開始幫我們烤肉片。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aKVEqrEs7
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好香。我吸吸鼻子，但又覺得有點不敢吃。熱量太高了。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnF82MzCxJ
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「所以你是遇到什麼事情沒有胃口吃飯？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6E9JARlEu
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硝子放下從自助吧那裡拿來的食材，語氣不鹹不淡。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm78eCBvVmt
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我「呃」了一聲，如坐針氈，感覺肉都不香了。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3TDvC7ZIB
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「沒事，我等你說。」傑也像個好心人一樣笑咪咪地將肉片放進我碗裡。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuB8EykvlG
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……我咽了咽口水，老實招來：「就是……我暗戀悟。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLG1StgkBNY
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「你喜歡悟！？」硝子的飲料差點噴出來：「你喜歡他什麼？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS4c9OPjfE
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已經是第二次被問到這個問題了，上一次傑也問我圖他什麼。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYc8ALmQQi
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我困惑地反問：「我喜歡他這件事很不明顯嗎？我還為了他學著做甜點跟打扮自己。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgJMc7VQrh
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傑手裡的肉「啪」的一下掉在桌上：「你是說……你學化妝是為了悟？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lTd2Ky37r
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「我以為你喜歡的是傑。」硝子面無表情陳述，我看見傑的臉上閃過一點尷尬。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7cWDvOVVI
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那你們誤會還挺大的。我嚼了嚼肉。硝子由衷佩服我的毅力：「我以為你做這些只是因為自己喜歡……」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzkvdq0tez
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傑也有些愣：「做甜點還可以理解，但我一直以為學化妝打扮只是因為你剛好想學。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc5oZcZr0s
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不是的。我說：「我做這些都是為了他。我想要配得上他。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡor5YVe1RX2
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我喜歡他視咒靈如螻蟻般不可一世的模樣，喜歡他張揚的笑容，喜歡他拿下墨鏡用外表優勢撒嬌的小心機，喜歡他吃甜點時露出幸福的表情，那是他發自真心的愉悅……應該是說，從他第一眼用倨傲目光打量我的那時候開始，我就喜歡他。連他上次捏我的臉把我粉底抹掉的樣子，我都覺得很可愛。我說。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCT1es5qP1f
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「你是被虐狂嗎。」硝子開始懷疑是悟下蠱給我，所以我才這麼瘋狂地……癡迷他？419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINWqOqffHu
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不。「只是剛好因為是五條悟，所以什麼都喜歡……跟家世無關，跟外在的、優秀的條件無關。就算沒有這些，我也會很愛他……我甚至寧願他平庸至極，這樣他就不必承擔人世苦厄。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqGJI4mvsB
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五條悟是我出生至今唯一一個喜歡的人。我只想把日月星辰都捧給他，跟他說，看，多襯你呀。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMFCBbgVJz
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我跟兩人說我曾經聽過的一個故事。有一個非常懶惰的人，儀容不整、蓬頭垢面，住的地方凌亂不堪。很多人嘲笑他，他也絲毫不在意。直到有一天，一個朋友送給他一束白色的鮮花。為了配上這束花朵，他把長滿灰塵的家裡整理得一乾二淨，將自己的外表梳洗修飾一番──就這麼一束潔白的鮮花，使他整個人和環境都重生。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5DwL7ubX4
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「悟對於我而言，就是那束花。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CorTOn2FY
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硝子原本想說點什麼，但最後只是拍了拍我的肩膀，說，吃飯吧。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZtPfTIx1k
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這場聚會最後以悟姍姍來遲作為結尾，他沒趕上我們的聚餐，正走在我們前頭抱怨著一定要陪他去吃點別的。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYGroDrcD3
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我跟硝子落了幾步走在他跟傑的身後。棕髮少女側過頭看向我，嘴唇微微動了動。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgqzZ9jEhS
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我聽見她的聲音。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXm60vzHwU
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「──你喜歡吃糖嗎？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExmdlCqgPd
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喜歡。我說。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOBpzeAb1I
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