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再見了212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpn6C2RiWU
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtIXYHIVUu
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwcPe8CdxW
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4a1yByVoQ
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2r8nYjIzN
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepcx5oyMeC
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNaVMi9GaX
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWW1HMqpir
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6iLLtG3Mi
One day, I will be killed by myself
212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkdxoKqUHJThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4a1yByVoQ
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2r8nYjIzN
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepcx5oyMeC
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNaVMi9GaX
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWW1HMqpir
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6iLLtG3Mi
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4n6RMwBgk
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIlzqNFcsq
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrlyanpvza
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdGalfy7OQ
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp97LPqyQ8q
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDt3HN693C
However, if I really wanted to212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUUhgtbK87
I can answer those ramblings212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxyCPRBZmm
As easy as conducting an experiment212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bkUYCXItC
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbwkGwSuvO
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz169uh6zs7
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde902WwI2EForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIlzqNFcsq
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrlyanpvza
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdGalfy7OQ
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp97LPqyQ8q
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDt3HN693C
However, if I really wanted to212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUUhgtbK87
I can answer those ramblings212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxyCPRBZmm
As easy as conducting an experiment212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bkUYCXItC
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbwkGwSuvO
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz169uh6zs7
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzey8cNXSi
"This is all my fault"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSv3fHfc9z
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiZSAJ7iRM
I have already gone crazy and mad212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQELxIJqdxB
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpcsG9Pw9Y
"It is alright"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpppcBTAd7
And it became alright for me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYk66r0GKma
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuMOaPimnP
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OCxopPTav
Though, does it matter anymore ?212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJXZOo812P
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FseWu9jhZ
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAlipCwFgT
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Am I the weird one here? 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawNL7SgPyY
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjN2Yjd1RO8
Am I the wrong one here?212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1ba0nSST7
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oZ42PWE6f
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeevsqpdTrZ
I have already lost it all
212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgO9UvuB4R"This is all my fault"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSv3fHfc9z
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiZSAJ7iRM
I have already gone crazy and mad212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQELxIJqdxB
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpcsG9Pw9Y
"It is alright"212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpppcBTAd7
And it became alright for me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYk66r0GKma
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuMOaPimnP
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OCxopPTav
Though, does it matter anymore ?212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJXZOo812P
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FseWu9jhZ
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAlipCwFgT
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Am I the weird one here? 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawNL7SgPyY
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjN2Yjd1RO8
Am I the wrong one here?212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1ba0nSST7
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oZ42PWE6f
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeevsqpdTrZ
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuXdif0C12
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7jCVNeye4
Days without worry and doubts212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiaaE1oYt0
Times that are as pure as crystal clear212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDf5IM88z3
I was happy before212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQoxG8HD49
And on that day, when the light went off212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdQ6JxmMSF
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6SnlCVbzz
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VA2wR0gYn
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJU1BkpSMw7
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6knDLqR0l
There was someone who love me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ631j8ZckTK
Taught me unconditional love212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlU36ihMQj
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7jCVNeye4
Days without worry and doubts212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiaaE1oYt0
Times that are as pure as crystal clear212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDf5IM88z3
I was happy before212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQoxG8HD49
And on that day, when the light went off212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdQ6JxmMSF
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6SnlCVbzz
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VA2wR0gYn
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJU1BkpSMw7
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6knDLqR0l
There was someone who love me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ631j8ZckTK
Taught me unconditional love212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlU36ihMQj
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnVV8cDOT5
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEvIozIl2r
