晚安了，媽媽232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIG8wwfsJm
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再見了232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSWqxei6oV
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOk1eyTL1eC
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5Q2lbutzJ
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx1XieS1AK
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb1KGy7nVB
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFMHfaub55
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOk6z3zpyw
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5XmJ2lL3n
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3VGA77czi
One day, I will be killed by myself
232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELpGQOiJGmThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx1XieS1AK
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb1KGy7nVB
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFMHfaub55
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOk6z3zpyw
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5XmJ2lL3n
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3VGA77czi
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3co379XfyP
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDalUptH1y9
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwt8KD0Yi7
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFVmVaYphZ
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlj62Cl41EL
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc216k8ghhI
However, if I really wanted to232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOmMc7eED5
I can answer those ramblings232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OzrR9Kb3h
As easy as conducting an experiment232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQGw3Sdsk1
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzaZCl462t
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yP7EeqlHy
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtN3YIVOT5hForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDalUptH1y9
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwt8KD0Yi7
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFVmVaYphZ
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlj62Cl41EL
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc216k8ghhI
However, if I really wanted to232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOmMc7eED5
I can answer those ramblings232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OzrR9Kb3h
As easy as conducting an experiment232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQGw3Sdsk1
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzaZCl462t
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yP7EeqlHy
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWYt2FCAuX
"This is all my fault"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy5LVhOcnU
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4tDvbyBLg
I have already gone crazy and mad232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2IGSNfa5K
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiEM8XtFFv
"It is alright"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61cR0tTqOo
And it became alright for me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzB9IvFnoq
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlqQS9LMe6
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFaIbPgela
Though, does it matter anymore ?232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBKdm8nxne
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlHdGnSRDb
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtox0XCNQjM
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Am I the weird one here? 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLQOZXfYW2
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl2DogSzC4
Am I the wrong one here?232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePQoxTp1ae
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnKsbJ0ElV
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMQgMQHssx
I have already lost it all
232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7fS1LycGs"This is all my fault"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy5LVhOcnU
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4tDvbyBLg
I have already gone crazy and mad232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2IGSNfa5K
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiEM8XtFFv
"It is alright"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61cR0tTqOo
And it became alright for me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzB9IvFnoq
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlqQS9LMe6
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFaIbPgela
Though, does it matter anymore ?232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBKdm8nxne
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlHdGnSRDb
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtox0XCNQjM
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Am I the weird one here? 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLQOZXfYW2
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl2DogSzC4
Am I the wrong one here?232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePQoxTp1ae
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnKsbJ0ElV
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMQgMQHssx
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJ5D5lwmWi
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflE7zbG0gi
Days without worry and doubts232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMoNXemKyt
Times that are as pure as crystal clear232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0LtZSrSBv
I was happy before232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GP3RrzBa7
And on that day, when the light went off232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV8oOyxxFS
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOArzJWqpwB
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73bk1HFMe3
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjZZZeWBjG
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuL2QNVB2K
There was someone who love me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8PUQHH4u5
Taught me unconditional love232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwwSX5Szek
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflE7zbG0gi
Days without worry and doubts232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMoNXemKyt
Times that are as pure as crystal clear232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0LtZSrSBv
I was happy before232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GP3RrzBa7
And on that day, when the light went off232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV8oOyxxFS
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOArzJWqpwB
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73bk1HFMe3
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjZZZeWBjG
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuL2QNVB2K
There was someone who love me232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8PUQHH4u5
Taught me unconditional love232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwwSX5Szek
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFmVMC44pG
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdXeAo64BD
