Hello.
Right now, I'm sipping coffee at 12PM because I'm quirky like that... (sarcasm)
I woke up late this morning because I was reading a bunch of old drafts of abandoned books or those that I've put on hold for an indefinite amount of time. Let me tell you, it was hilarious, emotional, and traumatizing.
First of all, let me set the room. I was supposed to be asleep. My family was sleeping in the same room as me and I was on my phone, scrolling through google docs. My arm would get numb after a while so I would turn around every now and then. Sometimes, my dad would snort, move, etc, and that would scare the living shite out of me because he's prolly gonna be annoyed that I'm still awake.
Okay, so I was scrolling, right? A lot of them were actually VERY good in terms of plot and writing. It's obviously a draft so not THAT good (I obviously said good and not great), but it was hella interesting. Some of them weren't even drafts. They were full blown rants, diary entries, poems, and manga ideas/ concepts back when I had a lot of time on my hands.
I was thouroughly impressed.
One of them was a bit too funny and I had to cover my mouth and nose, put the phone down, and try not to think about it for a good 3 minutes... But when I picked it up, I almost broke down laughing. Why are some things 10 times funnier when you're not supposed to be laughing?170Please respect copyright.PENANA09nyq7UFtA
The doc was titled "shower thoughts". My last entry was about skincare, reasons why people spend so much money on it, and why I was talking about it. (I watched a Kdrama and the girl said she looked like she aged 10 years, but her skin was so clear.)170Please respect copyright.PENANA9J6h5rn1Kd
It read, and I quote, "...Beauty standards make me want to murder someone. Then I’ll take their skin. I’ll peel off my skin, and then I’ll wear their skin. Isn’t that what people do these days? Skin is a weird thing. Yes, I’m mentally disturbed and traumatized. Have a nice day, reader."170Please respect copyright.PENANAyaHhJsKTop
I DO NOT remember what I was going through when I wrote that. All I know is that I was kinda annoyed of beauty standards (obvious) and I took time out of my day to write an essay about it, pausing the tv show for a good half hour.170Please respect copyright.PENANAwEXPwb66VC
Another thing I'm willing to share is an actual shower thought that might worry writers/ composers. Maybe even people in general when you think about the last sentence. When I read it I just went, "What the fuck?"170Please respect copyright.PENANATrB9gjNZSg
Here it is: "When will we run out of stories? When will it be until every single story is told? When will it be until every note is used up for a piece? When will it be until we run out of usernames? When will it be… until the world runs out of everything it had to offer?"
The last one really hit me because it does have a sliver of truth to it. You know, the non-renewable resources like fossil fuels and clean air? It's not getting any better, is it? (Heavily relying on that Paris agreement right now...)170Please respect copyright.PENANAV8KiOyDIlz
The next one was a literal script to a dystopian humanoid animal world. I wasn't a furry, still am not now, bu it's interestingly good and mind boggling. Like, the words I used, the sentence structures all seemed advanced for my time-- Oh what the shit am I talking about? I maintained a reading level of 12.9+ what am I trying to prove?170Please respect copyright.PENANAPEhHbUOrFZ
I guess now I feel like I lost my spark and most of my work isn't for fun anymore. That's why my past work seems better to me. Looking back at these was actually eye-opening and inspiring. Though, I have to admit, a lot of it was CONCERNING as hell... (Looking at that comment I made on skin...) 170Please respect copyright.PENANAHNYjWCNj5b
Thanks for reading and getting up to this point. I doubt I'm making some sort of impact, but I like to think I'm making a few people smile even for a bit.170Please respect copyright.PENANAYCP6gPxEtc
BYE~! Have a good day, afternoon, or night.170Please respect copyright.PENANAhRMnXEcSsH
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