Jays POV
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The feeling of being this connected to her overwhelms me as I'm thrusting into her. She pulls me in closer her hands going up my back, into my hair and she's pulling lightly at it. I've learnt that this signifies that she is close to finding her orgasm.
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Almost, hold on I tell myself as I continue thrusting into her. I always make sure that she finds a release. The feeling of her orgasm is so intense and it sends me places.
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I look down at her biting her lip, her eyes staring into mine.
"Jay" she moans and she's making it incredibly hard for me to hold on.
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"Taylor" I whisper feeling the pleasure build up.
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"I need you" she says breathless.
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"I'm here, always will be" I smile, I can feel her body responding to me.
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She cries out and her hips arch into me taking the full length of me. I can no longer hold on to any sense of reality as I feel her and touch her and need her all at once.
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"Beautiful" she smiles.
I blink, barely conscious. It seems like just seconds ago we were intertwined and I was thrusting into her.
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"We napped" she laughs watching the confusion spread over my face.
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I pull her into my chest and smile.
"Peaceful isn't it" I say looking out past the silky drapes at the setting sun. Observing how everything is still outside. The expansive views, not another house in sight. I breathe out a sigh of relief, not realising just how much I needed the privacy before, until now.
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Reaching down I hold her waist. Im so possessive, incredibly protective and happy as hell that she's holding my child. My future.
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"You stocked the fridge" she smiles and I know they're hungry.
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"I'm gonna cook" I smile holding her eye contact.
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She kisses me intensely and I worry that we will never be able to leave our bed. Just as she pulls away I notice both of our phones illuminating on the side table. Disregarding it and looking out at that view again savouring the isolation, the quiet. It's tranquil, I could lay here with her for the rest of my life.
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She scrambles up next to me and retrieves our phones.
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"Weird" she says and I refuse to leave this bliss with her and get back in touch with reality.
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"I've got lots of missed calls from Ross" she says softly. Perplexed. Slight worried edge to her tone.
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I resist but I check my phone, somewhere in my subconscious I know I must check it. Unlocking my phone to the wallpaper of myself and Taylor. A snap we took just after we got our matching tattoos in Australia. Just after she made me the happiest man alive by agreeing to be with me forever.
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"Lots of calls from Rach" I say genuinely confused now.
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She's dialling Ross back and reality creeps back in. I look out at the quiet view and wish it felt the same as it did minutes before. What could be so important to disrupt us? What could possibly have happened that they must intrude on this day. Countless missed calls, I think and it just doesn't make sense.
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I glance at Taylor, nodding on the phone. Yes Ross, no Ross she's saying. He has a way with her that I will never deny. He is always good in a crisis, what has happened?
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"I need to" she begins and her face sinks. The shininess in her eyes comes from a place of despair.
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“Okay I understand” she says quietly.
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“Me too” she says and her eyes are now wet with tears.
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She drops her phone onto the bed staring at me. All of the peace and happiness drained away from her face.
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“We need to… it’s all my fault” she begins tears streaming down her face.
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“What’s wrong” I say my arms going around her.
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“Matthew he…” she begins.
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I despise it when she says his name, his full name which nobody else uses. I push my hatred aside and listen.
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“He is in hospital. He took a handful of stuff and his stomach is being pumped” she says numbly.
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“It’s my fault Jay” she says.
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“Fuck, is he okay” I say. However much we have fought, Matthew has been a friend of mine for years.
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“I don’t know Jay we need to go” she says anguish in her tone.
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“This is not your fault” I say pulling her arm lightly to face me.
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She looks at me in my eyes, and I see the woman I used to know, the one that cared for Matty. In the past when they were together and I so desperately wanted her. She would give me this expression which said well I like you Jay but I need him.
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“It’s not Taylor” I say and she crumbles.
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“He messaged me because of the truth or dare kiss. And I told him..” she breaks off.
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“I told him that I would never love him again because of you” she says.
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Because of you. The way she says it will stick in my head and haunt me.
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“This is not on you” I reiterate trying to organise my brain and desperately trying to hold on to my
logic.
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“We have to go now” she says.
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I clamber up placing her clothes on the bed. I will push aside everything for her, we need to go and I need to make that happen. Rather than sit here like a little bitch worrying if she still loves me, picking apart her words. She pulls on her clothes from earlier and we are both acting differently. I push my hair back and retrieve my keys from the side.
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Taylor rushes to the door pulling it so hard she stumbles backwards. I stand behind her and put my arms around her waist. I hold her and count softly down from 10, a bare whisper. I do this usually in my head to keep myself calm, but this time she just breathes with me.
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“I will get us there” I tell her softly.
“I will not have you hurting yourself in the process” I say carefully.
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She nods looking at the door.
“What if he dies” she says softly and I can feel her quivering.
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“And it’s my fault” she says.
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“It’s not your fault, he will be fine” I say convincing myself.
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She takes a deep steadying breath.
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“Let’s go” I say finally taking the lead and feeling more in control than I did just seconds ago. Moving around her I take her hand and guide her downstairs of our brand new home.