五月喊住踏著沉重腳步離開操演場的彼得;他注意到了,照片上滿是青紫傷痕的身體屬於何人,常常蹲踞於角落觀察他人的自己很快便發現那熟悉的輪廓來自於游泳隊的彼得。253Please respect copyright.PENANAg51LBjxZuZ
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他很訝異,彼得是班上數一數二的模範生,爽朗樂觀的率直與為爭取榮耀而努力的性格甚至有了聖騎士的暱稱,這樣的他為何會遭遇此種待遇?253Please respect copyright.PENANAIiPl9uDNbY
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五月想一探究竟,期望能替對方排憂解難——他是被束縛於現世的鬼魂,徘徊於校園的理由僅僅是奉獻己身。253Please respect copyright.PENANAEJaK1q3Xwy
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「我身體有點不舒服,你願意陪我去保健室嗎?」他佯裝虛弱地倚靠在彼得身上,睜著水亮的雙眼流露脆弱模樣。253Please respect copyright.PENANAMb5q8VaLiW
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彼得原本心不在焉的模糊意識被拉回軀殼,由於不雅相片流傳而心慌的擔憂藏於苦澀的微笑中,「太陽可能太熱了,我陪你一起去。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAlFbatUIrsK
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當兩人來到保健室,五月悄悄栓上門鎖,語帶躊躇地詢問,「那張照片⋯⋯應該是你吧?你需要幫助嗎?」他走向角落的藥品櫃,「我覺得傷看起來很嚴重,這裡的藥應該可以幫你⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.PENANA3V7clypQrP
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彼得肩膀震動,心臟漏跳一拍似地緊縮悶痛,他四處張望,掀開每一道垂落的紗簾,確保室內僅有他們二人。他慌張地抓握鬼魂的臂膀,失卻以往的穩重與溫柔,雙手顫抖地難以控制力道,「你、你不要亂說,這、這才不是我!」253Please respect copyright.PENANApvMJ3JwDy1
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五月不說破,也不願勉強對方承認,他柔聲說道,「⋯⋯我就讓你一人在這裡吧,我先離開,如果你有需要幫忙的地方,隨時都可以找我。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAF7Xln4tbs2
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「就、就這樣而已嗎?你真的只是帶我來保健室?」彼得茫然地注視溫和似水的眼眸,「那你呢?你不是不舒服?」253Please respect copyright.PENANAKl9JHvtnw1
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鬼魂搖搖頭,「室內涼快很多,我沒事的。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAtBXI8za8Iy
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彼得垂下頭顱,望著自己的鞋尖,好似要看穿裡頭蠢蠢難安、不斷蜷曲的腳趾,他嚥下口水,吞吐著請求協助的話語,獲得五月漾起微笑的應允後才鬆懈了繃緊的心弦。253Please respect copyright.PENANAygxQAYwfX3
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「需要我為你做什麼嗎?」253Please respect copyright.PENANAb15lXl8nsN
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「可以⋯⋯請你幫我換藥嗎?」253Please respect copyright.PENANA3y6UMzqu40
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青年解開扣至最頂處的鈕扣,緩緩褪去洗得泛白的軍校制服,露出精壯結實的身體,比照片更加駭人的鞭打新傷赤裸裸地呈現,血漬暈染了草率包紮而鬆脫的繃帶,窗外的微風吹拂紗簾,把表面陽光的他覆蓋於隱蔽的黑影下。253Please respect copyright.PENANA6HDEyHv6J4
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五月引領彼得坐在閒置的病床,將窗戶、窗簾緊密闔起,從鐵櫃取出醫藥箱,輕柔地替受傷的青年取下沾汙的繃帶,細心塗抹消毒、抗發炎的藥膏,指尖來回在傷口繞著圈,讓冰涼的膏脂融於人類略高的體溫,浸入皮脂深處。253Please respect copyright.PENANAgt8YmCKtNa
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「你真的⋯⋯不好奇我發生什麼事嗎?」彼得猶豫良久後打破了靜謐的緘默。253Please respect copyright.PENANASWmWtRALIH
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「若這件事情你不願意講,我想我也不便知道太多吧?」253Please respect copyright.PENANAULuvBn3q26
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「我不知道可以和誰講⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.PENANAe01K5fui9w
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停下手邊的忙碌,鬼魂牽起青年,順著手背輕撫慰藉,「不介意的話,你可以和我講。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAH3pCkxkJg3
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「我⋯⋯我很想要拿到這學期的獎學金⋯⋯」彼得落寞地緩緩道出真相,「家裡傳來了訊息,如果我沒有拿到獎學金,這學期結束我就必須回去幫忙家族事業⋯⋯你知道這裡是住宿制,又是不錯的軍校,花費非常高⋯⋯但是、但是——」他語氣驟轉,把急迫的渴望真切表達而出,「我不只是單純想留在這裡,是真的想學東西!」253Please respect copyright.PENANAQr6uqyVx5Y
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「是師長做的?這些傷口⋯⋯能換來獎學金嗎?」五月不忍地凝視眼眶泛紅的青年。253Please respect copyright.PENANAoZvP8tyONx
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「我不能告訴你是誰,但⋯⋯的確可以。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAoL5uOxPI6a
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「只要這些傷口就足夠換取獎學金嗎?還是你需要承受更多傷?」253Please respect copyright.PENANADji8qax9Es
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「如果只是承受痛苦,我可以一直做下去,可是⋯⋯我發現這不只是痛苦這麼簡單⋯⋯我有點、有點依賴⋯⋯」如同拴緊的水龍頭鬆弛了旋鈕,甫開口便無法停止,青年握緊鬼魂的手,將深埋、不為人知的齷齪內心首次攤在外人面前,「它讓我覺得自己被需要,曝光照片的人想威脅的是我,而不是對我施暴的人⋯⋯我很怕被人發現⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.PENANAj25JS9eSLo
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五月抽出右手,微涼的皮膚貼上彼得的臉頰,手指滑過潤紅的顴骨,「如果可以隱瞞這件事,依賴又有什麼不好呢?」253Please respect copyright.PENANAAlA4ygh9F7
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「這很奇怪⋯⋯」253Please respect copyright.PENANAjqQYneRWR8
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「為什麼會奇怪?」鬼魂湊近青年,兩雙眼睛彼此相望,「不要讓人知道,每個人都有一些祕密不是嗎?」253Please respect copyright.PENANAPaBcc4SCT5
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「有人的祕密像我一樣噁心嗎?」253Please respect copyright.PENANAxzT8ixeLm6
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對自己的特殊心知肚明的五月輕笑,「這不算噁心吧?也許離開學校後有更多人和你有一樣的喜好。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAnHU25eFBPn
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「⋯⋯我很難想像有人和我一樣。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAiJr9wuhFn3
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「特別也沒有什麼不好。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAxrbEOwvQwm
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青年抬首正想說些什麼,這時,燈光點亮了原先被陰影籠罩的頸部,將紅色的印記清晰地映入五月眼底。253Please respect copyright.PENANASCCc8UchhL
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那是被雙手勒縛的指痕。253Please respect copyright.PENANARYkqaD5WKa
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彷彿空氣被抽離,難以汲取氧氣的窒息感擄獲全身,鬼魂四肢僵硬,彼得驚慌的臉孔變得扭曲,周圍景象陷入一片漆黑,五月的意識被捲入汪洋大海。253Please respect copyright.PENANAXBp2w8WciE
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下一秒,雷電閃爍,白熾的光芒劃破黑夜,翻騰的浪濤擊打沿岸的礁石,他墜入被颶風席捲的孤島外海,接著倏地被吸入自己的臥室,喉嚨被劇烈外力束緊的疼痛令他無法呼吸。253Please respect copyright.PENANAxnJys02g3v
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「你先去。」狂風暴雨中,他聽見了一道熟悉又陌生的聲音。253Please respect copyright.PENANAlmmvyptvfR
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這是五月最後感知到的事物。253Please respect copyright.PENANA1Le8ltt1xl