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和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvmIjGNF6z
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoBSwTK5oo
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「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPGyHBfB8f
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6Sn06VzHq
「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkLq9QMCmt
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFL27cQ33pC
這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbahNcxZX32
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自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuMeaUxSUA
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我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpT0qxH0E2
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdCNuiA0SO
我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrLk9ky1P5
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25iB9NdOeb
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gHIMOonOD
人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDniQBUdMSp
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8ZUktUvT5
想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WiXknueAw
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爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrSvR0LprF
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJDPRcg8tD
「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8WZnTnXWK
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2pvG0AhcH
「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7OuULhLsg
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pjNRXbPtp
Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoVOE8qgaF
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2CTadwk4p
「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtob9uIYxY
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1dWnoqX5I
「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshRKK1lD8i
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7pezbJZG6
我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNzfBNdGKp
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTEqTmmb2I
腦中是各式各樣的幻想。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFYaX3txXT
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBIc2CYkf9
如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgizhVuI1vo
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZ9IhkejES
如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmidX34edXi
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPZJQUQ7m9
「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVY8dnlHBmc
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZ1M5jQ2EW
「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfDWc3yqAA
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPkrRjYREw
「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT2f2g63R7
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx22Zztq7To
「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kK8V4GBS3
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbioojvd2Ut
「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdASQMkBn1
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWI6RkWdXqb
「點解咁講？」我問。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXso2fykiuT
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTuCeDyI6b
「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUh3jfU2QF
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWU0ItqvVdz
「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5ejlM127e
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOugnyY4EZ
「唔會，我唔會接受。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2SF9LBc6U
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVioPCQPvh
「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cWJ3ZEemQ
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5AkWvtyjn
「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlhPlWgXIE
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBbEVID2NX
我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxtxc34dfu
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4udejWwS6
想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6fBtbBBTY
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「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ggH9OAne0
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIG0R0B4xf
「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7viGaf1QrT
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUnnrmhyX2
「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV947aKKeRO
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fphY0v0gI
Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHRXtKOAPe
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHE0KFZilp
他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QjfWmP4hH
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmj957VMXuH
我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1FhxRi7e4
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLyZvme50v
我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDExq2umYb
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaJ3QzUIHa
婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWsoDrKdrP
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzy5PuzeGK
「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGj5485qCeT
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJxDzAc2Ks
「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ4s1D7ma7
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeKF0zmAJU
「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcxvgIZyyA
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我為未發生的事情擔憂。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81fiw5nvLr
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UPJsQ7rlc
面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhneu2sAgcv
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudqq9vZtoo
「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKC1w0Xk0xn
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「無呀。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS92o2p4MrR
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「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xhJ309wR3
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvN6QjZxBl
「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCIlUgLkgY
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7Wk1WNkRl
人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kD8KWDjYB
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難過。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzxtCx2tBW
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