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因為送瞳回來的是宮裡差出來的轎子，而且回府的時間過早，所以消息很快就傳到邱贍等人的耳裡了。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSflUai5Ncu
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瞳原以為邱贍會對她提早自宮裡出來有意見，也以為喜歡沒事找事的邱賜和邱緌會跑過來諷刺或是「教訓她」什麼的，所以瞳還特地拿了墨字、連同三分之二的膳盒一起塞給炎菊將她支往市集去，自己則乖乖窩在東苑裡頭、打起十二萬分精神嚴陣以待可能會襲來的狂風暴雨。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqhYfYu2WB
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可等到了日頭將落，邱賜和邱緌意外的沒出現，邱贍也沒有叫瞳過去關切一番的意思。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpA6X5hYLIn
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東苑裡除了她和自屋樑上下來搞破壞、偷吃點心的少年以外，只有邱贍親近的管家在下午時分踏入了冷清的院落，特意送來一副上等的文房四寶以及一裹相當重量的碎銀與銅錢。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp94HfsqOto
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除此之外，瞳的晚膳也默默地比炎菊多了道素菜，也比往常精緻。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yBBv40O92
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回到東苑的炎菊看了很高興。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8MCGuV7qw
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因為在此之前瞳的菜盤雖然是照著主子們的規格放的，可是每一種都偷工減料，反倒是貼著「世子身邊來的」標籤的炎菊的食物看起來更要豐盛些。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmDLFMUSEF
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這會子看瞳的食物終於有了嬝舞樓的水準，炎菊才不像以往那樣越吃越氣，一邊吃飯又一邊替瞳抱不平。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkR4qrtJKu
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充耳不聞炎菊表達對蹭蹭蹭地提高了的邱贍的好感度、以及認為瞳應該要向邱贍表示善意等等的話語，默默扒著飯的瞳逃避似地去糾結今天一整天的事件經過與其中深意。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmsHb9a3AC
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瞳確定盛帝讓她在御書房待了一個早上、順道還塞了一籠食盒到她懷裡、不替她叫邱府的轎子而是用宮裡的轎子送等等作態，原因無他，正是為了替她造勢！50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ435Cp5vygV
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其他的官員或許會認為盛帝是為了安撫被分了商權的邱府才這麼做的，但實際上常常進宮的邱賜也沒有受過這般待遇，今天被淑妃和薛妃請去作客的邱纓更是沒有。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAtvHuAx6t
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所以在邱贍的眼裡，特別被盛帝請去御書房、更是乘著宮里的轎子回府的瞳便是大大不同。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7f9JHmyOT
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畢竟原本打著讓邱纓當正妃的算盤落了空，二皇子也正式封王、必然會漸漸遠離皇城，一貫喜好把每個選項都壓上寶的邱家，理所當然也會一如既往地把注定失勢的兒女棄在後頭，另挑一個「有用」的替補上。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bQ1J6JDEa
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瞳－－與三皇子一派交好的雲鬼、令盛帝多加照顧的邱霧－－不管過去和邱家有多少的嫌隙，也已然成了邱贍手中最顯眼的新籌碼。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4TGbIBalQ
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或許該說，盛帝今日耍的招數，主要就是擺給邱贍看的。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNd5x9kM6Ok
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為的就是讓邱贍能接納這個剛出生就被掃地出門的女兒，為了讓瞳真正進入邱府核心、將盛帝想要的東西弄到手。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwczcO9sHuW
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那這麼說來，盛帝想要的東西是要等她打進邱府核心以後才會知道的？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0bKKbNbDr
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難道沒有不和邱贍搞好關係就能把事情辦妥的方法？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcPcSzEnPh
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現在她勉強能壓抑心底湧出的不悅去叩拜李霞和七兒以外的人，可是要瞳對邱贍低頭、甚至討好……50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyJgopFgdf
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不可能。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuI5ufhiMj
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絕對不可能。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAql1D0Rna2
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每次遇見邱家的人，李奴兒以往遭受欺侮的記憶便像泥流一樣淹沒過來，疼得令瞳幾乎窒息。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRRCR5XjuE
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她可以忽略心中的不快、勉強對皇權叩拜，可以忍著陣陣反胃感、和顏悅色地和自己有過節的四皇子說話，可是瞳認為自己絕對沒有辦法去親近邱贍。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iFaIojZWy
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如果只要打一巴掌給一顆甜棗就會順著對方的意思走，那麼和狗有什麼區別？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xf1DQXt4u
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更何況，對李奴兒來說邱贍是讓她自小被欺侮的罪魁禍首，更是害死七兒和李霞的幫兇；對瞳來說，邱贍是個陌生人，名義上的父親，更是在頭一次真正面對面時、冷眼看著她被兩名僕婦扯著腦袋砸開一地血泊，在此之後也沒有送來半分憐憫的傢伙。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy77w3fWJeZ
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如果深刻入骨血的傷害可以被金錢收買，那麼七兒和李霞的性命以及李奴兒對她倆的愛也太過於廉價了。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lKGhPKluX
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因此，瞳無法敞開心胸去接受邱贍那明顯帶有功利價值的好意。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6H96vSQKFI
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雖然厭煩炎菊的規勸，瞳也只是默默扒著飯．沒有回話。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzi1lR0EkJ
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因為炎菊曾提過自己的父親早亡，母親也在她七八歲時亡故，所以瞳可以理解炎菊對於親情的渴望。況且邱贍乃至邱府上下對瞳的態度有所轉變，全在炎菊到來之後，所以炎菊只看到邱府的夫人、公子小姐與僕役們的奚落與刻薄，卻沒有看到李奴兒真正的痛，也沒有看到瞳對邱家的心寒。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5pX2f9VLf
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對打小就沒了父親的炎菊來說，卻是覺得瞳至少還有「父親」可以呼喚，不像她只能對著墳塚神傷。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRhibQUJIy
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所以就算炎菊曾自傳聞中得知李奴兒對邱家的憤怒，但也覺得畢竟血濃於水、父子情深，既然邱贍願意示好，那也可以擱置前仇舊恨了。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLBviqVDmL
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這就是她們倆想法的差距。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1dEadPn7M
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當一個不到五歲的孩子拚了一身的傷、使盡全力去懇求生父的片刻施捨，卻只得到另一頓冷漠的毒打與遺棄，最後只能去偷、去搶、去乞食，那會是什麼感受？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqudFWAev5q
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若一個父親打從一開始就遺棄，在最需要幫助的時刻、卻被狠狠漠視，然後眼睜睜地再看見自己僅存的溫暖一點一點失溫而亡，那會是如何悲慘的景象？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaV3xWvEdIq
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如果只是一個稱謂上的存在，那麼和喚一根木頭為父有什麼差別？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mkAWz1hna
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邱贍不曾給過她一點希望、一點溫暖，甚至一次次破滅了李奴兒對於「父親」的期盼－－彷彿是對待路邊骯髒的野狗，連踹一腳都嫌髒鞋。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgaknZYPIG
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「痛徹心扉」、「撕心裂肺」……再多的言語都已經不足以去形容李奴兒那一再被亂刀捅穿的瘡疤有多疼。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAkLiw9elr
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這樣的父親與其有，不如從來就沒有。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPi0DoZ4gNS
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一邊是因為從小失去，所以羨慕；一方則是因為看似擁有卻更像沒有，所以憎惡。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9Aws672Ti
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然而，沒有親身經歷，無論說得如何詳盡，對方也無法真正體會那樣絞焚心裂魄的悵惘與絕望。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvBpHAUpeW
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所以瞳不說，放棄訴說，也恐懼訴說。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkl3t8RQcd
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她恐懼再去回憶李奴兒悲涼的過去，恐懼每每觸及那一幕幕令幼小的心靈次次鮮血淋漓而狂湧而出的憎恨。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCI5heBbdDd
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每次觸碰，那宣洩而出的情感黏稠得令瞳窒息、厚重得可以粉碎她的背脊、吞沒她的意識。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYWK5QD7xt
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要瞳接受邱家、接受邱贍，那不可能。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuW5HUqZfqC
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她覺得自己不可能抵抗得了李奴兒強烈的情感，向邱家示好。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuQ9YUS2No
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可是，除了和邱府「冰釋前嫌」以外，還有其他的法子達成盛帝的期望、並且將邱府連根拔起嗎？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbsUCMTbRQ
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＝＝＝＝＝某鷹的碎碎念＝＝＝＝＝＝50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gt6p1r3XY
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每次寫到李奴兒，就有種想寫李奴兒的過去的衝動－－50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKRCj1tbPv
（因為就某鷹個人，其實喜歡李奴兒多於瞳啊……（喂50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexWL17ALqR
（雖然也覺得李奴兒比瞳可怕（抖）50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcgPwuCuzr
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從這個月開始會比較忙 （大概一個多月～50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VEpIaBleA
放文的量可能會不太穩定，先在這裡說聲抱歉了！（被巴50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3OAzqRmDM
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當然還是感謝各位朋友的支持和鼓勵！50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6capfYTn9
萬分感謝50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dzvk3tTPC
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ps 鮮網那裏不知道為什麼 文章就是掛不上去(囧 50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftUXuyKZ0b
不知道是網頁傲嬌 還是我家的網路傲嬌(其實兩個都很傲嬌???(喂50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXErhvAHFUk
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總之 還是要再說聲 50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRBwCeBH8S
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