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13.41Please respect copyright.PENANAA9iezH9cC0
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41Please respect copyright.PENANAVYO8aCuB6a
41Please respect copyright.PENANAOGozRIm3je
41Please respect copyright.PENANAdMo5wYv55w
只有漫無邊際的疼痛。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ce9TpGdfJ
41Please respect copyright.PENANArY6l88qT0k
這是雷季倫對「性」唯一的感受。41Please respect copyright.PENANArT9nHtToSn
41Please respect copyright.PENANAplW5vviQAr
他也算是個健全的高中男孩,儘管對這方面的知識尚是懵懵懂懂,但在周遭同學的耳濡目染之下,也獲知了不少正確性未知的知識,當同學們正用手機傳播情色內容,或是將生豔惹目的寫真書刊帶來學校時,雷季倫也藉此看了不少……儘管滿多情況之下都是他無心而被拉攏的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAo1PtO7r0N5
41Please respect copyright.PENANAH5NwvzzzDE
有了交往對象的男孩們總是讚揚著這件事的美好,無疑是與戀人結合的滿足,或是交換彼此心意後的充實,亦或者是生理上的抒發與快感,怎麼說都是讓人欽羨與幻想之事。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5RFB671le
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmRSb0wrL6V
但他連一點也感受不到。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHH2CEoDWXQ
41Please respect copyright.PENANA6wMgvoFy3p
平日的自我發洩當然是有的,但他並未對於這件事有著過度的索求,依循自然的,總該到了無法再累積之時便會進行動作,因此,雷季倫當然還是知道能由此博取的快感與舒坦。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5GkJCuTIjr
41Please respect copyright.PENANAbXk0bFPqyw
那只是單方面的而已,他沒有想到,雙方面的性是如此讓人恐懼的事情。41Please respect copyright.PENANABLxLjrfI30
41Please respect copyright.PENANAphVkKj7hYz
帶著緊張且忐忑的心進入浴室後,雷季倫仔仔細細地將自己洗了乾淨,而後,便待在浴室內部的門口猶豫了許久,不知道是否應該出去,最後才終於鼓起勇氣才打開了門鎖,僅圍著一條大浴巾的他顫抖地踏出了潮濕的隔間,外頭的乾燥空氣刺得他的腳踝一陣哆嗦。41Please respect copyright.PENANAdZoil2P6H2
41Please respect copyright.PENANAKpPKipTL5R
低著臉龐,還未詢問下一步該如何是好的雷季倫,便接收到一道像是命令一般的話語,要他靠近臥室內的大床,緩慢而笨拙卻異常聽話的孩子也無他想,便照著做了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtB7HHHRDrQ
41Please respect copyright.PENANANoSbU4CpOE
一陣天旋地轉,而後能見著的景象便只有明淨而整齊的床鋪顏色,及室內刻意調暗的昏黃燈光。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaQs4YknNps
41Please respect copyright.PENANAUWNAmoD7Ue
之後所發生的事,雷季倫短時間內並不想再想起第二次……對他來說,那並不是一個多好的印象,但卻讓他產生了莫名的矛盾心理。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4IOmCYD1VE
41Please respect copyright.PENANAxvZpBknrgJ
「可以上床」,聽見這句話時,雷季倫連自己也不知道,臉龐上頭所露出的究竟是笑容還是悲顏。41Please respect copyright.PENANACPC7aceFBr
41Please respect copyright.PENANA5m5ilUEEyg
那究竟是如何的複雜感受,雷季倫比其他人都還要更明白徐亦桓這個人,能被他在乎或惦記在心根本就是不可能的事,但如今,他卻給了自己這樣一個應諾,可以維持這樣的關係,擁有這樣更進一步的碰觸。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7H9xIWvZ0E
41Please respect copyright.PENANAHOjcrWcvQG
但,這也代表著他們「只有」這一道關係,其他的什麼也不是。說得難聽一些,他只是徐亦桓覺得好玩的「床伴」,何時要扔、何時要棄,也都是隨時有可能的事情。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5MtjkTStOa
41Please respect copyright.PENANAImvWZ2t5n9
多麼殘忍又不堪的話語,能夠待在他的身旁,擁有他的身體,這是比起任何事物都還要誘惑人的條件,然而反之,與他則無法變成情人,以往的人們都將虛幻的情感看得比物質擁有來得重,只有肉體上的歡求,沒有心靈上的交通,需要多久便能感到厭倦?41Please respect copyright.PENANAQmi5f8MK6r
41Please respect copyright.PENANA4iqzjT8VxG
41Please respect copyright.PENANA61hlXc1dcw
他望著沖洗完後的徐亦桓自浴室走出,連瞧也沒有再瞧他一眼,逕自地走出了房間,而後外頭響起的便是電視的吵雜聲響,雷季倫的喉頭哽了哽,大致也知道這該是什麼意思。41Please respect copyright.PENANANpuo6cFiXv
41Please respect copyright.PENANAo2LnbowkMX
艱難地撐起了自己的身體,緩步地朝著浴室的方向走去,雷季倫雙手扶牆,走得相當緩慢,隱密處撕裂般的疼痛與黏膩不適感包圍著他,雙腿痠軟得幾乎無法支立,但他還是堅持住了,幾口深呼吸之下總算抵達了方才讓他躊躇不前的浴室。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaag62JOaV7
41Please respect copyright.PENANAagUD29OKBe
溫熱的水花一灑下來,能見的便是那些鮮紅混雜乳白的模樣,不用再多看也能知曉,而雷季倫自己也無心去看,他只想趕緊將自己重新洗乾淨,然後,回到家去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYFbs9w1OLH
41Please respect copyright.PENANAkEpowulR9a
之後的情況他也記不大得了,在那之後有沒有再和對方說過話,而且是怎麼離開那個家的……雷季倫只記得自己沒有露出什麼苦悶的神情,是他自己告訴自己別表現出來的,在徐亦桓的面前還是試圖笑著,強顏歡笑還是苦笑都好。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7WrLBwhPIj
41Please respect copyright.PENANAnTtGWbj7r7
別把自己傷心的模樣讓他看見。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGPtE7bPc7K
41Please respect copyright.PENANAOoNM8ITHmx
雷季倫總覺得自己有幾分堅持的倔強,怎樣都好,就是不想讓徐亦桓看見他是傷心的、他是痛苦的,他想在對方的面前笑著,總是笑著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcJFmiVSrB0
41Please respect copyright.PENANARMngWL6wFV
笑靨能夠解決很多事情,他一直是這麼深信著,從許久許久之前開始……幫助人們重拾希望,脫離絕境;遺忘苦痛,獲得歡笑,由黑暗的深淵之中透出光明,毫無方向的迷霧之中突生路途,而在失了門的空間之中,另開一扇窗。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwVKavJtBXf
41Please respect copyright.PENANAa1J4LUdLND
沒有什麼是過不了的困境,儘管是淌著淚水睡去,明日再次醒來,雙手拍一拍臉龐提振精神,又是嶄新的一日。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHXgi7LMnTO
41Please respect copyright.PENANAVzbIsdKW5h
如同現在一樣,傷心的事將很快就被遺忘,很快就不痛了……41Please respect copyright.PENANAMoBjMGk7Hf
41Please respect copyright.PENANAo0392RJmzD
這是自己所做的決定,從目光無法自那個人身上移開的那一天起,雷季倫便告訴自己得帶給他歡笑,帶給那個冷漠如冰的少年一絲溫暖,無論如何艱辛,都無法阻擋他的意志與信念。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsoCaSYxQSd
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAFzTGnE04a
愛是可貴卻而盲目。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgsdfqtk5zQ
41Please respect copyright.PENANAqQRKwQsm2K
41Please respect copyright.PENANAvE38YMZFnX
步行在那條熟悉的大道之上,已轉深的黑夜僅憑藉著路燈燈光指引,天上連一顆能見的星子都沒有,冰涼的空氣依攀著牆面與那稀少的人群,雷季倫也是其中之 一。他拖著緩慢而虛弱的腳步行進著,不斷不斷地尋找著家的熟悉身影,他無法在這裡停止腳步,儘管再怎麼難受也是如此……他總得見著那個庇護的場所,才能倒 下。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaufPKZdqMg
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9D1tW1VRBS
末秋的冽風,伴隨著他怎麼也不願落下的淚水,刺著他露出的腳踝生疼。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzNAPeDiGg3
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAmSHzdNZtU
41Please respect copyright.PENANA1i2fIxSTXL
41Please respect copyright.PENANAjn8lCP3y4E
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* * *41Please respect copyright.PENANA0plMB43FFP
41Please respect copyright.PENANA7Y3XYKfpaw
41Please respect copyright.PENANAfm9ZFwaoOZ
想揍亦桓的舉手。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgp9s8moTZe
41Please respect copyright.PENANAl6z0WH3CeG
我O_O/41Please respect copyright.PENANAStsshE9vco
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAejH667hIs
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ns18.116.51.45da2 41Please respect copyright.PENANA8kibtpM3am
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41Please respect copyright.PENANAVYO8aCuB6a
41Please respect copyright.PENANAOGozRIm3je
41Please respect copyright.PENANAdMo5wYv55w
只有漫無邊際的疼痛。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ce9TpGdfJ
41Please respect copyright.PENANArY6l88qT0k
這是雷季倫對「性」唯一的感受。41Please respect copyright.PENANArT9nHtToSn
41Please respect copyright.PENANAplW5vviQAr
他也算是個健全的高中男孩,儘管對這方面的知識尚是懵懵懂懂,但在周遭同學的耳濡目染之下,也獲知了不少正確性未知的知識,當同學們正用手機傳播情色內容,或是將生豔惹目的寫真書刊帶來學校時,雷季倫也藉此看了不少……儘管滿多情況之下都是他無心而被拉攏的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAo1PtO7r0N5
41Please respect copyright.PENANAH5NwvzzzDE
有了交往對象的男孩們總是讚揚著這件事的美好,無疑是與戀人結合的滿足,或是交換彼此心意後的充實,亦或者是生理上的抒發與快感,怎麼說都是讓人欽羨與幻想之事。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5RFB671le
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmRSb0wrL6V
但他連一點也感受不到。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHH2CEoDWXQ
41Please respect copyright.PENANA6wMgvoFy3p
平日的自我發洩當然是有的,但他並未對於這件事有著過度的索求,依循自然的,總該到了無法再累積之時便會進行動作,因此,雷季倫當然還是知道能由此博取的快感與舒坦。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5GkJCuTIjr
41Please respect copyright.PENANAbXk0bFPqyw
那只是單方面的而已,他沒有想到,雙方面的性是如此讓人恐懼的事情。41Please respect copyright.PENANABLxLjrfI30
41Please respect copyright.PENANAphVkKj7hYz
帶著緊張且忐忑的心進入浴室後,雷季倫仔仔細細地將自己洗了乾淨,而後,便待在浴室內部的門口猶豫了許久,不知道是否應該出去,最後才終於鼓起勇氣才打開了門鎖,僅圍著一條大浴巾的他顫抖地踏出了潮濕的隔間,外頭的乾燥空氣刺得他的腳踝一陣哆嗦。41Please respect copyright.PENANAdZoil2P6H2
41Please respect copyright.PENANAKpPKipTL5R
低著臉龐,還未詢問下一步該如何是好的雷季倫,便接收到一道像是命令一般的話語,要他靠近臥室內的大床,緩慢而笨拙卻異常聽話的孩子也無他想,便照著做了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtB7HHHRDrQ
41Please respect copyright.PENANANoSbU4CpOE
一陣天旋地轉,而後能見著的景象便只有明淨而整齊的床鋪顏色,及室內刻意調暗的昏黃燈光。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaQs4YknNps
41Please respect copyright.PENANAUWNAmoD7Ue
之後所發生的事,雷季倫短時間內並不想再想起第二次……對他來說,那並不是一個多好的印象,但卻讓他產生了莫名的矛盾心理。41Please respect copyright.PENANA4IOmCYD1VE
41Please respect copyright.PENANAxvZpBknrgJ
「可以上床」,聽見這句話時,雷季倫連自己也不知道,臉龐上頭所露出的究竟是笑容還是悲顏。41Please respect copyright.PENANACPC7aceFBr
41Please respect copyright.PENANA5m5ilUEEyg
那究竟是如何的複雜感受,雷季倫比其他人都還要更明白徐亦桓這個人,能被他在乎或惦記在心根本就是不可能的事,但如今,他卻給了自己這樣一個應諾,可以維持這樣的關係,擁有這樣更進一步的碰觸。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7H9xIWvZ0E
41Please respect copyright.PENANAHOjcrWcvQG
但,這也代表著他們「只有」這一道關係,其他的什麼也不是。說得難聽一些,他只是徐亦桓覺得好玩的「床伴」,何時要扔、何時要棄,也都是隨時有可能的事情。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5MtjkTStOa
41Please respect copyright.PENANAImvWZ2t5n9
多麼殘忍又不堪的話語,能夠待在他的身旁,擁有他的身體,這是比起任何事物都還要誘惑人的條件,然而反之,與他則無法變成情人,以往的人們都將虛幻的情感看得比物質擁有來得重,只有肉體上的歡求,沒有心靈上的交通,需要多久便能感到厭倦?41Please respect copyright.PENANAQmi5f8MK6r
41Please respect copyright.PENANA4iqzjT8VxG
41Please respect copyright.PENANA61hlXc1dcw
他望著沖洗完後的徐亦桓自浴室走出,連瞧也沒有再瞧他一眼,逕自地走出了房間,而後外頭響起的便是電視的吵雜聲響,雷季倫的喉頭哽了哽,大致也知道這該是什麼意思。41Please respect copyright.PENANANpuo6cFiXv
41Please respect copyright.PENANAo2LnbowkMX
艱難地撐起了自己的身體,緩步地朝著浴室的方向走去,雷季倫雙手扶牆,走得相當緩慢,隱密處撕裂般的疼痛與黏膩不適感包圍著他,雙腿痠軟得幾乎無法支立,但他還是堅持住了,幾口深呼吸之下總算抵達了方才讓他躊躇不前的浴室。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaag62JOaV7
41Please respect copyright.PENANAagUD29OKBe
溫熱的水花一灑下來,能見的便是那些鮮紅混雜乳白的模樣,不用再多看也能知曉,而雷季倫自己也無心去看,他只想趕緊將自己重新洗乾淨,然後,回到家去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYFbs9w1OLH
41Please respect copyright.PENANAkEpowulR9a
之後的情況他也記不大得了,在那之後有沒有再和對方說過話,而且是怎麼離開那個家的……雷季倫只記得自己沒有露出什麼苦悶的神情,是他自己告訴自己別表現出來的,在徐亦桓的面前還是試圖笑著,強顏歡笑還是苦笑都好。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7WrLBwhPIj
41Please respect copyright.PENANAnTtGWbj7r7
別把自己傷心的模樣讓他看見。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGPtE7bPc7K
41Please respect copyright.PENANAOoNM8ITHmx
雷季倫總覺得自己有幾分堅持的倔強,怎樣都好,就是不想讓徐亦桓看見他是傷心的、他是痛苦的,他想在對方的面前笑著,總是笑著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcJFmiVSrB0
41Please respect copyright.PENANARMngWL6wFV
笑靨能夠解決很多事情,他一直是這麼深信著,從許久許久之前開始……幫助人們重拾希望,脫離絕境;遺忘苦痛,獲得歡笑,由黑暗的深淵之中透出光明,毫無方向的迷霧之中突生路途,而在失了門的空間之中,另開一扇窗。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwVKavJtBXf
41Please respect copyright.PENANAa1J4LUdLND
沒有什麼是過不了的困境,儘管是淌著淚水睡去,明日再次醒來,雙手拍一拍臉龐提振精神,又是嶄新的一日。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHXgi7LMnTO
41Please respect copyright.PENANAVzbIsdKW5h
如同現在一樣,傷心的事將很快就被遺忘,很快就不痛了……41Please respect copyright.PENANAMoBjMGk7Hf
41Please respect copyright.PENANAo0392RJmzD
這是自己所做的決定,從目光無法自那個人身上移開的那一天起,雷季倫便告訴自己得帶給他歡笑,帶給那個冷漠如冰的少年一絲溫暖,無論如何艱辛,都無法阻擋他的意志與信念。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsoCaSYxQSd
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAFzTGnE04a
愛是可貴卻而盲目。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgsdfqtk5zQ
41Please respect copyright.PENANAqQRKwQsm2K
41Please respect copyright.PENANAvE38YMZFnX
步行在那條熟悉的大道之上,已轉深的黑夜僅憑藉著路燈燈光指引,天上連一顆能見的星子都沒有,冰涼的空氣依攀著牆面與那稀少的人群,雷季倫也是其中之 一。他拖著緩慢而虛弱的腳步行進著,不斷不斷地尋找著家的熟悉身影,他無法在這裡停止腳步,儘管再怎麼難受也是如此……他總得見著那個庇護的場所,才能倒 下。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaufPKZdqMg
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9D1tW1VRBS
末秋的冽風,伴隨著他怎麼也不願落下的淚水,刺著他露出的腳踝生疼。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzNAPeDiGg3
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAmSHzdNZtU
41Please respect copyright.PENANA1i2fIxSTXL
41Please respect copyright.PENANAjn8lCP3y4E
41Please respect copyright.PENANAcRKHZwlB05
41Please respect copyright.PENANAecQ88YUv5Y
* * *41Please respect copyright.PENANA0plMB43FFP
41Please respect copyright.PENANA7Y3XYKfpaw
41Please respect copyright.PENANAfm9ZFwaoOZ
想揍亦桓的舉手。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgp9s8moTZe
41Please respect copyright.PENANAl6z0WH3CeG
我O_O/41Please respect copyright.PENANAStsshE9vco
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAejH667hIs
41Please respect copyright.PENANA7hE0DHN07T